Chapter:-5 (Trisha)

Trisha POV:-

Life is not what I had think it would be. There were certain moments where my dreams were crumbled down due to others expectations but I always stay strong and work hard for my biggest dream. The most painful thing in my life was to leave my dreams behind and make myself adjust to the situation is front of me.

My dream was everything for me. I dreamed of cracking a government exam and work in office every day, enjoying my life. I never dreamed of something big. I just wanted to work in small office and live my life fullest.

But the society I lived in was unfair. Too unfair for omega like me. It's not like omegas were mistreated. In fact Omega's has an equal status as any alpha but only in some places. But this government rule was only remain on the papers and on the people of high status which called themselves elites. And me being a poor orphan, was getting into their way.

I am 18 year old, young and hardworking girl, gifted with ethereal beauty according to some Alpha. I live all my life with my adoptive father Jason, who is middle class Alpha. Well not likely, it would be on the boundary line between middle class and poor. I got two friends, one is intelligent and has entered into medical college, soon to become doctor in few years. I loves him but sometimes I felt envy of my friends life. I envy that as being medical student, his life is already planned not like me. And my second friend is in the Engineering department, I loves my friends and same goes to them. Or maybe not, maybe I was just naive, innocent. I never like this quality of mine cause I could see people around me would take advantage of my naive self and I couldn't say or do anything, not wanting to hurt others feeling. I am an emotional person. I will cry for small things. In the past I was working really hard for my dream for three years now but I couldn't get any success. I missed the selection in government exam just by 0.75marks this year.

I felt sad after knowing I had missed the selection such a low marks. My adoptive father and friends also felt bad for me. But to my adoptive father, he had told me starting at the year that it will be the last year for me to participate in any exam and he will marry me off at the end of the year.

So I work really hard. I knew the difference between the working Omega wife and the house Omega wife. If I didn't get a job at the end of the year, I would have no choice but to be a housewife and I had to find my life in my husband's life. I had to adjust in every situation in future inside my husband's family as he was Alpha and I was the one who is not earning money. I would practically be the unannounced maid in the family. Who didn't have her own life. My dreams will get crumble due to the expections of my future husband and his family. I saw how some omega who didn't earn money, has to adjust and has to put their happiness aside to fulfill their husband's and their families expectation.

So I  worked hard. I done everything I could do to get job. But the luck was not by my side. I fail by 0.75 marks. Just one single question I would have answer right and I would have lived my life with honor and respect, not caring about others expectations. But now here I was standing beside my alpha, in the altar. Trying best to contain my tears as guest were congratulating me and my now husband, about their marriage. I know my husband, he is an Idol. He is an famous all around the world. But I didn't know anything about him as a person. The man looked intimidating and handsome but cold as ice and strict having threatening aura around him.

I didn't know if my now husband will let me continue pursuing dreams?

"I know what you are, me and my mother know Omegas like you. A gold digger who only wants our money."

I knew that time, that my future husband will fulfill all those fantasies of mine. I didn't know if my future husband will be as romantic as I had dreamed due to all those fan fictions I read about him. I didn't knew, what future has in front of me? Will mine dreams will crumble like a paper?

My husband and my mother-in-law are already planning to kick me out of their life. 

(Next Morning)

I wondered how anyone could be so cold and distant. I never met someone as cold as my husband. The same person who always smile to his fans. It's been a day and the man didn't even say a single word to me, yes he insulted me and called me a gold digger.

Whenever I tried to make conversation, he will only get nod or hum. It's only been a day and I am already starting to feel lonely. I had habit of writing diary occasionally when I feel I need something to let out. I looked at the A4 size diary in my hand. This will be my friend in this now lonely life of mine. I purposely bought new diary. I wanted to start of her new life with this new diary. I had already left everything behind. So my old diary.

I thought for a moment. I couldn't decide the title of my diary. Finally I decided and write on the front of diary.

"My Like as a Trisha Jonathan Wisdom."

Before living in Japan, my husband and I came to meet my mother and father in-laws. We were sitting on the breakfast table. Jonathan parents, me and Jonathan. Maids were serving them. I am silently eating the food in front of me. It's delicious and I am being the person who love to eat, I was eating really happily, not caring the weird glances I was receiving from my mother-in-laws. In my past, I never cared about people's talking on how much I eat. I ignored every mean

comment I would get. My love for eating was beyond imagination. The silence in the room, broken by Mr. Wisdom.

"Jonathan, are you sure you guys want to go to Japan today. I mean if you want, you can take leave for a week. Don't worry about your tour. I will handle it." he said to Jonthan. Trisha knew they were going Japan because of her husband tour.

"No. Dad. I have too much work in front of me. I can't make my fans sad." Jonathan answer him.

On the other hand, I am silently eating my food, listening to their conversation. I was glad that I didn't unpacked my things.

