(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)
The fun thing about figure skating is learning new choreography. Though it's a bit difficult getting the steps, the spins, and glides, I love the feeling I get as I follow the sound of the sensual music.However, this choreography is particularly hard as I take a spin and land on the ice with a thud. I get up and try again but end up falling on my ass."You're not doing it right, Ahvi," My choreographer, Bella, observes from the corner while my partner Rigel and Miss Katherina watch from the beaches. "You're not maintaining the equilibrium and you're not steady on the blades,""She's good for her first time learning this choreography, give her some credits, Bella," Rigel gives me a thumbs up and flashes a big smile."Let's take five," Bella claps her hands, calling a break before gliding off the rink. I watch as she takes off her skates and walks off."How about I join you?"The voice behind me is unforeseen and sudden and yanks a gasp of shock out of me and has me staggering but an arm loops around my waist and steadies me on a chest. When I look up, I find the icy blue eyes of Rigel shining down at me with a grin."Are you okay?" He inquires with his arm still circling my tiny waist.Slowly, I rip myself from him. "Yeah, thank you," I reciprocated the smile. For a second we stand there staring at each other till a loud voice interrupts."Hey, shameless flirt!!"We reel our heads at the same time, finding Quinn, Rigel's girlfriend standing outside the rink with her hands on her hips and her gray eyes shooting malicious daggers at me."Office, now!" She deadpans. I look over at Katherina, she gives an approving nod and gets up from her seat.I decide to follow her lead and slide off the rink, coming beside Quinn and taking off my shoes."You're a whore you know that, throwing yourself at my boyfriend so shamelessly!" She hisses like an annoyed snake.I scoff and stand straight after taking off my shoes. "Your boyfriend is my dance partner, I've lost count of how many times I've jumped on him. If you have any problem with the arrangements, you can always make complaints to the General Manager. You are good at it." I say and walk away before she can open her mouth and vomit more rubbish.I reach the General Manager's office in a minute. She smiles at me and motions her hand for me to stand beside four other girls who are really good on the rink. Quinn matches in a second later and doesn't bother concealing her aggravation. What a brat."I called you ladies here because I have an announcement you all have been waiting for," the general manager pauses for a second, scanning our faces for a reaction before continuing. "It's time for the National and International Championship,""Aren't they done at two separate times?" One of the girls inquires."Yes but things have been different this time around, that's why you will be divided into two groups-"She's cut off by Quinn who raises her hand suddenly."I want to be on the International team. I already have a good ranking on Nationals,""Actually no, you are going to be on the National team, you already have good rankings on Internationals. Ahvi, Benita, and Malinda will go International.""WHAT?!" Quinn explodes like an overheated bulb. She sends a sharp glare at me. "Nationals Championship doesn't matter. Going International is my chance of entering the Olympics-""And that's why you keep failing Nationals because you think they don't matter," the Manager cuts her off. "But they do, sweetheart and that's why you are going to Nationals this year. Your ranking dropped badly and if you do not pick it back up, you are never joining the Olympics. That would be 10 years of wasted opportunity,"Quinn glares and crosses her arms over her chest. "You think you can ship me off to wherever you want. My daddy is the biggest sponsor in this shitty organization. What do you think he's going to do when he finds out huh? Just wait and see, Miss Xenia," With a stomp, she storms out of the office.Miss Xenia sighs and waves her hand dismissively at the rest of us. I follow everyone out till I hear the sound of my name."Ahvi,"I pause, then turn around. "Yes, Miss Xenia?"She smiles. "I know you have been dying to join the Olympics. You have good ranking on both Nationals and International Championships but this performance determines whether you join the Olympics next year or not. Don't miss it,"I return the smile with a bigger one. "Thank you, Miss Xenia."She nods. "I've already sent the details to Miss Katherina, she will fill you in on everything that's required. You can go now,"With a nod, I finally step