I unzip Audra’s dress and help her to step out of it. I gently caress her soft skin and turn her around, kissing her slowly and deeply. I want to savor her. She wraps her arms around my neck and submits to me, opening her mouth and allowing our tongues to intertwine. She unbuttons my shirt without breaking our kiss. We make our way to the bed and I lift her up, lay her down, and remove my pants and shirt before climbing back on top of her. We continue our sweet, sensual kisses. Our bodies become one and instead of our usual sweaty, kinky sex we make love.I gaze into her bright blue eyes and see nothing but pure love and affection. We move together in unison and it feels like our souls are on fire as we finish together. We lie together in comfort and I gently rub my hand up and down her back. Nothing could make this moment more perfect than it is. “I love you.” I whisper and softly kiss the top of her head that’s nestled underneath my chin. “I love you too.” She whispers back.
“You’re sure?” I ask Dr. Milos.“Positive. Your QUANT draw indicates you’re around 5-6 weeks. I want to see you back in 4 weeks for an ultrasound since we don’t know the date of your last period. We will confirm gestational age then.” She says before going over a list of supplements she wants me to start taking. I’m glad she’s giving me a written list because I am hearing her speak but nothing is registering. I feel the anxiety forming a knot in my stomach. How could I have been stupid enough to let this happen? The drive home felt like an eternity. Despite being pregnant with Matthew’s baby, the only person I could think about was Simon. Why am I thinking about Simon? Oh right. Because I’m a fucking idiot and slept with him. My birth control implant often made me skip periods so I didn’t even think twice about it. But then my dumb ass had to go and forget to have it replaced when it expired four months ago. I hadn’t had a period in at least 3 months. SHIT. This means there’s a
“I’m pregnant.”Audra’s words echo in my mind over and over, flooding my mind with panic and images of Lydia lying in my arms, covered in her own blood. Images of my son barely clinging to life while machines help him breathe. The image of the nurse wheeling my son’s body in on a cooling cot so I can say goodbye even though he was already gone. Words escape from my lips and I don’t even recognize the person saying them. The things I say are ruthless. As I bring my hands up and run my hands through my hair, Audra is suddenly on the floor in the fetal position and covering her face and head. I don’t understand what’s happening. The confusion converts my fear and anger into concern. I crouch down beside her and gently lift her up into my arms. Her breathing is rapid and she is shaking in terror. “Why are you shaking?” I ask softly. Whatever just happened has clearly triggered something within her. I hold her tightly and just rock with her until I can feel her body relax. I give her
Nightmares plague me all night. Every time I close my eyes, I’m reliving my trauma with Lydia; except when I look at my wife laying on the gurney covered in her own blood I see Audra’s face. I finally give up on trying to sleep and quietly walk down to my office. I’m not sure that working will be a big enough distraction but I’m willing to try anyway. I’m four pages deep into a huge embezzlement investigation when I hear a buzz. I look around and hear it again, this time my eyes landing on Audra’s purse that’s still sitting on my coffee table. It buzzes 3 more times before I get up to see if it’s possibly someone or something urgent. I unlock her phone to see 6 missed calls and 2 messages from someone named Simon Park. I open the messages and quickly read them. “Hey, are you awake? Can we talk?” From 1:24am.“Give me a call when you wake up.” From 2:13am. Who is Simon? She’s never mentioned Simon before. Audra has never given me a reason to distrust her, but her past with Tyle
I can hear voices but nothing is making any sense. Everything sounds muffled like I’m under water. I want to open my eyes but my eyelids feel like they weigh a thousand pounds. I try to swallow but my throat is dry. The voices and sounds start to become less muffled. Is someone saying my name?“Audra. Audra honey, can you hear me?” Whose voice is that? What is that incessant beeping sound? What the hell is on my face?!I eyes suddenly pop wide open and my hands fly up to my face. “Hold on honey, we need to leave the oxygen mask on. Can you look at me, Audra?”I look around and see fluorescent lights, medical equipment, and a nurse. Suddenly the smell of disinfectants hit me and I feel sick. “Audra I need to you relax and take some deep breaths for me.” This nurse sounds familiar but my head feels fogged and I can’t place who she is. I take several deep breaths before asking her where I am and what is going on. “You’re at the hospital. You just had surgery. Is there anyone in the
The late evening sun casts a soft glow over everything while I stare out the window toward the river. Butters jumps up on the chair next to me, letting out a chirp to greet me before he pushes his head into my hand and climbs into my lap. Matthew would be home from the office soon. The last week has been overwhelming and emotionally taxing. We haven’t spoken much. We aren’t going out of our way to avoid each other but he knows I need space right now if we are going to get through this. If I didn’t need to stay close to the hospital, I would’ve gone to Lexi’s. She stayed with us for a few days after I was discharged but needed to go back to work. I miss having her here. I hear the door open and close. Matthew is home. I hear his footsteps behind me and expect to hear him go upstairs but instead I hear him approach me. He sits next to me on the big white couch and takes my hand in his. I’m tired of resisting my feelings and I lean over into his side. I’m tired of trying to decide
