Something tickled my nose and my eyes opened slowly as if in a trance. It took me a good ten minutes to figure out where I was. I was in bed in the basement of the pack house where I once stayed but I had no recollection of how I got here.I cast my mind back to try to remember if I came here to get anything but the only thing I could remember was the text I received from Celeste. I groaned at the pain that exploded in my mind when I tried to force myself to remember. There was a mental barrier that no matter how much I pushed, I could not get through.'Artemis?' I called my wolf but she still seemed to be asleep.I was tired and groggy when I came out of the pack house basement. A man greeted me as I passed but my head felt as if someone was banging drums inside. My feet were shaky and my vision blurry but I managed to get into the elevator and move to the penthouse.My legs carried me to the bathroom because for some reason, my skin crawled. I felt dirty as if I fell into a gutter.
I heard movement at the entrance and quickly scrambled up. I didn't know what to do or how to proceed. My first instinct was to hide. To hide from Valens. To hide from the world. To hide from the reality setting in. I wanted to somehow hide from myself too. I wanted to hide from the disgust crawling on my skin. I wanted to hide from the anger consuming me. I just wanted to disappear.I also wanted to sleep. I wanted to close my eyes and open them to see none of this actually happened. I wanted to sleep and wake up to see all of this had been a terrible nightmare and not the reality I was about to face.Who would I tell? How would I bring it up?I didn't even have the complete details. I could not say for certain how it happened or why it happened but it happened. Those pictures were proof of the violation. Proof of the lack of empathy, the wickedness, with which I'd been treated."Sagira?" I heard Valens' footstep approach and suddenly I was scared.I wasn't properly dressed. I didn't
VALENSI slept on the couch that night. She was so stiff when I touched her and she reacted so violently that I feared she was having a panic attack. I knew how terrible those could be because I experienced them during the early days of my curse so I didn't want to aggravate her."Aysel, will you at least tell me goodbye? I'm off to work," I asked my mate who had the covers over her head.Normally, I would leave silently because she was always asleep when I went to work, but I knew she was awake today. The few times she was ever awake when I left for work, she always saw me off to the door and gave me a kiss. I didn't know how much I treasured that simple gesture until I lost it.I went through everything that happened between us recently and I couldn't find any reason for her to start acting like this. She even threw her phone into the toilet. I would admit that I was pissed when I saw the phone in the toilet because we just got it and it cost me a lot of money. Money didn't matter b
I prepared myself to bare it all. I stood in front of a mirror and I prepared what I would say to Valens and how I would say it. All the time I looked in the mirror, all I could see was Lucien's hand all over my body and all I felt was a thousand bugs crawling all over my skin."I have no idea what happened but I woke up and I was in the basement and then –" I wiped the tears from my cheeks as I forced myself to look into the mirror. "And then there were pictures and I know I didn't – I didn't consent to them." My hands went through the mirror and it came down in a cascade of broken glass that dug into my fist."You son of a bitch!" I screamed, feeling numb all over as I gripped my head. My wolf still slept and I could only imagine how much wolf's bane I had ingested.I wanted to kill Lucien. I never felt such a violent urge before, never wanted anything as much as I wanted to see his lifeless body then. The minute the thought entered my head, my mind seized on it flashing countless p
"I need to know exactly what happened," Jabari said, fully entering the room. Celeste's eyes whipped from Jabari to me as she tried to follow the conversation."I – I don't know. He must have gotten the pictures." I wrung my fingers together."What pictures?" Celeste asked.I imagined the first person I would ever tell about the pictures would be my mate but it turned out he'd fled the pack. I'd expected him to be angry. I expected him to feel betrayed, to be murderous. What I hadn't factored in was the possibility of him hating me so much that he couldn't stand to be in the same room as me long enough for a confrontation."How do I get in touch with him?" I asked Jabari, dodging Celeste's question. "There has been a terrible misunderstanding and I need to clear things up fast.""I have a link with him as his Beta but he has shut me out." Jabari pursed his lips, hands on his hips. He didn't look the least bit pleased. "He also asked me to cancel the Mating Ceremony before he left.""O
I managed to fall asleep in the early hours of the morning but it felt as if I'd just closed my eyes when loud knocking sounded on the door. It took a minute of the knocking intruding into my dreams for me to get the memo to move. Celeste got the door before I fully woke.When I got out of my room, I came face to face with a grave-looking Jabari. The memories I tucked away to sleep came flooding back into my consciousness when I saw him look at me like that."What happened to him?" I asked, swallowing down the lump blocking my throat."We received a call." He paused and I wished he would spit out the words faster. The anxiety was choking me. "We – The Alpha pack, I mean. We are moving." The look on his face was the same one doctors wore to deliver terrible information about their patients."So he isn't coming back?" Celeste demanded, crossing her arms."It doesn't seem like it." He glanced over at me before looking away. "Usually he sets up an administrative before leaving but it look
VALENS'Are we still doing this?' Zino asked for the tenth time that day.'Yes, we are still doing this," I snarled at the mutt.'She is our mate. We have to forgive her,' he piped up but I ignored him. Now more than ever, I wanted to silence the voice in my head.The voice in my head had been my companion since I was a child, had grown and developed with me until my body had the capacity to let it out. Zino and I were best friends and more than best friends, we were one; two parts of a whole.'Are you listening to yourself? She cheated on us.' My wolf went silent at that.Betrayal was not an easy thing to get over and for a man like me, it was downright unforgivable. With the shitty hand I'd been dealt once again, I wanted to curse the goddess. I had so many questions and only she could give me answers but for over a century, she chose to be silent about the betrayal and bad luck I encountered at every turn in my life.I'd prayed and waited for a mate for over a century. Not only did
I asked Jabari to add Skylar and Bethel to Lucien's cell but it turned out no one had seen them all day. I fiddled with the heart-shaped pendant on my throat as a feeling of being overwhelmed washed over me.Celeste had to report back to work for a few hours and Jabari assured me that he would secure the pack until Valens' return. He seemed to have a lot of faith that Valens would return soon. So much that I kept looking out the window expecting to see my mate. That was how assured Jabari made me feel.I looked at my allergy medication and wondered why it wasn't working. If anything, it just made me feel even more tired.Octavia brought me lunch and when she tried and failed numerous times to get me involved in a conversation, she finally left with an empty tray. I was hungry today and not as queasy as usual."I brought some snacks." Celeste came in holding a bag. Whatever was in her bag smelled delicious and I went at it with fervour. Celeste had a big grin on her face when I was don