Theodore couldn't sleep all night. Every time he closed his eyes, all he saw was a tiny woman running own the bare streets of Queens, with fear filled eyes and the tiniest piece of clothing a woman could ever wear.
The sun had barely risen, and he was already in his kitchen, sipping coffee and skipping through yesterday's paper, even though his mind couldn't focus on what he had been reading.
Theodore positioned himself directly where he knew he would see when she should appear from the stairs, but he had no clue what he'd say or do.
How would she even react? Will she think he took advantage of her? Maybe.
After she fell asleep last night in Chris' car, there was no waking her. He tried to wake her to ask for an address, but she was out cold. It was then that he knew she'd been drugged for sure, especially after walking from the car to his penthouse door, and she still didn't even flinch in his arms.
She felt so small and frail, even cold. The way her eyebrows were set in a permanent knot made him see that she didn't smile much. Theodore acknowledged that a woman so young ought to be at her happiest.
She didn't look older than twenty-five, yet she was being chased down the street by creepy men, and looking like she had carried the whole world on her shoulders all her life.
Theodore cursed under his breath when he remembered that he was supposed to get the Italian vineyard under control today, but he didn't feel fit to do any such thing. He'd barely caught two hours of sleep.
Grabbing his phone, he decided to call his assistant, just in case Jerry had already told her that he would like to arrange a trip to leave.
"Good morning, sir. I trust you slept well?" Amy, his assistant, asked as she tried her best to stifle a yawn. Amy knew damn well that the only time Theodore called this early, was when he didn't sleep well.
"Yes. Sorry to wake you, Amy. I just wanted to know if Jerry had spoken to you about a flight arrangement."
"No, sir," Amy mumbled, trying desperately not to sound rude. However, 5:30 was an awfully early time to make a business call.
"I will tell you more about it later on. I won't be coming in today either, so will you communicate this to Jerry-I mean, Mr. Smith?"
He sometimes forgot that his friendship with Jerry was only between the two of them, and he also knew that there was no way Jerry could've told Amy about the flight just yet. He only wanted an excuse to distract himself from the woman upstairs. A work call was exactly what he needed to do just that.
"Will do. Is there anything else, sir?"
"That will be all, Amy. Have yourself a great day." His head quickly whipped around when the small patter of feet filled his ears, and he didn't even wait for Amy's reply as he ended the call.
He immediately rose to his feet as a very confused woman stumbled down the stairs, rubbing her sleepy eyes and hugging one arm around her waist.
The pull of the chair against the tiled floor caught her attention, and she yelped in shock as she quickly spun around to Theodore's direction.
She involuntarily dressed back as Theodore slowly walked through the kitchen exit that led directly towards the base of the stairs and into the lounge area, and a familiar glint of fear in her eyes had him stopping promptly.
"I'm not going to hurt you," he said softly as he raised his hands defenselessly. It oddly pained him to watch how she eyed him carefully, as if anticipating his attack.
"Who-who are you? Where am I?" Her eyes searched frantically for something familiar, but she only grew more scared when she found none.
Theodore studied her, seeing that she was uneasy. It was obvious that she had been through quite a lot. He didn't like it.
"Do you remember what happened last night?" He asked, but regretted it immediately when her eyes widened in horror.
"Did you- did you touch me?" She started trembling, and this only made Theodore more aware of the woman. What had happened to her?
"No," he said quickly. "I didn't touch you like...that. My helper dressed you and all."
It was then when she realized she had been wearing someone's clothes that wasn't hers. In fact, she didn't have her clothes at all. She had no time to grab them last night when-
"Oh my gosh I was drugged!" It all came rushing back to her, and Theodore blew out a breath of relief when her fear wasn't directed at him any longer.
"You were running down the street," he provided, hoping to drag her memory completely.
She nodded. "I know. After I realized what was going to happen, I ran." Her hands flew to her head as she gripped it, and an involuntary shiver ran through her body. She looked sick, as if she was about you hurl every meal she's had since birth. "I had no clue how I didn't pass out before you saw me." She gulped. "Th-thank you."
Silence sat between them as Theodore studied her longer. He was intrigued. He felt like he needed to know more about this woman. There was so much he could see behind her dark eyes.
"What is your name?" He finally spoke, and she met his eyes again after thinking about how to dismiss the moment and go home.
She was grateful that he saved her from what could've been the worst night of her life. But she couldn't say she wasn't shaken up by waking up in an obviously rich man's house.
Just the exquisiteness of the tiles alone could explain it completely. It must've been an angel who sent him last night, but she also knew she needed to leave. She kept people in her life at a minimum for a reason, and the way this man eyed her showed her just enough that he wasn't through with her just yet.
