Ready to go to work Linna looked at herself in the mirror, wearing a feminine tuxedo and a red scarpin. But it is one of the few clothes that give her a more empowered view of herself. The best part is waking up early, reading a little novel, doing some treadmill and taking a cold shower. However, when you get ready to go to your company, it makes you feel much happier. I mean, to look in the mirror after all this time and find a woman who owns herself is something insignificant.
She put her hand in her pocket and took a picture, then updated her social networks. She is not the kind of person who posts her entire routine there, but she does like to post pictures of herself and her clothes. At twenty-two she had a totally cliché style and liked it until she was judged in her wedding dress. With the most beautiful wedding dress in the world. Now her style was totally formal, most of her clothes were ensembles, slacks and dress shirts, skirts and shorter blouses, all with the same pattern or the same colors. Shoes? All are heels, the sneakers she has are only for walking.
Linna now never goes out in any outfit.
She also didn't care much about her skin, even though she used to use masks sometimes, now every day she usually uses sunscreen and almost every night she does a routine and dips her face in a bowl of ice. It has turned her oily skin into combination skin, like a miracle.
He closes the windows of his apartment and picks up the keys, to his house, his car, and the presidential office. That is, his living room. He locked the door with his fingerprint and entered the elevator feeling a very pleasant climate. Because she lives on the tenth floor she is used to waiting ten minutes until she gets to the first floor, because the other residents always get in when the elevator stops. But she doesn't mind this either, the people in her building are lovely.
- Good morning, Linna. - said Mrs. Mary smiling, an eighty year old woman full of energy, Linna wishes she could be like that when she is that age. Even if there is still plenty of time to think.
- Good morning Mary, how are you? I heard that your son took you to the academy yesterday. - She smiled without showing her teeth.
- Oh, I am very well dear, Jerry took me yesterday, it was very crowded but I enjoyed it very much. It's different from my walks. - Laughs.
- I see.
In minutes the elevator filled up, as usual she stayed in the back, leaning against the wall, until finally reaching the parking lot. At this time in the morning many people usually leave, so it took a little longer before he was finally on the avenue. Fortunately his home was not far from his company, today his day was all committed, he likes days like this.
What he doesn't like is to do nothing, as he used to do in the past.
Tapping his fingers on the steering wheel he listened to phonk. The sensation he feels when listening to this rhythm is unique, it is a kind of mix between electronic and R&B maybe, it is not even possible to say what exactly it is. Linna likes the vibe it gives, calm and fun, a rhythm that is impossible to stand still. It is what gives her a little extra pep in the morning, and just being able to listen to it in her car makes her even happier.
She spotted her company from afar, ten stories high, all with tinted glass, a beautiful garden in front of it adorning the parking lot even more. It was a pleasure to see those people coming and going so early in the morning, and even better to know that it changes other people's lives. It is something gratifying. He parked in the space with his name on it, grabbed his black handbag, and got out of the car and handed the key to the company's valet.
- Good morning, Mr. Lorent. - He smiled at the attendant.
- Good morning missus. - He waved back. Linna went through the revolving door straight to the reception desk where she met a friend that the job had given her, Stella.
- You look very happy today, I like to see you like this. - Said Stella, pinning her name tag on her white shirt with the building's logo.
- My day is just the way I like it. - She smiled broadly, tapping her fingernails on the black counter with gold marble details.
- Good, because you have an exclusive meeting right now at eight o'clock with the CEO of a company. - He winked.
- I'll go upstairs and get ready. What's it about? - One of the things you usually do is make an agenda for each meeting, and it's most practical when you're face to face with the person.
- He wants to make a proposal for a contract, to socialize with his company. - He checked in his notebook before speaking to his friend.
- Okay, when he arrives send him up. - she ordered, and proceeded to the executive elevator. She put some lip gloss on her mouth, since she didn't use any lipstick, and went into her office. As always, everything remained in place.
