"I- My..." he gripped the wheel tight, as if grounding himself as he struggled with words for some minutes before lowly whispering: "My mother and Harold don't have the best relationship, okay?" I was taken aback, but his abrupt respond. And he looked away this time, looking anything but smug, vulnerable even. "A lot of things that shouldn't be okay keep happening and I... I don't want to feel tied to someone. Blinded. I need to still be me."My heart shuddered, absorbing that new information. "I don't want to tie you to me or something. But you never give me anything. I'm just your booty call, and your tutor."He shook his head, vehemently. "It's not that.""I don't know... It sure feels like it. And whenever you point out how little this means I feel empty... and I know we agreed to it, but I don't want it anymore. I just don't want to be just someone either.""You're not just someone. We're friends.""Oh, really?" I scoffed. "Like Seth? Like Kimberly?""It's different.""How?""Yo
···> CHAPTER 7 . Nate's POV
Her eyes widened, embarrassed and I felt that guilt clenching my guts once ore at the hurt and blush overing ehr expression now. "Oh." She looks so lost I felt the urge to apologize but a voice in the back of my head reminded me of Harold and I fisted my hands in burning rage. This girl standing innocently before me just sell me for nothing. She should be the one apologiing, no playing it innocent and making my stoamch flipped. Maybe that, added to my still half buzzed mind, was the reason next words spill out my mouth withought any filter, like venom. "I mean come on, look at you. You're boring as hell, too good to even dare to think of something rather fun. You're plain, and childish. And in case you didn't notice, we've met for like a decade and you have to get me drunk in order to endure you following me around like a brainless puppy." Everything hurt, everything felt like it was aching in agony and I felt like a pressure cooker. That releasse was all I needed to explote and at
I smirked at her blush when I catch her eyes. "So this is your bar-""An ice cream shop." she corrected lifting her chin in pride and that made me want to smile wider. So for the sake of the taunting I covered it with a hum, brushing my mouth to wash it off and looking over the bar that stood some feet from us, straight to her work zone. There was with the cash register, other items and the whole ice-cream display next a small bakery section, and they smell so delicious... "What can I get you?" her voice snapped me out my little trance and back to my humble reality, watching her moving closer all that yummy area. And I knew I couldn't afford it. Not after the new trainers I got myself this very weekend. My stomach groaned in protest and I gulped down, ashamed, but trying to sound nonchalant with a shrug. "I don't have money on me."But that didn't faze her at all. "Don't be silly, this is on me.""Oh, em, nothing..."Hailey gave me the are-you-for-real-look and shook her head, amu
Hailey"Wouldn't it be easier to buy a new bike?" I wondered but that only earned me a glare from Vickie."Nope." and taking the piece of tape I'd cut she plastered another pink pamphlet against the lamppost and moved to the next one."Vickie... you know I'm all into creative ways of revenge, and I'm proud of you-""Thanks.""-But you're asking for trouble." I warned her for the umpteenth time today, and for the umpteenth time she rolled her eyes. "Can't you tell his parents or something?""Like a five year old? Hell no." she scoffed, irked and taking the new piece of tape from me, moving to repeat it all over. "Besides, what would I tell them? I have no proofs!""And search in his garage? Maybe he had it there.""Come on, Hails, Bear isn't stupid. He's gotten rid of it by now."I wanted to ask her how was she so sure he's the one that took it from her, but considering their history, them being neighbours -per se an easy access- and his smug looks when she banged his door earlier that
"It's mine?" I breathed out, not able to wrap my head around it and looked back to the white ball of fur playfully nipping at my fingers."Mhm, only if you want it.""Hailey I-" My throat dried, the bridge between my mind and mouth suddenly felt befuddled. "I can't accept-""Of course you can!" interrupted Hailey quickly and my chest fluttered further, more and more enamoured by the kitten the more it searched for my attention and caresses. "It didn't cost me anything. You know, I've seen this advertisement and there was a woman across the town whose cat got pregnant, but and she was looking for people adopting the kittens so I though..." she shook her head, her cheeks flustered and for some reason she refused to meet my gaze as she rambled. "It's one month old, and it has been vaccinated and taken care of everything. It's sane and all, only that you still have to train it to fully learn about what is and what isn't a toilet for it." she gulped, unsure of my sudden muteness, processin
