Lion And Lamb

"Leave me with her," Erwin said. 

And instantly, his men left us alone.

Erwin squeezed my breast with total lust, harder and harder. And he started kissing my neck.

"You want to do that?" I asked.

"You mean fucking? I feel like to."

"Make love, Erwin. Not fuck."

"Is there a difference? Make love is just a more romantic and polite alternative word to replace fuck, my pretty one. I've wanted this for so long, miss. I crave intimacy, emotionally and physically. So, let's make love tonight. I name this baby-making activity "make love" just because you like that word."

"I don't want to make love with you."

Erwin didn't stop squeezing my breasts even after I expressed my refusal.

"Why not? Don't you love me?"

"You caused me pain. You squeezed me so hard that my breasts felt like they would burst."

"Why would I care about that?" he said. 

Then his hand lifted my skirt.

"Please don't do this here. Erwin, you're stripping me naked in front of everyone. Look, people on the balcony are looking at us. You don't want to make me the subject of men's dirty fantasies, do you?

"Okay then."

Erwin then picked me up. He took me into his chamber. He sat me down on the bed. He began to undress. Seeing the lustful look in his eyes, I became petrified. Was this the real Erwin? Was the sweet and gentle demeanor he had been showing me fake? Did he ever love me?

"Now, my dear, take off your clothes and lie down naked."

He is already completely naked. However, his beautiful beauty did not improve my mood. At that moment, he looked like a hungry lion, and I was his deer, his food. I didn't do what he said. I just stared into his eyes as I froze in my tracks.

"You promise that you won't make love to me without my consent, Erwin."

"You are my concubine, my slave. It is an obligation for you to satisfy me."

"I promised to sleep with you, but not now, Erwin. Right now, I am... I am not ready. You are very scary."

Erwin ripped off my clothes without saying anything until I was completely naked. Then, he kisses me passionately. I couldn't do anything. The strength of a girl like me could not match his knight-like body's power. I screamed in pain when he tried to put "it" inside me. He kept forcing his way in. And I couldn't help but scream.

"Your hole is so narrow."

In the end, I could only cry while squeezing the pillow.

"They're all right. You're a monster, Erwin. You've hurt me," I said while looking at his eyes.

To my surprise, suddenly, Erwin pulled himself up. He looked so surprised at what I said before. He no longer tried to penetrate.

"What's wrong? Do you want to fuck my ass hole now?" 

"Oh, lady, what have I done?" said Erwin. A look of confusion was evident on his face.

"What? Don't you pretend your body is possessed by a demon?"

"No, miss. I'm sorry."

Erwin then gave me a piece of cloth to cover my naked body. So, we are not going to fuck? Why did he suddenly change his mind? And what the hell is that face of regret he showing?

"Here, dear. Cover your body first. Let me explain everything."

"What do you want to tell me?" I said as I threw away the cloth he gave me.

Erwin picked up the cloth and wrapped it around me. 

"My beloved Miss Anna, I swear this was not my intention. Miss, that monster... ever since I was born, I've always tried to keep the monster inside me from coming out. I don't want to be a monster. I didn't choose to be born into a family with a curse in their blood. I've always tried to restrain myself, but I've failed many times. And now... and now I've hurt you. No, the monster inside me hurt you, not me. Anna, I love you. That sadistic monster, damn him."

"Why didn't you tell me about your sadistic nature?"

"Because I didn't want you to be afraid of me. I want to be loved, not feared. That's why I mutilated the lion at night after you were asleep so you wouldn't know about my sadistic nature, miss. Miss, please forgive me. Don't stop loving me."

"I'm going back to my room." 

"My love... I never chose to be born like this. I swear by my dead mother's name. I didn't want to become the bloodthirsty monster I was used to be. I've always tried to hold back."

Wearing a piece of cloth, not enough to cover my body perfectly, I walked out of Erwin's room, heading to the harem. I tried to hold back my tears as I walked down the hallway of the harem. When I got to my room, I started crying my eyes out. What should I do? I already loved Erwin. I wanted to live happily with Erwin. However, Erwin turned out to be a monster. I didn't even know if he really loved me or not. What should I do? Should I leave Erwin? 

I didn't see Erwin for a few days. I wasn't sure what to do. Every day I didn't visit his room, Erwin sent various gifts, from roses to dresses to dolls. Every time the gift came, Erwin always inserted a piece of paper with an apology written on it :

"My lady, I yearn for you. This is not a heartbreak. It feels like every other part of my body is broken too. Please, do me a favor. Visit me, my baby. I really want to see your pretty face."

Then, one night, while I was about to sleep, I felt someone enter my room. Without me being able to respond to anything, the person blocked my movements. He gagged my mouth and put a knife to my neck. When I opened my eyes, I saw a eunuch. The "half-man" named sir ester, Lady Tiana's main manservant and the highest-ranking eunuch in the harem.

"Lady Tiana ordered me to cut your throat."