The desk in front of the airy windows, with the computer on one side and the notebook on the other. Linna also thought this unnecessary until she understood that with the notebook it is much easier to sign contracts, and the computer to perform the online services and also check the price tables and people. The company's landline phone next to the pencil rack, two armchairs for her clients, and a yellow divan in the back with some magazines spread out for reading. And, of course, his bathroom. Simple, small, but very well used.
She put her purse inside one of the cabinets and sat down, turning on the machine, the contract for partners was physical, so it was in her drawer. Then he just turned around, opened it with one of the keys, and picked up the yellowed sheet cake. She left everything ready on the table, taking about twenty minutes before she put all that paperwork away from her desk. Linna hates disorganization, she always tries to leave everything in its proper place, that's why she only trusts her room to one person, because she knows that she will clean and leave everything exactly as it is. Unfortunately, if a pencil is out of place, she notices.
He stared at the white desk clock, eight forty in the morning, the exact moment there was a knock on his door. She shouted one in, already knowing it must be the man who called the meeting. He typed into the computer entering the registration page, since his partners have to be registered with the company as well. Meanwhile the man closed the only button on his tuxedo and swallowed dryly.
- Good morning, Linna. - That sounded too intimate for her, even if her partners call her by name. She looked away from the computer and faced the man, standing up and taking his hand.
- Good morning, sir... - She doesn't remember seeing the name of the person who had called the meeting, but she just had to stare at that face for more than five seconds to know who it was. He looked different, his hair was huge, slicked back with gel, his face looked much more manly, and his voice... very different.
Yet to her nothing had changed.
- Mr. Robert Scully. - Linna let go of his hand immediately and felt dizzy, she put her hands on her eardrums and denied it with her head.
- Just a minute. - Without waiting for him to respond she followed him into the bathroom, putting her hands on the marble sink and staring at herself in the mirror. - This can't be true," he whispered. - he whispered. - Act like a professional, Linna. That's who you are, don't let the past haunt you, that man doesn't deserve your attention. - Even though she felt like crying, as if everything was coming back to life, she took a deep breath and left the bathroom. - I'm sorry, a mosquito got in my ear. - You made up the silliest excuse. - Sit down.
Robert sat down without taking his eyes off the woman in front of him. So different from ten years ago. She didn't even look the same. Her body was not thinner, she looked much bigger, her hair was short, above her neck, with blond streaks. Her posture seems much stiffer now, yet it makes her look very pretty and those clothes fit her very well. She licked her lips moving her rings before speaking.
- First, I want to apologize for all the chaos I caused. - Linna made an effort to remain serious, or with that fake smile on her face, showing no teeth, just maintaining the pose of not caring. - I was too immature, I didn't know the consequences of things, and I am aware of what I did, and that it was totally wrong. I really regretted what I did that day.
Robert was being sincere, sitting relaxed in his chair, but without showing his nervousness and of course his tension. Because in fact the back of his neck was sweating like never before. He was ashamed. And she? She hated it.
- I don't want to know. You didn't come here to talk about the past, so let's get down to business. - She picked up the papers and slapped them on the table, leaving him totally flabbergasted.
- Of course. - With a large sweaty hand he smoothed his chin, trying to relax.
- I understand that the meeting is for the partnership application. - He stared at him with shallow eyes.
- Yes. My company, I mean, my parents' old company, is in a state of destabilization, I've tried several ways to save it, but I only get into more trouble. I thought that the more partners, the more business would go on, but now I have late checks and a lot of problems within the company. - He sighed in annoyance. - Since his start-up company is being very well spoken of in the city, I did some research and the businesses are the same. I thought about the possibility of proposing to become partners, and thought about a second marriage proposal. This way it would become a controversy, and my company's sales would start to go up again, and little by little I would get rid of a few annoying partners who get on my nerves. - Linna could hardly believe it.
- Are you finished? - he stammered.
- Yes. - Every minute he swallowed his saliva dry, there wasn't even any saliva left.
