I sat there on the mat for some time to the point the automatic lights went dark and remained in the quiet darkness until some of the other members of the pack came in turning the lights back on with their movement. I mumbled some apology about startling them and telling them to be careful as the lights were acting up. I was fairly sure they knew I was lying but nodded politely as I exited. I went up to my room and was grateful to find the hallways and other areas empty of anyone else. Erin had never told me off quite like that before and I was trying to not only absorb that but also the part about him being right. He was right that I hadn’t really acknowledged how everyone else was doing but I had been lying to myself for a while now. I kept telling myself that if I could just find Rogan everything would go back to the way it was. It was going on almost 2 years and there was no way that even if I found Rogan he would be okay. It would take a lot of effort to find normalcy again and e
I was frustrated and so sick of Kellina’s crap. I knew the real reason in my mind but I was about to admit it. The truth was I wanted her to get over it so perhaps she would consider other options like me! Let’s face it I was going to have a mate anytime soon and Rogan was gone. We could be together and it seemed like the most realistic and practical situation. After all one thing I did know was that we had an attraction to each other so what was the big deal? I didn’t know what I was missing. The big fucking problem was though she knew what she was missing and she couldn’t get over it. I hated it. I wanted it to go away but there wasn’t an answer. As I stormed outside I ripped off my clothes and went full-blown wolf. I made my way out of the gates and debated about my options and where I could go. I wanted to be alone so as I glanced around the terrain around me I choose to go behind the pack house towards the mountain. There was not nearly as much patrol because the odds of rogu
We prepared the surgical area as quickly as possible and waited for the arrival of Erin and the prisoner known as Gorm. I had never seen Gorm but knew he was a red wolf that had chosen to go rogue for the Red Cresent Pack only to be betrayed and left here with our pack. I had heard that he had helped Kellina and I was grateful for that. Kellina was my little sister in so many ways and I loved her dearly. She never seemed to get a fair chance at happiness and my heart hurt for her. Laura the white priestess who had become her mother through no formal adoption but through love was also just as kind and I knew Kellina’s pain killed Laura as well. My heart ached for both of them always not just as fellow priestesses but as family. My own family had been gone too soon to and I understood that pain. My father was killed in the rogue attacks but I still knew who he was and had fond memories of our time together. My mother died I believe of heartache years later and the pain of dealing wit
The day quickly faded and it turned to night still without any real reassurance that Eric or Gorm was alright. At some point, I’d been assisted to shower and change clothes and I replayed the entire event in my mind. The day hadn’t started well and it had only gotten worse. I worried for my friends and selfishly prayed they wouldn’t leave me. Eric and Gorm were the only two I had that I could count on for just about anything and they allowed me to be who I was which wasn’t anyone anymore. As I sat there waiting for answers I started to realize I needed to change my ways. I knew deep down everyone was right this is not what Rogan would have wanted for me or anyone. I was the only person who could change that but changing it would be harder. I enjoyed living in the darkness because it was better than trying to live with brightness without him. It didn’t seem fair or right that I should be happy or even feel anything else but sadness. Still, I knew Rogan inside and out and he would
“They are gone! How can they be gone like that?” I felt frustration and anger knowing that three of our best red wolves had been lost to what I best guess was the Mystic Moon Pack. My fist pounded into the cave wall as I had no other way to express my anger. I watched now as rock flakes fell onto the ground of the misty floor. “I know you are taking this on yourself but you mustn’t. We both know they went too far, farther than we had ever allowed. It was a miracle we were even able to recover two of their bodies.” Athena placed her hand gently on my shoulder but all I felt was the rage as I whirled around to face her. “They went too far because there is nothing to eat up here and they went where there are better hunting grounds and actual food Athena! Our pack can’t keep living like this much longer!” I glared into my mate’s eyes pleading for her to understand. It was Athena’s duty to lead our pack but I was her mate it meant just as much to me to guide alongside her. “What
It had been days and Gorm nor the other red wolf was awake. There was no identifying the other wolf as he was found naked. Erin didn’t have much information as he had just come up on them and realized it was going to be a battle to the end. Thankfully, he was all but healed besides some healing left on his neck. The only real thing we had to go off was that they had to still be members of the pack because as soon as our guards left to assist with the injured by the time they came back the two dead wolves were gone. I waited to hope that the red wolf makes it as he could be a lead to the Red Crescent Pack which meant a possible lead on Rogan. I tried not to get my hopes up as the days progressed because so far neither Gorm nor the red wolf woke up and it was now Friday. It was a tough time for everyone especially Sophia who had not only absorbed every word I had spoken by Gorm but had barely left his side. The last few nights I’d had to go and wake her from beside his bed just
