Chapter 4

I refilled the glass with my second serving of whisky, the dream had come back again. Matthew's face, his words - warning me to stay away.

Since I had found my mate, Matthew hasn't left my side, he has been in my head and in my dreams, constantly reminding me of the doom that awaits if I am to give in to the mate bond.

"I don't think Alpha Jax will be too happy to see you drinking Luna, especially this early in the morning." A voice chided, grabbing the glass from my hand and emptying it into the sink.

It was Derek's mate, it might be my warped perception but her belly appeared to be three times bigger than the last time I saw her. 

"Twins" She stated, as if reading my mind running a protective hand over her belly.

I nodded. "Congratualtions." I chipped, hoping to sound sincere, but I think all I could manage was a sarcastic tone. I'm not the biggest fan of babies myself but seeing other people grow their families warms my heart.

Alexandria was stunning, with glowing dark skin and tight curls that grazed her shoulders, she had deep coffee brown cat-like eyes that held so much warmth but ferocity beneath them. Right now she was smiling at me and I couldn't help but smile back at her. She stood with so much grace despite carrying two human beings inside of her, she was a Beta's wife, but it wouldn't surpise me if she descended from Alphas.

"How about we replace the whisky with some coffee Luna." She gave me one of her warm smiles and proceeded to turn on the coffe machine.

"My name's Felicity." I gently corrected, massaging my temples. "And just so you know, it calms me. It's not as if I'm drunk."

She laughed. "Still, I advice you don't drink, it's not good, especially if you plan on having any kids in the future."

Not if Matthew keeps popping up in my head.

"It's nice to have company in the morning, Derek doesn't wake up for another hour so its always just me and the boys." She chuckled, pointing to her belly, her eyes softening at the mention of her sons. She radiated so much love and happiness, it almost made me envious. I only managed a half-hearted smile, my head was still spinning from the lack of sleep.

"Good morning Alex." Jax greeted as he came down the stairs.

"Morning Alpha." She bowed despite her condition, smiling. Her dark brown skin appeared to follow suit, refelcting her radiance. She took her coffee and left to another part of the pack house, her yellow summer dress swifting simultanously with her calculated steps.

"Felicity." Jax's eyes widened and he stopped in his tracks. "I thought you had escaped again." And just in time, five guards stormed into the kitchen stating, between laboured breaths, that they couldn't find me.

I gave them a sarcastic wave, the annoyance on their faces was truly comical.

"I see you distrust me a lot more than I thought, waking up in the bed alone does not mean I've run away." I rolled my eyes, I know he had every right to not trust me, but I mean seriously, he couldn't even look before raising an alarm.

"Apologies, but considering last weeks events there isn't really much to go on in terms of trusting you." He smirked, advancing to where I stood.

"Lets try this again, morning Felicity." Leaning down, I moved my head to the side, so his lips only brushed my cheek.

"What's that smell?" His eyebrows furrowed as he took a whiff of the air.

Uh oh.

"Felicity, have you been drinking?" He asked incredulously, holding me at arms length as if he couldn't believe he was asking me such a question.

"Yes, what the big deal? It's not like I drank the whole bottle!" I exclaimed.

"Did you do this a lot in your old pack?" He probed, examining me like I had a secret stash hidden somewhere in my pocket.

"Most days." I muttered, earning another look of disbelief.

"I don't know why you're so shocked, Mr. High and mighty Alpha, don't you drink as well." I snapped, glaring at him. What right did he have to be angry?

"Felicity, you're drinking at 10 o'clock in the morning and you think there's nothing wrong with it." Jax rested his hands on my shoulders, forcing me to look at him.

"Why do you do it?" His voice had now dropped in tone and he stared at me with...pity.

"None of your damn business." I bit back, removing his arms from my shoulders and walking away.

"Felicity wait." He sighed, grabbing my wrist. "I'm your mate, I want you to be able to tell me these things, I want to help you."

I pulled my hand back.

"Help me?" I laughed sarcastically. "You don't know the first thing about me." And with that I stormed away, slamming the door behind me.

I paced across the bedroom in anger, how dare he think he can just waltz into my life, take me away from my pack and try to tell me I need help.

Help my ass.

The best way he could help me was to let me go home. Every time I looked at Jax all I saw was the family curse, my unchangeable future. I never used to believe in such tales, but ever since the death of Matthew I now know how wrong I was.

A knock on the door brought me from my thoughts.

"Come in." I replied, smiling when Veronica entered the room, Arabelle and Axel in tow.