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- Are you kidding me? - Linna stood up and punched the table without caring about the pain in the tendons of her fingers. - How dare you show up here after all this time to make me an offer like this? You really are out of character, Robert. I'm not interested in companies about to go bankrupt, and as for marriage, I have no desire to get married. Not even if you were the last man on earth. - She didn't spare her throat, she felt she had to say everything she hadn't said all this time.
He was already waiting for this, it was the stupidest idea yet he knew it was all he had left. His misconduct with the company had made everything go down the drain and his parents had completely ignored him for years, so there was no one to turn to for help except his own company's employees. But they are not very smart.
- I'm sorry, I had no other choice, the no I already had then...
- Then nothing! You should be ashamed to come here and ask me for this. -Robert stared at her well-drawn, gloss-lit lips, losing himself for milliseconds.
- Believe me, I'm very ashamed. - He cringed, staring at his dress shoes and closing his eyes tightly. - I know you still have a lot to say to me, it's okay, I deserve it. I deserve a lot more than just a big mouthful.
- You have ruined my life. Not only did you dump me at the altar, you humiliated me in front of all those people, your girlfriend. I felt like crap on a day that should have been at least joyful. I believed there could be a friendship between us but you expose me in the worst possible way. - She pointed her forefinger at him. Fortunately she was expressing her anger without any tears falling. - Even if I killed you this anger wouldn't end.
Before he dared to say anything three knocks on the door interrupted him, not knowing who it was Linna let herself in feeling her throat hurt and her nostrils flare. Then a child entered.
- Hi mom, Aunt Stella said I could come in. - Oh, of course, Linna had forgotten that her son was coming to the company after his Mandarin course. At once she smiled and went over to him.
- Oh, your aunt is crazy and forgot that I was in a meeting. - She hugged him and then kissed his forehead. - How was the course, Matt?
- Today we had a sign game. We sat in a circle and played a kind of tag. - Linna just loves the way her son explains things, gesturing with his arms and hands.
- That's great, son.
He remembered the man standing there. Robert stared at the child, not believing that he had a son, and a big one at that. He suspected that he was perhaps eight years old because of his height. The boy had a lean body, his features were identical to hers, but his hair was very straight and black, covering his forehead. She noticed his mother giving him a deadly look.
- You can go now, the meeting is over. - Robert stood up, taking slow steps, snapping his fingers.
- But...
- The answer is no, Robert. Now go away.
As soon as Robert left the room Linna faced her son, holding his chin. The little boy looked at her dying to ask who it was, but he didn't dare to do that because he was used to meeting his mother at work. Matthew loved getting to know the company, he was very keen to be there, and has even dared to call friends from school to visit the place where his mother works. Even though he was so small and without any knowledge about the adult world and its achievements, he knew that this was a huge accomplishment for her.- What do you say we go to Grandma's house? Matthew jumped for joy, his grandparents spoil him and of course he loves going there. But in Linna's case, she only decided to go at the last minute because she needed to talk to her mother urgently. As her confidant, she was the one she ran to when she needed to talk.- Come on, Mom. Let's go! - Matthew pulled her hand away, as she ran to get her purse and keys. She held her son's hand back, smiling; just his presence brought her
The answer was yes. To both emails. Linna deep down wanted it to be no and so she wasn't going to well on the matter and would tell her parents that she did what she could in passivity however it didn't seem enough. But there was no going back. Not anymore. Now she was sitting at a table for four, in a corner of the most famous Italian restaurant in town, with classical music playing in the background and people whispering and sipping wine. She wished she could be there if she were in good company.Robert was the first to arrive and didn't know that his parents had been summoned for that conversation. Linna stayed on her cell phone even though it seemed rude, she would do anything not to have to face the man in front of her. He was drumming his fingers on the table, staring at his watch and pretending to be in a hurry, because in truth his evening was completely over.His night had been free for six years.He was surprised by the girl's change. He remembers all his past very well, jus
