My smile can’t be removed from my face while I’m talking to my readers while I’m signing their books. Paul is also singing now while I’m signing, of course he’s with the JAP Band.The other cameras are focused on me, the other cameras are focused on the audience. There are times that I have to stand up to take a picture with my readers.After the event, the others are slowly leaving already. We had a group photo earlier where in I’m with my fandom in different places and cities. The others even took an airplane just to see me, so I’m very thankful to them.When everyone left already except me and the staffs, I notice that Paul and his friends are still here, they are now fixing their instruments since it’s 8pm already. I walk towards the staff.“Is there still a book stock?” I ask.“No, Ma’am, your readers bought everything,” she answers before she laugh, I nodded as I laugh.I was thinking if I could give one of my books to Josh and Aeron, just to say thank you for performing in my e
After that day, I almost don’t want to be in public with Pauline as I’m scared that we might see him again.I saw Shia talking to Pauline while Pauline is looking at Shia’s phone screen. Tomorrow is Pauline’s contest already, so Shia is teaching her. I’m glad that Pauline is fast-learner, so it’s not hard to teach her.I took a peek of the screen, I grabbed it when I saw the picture that made both of them look at me. I gave Shia a look to tell her that we should talk.“Pauline, solve this problem, I’m going to check it later. I’m just going to talk to Mommy,” Shia says to Pauline before she stand up.I followed her, “What do you think are you doing?” I ask as I close the door of our room.“I’m doing what is right?” she says with her unsure voice, “Pauline is growing up already, Bavina. You can’t keep that in her whole life. She asked why does she have to put Ethan’s name and picture on the family tree when Ethan is not her Father. Do you think my conscience is not killing me for lying
Bavina’s POVWe’re currently here in the coffee shop near the school. I just said yes when he asked me if I’m free since it’s embarrassing to say no, and I’m not affected anymore! I’m not bitter on what happened from our past already!I took a sip of the tea we ordered. We both stayed silent, none of us tried to speak. I don’t know why he’s in the school as I didn’t notice him earlier.“So how are you?” He broke the silence between us, I tilt my head to look at him.I gave him a small smile, “I’m okay.”He nodded, he stared at me, I looked away.“How about the child?”The atmosphere between us suddenly changed. I look at my side and acted like I’m playing with my tea without looking at the tea.“My child is okay, she’s happy,” I answer with my low voice before I took a sip on the tea again. I sit properly and faked my cough to avoid the awkwardness.I look outside to avoid his gaze. Even though I’m not looking at him, I know that his eyes are fixed on me. I heard that he’s playing wit
“Please, Bavina… Don’t do this. I-I’m sorry, please give me an---”I cut his line by slapping his face.“Do you think everything can be fixed by just saying ‘sorry’? This is bullsh*t! Paul, where were you when I was still pregnant? Your reaction that day was still vivid to me! I still remember how you denied her in front of me! Why are you doing this now that I don’t need you?!” I yelled.I can’t understand my feelings right now. I’m happy that he’s here again and want to compensate with my daughter but everytime I remember how he left me, I still feel scared for my daughter.He didn’t do his responsibilities as a Father when I was still pregnant, what if he won’t do his responsibilites as well now that my child is slowly growing up?I’m scared of the possibilities.I gasped when he suddenly knelt down and held my hand while his tears are dropping endlessly.“Please, Bina… I love you, I still love you. I want to c-compensate with the both o-of you. I know I-I was an a-asshole for maki
I get his towel to wipe him since he’s so wet. We went to his condo since this is the only thing I know for him to get rest because I can’t let him go to my condo.I gulped while I’m wiping him. I changed his clothes for him not to get sick tomorrow. I remember the night we met, it feels like we came back to the past.I saw him kneeling in front of the car in the middle of the rain. It all started there, and it happened again now.In that six years that I didn’t see him this is the first time that I get to stare at his face for so long. He’s still scared of rain even until now. In that six years, what happened to him during the rainy days? Was there someone who helped him when I wasn’t there? Is he still dreaming of his Mom up until now?Maybe that’s what didn’t change about him.His eyes are slowly opening, I look away and I remove my hand on his face. I was about to stand up when he held my wrist that made me look back at him.I sit on the bed again as I sighed. He slowly get up. A