Hailey"Whoa" Shane awed sticking his face to the car's window, watching in awe Jared's house. Music was already pouring out of it and people that weren't inside gathered around in groups, laughing and celebrating Roosevelt's victory on the field."Shane, sit down." Matt ordered in a stern tone as he pulled over and glanced at the party not that convinced before looking at me. "Wasn't the victory party supposed to be in Bear's?""Mhm," I hummed. That was the original plan. We'd received a group message during the dinner announcing the change of plans and settling the celebration in Jared's instead. "Apparently his parents grounded him for some trouble about him distributing the house's phone number."Matt frowned. "What?""Yeah, something about them getting calls every now and then asking for cooking services in his name..." I had to bite back a laugh. A small part of me felt the tiniest amount of guilt, but what the hell? This was Bear. He'd been in Vickie's back since I had memory s
"Cool. So," he cleared his throat. "Have you-""There you are." arms circled around my waist from behind and my back was pulled into a hard chest. My stomach churned, recognizing immediately who it was and when I turned to look at him over my shoulder I was surprised by his lips pecking my cheek swiftly. Unexpectedly yet very welcome. "Hey.""Hi." it came out breathless and Nate smiled."We were talking." frowned Justin, his voice harsher now."I'm so sorry." yet the quarterback didn't look apologetic at all and Justin's hold on the vase clenched. "Come, we're playing beer pong. You're in, Ames?""No." I furrowed my brows at the harshness of that word alone, but Nate just shrugged, dismissing his rudeness completely."Your lost. Let's go?""Wait." I halted when he went to pull us away and turned to Justin. "What were you saying?""Never mind..." he grumbled not as cheerful now. Was it because Nate interrupted him? He took his gaze from Nate back to me and his scowl softened. "I'll see
"Hailey," he whined leaning forward almost instinctively, as if he couldn't help it and in awe I realized I was doing exactly the same. "I love you." he breathed against my lips and my lids fell, making me inched even closer. "But I can't rely my well-being only on you. It won't be fair for neither of us. There's a lot of things I need to figure out on my own, that I need to fix. And I need to do this by myself.""B-but t-this doesn't have to be a goodbye." I muttered resting my forehead against his. "Even with the distance, with the fight... I'm sorry. I am. And if you say nothing's happened with Trish, I believe you. We can still make this work...""Hailey." he sighed through his nose, his head tilting so our breaths mixed and it all felt all the more painful. It was as if he was slipping away when he was right there. Close enough to touch but impossible to keep. He was leaving me behind. Way behind. Where I couldn't reach him. "I don't want to hurt you. Trust me, that's the last th
He let out a disbelief chuckle, dry and humorless. "Is that the only thing important for you? Maybe there's a major reason for me to need to use her place."My guts did a complicated turn. "Yeah, but you won't tell me. I won't keep prying in stuff that clearly upsets you and bring us to fight more, so I focus on the part where I still have a say on... or at least have the right to comment." I finally slid off my ankle boots and met his eyes again, fueled with this bubbling anger as I keep hearing Trish's voice and reliving what I'd felt this morning. "You were with her. Every time we have some problem you run back to her.""That's not true.""It is. She still wants something with you, she's made it pretty clear and you keep going back to her." his eyes darkened at each word passing my lips, but they were true and speaking them out loud only seemed to make them more real. Along with my unease and anger. "And it's completely unfair because you're extremely possessive over me with any gu
HaileyI left Vickie's house after mid-afternoon, not finding more excuses to occupy my mind in things other than the huge mess with Nate. And also, I got a day full of other headaches either way so I didn't have time to overthink it. For starters, I had to go recognize Ryan, and that alone was nerve-cracking and stressful, but also in school people were all talking about the same two things: Kimmy fainting and Vickie's photoshopped pics.What an awful mess. The redhead didn't want to show up at school and convinced her parents to stay in the day. Olly and Bear had been suspended for yesterday's fight and Bear with a plus for distributing the horrible photoshopped picture. They were considering expelling him if there were any prove he was indeed the one spreading it. Shame the account that did was a fake one.But it was a matter of time, I was sure. Then Vickie would be able to forget about this and his vicious ways of getting her attention. Then the only problem would be them being n
"This... Look, she's been calling since we fight, but I was mad and had my phone turned off, but this morning she called and..." I couldn't continue, it was as if the words refused to voice it. Fuck, why so guilty. Why? I hadn't actually done anything."Nate." Kimberly huffed unimpressed when I failed to proceed, even with her weak tone I sense the disapproval. "What on earth did you tell her?""Nothing.""Well, knowing how sensible Gracie is that 'nothing' might as well scar her.""Nothing, okay! Just..." I was feeling too altered to remain sitting so I stood, anxiously pacing in the white, clean room. "Trish took her call this morning and now she's the one avoiding me.""What?" even in her feeble state her disbelief was like a slap. "Are you stupid? What were you doing with the stuck-up bitch?"Where else? "I got nowhere to go." but it disappointed her and my already poking guilt shifted to a whole new level as Kimmy frowned."I'm sure that's not true. And now Gracie has to face the