A week had passed since Linna had met with the Scully family, and no one had contacted you, which was already making her create her own conclusions about it. For herself it was too long to have a breakdown. She felt that she had done the right thing but had done it the wrong way or that maybe she shouldn't have done the right thing.She was insecure. Too insecure. More than I would have liked. Robert's parents apparently loved the idea of having a grandchild, their eyes even sparkled, they both promised to talk to their son and bring answers to this desperate mother. But where are they? Where are they with this so-called answer?Linna was already getting a headache, it was late afternoon and she was finishing updating some price sheets before picking her son up from school. Her company is called Fizz, a marketing company. Most things happen on the app, which is where people have access to various courses from his partners and the company's vice presidents, and learn how to make money
Linna felt her body heavier, blinked her eyes and felt a strong light that made her close her eyes for a while until she got used to it. She moved her arms and noticed a thin sheet over her body, opened her eyes again, sighing deeply and seeing a hospital room. It wasn't the hospital she usually went to, but it was also one of the more expensive ones.- Daughter!Her mother suddenly approached the bed, Linna felt her touch, her hands rough and wrinkled. Suddenly her mother's figure took her field of vision, she looked very worried.- Mom, where's Matt? - He shook his head, observing the whole room and seeing that there was only his mother there with him. And well, it was that man who had taken her there, her son was with her. So Matt should be there.- Calm down, he's with Robert in the eating area.- Oh, shit. - I was still trying to understand what exactly he wanted, what his family wanted. Because that hadn't been the deal.- Calm down sweetheart. - Daise stared at her hands, after
It was already ten o'clock in the evening when Linna finished dressing, a black dress that fell just a hand above her knee, with a scarpin of the same color and almost non-existent makeup. It would be a lie if she dared to say she didn't try to do something more eye-catching, yet she never managed to learn a good makeup, perhaps she didn't have this skill. Just like many others. She left the house taking only a handbag with her documents and cell phone inside, she was going to a bar close to her house, a fancy bar. Its name was Sexy Porsche.She made the decision to drink a little, even alone, after she learned that it wouldn't do any good to stay home crying because her son had been at his father's house for a week and hadn't even called her. She was sad, too melancholic, staring at every corner of the house and remembering her son. Everything was very empty and maybe this was exactly the reason why she decided to give herself a chance and go out.Her friends were not in town, so she
Robert stared at his son eating watermelon lying in the movie room, a cartoon was playing there, in fact the cartoon was playing for the third time. No doubt having a child during this week in his huge and empty house was incredible. Not that his son is noisy, but they both like the same things.He discovered that Matthew likes drums and piano, but also loves to read, plays table tennis and basketball very well, and that his favorite food is sushi. This was a total surprise to Robert, after all his family is of ancient Asian descent, and anyway to see this passed on to his son was even surprising.Matthew visited his grandparents as well, and they talked a lot. The truth was that Matt felt that now his life was moving forward, now he would feel what he was supposed to feel after years of not knowing about all these things. Now he knows that it takes time to know everything, to know his father completely and his father to know him, even if it is easier.- This is your last piece of wat
Linna was about to go down from the presidential office to the company hall, where the real party was taking place. Actually she was nervous, nervous because there were European foreigners there keeping an eye on her business and because Robert is there. Inside that room. The reason was to ask about her son but she ended up getting a phone call and staying right there.The decision to invite the whole Scully family was the first step to make the two families not be at war every time they see each other, as Matt stayed with his nanny. Of course he doesn't like the idea of having a nanny, but on occasions like this Linna still doesn't think he is ready for parties like this. Totally tedious.She had already forgiven that man and his family, however in the last few days she seemed overthinking it. About what she herself had done to herself, to her family. Matthew had gotten used to not having a father who cared about him, but remembering all the times he asked about his father when he wa