"A-Abigail," she finally said, trying desperately to soothe her nerves.
Theodore nodded, accepting that much as he moved forward and outstretched his hand. "Theodore."
But she didn't take his hand. Instead, she flinched back as if he had a spider on his finger, taking Theodore completely by surprise and offense.
"Forgive me," she mumbled. "But I don't allow men to touch me."
"It's a harmless handshake."
"That it is. But believe me, I just can't. Don't take my action too offensive, Theodore. I simply cannot help it."
Despite his offense, he appreciated the way his name sounded on her tongue, and this very phobia of hers intrigued him even more.
"Would you care to join me for coffee then? I promise I won't bite." His lips tilted up in a small smile as he tried to lighten the air with humour.
Abigail was skeptical, as she only wanted to thank this man and be on her way, never crossing paths with him again, as he didn't belong in her world, or she in his.
But she already offended him once, and she didn't want to offend him further by refusing something as simple as coffee.
So, Abigail nodded once and followed him into the kitchen, where he set another cup to brew.
Theodore ensured he kept a good five feet between them at all times seeing that his proximity unsettled her.
"I must say, you have a lovely home. If I hadn't been so confused and scared out of my mind when I woke up, I would've appreciated the exquisite view below. We are far high up, aren't we?" She chuckled nervously at her attempts to make things less awkward.
The least she could do was have a decent conversation over coffee with the man who helped her, hoping he didn't have any ill intentions himself and had been honest about not touching her last night.
"Indeed we are," he mumbled, not even realizing that he had his eyes narrowed.
But the way she talked shocked him even more. It was obvious that there were a lot of layers beneath what he could see, but there definitely was an educated brain in there too.
"Tell me, Abigail, what do you do?"
"Oh." She gulped, nervous. "I'm in my final year of graduate school. Six years of college finally coming to an end." She chuckled again, hoping he wouldn't press more.
But indeed, he did.
His eyebrows shot up in shock, but he was impressed. "You're obtaining your Master's Degree? In what major?"
"Marketing and finance. I've always been a sucker for it."
"And your plans after you graduate?"
"I would like to visit my aunt for a year back home, but then I'd like to attain a permanent spot at the firm I currently work at part time. It's quite nice," she explained, hoping to end soon. But what harm can come from a harmless conversation?
"You work part time while pursuing a Master's Degree?"
"I have to," she said. "I couldn't be pursuing the degree if I hadn't."
"Do you live alone?"
"I have a roommate. She helps me with rent."
"Were you with her last night?" Theodore asked, simply wanting desperately to know what the hell happened last night.
Abigail gulped as she grew uncomfortable. She swallowed the rest of the coffee before peering at him.
"No," came her simple reply. But Theodore wasn't letting up. She knew it would've come up eventually, still she wished it hadn't.
"May I ask. What happened last night?"
'No you may not,' she wanted to say, but she didn't. After all, he seemed nice and she didn't know what he'd be like if should be pissed off.
She gulped again, as nerves rose in her. Would she tell him? Could she?
"I-I don't only work a day job," she said, fingering the rim of her cup. "Let's just say, sometimes things get unsettling."
"There is no shame in your grind, Abigail. You can be open with me," he said, but winced at his choice of words.
Still, how does she tell him that he didn't need to know anything else about her? They will go their separate ways after this casual morning, and never see each other again. So why must she tell him her life story?
She didn't have to, and she knew it. But something in his voice and something about the way he spoke told her that he was used to receiving a reply after a question, or in her case, an inquiry that he would require an answer for.
What could it hurt? He did save her after all. And once she collects her clothes from him or his maid, she could be on her way.
Hopefully he would empathize and send her on a cab, since she left all her belongings at the club last night. Maybe she could walk, but she had no idea how far he lived from her.
Abigail knew she'd have to go get her stuff from the club too later, seeing that she had no money to buy a new phone, and she needed her purse from her dressing room. She also had a class at 11 today, which she simply could not miss.
So the faster she answered his questions, the sooner she'd be free to go.
'There's no shame in what you do Abi,' she told herself as she prepared to start.
"I work as a stripper at Vanx Club. My day job alone can't pay my bills and my tuition. A year ago, someone introduced me to it and I work three nights a week to manage well, just until I graduate. Living in the city is not cheap."
That explained why she'd been half naked with high heels dashing down the street.
Theodore gasped when Abigail pulled the blonde hair that he thought was hers from her head, revealing a dark brown curly mane beneath the wig instead.
He hadn't even realized that she was wearing a blonde wig, but he couldn't help but appreciate how her natural hair complimented her smooth, olive skin.