I toss back a second shot of tequila and wince slightly as it burns on the way down. I push my shot glass to the edge of the bar and flag down the bartender for another. I am done with classes until fall and I plan to head back to Minnesota for the summer. I should be resting before I start my long drive tomorrow but all I can think about is the hollow feeling in my chest I get every time I think about going back. I was an idiot and pushed Audra away. I finally had my chance with her and I blew it because I panicked like I always do. She was willing to come be with me wherever I go and instead of embracing it, I told her to find someone else. After everything she went through with Tyler, I naively thought she would just stay single and wait until I graduate. I scroll through my Facebook newsfeed and a news article from the Star Tribune catches my eye. It is from the recent charity gala. There is a slideshow of photos from the event. For curiosity’s sake, I scroll through and see m
A rumble of thunder rouses me from my slumber. I roll from my back to my belly and sleepily gaze toward the middle of the bed but see that it is empty. The thunderstorm outside makes it unusually dark in the room and I’m not sure what time it actually is. I grab my phone from my nightstand and see that it’s 7:45am. Matthew is already on his way to the office if he hasn’t already arrived. I grumble and wrap myself back into my cocoon of soft down and close my eyes again. Moments later, Butters jumps onto the bed and walks up the length of my body before stopping to sit right between my shoulder blades. He purrs loudly for a minute before he takes a paw and starts to gently bat at the edge of the blanket next to my face. He meows softly and then bats at me again, slightly more aggressively this time. “Alright, fine.” I groan as I roll over and push him and the blankets off of me. I follow him downstairs to the kitchen and I pour food into his bowl. I make a mental note to look into
I try to make as little noise as possible as I dart through the thick woods. I can hear him screaming my name. He’s a ways behind me but is closing the gap quickly. I stop to listen for him but heart is throbbing loudly in my ears as I crouch behind a large fallen tree. I’ve been running for what feels like miles. No matter how far I run I only seem to get further from anyone who can help me. I am ready to let my body relax for moment and catch my breath when I hear a twig snap. A cold chill shoots down my spine and my breath is caught in my chest. I don’t dare move a muscle or even so much as blink. I carefully look around but I do not see or hear anything. I slowly stand to move again when I feel someone grab me from behind. I try to scream but a hand covers my mouth, muffling the sounds trying to escape. “Shhhh… be a good girl and be quiet. Calm down. Don’t run.” Tears stream down my face and I struggle against his tight grip on my arms behind my back. The harder I fight, the
The way the dress clings to Audra’s perfect body like a glove. Her sultry hair and make up. Seeing the way every man tonight wanted her and knowing she is mine and only mine.The amount of self restraint I had to have tonight at the party is unbearable. Now that we are home, I can’t control myself any more. My cock throbs against my tight pants, screaming to be let free. Audra asks me to unzip her dress for her. I oblige, pressing up against her as the dress falls to the floor. I feel her body tense in response to feeling my erection press against her perfect, heart shaped ass. I cup her breasts in my hands and tease her nipples until they are standing at attention. My hand travels south across her smooth skin until I reach the edge of her lace thong. As I run my finger along the inside edge of the thong, I kiss and nibble the nape of her neck. She moans in response and grinds her ass against me. “You want this, baby?” I whisper in her ear and slide my fingers under the lace of he
Chapter: AudraI gaze at my reflection in the full length mirror, fussing with my dress, trying to decide if I should change. “You look perfect.” Matthew says, emerging from around the corner. He walks up behind me, placing his hands on my hips and leaning his head down on my shoulder. The strapless black cocktail dress hugs my curves, the hem stopping halfway down my thighs. My hair flows freely down my shoulders. I decided to straighten it today; it’s full length ending at the small of my back. He helps me put on the necklace he had custom made for me and hands me my black patent leather pumps. After I slip on my shoes and grab my black clutch, I give my reflection one more glance in the mirror. “They’re going to love you. Relax.” He kisses my cheek and takes my hand to draw me toward the door. We are taking a company limousine tonight to Matthew’s sister’s party. Matthew opens the car door for me, holding my hand as I climb in. He climbs in behind me, closing the door before