With the importunate thoughts out of his mind Robert stared steadily at Linna, sitting on that yellow couch trying to disguise his gaze by staring at the buildings outside. It was certainly a beautiful sight, but it couldn't compare to it. It was getting harder and harder for him to see Linna so many times a week, I mean, everything seemed so different. And the way she looked charmed him, and it wasn't even her looks.His heart was racing every time their eyes met. Everywhere. Even though he knew that the look coming from those beautiful brown eyes to him had no feeling at all, there was no anger or hurt, but there was no brightness either. Understanding this is easy for him, because he knows the things he has done, and he also knows that for her it might still be unbearable to stay in the same room as him every moment.Closeness was difficult for both of them, as much as Robert was enjoying it more and more. Even though he avoided silly, silly smiles and of course unnecessary comment
- What do you say we take a trip this weekend Matt?Robert went to pick up his son from school after feeling guilty for not getting up early enough to take him. Matt was happy that his father had gone and recognized that he was also doing his best to do what his mother was doing on such short notice.- Where to? - Going to places away from home encouraged the pre-teen, fortunately. It was hard to get used to a routine without his mother around.- I thought we might go to Orlando, have you been to Disney?Robert didn't have any trips planned, but he knew that he needed to cool off and his son needed that too. When he thought of a trip to take with Matthew the first place that came to mind was Disney, because it was a totally childish place he wanted to make sure that both of them didn't stop to think about it that way.- Really Dad? I've never been there, Mom always said she would save up money for us to go, but we always ended up taking other trips. She seemed to want to go there more
Three days had passed since his burial, Robert remained lying in his bed, staring at the ceiling of his room. Absolutely nothing was funny. He hadn't slept for a day since he had seen her in that coffin. He had been through grief before, but this was much stronger than himself. The love he felt for her was not able to show even half as much as the illness took her away.At the funeral Robert sat beside her, in the white plastic chair that was not at all comfortable, every second from seven in the morning until three in the afternoon he stayed there. Without eating, without drinking. He stroked her loose curls down the side of her face, would it be too much to say that she looked beautiful? He loved her natural shape, no make-up, pink lips and messy hair. This is how she looked. Linna didn't have pale skin, her melanin glowed. Her outfit had been a flowered dress, she liked joy, she never had this kind of conversation with Robert but he felt she deserved the best. So she asked to be dr
- The methodology we use is the fastest, which has a four-day deadline. - he agreed, he was not interested in what it was but how long it would take. - The cross math is basically when we put together her serum samples with her cells, which would serve as a kind of simulation, what would occur in an organ transplant. If Linna has in her blood composition the antibodies against HLA antigens from the donor's cell membranes, she can almost totally reject the organ received through transplantation, which in this case would be hers. Already in this case, the compatibility test is considered positive, and the transplant is contraindicated. The crossmatch test can use only total lymphocytes, without separation of subtypes, and is called an Initial crossmatch test. So basically people who have the same blood type, for example, are not indicated to do it, because it would certainly snow the organ.- That's fine. - She understood almost nothing of what was said by the short, thin nurse. - In fo
- What are the chances that you are a match? Of any of them being a match? I don't have any hope left. - Robert looked at her like a newborn baby that needed a lot of care. That was how he saw her at that moment. If he could take her into a glass bubble and keep her there until she recovered, he would do it. It would protect her from the world, from everything. Including his own body.- Baby, it's going to be all right! - He knew that this was his last hope. The compatibility test. If they all came back negative there was really nothing to be done, and Linna would just be waiting for the time to go out of their lives. Because she was weak, mellow, pale. When you meet someone radiant and see them like this your will is to give all your strength to that person.- Will you lie here with me? - she asked brazenly.- No. You're in pain and you can't move, not even think. If you want I can lower the arm of the bed and you can lie on my chest. - She rolled her eyes and agreed, in fact she at