out of the office but instantly come face to face with Quinn. I attempt to walk past her but she blocks my path."First you're trying to steal my boyfriend and now you're stealing my trophy. You have a lot of nerves, Ahvi. You think Miss Xenia's show of favoritism is going to make you win?" She barks and it's annoying."How about you lower the attitude and the brattiness, maybe others will start to like you, including your boyfriend."She smirks. "You better watch your mouth, three months is a long time. What if you wake up one morning in a hospital bed and discover your legs are broken,"I feel my eyes darken. "Are you threatening me?"She laughs humorlessly and raises her hand in surrender. "Oh no, just a friendly reminder that accidents happen all the time and you should watch your back at all times. See ya!" She waves and walks away, soon disappearing."She's a freak," Miss Katherina shows up."More like a daddy's spoiled brat."*~*Practice comes to an end at 3 pm, I step out of the large building with my backpack over my shoulders, earbuds strike to my ears, a black mask over my face, and a bucket hat over my head. I step on the pavement."Planning on taking the bus again?"I turn around quickly and swallow a gasp at the sight of Vance in a casual outfit.I take off my mask. "Vance, what are you doing here?""What else? I'm here to pick up my little step-sister,"I look over his shoulder to find a black SUV parked at the side. When I look back, the glint in his eyes tells me he won't take no for an answer. With a sign, I walk towards his car, and suddenly, a female voice calls."Vance!"We both pause and turn around to find a girl older than me with vibrant short red hair."Get into the car," Vance tells me and opens the car door of the passenger side at the front while the lady gets closer."But-" I want to protest but think against it and just slip into the car and he shuts the door and the girl arrives.I watch from the glass as they react. I rarely see Vance smile at others but he smiles at her. It's not a big one, just a tiny curve at the corner of his mouth but it's still a smile and the sight makes my stomach whirl and my jaw clench and when she stands on her tiptoes to kiss him on his cheek, I see nothing but red.I grab the door, half mind to push it open, and slap her across the face with only one thought in mind; she's kissing what's mine!Soon, she's leaving while Vance gets on the driver's side of the car and starts driving. I try to keep my mouth shut and just focus on the building passing by but my mind keeps flashing the stupid kiss over and over again."Who's she?" My heart wins over my brain to not say anything. He's my stepbrother and can kiss whoever the hell he wants."A friend," He answers without looking at me."A friend that kisses you on the cheek," I scoff. "That's some friend. Tell me, do you kiss all your friends?"Suddenly, he matches the brakes on the car and turns to me. I let out a gasp as he leaned his face forward so close that I could feel his warm breath on my face, his lemony scent on my tongue and a little bit closer, our lips would be touching. My heart goes wild underneath my chest."Are you jealous?"Time stops and his question hangs in the air. He looks into my eyes with a glint of mischief and sin in his green eyes that suddenly makes me want to risk it all and kiss him but I fight it and move back."N-no," My voice wavers, and I look outside through the window with a blush staining my cheeks. "Why would you ask such a thing?"He chuckles and starts the car again. "Then don't ask."I shouldn't have asked. My poor heart can't keep taking this.(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)“I’m thinking we should get something to eat…”Raven’s voice is like a fading tone as we saunter out of our last class of the day. Gradually and sluggishly, I blank out and only tread incautiously with an overcast gaze and head deep in thoughts.It has been two days but it feels like yesterday. I can still remember the feel of his breath on my face, the fragrance of his cologne, and his in-depth voice as he emitted those words.‘Are you jealous?’Who the heck asks their stepsister such a question? I have no rationale to be envious whatsoever even though it was so debased of him to let her kiss him in front of me; the mere thought of it gave me perturbation and a downpour of anger; the brashness was daunting.“Are you listening to a word I've said?” Raven's sharp voice made me halt in the middle of the school corridor. She snaps her finger in front of my face. “Back on earth yet, Ahvi?”I tsk, wave her off and resume strolling toward the exit with her beside me.