"Hey Felicity, Holden and I plan on going out for a romantic picnic date. I was wondering if you and Jaxon could watch the twins while we're gone." She smiled when the twins ran into the room, making themselves comfortable on the bed.

"Sure, but-"

"Great, thanks, see you at 5."

"You're welcome but-"

"Plus it will be great practice for the future." She winked.

"Wait, but Veronica-"

"Bye!"

She waved, closing the door behind her. I was left rooted to the spot, my mouth wide open. I was in no state to babysit. 

***

"No fair!" I pouted as the twins high fived and ran off with the sacred stuffed toy.

Getting up from the floor, I immediately pursued the screaming twins.

"I, Jack Sparrow demand my treasure be returned to me. Or face the consequences!" I entered the 'empty' room, searching for the thieves. They were hiding somewhere, I just had to find them.

"Hmmm I wonder where the thieves are hiding." I pranced around the room, searching under the bed and behind the shower curtain, until I spotted Axel from the corner of my eye.

Wordlessly I pulled open the bathroom door and pointed to him, a wide smile on my face.

He placed his finger over his lips. "I'll tell you where Belle is hiding if you pretend you never saw me."

Kids.

Before I could reply, Arabelle jumped out of her hiding place to pinch Axel on the arm. "That's cheating!"

Axel shook is head proudly. "No it's not, Jax said that's how everyone plays hide and seek."

Coincidentally at that same moment Jax entered the room, without realising our presence he collapsed onto the bed.

"Jax!" Axel called eagerly, jumping onto his brother. His screams of laughter were almost deafening when Jax began to tickle him.

"Boys." Arabelle muttered, walking passively behind her much hyper sibling.

Climbing onto the bed, she pushed Axel out of the way as if ashamed by his childish behaviour. The relationship between the two was hilarious, mostly because of their contrasting personalities.

"Jax, is it true you told Axel that snitching in hide and seek is good?" She looked up at him with wide light brown eyes, the conflicted look on his face was amusing.

Unfortunately, luck was on his side. There was a knock on the door and Jax quickly got up to answer it, putting Arabelle up on his shoulder as he did so; I smiled when Axel latched on to his leg. The extra weight appeared not to faze him.

"Hey mum." Jax greeted, opening the door for her to come in.

"Thank you so much for looking after Arabelle and Axel today." She picked Axel up from the floor and dusted his clothing.

"I only arrived about two minutes ago, why didn't you tell me the twins were coming over?"

"I told Felicity, I thought she would have told you." He looked at me and I looked away, reminded of our argument earlier today.

"You mean, Felicity looked after these two troublemakers by herself?" I nodded, smiling sheepishly.

"You're truly a natural." She praised, still in shock.

"Thanks again." Jax lowered Arabelle from his shoulder.

"You're welcome." I smiled.

"Well I better give these two a bath before bed." She heaved as she picked up Axel and took hold of Arabelle's hand. I waved goodbye as Jax closed the door behind them.

Now it was only Jax and I in the room and I suddenly began to feel incredibly squashed in the large room.

"I'm going to go get a snack, want anything?" I spoke up amidst the stone cold silence.

"Yes." I gasped as he grabbed my hand and whirled me around.

"You Felicity"

I searched his eyes and around his face, hoping for a smile or a hint that this was some lame joke. When I realised he was being serious, my lips smoothed into a straight line and I glared at him. "I'm not a fucking snack, I'm a werewolf and in case you're unfamiliar with that term I suggest you grab a book from one of the libraries and educate yourself."

His eyes suddenly became pitch black as he trapped me between the wall and his solid body, so I couldn't escape. "Have you completely lost your mind? I'm your Alpha and mate. Show me some respect." He seethed.

I sighed, putting my hands on his shoulders to create some distance between us. "I've told you before and I'll tell you again. I. Don't. Want. A. Mate." I drawled out the words, hoping he would finally comprehend what I'm saying. Alpha's are known for being quite slow when it comes to the opposite sex.

"You don't know who I am, so I am simply warning you to stay away from me. You do not want me as your mate, just as I do not want you." He stared at me with utter disbelief as his body froze.

I waved a hand over his face, relieved he at least had the ability to blink.

"Send me home, reject me, bond with another female, do whatever you want as long as I have nothing to do with it." I more or less begged him.

His eyes were still bulging out if their sockets. "How can you say such a thing?" He looked at me as if I was the most sadistic person he had ever met and he was probably right.

It was my turn to pin his body against the wall as I softly whispered into his ear.

"Because, trust me Alpha Jax, you're making a big mistake."