We’re watching Pauline playing with other kids here in the park. They are running while they are playing, I can hear her laughs and giggles from here.“She looks happy,” Paul says.“Yeah, she is,” I answer without looking at him. We’re sitting on a blanket that he brought while we’re on the grass.Yeah, Shia tricked me. She pranked me, only to see my daughter holding Paul’s hand. I don’t know when they started talking and they agreed to do this st*pid thing!I’m a bit guilty about what happened from the past knowing that I know his side now, but I don’t know how to start.“I should bring her more often here, then.” I look at him while he’s looking at Pauline. He turned his head to see me, he smiled at me.”I don’t care if you don’t want to see me, but I want to do everything to make my daughter happy. And I know that this can make you happy too,” he says, I look away.I hugged myself when the wind hugged me, the sky is getting dark, so the others are fixing their things to go home.“
“Mom, we’re going to have a vacation next week for the christmas,” Pauline says, I glanced at her as I smiled and nodded at her.“Oh, that’s good, where do you wanna go? Uncle Dad wants to have a vacation with us,” I say.Ethan is planning to take us somewhere Pauline wants, Ethan told me about it last week.“Mommy, does Uncle Dad likes you?” she asks, I turned my head to see her again. Shia even stopped from doing her reporting.She’s staying here as she feel bored in her condo.“Who said that to you? Uncle Dad is just being kind to us, baby,” I answer before I pinch her cheeks.“Then why did he told you to marry him?” she asks innocently. Shia and I look at each other. I glared at her when she’s forcing herself not to laugh.“Go and play now, baby,” I say without answering her question.I throw the ballpen I’m holding to Shia that made her laugh. Shia and Janine already know that Ethan liked me, they just stayed silent before because me and Paul were together back then.After a few
I opened the door when I heard the doorbell. It seems like Paul is here already since he texted me earlier that he’s going to visit Pauline.I saw his wide smile while he’s holding a cake and gift on his hands, he’s holding a flower as well. I opened the door widely to make him go inside but he handed me the flowers without stepping his feet to go inside.I looked at him, he gave me a this-flower-is-for-you look.“This flower is for my thank you for letting me meet my daughter,” he says, I force myself to smile before I get the flower.He went inside and greeted Pauline. Pauline became loud and jolly when she saw Paul. I watched them talking while Paul is giving his gift to Pauline.They are really alike, Pauline got her cheeks on me but it’s obvious that most of the parts of her face are from Paul.“Mommy, look! He gave me a gift!” Pauline said lively before she raised the gift, I smile and nod my head.I look at the red roses he gave me, I sniffed it to smell the flower which made m
I smiled when I saw Aeron and Josh, they are going to stay here to welcome the new year.“Uncle Aeroooon!” Pauline shouted before she run towards Aeron.It’s been days but it feels like they knew each other for so long because Pauline is really close with Josh and Aeron already.We’re currently here in our rooftop while waiting for the new year. It’s 11pm already but Pauline is still jolly.“We’re here, b*tches!” Janine shouted while walking towards us.She went to me and hug me.“You’re overreacting again, Janine!” Shia complains.“Why do you care?! Mind your own business!” Janine fired back, I laugh a little.They walk towards Josh‘s and Aeron’s direction since the beers are there already to celebrate the new year. I stopped when I saw who arrived next.He smiled at me.“Hi,” he says, I smile.“Aren’t you mad?” I ask, he laugh as he shakes his head.“I’m happy for you, Bavina. You know that I have nothing more to ask but to see you happy,” he says, I smiled and hugged him.“Ethan, I
“I won, Janine. Give me the half million!” Shia says.“Me too!” Josh and Aeron says, I raised my eyebrow.“Bavina! Why did you betray me?! If you didn’t comeback to him, I should’ve won!” Janine complains to me. My eyebrows arched.“We had a bet if you two will go back to each other. Since you came back to each other, me, Shia, and Josh are the winner,” Aeron explains, I glared at them.“You’re not a kid anymore!” I scolded them but they ignored me.After I thought wisely if I could accept him again, the four made a bet already. Wow, they are a good friends!We told them about our relationship already, everyone is happy, except for Janine who lost the bet.“There’s no back-out on this group, Janine!” Aeron teased Janine. She frowns.“Give me your bank accounts, half million is just coins for me. Do you want own land? Resort?” she asks to the three that made us laugh.“I want airplane!” Josh answers that made us laugh again.“I want boyfriend!” Shia yelled.“You won’t get a boyfriend!”