(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)Another day at school. I sit beside Raven who's inundated in a game on her phone since the professor hasn't arrived yet while I skim my book, pushing to recollect and comprehend what was taught at the last class, and then, I hear the sound of my name.“Ahvi,” My head whips up in a beat, finding an unfamiliar guy with cute glasses at the bridge of his nose and a body that looks too hefty and brawny for him. I angle my head and study the uneasiness that oozes off him. Is he a fan?“Fans are not permitted to ask autographs at school,” Raven voices as she puts down her phone and eyes the guy with head to toe.I hiss at her. “That's rude, Raven,” I look back at the male. “Can I help you?”He nibbles on his bottom lips and then retorts, rubbing his hands in front of him. I almost coo at how cute he looks. “I would love an autograph; I'm a big fan. I'm Oliver by the way and we share a few classes. I've watched you for a long time but never been this bold,” he pauses
(AHVI’S POINT OF VIEW)It's 6 pm on a Saturday. After a long, grueling day at practice, my body aches and begs for a bed, but as soon as I walk into the living room of the house where I grew up, I wish I hadn't.The stench of smoked tobacco in the air is so overwhelming that I have to clap a hand over my nose to avoid inhaling it.The floor is littered with empty cans of beer and other unknown alcohol, particles of half-burned cigarettes, and a cloud of smoke, and amid the chaos is the familiar form of my Mom, crouched on the floor, her back against a sofa, and a full stick of cigarette stuck between her fingers.In an instant, my body is leaking feelings to the surface as my jaw tightens, and my hands clamp hard around the rucksack on my shoulder. Not again! I thought she stopped when she got married to David! “Mom,” My voice is barely audible as I try to contain the flood of emotions as she raises the cigarette to her lips but comes to a halt at the sound of my voice. She looks at
(AHVI’S POINT OF VIEW)When I'm done with my morning routine, it's around 9 in the morning. I stroll down the stairs, carrying my practice rucksack, into the living room. I want to forget but the events of last night come rushing back though there is no evidence of dirt or anything, Everything is shiny but that won't be able to erase everything that happened.Just then, Mom and David stroll down the stairs together. Without a moment's delay, I begin walking towards the door but David's voice makes me pause in the middle of the room.“Ahvi,”The sound of my name makes me clench my knuckles knowing he is going to do it again; being the peacemaker between us. Exhaling, I turn back around. David looks relieved I don't walk out while Mom's looking at the floor. My eyes flicker between them.Even in a hundred years, she still won't deserve him. David is too good for us. “Your Mom told me what happened last night,” David starts. “And she regrets every moment of it,” I look at my Mom, she'
(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)Coming to practice is one thing I always look forward to; it's my only escape and it gets even better when Raven gets to escort me. It's fun seeing her trying to skate but only ends up falling on her ass for times I've lost count and after another failed attempt, Raven gives up with an exhalation and doesn't bother getting up from her position inside the ice rink.I giggle and slide towards her on my skates and pass her a bottle of water she'd shoved in my hand earlier. She takes the bottle from me with a snort and I sit in front of her with another laugh.“I just don't get how you do this, I'm flexible too you know. I can bend however you want,” her tone goes from annoyed to teasing in a second at the last part of her sentence which tells me she isn't talking about skating anymore. For someone who's a virgin, she's never shy to open her big mouth and say absurd things.“I'm a professional in his field just as how you're good on the tracks.” Although we share a
(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)“Ahvi,”I lift my head from my phone at the sound of my name, finding David coming out from the kitchen with an apron around his hips. “Can you go get Vance? Dinner is ready,” I stab my inner cheek with my tongue, watching as David goes back to the kitchen. I stand up from the living room sofa and drag my feet to the staircase.I take my time and arrive a minute later. I stand in front of Vance's door and knock with enough reticence. However, the door opens rather. With a gulp, I shove my head in.“Vance?” I call in confusion, inspecting the empty room. Deliberately, I make my way inside and stand in the middle. The room looks disorganized with clothes all over the floor and the bed looks like someone just got up from it. That's when I hear the bathroom door click open and sharply, I turn just as Vance steps out of the bathroom with nothing but sweatpants on his hips and a bare chest. He has a habit of being half-naked!“What are you doing here?” His voice is