It was about time to accept that yesterday happened. As shitty as it was, it was. Everything on it. And now that the first shock and betrayal feeling I was able to go through everything again and nothing made sense.Maybe it was about time to stop this stupid childish lock out and talk to Hailey? Let her explain? I was still mad but I haven't talked to her since yesterday and now that my initial emotions were settling a little I couldn't stand the memory of her crying.And it was Hailey. I knew her. She must have had a reason not to tell me, as much as it hurt the lie.I slid on the jacket and picked up the phone, from the table. Had I left it there? Whatever. Yet the second red flag fluttered when I unlocked the screen, halting me in my tracks. "Trish.""Yeah?" she hummed cutting her apple in pieces, oblivious at all the emotions suddenly roaming aggressively in my chest, unsure yet of which one stood out from the others."Have you taken one of my calls?""Mhm? Oh yeah. Gracie called
"Okay." she chuckled as I sat back in my spot, more cheerful now at the perspective of seeing Kimberly.I asked for them to keep me updated, but it shouldn't have surprised me when I got no notification. It hurt, but a part of me understood both Seth and Nate got more immediate things to worry about than to keep me up about it too.The mere reminder of his reaction and how he shut me out made my heart twitched painfully under my ribs.Almost as if sensing where my thoughts were going, my mother tilted her head, taking her cup of coffee. "What about Nate? Have you managed to talk to him?""He's ignoring me.""I'm sure he's not." she retorted instead brushing my hair off my shoulder. "He must be occupied and concerned about your friend too. It must have slipped his mind. He'll get over it.""No, mom, he's ignoring me. Kimmy's mother's just told me they were there until the visiting hours ended and still he didn't answer me at all. In all night. And I've been texting and calling..." my a
Now it all make sense. Her exhaustion, how thin she was getting, the hair falling, her being kicked out the cheer squad, the whole stop hanging out with us... because if she did, we would notice something was off with her eating habits and we would have done something about it.But Hailey knew. And she did nothing. I knew Kimmy was hiding something, but why did Hailey have to lie?What the hell? How could had she allowed that?! I tugged at my hair for the umpteenth time today, but the buzzing in my ears didn't stop. My mind was going overdrive over every detail from the day, over every time my friend acted weird, every chance Hailey had of telling the trust...I didn't get it. Everything was spiraling down to a dark tornado and I saw myself falling and sinking more in the darkness as I lost more and more pillars that kept me sane.How did everything spin out of control from a good birthday to this?I couldn't even cope with everything. Somehow I just wanted to slid into my bed and dre
HaileyMy hands were shaking with apprehension and fright as I talked to the ambulance's assistant as they all attended Kimmy. I hadn't stopped crying since she fainted some moments ago and despites our best chances she still hadn't wake up.I knew this would happen, I knew she wasn't holding up as good as she claimed to be, I knew she was getting worst and lying about it, but I didn't know what I was supposed to do. I didn't want to break her trust, but now seeing as they lifted the stretched to the back of the ambulance I wished I had instead of having to face how she'd fallen to this. And it was my fault. I should have seen this coming. I should have done more, tell someone... I was too focused on hanging in this little confidence Kimmy allowed me, so scared to lose it that I watched and let her fully fell on the abysm. And for the way Nate's been avoiding my gaze ever since he heard me telling the paramedics what was going on. The way he sat by the path with his head in his hands
"Great, look at this." I pulled up my hand to show her the letters and she took them from me."What is that?" wondered Kimmy resting her head on her folded arms over the table, her lids closed. "Please do enlighten the rest of us.""It's- Nate!" cheered Hailey as I took my usual spot in the table and pulled her down with me to sit on the bench as well between my legs. "It's the scholarship."That successfully caught Kimmy's attention, making her straightened in her seat across from us. "They've accepted you?""Three of them have." grinned Hailey, genuinely proud of me and making me feel even lighter as she rewarded me with a proper kiss, for the first time not caring about PDA. "I knew you'll make it.""Yeah, yeah, which ones?" Kimberly took the papers from her quickly scrolling through them. Her brows rose. "Wow, Herond. Three of them. Now this is something to be proud of.""Thanks.""It is." Hailey's smile beamed, but cut my next kiss too short, turning to the table instead. "Here."