Dinner was unusually quiet except for Roe chatting away as if nothing could be different. I could feel the tenseness and every time I looked up at Corgan he would put his eyes down refusing to make contact with me. I wasn’t sure what the plan was or what was happening but I had the sudden feeling it was not going to be good. We finished dessert and the Luna asked Roe to leave the room to get ready for bed. I wondered if now they would finally talk about whatever it was they wanted to say. My stomach was overwhelmed with the amount of food I had just eaten and truly I just wanted to go back to my room. Then it hit me that maybe they want me to move out. Would I leave the space Rogan and I shared? I couldn’t imagine leaving the memories although not as many as I wanted that remained there. I loved that I could picture him anywhere there and imagine for only a brief moment that he was back with me. “Uhhum, well yes Kellina we asked you here tonight to discuss something with you that
I was a hot mess by the time I came back to the pack house. It was the middle of the night and I was grateful that it seemed quiet. I decided to go through the garden and in a back way trying to avoid as many wolves out and about in the area. Part of me had even debated about going to Laura but she had been happy with me that I was eating breakfast with them since Sophia had been staying and the last thing I wanted to do was stress her out even more. I walked into the garden and didn’t see a soul in sight so I took a breath and allowed the moonlight to show me how I really looked. My nails were dirty and muddy and my entire body was covered in scrapes because I’d allowed myself to run into the woods not caring what I ran into. I just had to get away was all I knew at that time. Now that I was realizing it they were burning and bleeding slightly but nothing too serious until I looked down at my calf. I’d been cut and was bleeding a great deal from the area. I didn’t have anything t
“He kissed her! He fucking kissed her!” I kept yelling in my brain as I raced up the stairs. I needed Rollo, I needed the Alpha and I was going to end this. I arrived at the door of the Alpha’s office and told the guard I needed the Alpha now, not a moment later Rollo arrived throwing his shirt on quickly. “Kellina my dear what is it? You don’t look okay?” Rollo checked me over and I knew he could see the bruises on my arm which out of just wanting to avoid the conversation I put my hands behind my back. “Rollo I need to talk to the Alpha now and need Corgan there.” “Corgan, what?” He questioned me but then stopped. “Okay, whatever you need my sweet girl.” He then turned to the guard. “You heard him go get Corgan now!” He barked and the guard jumped racing up the stairs. At that moment the door opened up and the Alpha stood there, “What the fuck is going on?” “I need to talk to you about the deal we made now please and” I turned to Rollo, “I need to make sur
The door creaked open and inside was the same setup as was in my previous cell. I could feel Kellina beside me breathing so heavily I was worried she would hyperventilate but when I turned to her she took a deep breath and then gave me the blankest smile. I knew it wasn’t real but she was there standing beside me as she always had. Part of me wanted to tell her everything right now that the kiss we had shared had filled in a thousand gaps in my memory and I knew now she was my mate but I couldn’t just yet because of the hold Athena had on me had to be released before I could even begin again with the beautiful white wolf with burgundy tangles of hair intertwined. I heard my wolf in my head. Mine it said and only that. I knew what my wolf wanted and so did I but the burning in my flesh from the fake mark Athena had given me had to be released because my whole self felt as if it would explode at any moment. I then turned to Athena’s true mate Erin and I couldn’t help but think ho
"What did you just say?” I knew I must have just heard it wrong but my body was heating up telling me differently, “I apologize perhaps I shouldn’t have just stated so I will ask but now the answer should be yes. Will you take a shower with me?” Rogan took a step forward and his eyes darkened and there was that flicker of silver that told me his wolf was also wanting the same thing. I looked around the room searching for someone to verify that we were hearing this all correctly but it was just me and him. “I uh....don’t know....uh.” He cut me off, “Kellina I need to know you’re safe after Corgan broke the bloody door down so it’s the only thing that makes sense is for us to be in the bathroom together and if we are going in together then I’d rather you just shower with me because neither one of us should be taking a cold shower and one of us would be if we waited on the other. It just makes the most sense, right?” Was he making perfect sense? What world was I li