I stare out the window as the plane descends into Minneapolis. It’s already nightfall and the city lights shine brightly against the dark horizon. I am happy to be back. The east coast is a different breed of people. Here in the Midwest, everyone is overbearingly friendly. We will casually chat with a complete stranger in a grocery store without thinking twice. Vermont isn’t like that. People aren’t necessarily rude but it feels that way because I’m so accustomed to the Midwestern mentality. I switch on my phone as the plane taxis down the runway into the terminal. I have contemplated texting Audra so many times since I decided to move back but I can’t bring myself to do it. She hasn’t reached out to me in months. Not since the night I told her I couldn’t be the person she wanted me to be. She moved out of the apartment I rented for her. I have no idea where she is. The guilt of pushing her away has eaten me alive since then. I sold everything I couldn’t fit into a carry on bag,
I’ve played with men and I’ve played with women, but nothing could have prepared me for the pleasure I was experiencing in this moment. Having two hard, thick cocks inside me. Filling me to the brim as they alternate thrusting in and out. Being pleasured by two men who know exactly how I like being fucked is going to ruin me. “Fuck, yes!” Austin growls as he thrusts deep into my tight ass hole. “You like being fucked by two cocks, little slut?” Before I can speak, my body replies for me as I come hard, tightening around both him and Matthew, shaking from the waves of pure ecstasy. “Oh I think our naughty little girl likes it a lot.” Matthew replies before pulling out of me and bringing his cock to my lips. I greedily suck my cum off of it like a melting popsicle. Austin holds my hair back as he lifts me up and down his cock, watching me take Matthew’s entire length into my mouth. I come again, triggering his release and I feel his cock pulse inside me. Matthew pulls me off of Aus
“Who is Simon?”Matthew’s question takes me by surprise and I’m too stunned to speak for a moment. “He’s an old friend. Why?” I answer vaguely but with a neutral tone. The last thing I want is to sound defensive or guilty. “Just curious. I saw his name pop up when he called last night. I’ve never heard you mention Simon before.”“Are you jealous, Matthew Christiansen?” I ask, raising an eyebrow at him. “No.” He responds in a surprisingly calm manner. “I’ve only ever met Lexi. You never talk about your family or other friends. I was just curious.”“Truth be told, I don’t really have anyone else aside from Lexi, Simon and you. My parents divorced when I was young, I am an only child, my parents are divorced. My dad lives in Spring Valley and my mother lives in Alaska. There’s not much to tell.”He wraps his arm around my side and pulls me closer to him. I don’t think it was the answer he was digging for but he seemed satisfied with my response. “See anything you like?” He asks me, g
The pitter-patter of heavy raindrops on the window wakes me from my deep sleep. I check my phone for the time, disturbing Butters. He stretches and sighs loudly as he snuggles back into my pillow. It is only 4am. I see a missed call from Simon but no text messages. I’ll text him in the morning. We haven’t spoken in months. We used to talk daily. I place my phone back on the nightstand and lie back down, letting out a deep sigh. I love how much my life has changed recently. I love the life Matthew and I are building together. But I miss my best friend so much it hurts. I have never even mentioned Simon to Matthew. I’m not necessarily hiding anything but I’m not entirely sure how welcoming Matthew would be to the knowledge that Simon and I had blurred the lines of our friendship, crossing boundaries we shouldn’t have. I think my past with Tyler has also left me jaded. I avoid conflict even if it means I cause myself physical or emotional pain. Reminding myself that Matthew is not
It’s been a little over a month since Audra and I have had sex. I know I need to let her heal properly and keeping my hands to myself has been excruciating. I came home from work early with the intention of helping myself relieve some tension. I close the door to my office since Lita is here. Before I can turn on my computer, my phone pings. It’s Dave texting me to let me know he emailed the file for the background check I asked for. I abandon my plan for self love and open the file. Simon Thomas Park. Born April 27, 1996. Only child. Lived in Spring Valley, WI. Currently lives in Burlington, VT. No criminal record. No children. Not married. This guy is as basic as it gets. So who is he to Audra and why is he contacting her? Digging further into the file I see they attended the same high school but didn’t attend the same college. There’s really not much that connects them. I open the attached photos. One is of Audra and Simon together in front of a large body of water in the midd
A rumble of thunder rouses me from my slumber. I roll from my back to my belly and sleepily gaze toward the middle of the bed but see that it is empty. The thunderstorm outside makes it unusually dark in the room and I’m not sure what time it actually is. I grab my phone from my nightstand and see that it’s 7:45am. Matthew is already on his way to the office if he hasn’t already arrived. I grumble and wrap myself back into my cocoon of soft down and close my eyes again. Moments later, Butters jumps onto the bed and walks up the length of my body before stopping to sit right between my shoulder blades. He purrs loudly for a minute before he takes a paw and starts to gently bat at the edge of the blanket next to my face. He meows softly and then bats at me again, slightly more aggressively this time. “Alright, fine.” I groan as I roll over and push him and the blankets off of me. I follow him downstairs to the kitchen and I pour food into his bowl. I make a mental note to look into