(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)Two weeks pass in a jiffy with no sign of Vance and there's this sickness in my stomach that has been persistent ever since; it makes me uncomfortable.I tried questioning David about it, but he constantly dismisses it with a shrug, claiming Vance is a full-grown man capable of caring for him, but what if he winds up dead somewhere no one can find?The thought causes me to shake my head, and for the nth time, I am staring down at my phone, debating whether to call or not. It isn't weird to call my stepbrother and ask about his whereabouts and health right? That I should be thus concerned is only natural—he is family. It's only weird that I haven't called him this long when I know he's sick.With a nod, I turn on my phone and dial Vance's number but at that moment, the door of my bed opens and my mom enters. She never comes into my room unless she wants me to do something, what does she want this time?She approaches the bed I am sitting on with my legs folded an
(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)The stadium is empty since it's almost past 10 pm and I'm the only one left there, on the ice rink, trying to recreate the steps taught to me by the choreographer. While I have no struggle getting the spins and turns, my head is enveloped in thoughts of my Mom.Since she'd always ignored me as a child by leaving me with my grandma, I never had a bond with her. I avoided her as a child because of the disgust in her eyes whenever she saw me; I only became accustomed to it as I grew older. She is in pain, as evidenced by the permanent look in her eyes, but how can I tell what she is feeling when I do not know what she has been through?I have become accustomed to her being referred to as a mistake and a mishap. I grew up feeling unwanted and unloved and she thinks I'm being inconsiderate when she asks me to do the absurdist things. “Your feet placement is wrong,” The unexpected voice causes me to turn, but I slide on the ice and land up on my ass. “Ouch!” I cry o
(VANCE’S POINT OF VIEW)5 years. It feels like a lifetime, and yet it feels like no time at all. Only a few days and nights of silence and regret stretched so endlessly until now. 5 years and she's standing in front of me again, like a dream that seems far reached and unachievable.She’s here. Standing right in front of me, her presence feels surreal, like a dream I’ve replayed countless times but never dared hope will come true.Ahvi.She looks different, yet the same. Stronger, maybe. There’s a fire in her eyes I don’t remember seeing before, but there’s also exhaustion. Her hair is short and falls in soft waves around her face, and though her expression is guarded, I can still recognize the girl I once knew and literally, there goes the beating of my heart again. It throbs painfully yet it is alive again after 5 years.I don’t move. I don’t dare breathe too loudly, afraid this moment will shatter and I’ll wake up in that endless slumber again.Her voice breaks the silence and ends
(AHVI’S POINT OF VIEW)“What do you mean you didn’t get a call for a missing child?”I strain not to lose my patience as I look at the airport manager, who looks like he’s freaking depleted of his job, and if he doesn’t find my child in the next few minutes, he’s going to wish he never existed.Isleen stands beside me in the office. We rushed here the moment the plane landed at Chicago airport, and now this idiot is standing here spouting nonsense.“I’m telling you, Miss,” the manager says, rubbing his temples like I’m the one giving him a headache when it’s my child that’s missing. “We didn’t get a call from Ireland about a missing child. Perhaps the call didn’t come through. But…” He pauses like he’s skeptical if he should continue as my glare amplifies. “There was a child here yesterday, brought to us by security. I can take you to the CCTV room to confirm if it’s your child.”I give a glance at Isleen and her expression mirrors mine, uneasy and terrified. We watch as the man stan
(VANCE'S POINT OF VIEW)I follow Scar and Damein aimlessly from behind, like a child forced to step out of his comfort zone; the only difference is that I'm not a child. Scar and Damien are talking but I can barely hear a single word that left them. Everything feels like it's from a distance. The busting of the airport, the rolling sound of suitcases, the mutters of people, and the sound of beeping machines sound like they are all fading.“Dad!“Realty welcomes me back with the sound of Scar's voice; her worried eyes dance over my face. “How long are you going to stay in your head? she's gone; move on already.“ she almost snaps. I can never move on from her. “You shouldn't worry about me, Scarlet. Go and have fun in Italy. Live your life." I try to curl my lips into a smile but the muscles refuse to move. She sighs in frustration. “You think I'm going to stop worrying just because you say so. You wouldn't have left your dark room if you weren't forced out; is that how you're going
(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)The airport is buzzing with energy, a symphony of rolling suitcases, overlapping announcements, and people in transit. The last time I was in an airport was five years ago, running from my demons.I walk beside Andre, his suitcase trailing behind him, as he glances down at his phone. His brow furrows for the nth time. I want to ask what’s on his mind, but I don’t want to start anything heavy. Not now. Our little date is still fresh in our minds and we decided to talk more about our relationship when he returns from the conference. “You’re sure about your gate?” I ask instead, scanning the signs above us. I'd left the twins with Isleen at the entrance.He nods and tucks his phone into his jacket pocket. “Yeah, Gate 14. Thanks for walking me in.”He slows down near the security checkpoint and adjusts his tie—a navy blue one I bought him on a whim last month. I can remember how delighted he was that he almost bounced on his feet like an excited child. The memory b