I fell into a deep sleep and found myself reliving some of the most horrid memories of life. First I was in the dungeon with Hannah again and she was beating me to the point the pain then it went numb. I still remember the thought of death and the taste of my blood pouring into my mouth. Then I switched to the smiles of Rogan at the waterfall and suddenly I heard Athena’s cackle. The cackle stole my whole word and then I tasted Hannah’s blood in my mouth before seeing Rogan disappearing into the trees. I felt myself trying to scream and begging for help but it went nowhere. The louder I screamed the more it felt like nothing moved and I just kept trying then I heard his voice, “Hey Kellina, just relax, I’m right here.” I woke up shaking and I must have been saying his name for him to react that way. I felt his arms wrap around me with a feeling of trying to keep me safe as he whispered in my ear. “I’m right here. You were just having a dream.” The feelings of sparks and
My mind was reeling and pounding with the ideas of what I knew to be true. I felt more fucked up than I did even this morning when I woke up before I’d been set free to a certain degree. I pounced up to the room trying to ignore the sad moving body behind me. I couldn’t look at her and focus right now because I was still fucking angry about what I’d smelled. It was Erin, the wolf I halfway liked to be honest because he was tough and didn’t put up with all the bullshit like some of the other wolves. I even appreciated the way he was trying to get a handle on Corgan which was not an easy task. Fuck Corgan, what was that guy’s deal anyways? I know he was my brother and from everything I’d been told we were close so what the fuck was he on one about now? It felt like it was more than even just wanting to be the Alpha. He’d only come in and talked to me one time when I first got there, told me who he was, and asked if I remembered him. I know I was an asshole at the time,
I yelled with all my might and tried to grab Rogan’s arm to calm him but he threw me off in a rage. “Get the fuck off of me, this wolf knows what he’s done.” Erin was barely fighting him off at this point and I knew if something didn’t go Rogan was going to kill Erin right in front of me I screamed for others to come but even the guard Rave who came up was no match for Rogan at the moment. I turned to Corgan who was standing there stupidly laughing in his drunken state and grabbed him forcefully by his shirt collar. “You want to be the fucking Alpha! Then start acting like one you stupid dumbass!” His eyes shot up and stared and me in shock. I knew I’d never talked to Corgan like that before but desperate times called for it. “You really think I’m going to be with someone who will stand by and watch something like this! You are the only one that is strong as the fucking Alpha in front of you killing your friend so do something about it!” I finished off with a slap to h
There was barely a word spoken as we walked and she allowed me space to walk ahead of her without a word. I spent the entire night listening to the Red Crescent pack and knew those wolves like the back of my hand for the last few years they were all I knew and focused on. I could tell their subtilities if they didn’t want to tell me something but today there was none of that it was just the plain simple truth. I was where I was supposed to be and they all admitted to taking me away knowing that Kellina existed and was the true descendant of the red wolf. What's more, Athena was not my mate but had many different powers that were from dark ways that many didn’t know. She’d been gifted all of these lessons and information from her mother and father who also used them to trick the red wolves into their bidding and from those older wolves the memories of being tricked to kill Kellina’s own family. Until now there were so many fears about Athena that nobody would even consider go
I dashed ahead laughing as Gorm chased after me. I knew it wouldn’t be long before he caught up but I aimed towards our house. It was a small quaint house very similar to Laura and Rollo’s home but I loved the idea of having a home that was both ours! I ran through the picket fence and heard his breath catching up to me. “Woman you better get that door open quickly or I will have my way with you outside.” He said in a deep husky voice. I knew Gorm and knew he wasn’t kidding. I just had made it through the door and flung off my coat when his arms grabbed me pulling up so my feet were dangling and pushed his mouth onto mine in a passionate and forthcoming kiss. I giggled slightly and wrapped my arms around him. “What is so funny my love?” He pulled away looking into me. “Nothing is funny at all I just can’t help expressing my happiness is all.” I ran my fingers through his longer red hair marvelously at the sight of his strength as he still held me up in the air. With
The day and night were spent celebrating and talking a great deal to Rogan. I could not let this man that my Alpha loved to think she was something she wasn’t. I immediately pulled him to the side and told him everything I could including intimate details about Athena making me believe at one point that I was her true mate. Rogan about lost it at that point but I was lucky to have Critsy and other red wolves near to express the same to Rogan. It was difficult and damaging in some ways for him to hear. I knew Kellina could barely stand the hurt he was feeling by all of it but he had to know. So many red wolves had come to him and told him the truth of everything including going along with all of Athena’s ideas which truly did consist of allowing Rogan to believe they were true mates. With Critsy’s help, we had even been able to piece together the night that Rogan was taken and some of what happened after including drugging Rogan beyond consciousness and Athena using spells