Linna opened her eyes slowly, blinking countless times in a second feeling a huge pain in her back. Until her eyes got used to the dim lighting of the place and she could finally see everything around her, including the doctor who was waiting for her to wake up, slouched over the arm of the hospital bed. Her mouth was extremely dry, which made her cough before she could say anything.- My back... - Her voice was very low and hoarse, she tried to move, but Talia denied it with her head, touching her arm lightly. - They hurt a lot.- Don't move. - The doctor came a little closer.- How long have I been here? - The rain was falling hard outside, she was still unable to turn her head to look through the glass window.- Today is the fifth day. - Linna would be able to widen her eyes if her head didn't hurt so much. - You've had another alveolar hemorrhage, Linna. - she sighed. - This time much more intense. We had to put a blood bag of a few millimeters for you. Your body is being attacked
She touched her mother's face, it was impossible not to smile with all that innocence. As if it were easy.- Oh my son, I'd love to but you're a child, you can't. - Matthew hugged his mother's body, Linna hugged him back tightly, smelling the baby soap he has been using since birth because he has allergies to some kinds of soap.- Mom, I don't want to introduce you anymore. You can tell the school and then they'll write another paper! - I said, whispering in his ear, afraid that his father was going to make him go to the presentation because of his grade.- It's okay, Matt. If you don't want to, we won't force you to. - He pulled away and touched his even smaller hands. - See, your dad will call the school and explain what happened, and you'll stay here with me.- Are you sure? - Robert walked over and watched Matt's hair flip up and down like it had after the nasty thing he said. His son just nodded. - Matt, I'm sorry I talked like that, but you have to understand that sometimes it's
- I have a headache. This damn headache again! - He put his hand on his temple and snorted loudly.- Hey. It's okay, if you want you can stay home and I'll take Matt to the presentation, or I can ask my mom to take him.- No, we'll go. - Linna forced her eyes to turn to him and tried to look at him, but Robert noticed her distant eyes and held her fat face in his hands.- No. You're in no condition to go. I'm going to stay here with you and call my mother! - He said, already seeing Linna frown several times in a row, which indicated that she was going to cry very soon.- Go with Matthew, he wants his parents to watch him together at least once. - she whimpered in supplication.- I'm not leaving you alone, Linna. Don't be stubborn. What if something happens and you're here alone? That's no idea. - Matt entered the room and his smile vanished when he saw his mother with her head down and apparently sad.- Mom, is everything okay? - They both looked at him in a rush, she in particular sw
On the evening of that day Matthew had a presentation at school, a theater performance of The Wizard of Oz, where he would be the scarecrow. During the day there were preparations inside the school, he didn't even imagine that his parents were dressed as a bride and groom almost lost on a rented farm in the middle of nowhere. The two looked at each other like never before, if before their love could be exhaled, now it was able to shine like an angel. They got back to each other before nightfall, after they had played catch-up and finished with the bottle of wine.Matt was in the shower while Robert and Linna finished dinner, it wasn't even seven o'clock yet and the presentations would start at eight. There was silence, no cell phones, with a few glances exchanged in shy and sincere smiles. The cutlery banging against the plate, apart from all the cicadas, was the only noise.- How could she sleep for so long with those cicadas? - Linna cleaned her plate after the last bite, the cicada
- I love you, Robert. I've never known love before, I've had other boyfriends but they all become insignificant next to you. I've never felt anything like it. My heart is racing now, and it's racing every moment I think of you, think of being with you. - Linna took his hand and placed it on her chest, Robert felt the palpitations as if her heart were in his hands. - With you I've learned what real love is. I've accepted some things that I considered to be love and you were never even a hint of it. We started living together and even exchanging basic words I felt your concern for me, I felt that in the smallest gestures you cared and did things that showed this like leaving the coffee ready. Even if you dared to say it was for Matthew too. - She laughed weakly through her tears. - When we started to talk, to live closer to each other, I understood that there was already love there. There was already admiration, respect, regret. Repentance was crucial for both of us. We both did horribl