I suddenly stood up when I heard Pauline’s loud cry from our room, I put my clothes on immediately as I run to her.“Mommy!” I hugged her when I saw her red face.“What happened?” I ask while I’m wiping her tears.“I thought you and Daddy left me here,” she answers while crying, I hugged her again.“Mommy and Daddy slept on Uncle Josh and Uncle Aeron’s room, sorry,” I say.He wasn’t contented of what happened in the bathroom last night and we had a round two on the bed. Because of tiredness, I fell asleep there!“Stop crying, Mommy is here,” I comfort her.“Where’s Daddy?” she asks.“I’m going to call him, stay here, okay?” I utter, she nodded.Paul is still sleeping.“Hey, mister, wake up!” I say as I removed his blanket.My eyes widen when I saw his thing. That’s how big his thing is?! It became more big than before!I notice his look at me, I look away as I turned around.“Get dress, your daughter is waiting for you,” I say before I left the room to go to our room.As Paul went in
“Come here,” I spoke to Pauline. She sit in our middle.I look at Paul, I can see that he’s nervous but I gave him a smile to calm him.“Do you still remember how I described your Father?” I ask Pauline.She nodded, “He’s a singer, handsome, and loyal.”“What do you want to do now that you know some details of your Father?” I ask, she look at the sky like she’s thinking of the answer. I glanced at Paul, his eyes are getting red while he’s on Pauline’s back.“I want to see him and ask him why he’s not here. I’m five years old already but I haven’t seen him,” she answers with her low voice.“Are you mad at him?” I ask.She shakes her head, “No, Mommy. If Daddy has a reason, I don’t think I’ll be mad at him. Does Daddy still love us?”I slowly nodded, “He loves us, baby.”“Where is he now?” she asked while looking at me. I stared at his face.“B-behind you…”She turned her head immediately to see it, she stand up when she saw Paul.“P-Pauline…”Pauline’s tears fell from her eyes while st
Paul’s POVI couldn’t sleep last night because of what Pauline said while she’s sleeping. I can hear her voice despite the silence in our room. Her calling me Daddy makes me feel like she’s not mad at me despite what I’ve done from her and her Mother.I’ve been wanting to tell her that I’m her Father but I’m still scared, what if she won’t accept me? I’ve been wanting to hear her calling me ‘Daddy’ but the moment I’ve heard her, it felt like a dream, and instead of being happy, I felt something inside me aching and feel sorry for her especially for Bavina.Hearing my daughter calling me Daddy didn’t make me happy, it made me determined to prove to Bavina that I won’t run away from her again, and this time… I will be the great and happiest Father and husband for the both of them.I just want both of them to accept me, I have nothing more to ask.I sigh loudly. I look at my phone when it rings. The center is calling me again.“Hello, sir? Do you ha---”“No, I don’t have. Just tell him
Everything became clear to me because of what Aeron and Josh told me.He have been watching me all the time while I’ve been cursing him for making me live in h*ll. While I was hating him for abandoning me and the child, he was having a hard time to see me suffering.I don’t know who’s much worse between us. Him who knew everything from the very start but he just watched me suffer alone or me who didn’t know his side.I sigh loud while I’m looking at Pauline who keeps on giggling because Josh and Aeron are playing with her. Their concert will be later tonight, so they still have time to play with Pauline. Paul didn’t let them go outside for them to watch us and play with Pauline for her not to get bored here.“Mommy! Mommy!” Pauline run towards me when Aeron tried to catch her, she hugged my knee that made me laugh.“Don’t tickle me!” Pauline complains but Josh carried her and put her beside Aeron. I can hear her giggles in the whole room.After an hour, Paul came with our lunch, so I
I opened the door when I heard the doorbell. It seems like Paul is here already since he texted me earlier that he’s going to visit Pauline.I saw his wide smile while he’s holding a cake and gift on his hands, he’s holding a flower as well. I opened the door widely to make him go inside but he handed me the flowers without stepping his feet to go inside.I looked at him, he gave me a this-flower-is-for-you look.“This flower is for my thank you for letting me meet my daughter,” he says, I force myself to smile before I get the flower.He went inside and greeted Pauline. Pauline became loud and jolly when she saw Paul. I watched them talking while Paul is giving his gift to Pauline.They are really alike, Pauline got her cheeks on me but it’s obvious that most of the parts of her face are from Paul.“Mommy, look! He gave me a gift!” Pauline said lively before she raised the gift, I smile and nod my head.I look at the red roses he gave me, I sniffed it to smell the flower which made m
“Mom, we’re going to have a vacation next week for the christmas,” Pauline says, I glanced at her as I smiled and nodded at her.“Oh, that’s good, where do you wanna go? Uncle Dad wants to have a vacation with us,” I say.Ethan is planning to take us somewhere Pauline wants, Ethan told me about it last week.“Mommy, does Uncle Dad likes you?” she asks, I turned my head to see her again. Shia even stopped from doing her reporting.She’s staying here as she feel bored in her condo.“Who said that to you? Uncle Dad is just being kind to us, baby,” I answer before I pinch her cheeks.“Then why did he told you to marry him?” she asks innocently. Shia and I look at each other. I glared at her when she’s forcing herself not to laugh.“Go and play now, baby,” I say without answering her question.I throw the ballpen I’m holding to Shia that made her laugh. Shia and Janine already know that Ethan liked me, they just stayed silent before because me and Paul were together back then.After a few
We’re watching Pauline playing with other kids here in the park. They are running while they are playing, I can hear her laughs and giggles from here.“She looks happy,” Paul says.“Yeah, she is,” I answer without looking at him. We’re sitting on a blanket that he brought while we’re on the grass.Yeah, Shia tricked me. She pranked me, only to see my daughter holding Paul’s hand. I don’t know when they started talking and they agreed to do this st*pid thing!I’m a bit guilty about what happened from the past knowing that I know his side now, but I don’t know how to start.“I should bring her more often here, then.” I look at him while he’s looking at Pauline. He turned his head to see me, he smiled at me.”I don’t care if you don’t want to see me, but I want to do everything to make my daughter happy. And I know that this can make you happy too,” he says, I look away.I hugged myself when the wind hugged me, the sky is getting dark, so the others are fixing their things to go home.“