"But it's too soon son. Your wife has to learn our etiquettes and family rituals. Look how she is eating. And how she dressed herself. SHE has lot to learn." Mrs. Wisdom said, making

me freeze in my spot. No one has ever judge me like that. I couldn't help but be insecure of myself. I shrinked in my seat. I wanted to run away from here. Was I really eating too

much?

"Jane this is not a way to talk to our daughter-in-law." Mr Wisdom scold his wife.

"She is right dad. You choose wife for me but let my mother groom her. And mother If you want she can stay here for a week. Send her Japan later." Jonathan said, as he stands up as he has done eating, without sparing a single glance at me.

I sat there, and watched my husband go out. The food was long forgotten. I was hurt. Jonathan also think that I was eating too much. I excuse myself. I had  to release my emotions out. I was hurting. I had to write in his so called diary. Is this how my life would be from now on?

I wanted to tell my husband. I don't want live here without him. Didn't my husband realize, all those things and this environment was new to me? He was alone here. Whoever met me in this mansion was judging me and looking down at me. Making me insecure of myself. I had spent the whole day with my mother-in-law, and she was pointing out every flaws of me. How my cheeks shows. How should I would have been thin! How wrong way I eat. How I walk. How I should do that thing this way, that way. It was suffocating me. But I couldn't do or say anything. If I accidently say anything to my mother-in-law that I didn't like it, then these people will declare me arrogant and selfish. Which I was not.

I wanted to tell Jonathan to take me with him. Away from here. I wanted to tell him I didn't like the way his mother treat me. But I was afraid. What if Jonathan thought I was badmouthing his mother? He alraedy hate me. Think me somone who only wants his family money. But I dont want his money, I only want peace and maybe little bit respect. I was taken out of thoughts by a knock on the door.

I looked at the door. It was the butler. He gave hme halfhearted smile.

"The young master said to inform you that he is coming and you will leave for Japan in two hours and pack you bags." The butler said.

I wanted hug the butler. Maybe Jonathan wasn't that bad, that I had imagined. The butler left and I happily started to pack my things. I can't believe it. Jonathan is coming for me. He is coming to Japan to take me with him by himself. Maybe Jonathan will open up to her in Japan. I hoped. I will ask Jonathan, if it was okay for him if I started her exam studies again.

But all her hopes crumbled down when she knew why Jonathan personally taking to Japan. It's becuae of media and fans. They are questioning him and his family. Jonathan wants to protect his image as a great Artist who care about everyone.

It's nearly been a month and there was no progress in their relationship. Jonathan would only talk to me in yes or no. Which makes me think he was not interested in talking. I kept all things to myself. In just one month I  feel like I am not myself anymore. A walking talking beautiful doll. Fulfilling others expectations. Living for others. I was like a puppet in Jonathan mother's hand. I thought I had escaped her when Jonathan decided to take me to Japan with him. But I was wrong. She video called me every day. Enquiring if I had full filled every duty of an omega. If I welcome Jonathan with a smile or not. Prepare breakfast for Jonathan? Taken care of Jonathan everything. She even take control of my meals. She trained me how to walk, talk, how to dress herself in those elite people. She made me go on diet. Making me lose weight. I didn't't complain. I thought maybe if I do all she told, maybe Jonathan recognize me. At least spare me a glance as a wife, not some gold digger.

I was cleaning Jonathan and went to the studio early in the morning due to some important song recording. I realized in this whole month, Jonthan is really hard working person. He take his work really seriously. In his life nothing is important than his work. I looked myself in the mirror in front of my. Wasn't my mother-in-law said, I look like one of them now. Thin, dressed well, with those etiquettes and manner. Then why Jonathan didn't consider me? What was I lacking? The sudden ring of my phone take me out of those thoughts. I picked the call hurriedly.

It was Jonathan. He never called me before. He called me first time. It's sure something important.

"H-hello?" I answer.

"Uhhh.. Omega. There is blue file in the bedroom. Near the lamp. Could

you bring it in my office? I would have send someone, but the file is important and I need it in an hour. As meeting is in hour. If I send someone, it will take too much time." He answered me in a clam voice for the first time.

"Okay". I answe him happily.

He talk to me, he talk to me clamly. He didn't call me with names for the first time.

I hurried in bedroom. In hour? I can do it. My mother-in-law once said, Jonathan studio 45 minutes away from here. I hurried out while calling for taxi online. But every driver said they would take at least 40 minute to reach to her. I can't do that. I would be late if I waited for taxi, so I decide to take a bus. But I should have known, everything won't happen as I had thought it would be.

A Orphan omega like me who is good for nothing can't do it. Maybe be my mother-in-law is right. Maybe Jonathan is right. I am with him beacuse I had no one.