[VANCE POINT OF VIEW]The walls are closing in again.They've been doing that a lot lately—pressing closer, shadows tightening around me until I can barely breathe. I lie here, barely able to see through the darkness filling the room. Five years. Five years since she vanished from the surface of the earth and took the last of the light with her. I made promises I couldn't keep and swore things I had no right to swear.'I'll protect you,' I told her once. 'I'll never let anything happen to you.' And yet here I am, all these years later, a prisoner of my own empty words. Five years of being tormented by everything and everything around me. I feel like everything is mocking me, laughing at me for how weak I have been. I had one job yet I have failed even before I could do shit. I laugh at how pathetic I sound.Then I hear it—a knock, soft and hesitant, like someone doesn't want to wake the dead—probably. Everything is still around me, and everything is so quiet that I can hear only th
(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)I agreed to Andre's date, and the day came sooner than expected. It is strange dressing up for a man. I remember always trying to look pretty, hoping my stepbrother would notice me. Looking back, I remember looking like a love-struck puppy anytime Vance was near. How naive.I shake my head and clear my mind to keep all thoughts of Vance at bay and focus on what is in front of me; Andre taking me on a date to a fancy restaurant.I am dressed in a sleeveless crimson dress that hugs my curves and falls over my knee; Isleen made me wear it. My makeup is well-done. I feel and look pretty when Andre is dressed in a fine black suit, as opposed to the casual clothes and doctor's coat that I usually see him in; he even brushed his hair back.“I have only dreamt of this day.” He looks excited as he sits across from me at the table.“Please don't tell me you spent all your savings for this?” I jest, yet with a hint of seriousness.He chuckles. "I believe there is nothing
(AHVI'S POINT OF VIEW)(FIVE YEARS LATER)Five years almost feels like five days. Time runs fast when you're not keeping track of it. It's like I've only shut my eyes and then opened them. Five years in Ireland, I've grown accustomed to the people and the culture. It no longer feels strange. I've gotten used to everything here. I looked after the kids for two years before getting a job as a kindergarten teacher, and the experience has been one of a kind. Stepping out of the grocery store with a few bags of groceries, I smile as the evening sun shines on my face and the soft wind blows through my short hair. With an exhale, I make my way to the car and head home to my boys.It doesn't take more than ten minutes to get home. As soon as I'm out of the car, the front door opens. Mael and Ciel come rushing out, with Andre closely behind them. "Mama!" I open my arms wide and let them run into me. The boys are identical; it's almost impossible to tell them apart. Their hair is a s
(RAVEN'S POINT OF VIEW) The next day drags on, and I barely get a moment of sleep. The dead eyes and sad expression of that boy haunt me as soon as I shut my eyes. What if he's really serious about dying? How could I leave a suicidal kid in the middle of nowhere? I could have at least taken him to his front porch. I don't even have his name! And the bruises on his body? What if he's being maltreated at home? Shit, Raven. How can I be so blind and impulsive?! After a long night of self-hate, I spent the next day trying to find the boy, starting with the convenience store where I dropped him off. "I'm sorry, miss, but I've never seen such kid." Those are the words I'm told. I take the route he took and find myself in a dirty and dark alley. It gives me the creeps. I almost turn to leave, convinced he's not here, until I see a figure cowered at the side of the wall.I get closer curiously until the familiar sight of his blond locks comes into view. "Hey, kid!" I call, barely b
(RAVEN'S POINT OF VIEW)It wasn't until we were in the Manager's office that I feel maybe I might have overreacted.There’s a pound in my head that refuses to go away, and there's a numbness in my hands that has been there since I took the boy to the hospital.“I will not tolerate this childish behavior in my office. If you have a problem, take it outside my fucking building and do your shit!” the manager yells with the veins in her head popping out. “Do you know what you have cost the company today because of your behavior? I could expect this awful behavior from Sierra, not you, Raven!”“This is not my fault!” Sierra clamors. “I was only trying to help her since she was running late. I never expected her to be a bitch about it, and she was the one who kissed my boyfriend, and I'm not even mad about that!”“I'm sorry,” I immediately apologized. “I had an emergency on my way here, but it's not an excuse to behave the way I did. I will fix the mess I created. It won’t happen again.”“Y