He took a minute to really appreciate her dazzling beauty. Though her eyes were lost and far-off, their brown was almost golden with small visible specks of green, and her cheeks were plump, complementing her round face. And her lips... How did she manage to get them so naturally pink? She was a beauty indeed, a beauty that should be happy always.
"I see," was all he said, though he wanted to say much more. However, another session of silence sat between them as six a.m. struck to existence.
There was so much more that he wanted to ask--wanted to know about her. He suddenly wanted to know why that creep of a man was chasing her, and oddly wanted to protect her from him or anyone similar.
But nothing else came. He simply processed the few he knew about her, thinking about what to do next.
"This has been lovely and I thank you once again for your kindness. But I must go." Abigail's voice cut sharply through his thoughts and through the silence, and he nodded in agreement, seeing that he couldn't bring himself to ask anything else of her.
But Abigail had taken it wrongly. She thought he was probably wondering why he brought her into his home, and gave her one of his rooms. It hadn't been the first time someone looked down on her for what she did. It was why she wore her disguise when stripping.
Being 'Kitten' was never being 'Abigail' in her world. Kitten, her stage personality and name, was a naughty blonde who did the most exquisite striptease dance that always earned her a lot of tips and admirers.
What made her stand out, was her personal rule of no physical contact whatsoever whenever she did a personal dance with a man. It somehow aroused them even more, as they would WANT desperately to touch her and feel her curves against their hands. But the minute Kitten inches close, she steps away as soon as their hand reaches out for her.
Little did they know that it wasn't a part of the act, but she simply didn't want them to touch her. When or if a man touches her, her whole body feels like it had been submerged in lava, and her heart feels like it would jump from her chest.
Abigail only discovered this 'phobia' of men's touch when she settled in New York two years ago. A small part of it had to do with her mother and Mark's relationship, and a lot to do with her and Nicholas'...
Despite it all, Abigail accepted her life and did what she had to do. If people like Theodore looked down on her, then so be it. At the end of the day, it will only be her and herself. If someone should make her feel bad about stripping, then she ends up leaving, what will she do then? Suffer on her own?
No. She can't succumb to societal shame. She simply cannot.
"Of course." Theodore nodded in agreement as he rose from his seat. "I'll drop you home."
This was his invisible plan to know where she lived, as he was sure he wasn't through with her just yet.
"You don't have to," she replied quickly.
"Oh but I must. What kind of a man would I be if I didn't? I insist." The tone of his voice and his stance alone told her that there was no going back, so she reluctantly agreed.
He collected her things and handed her a small drawstring bag with them as he led her through the door.
"I'm sorry I couldn't provide a proper breakfast for you. I didn't expect you to be up so early, and my helper doesn't rise until 7, there about. I'd be happy to take you to breakfast, if you'd like," he offered out of pure courtesy.
"Thank you but you've already done so much. I will make breakfast once I'm home. I appreciate your offer though."
He nodded at her response, a little disappointed but respected her decision nonetheless.
Theodore remained careful throughout his journey through the building, seeing how she would flinch away whenever they both would reach for a door at the same time.
He wanted to show her the mere courtesy of being a gentleman, but it seemed foreign to her.
His mind couldn't get a rest all the way to her apartment, as she directed him.
She lived pretty close to Vintage Wines' head office, which he could recall was a few blocks away from Vanx Club.
Fate. That had to be it. Theodore was convinced that she was meant to run into his life last night. Literally.
He just knew that he couldn't let her slip away.
"You're late, Abigail." She stopped dead in her tracks as she held in a wince. Abigail had hoped that she could've gotten past her boss' office without him taking notice of her tardiness, but it's like he'd been waiting for her to just pop up out of the blue. Abigail spun on her heels with worry etched on her face as she came eye to eye with the man. The manager of SHI Enterprises, who she answered to directly, gazed at her with an arched eyebrow. Since her office was down the corridor from his, she knew it was a long shot trying to sneak past without him realizing. "I apologize, Mr. Hasnic. I-" He held up a silencing hand at her, and her heart plummeting in relief when his familiar smile lit his features.
Saturday couldn’t have taken any longer to arrive.It had been a tortuous twelve hours for Theodore, as he couldn’t find himself having peace with the thought of meeting Abigail again.He still didn’t know what he'd 'talk' to her about, and he acknowledged that the only reason why she agreed was because she was curious about what he needed to say to her. They didn’t necessarily agree to have coffee like normal people. Abigail asked why he'd sought her out and he told her that he needed to talk to her about something.Why didn’t he just be normal and simply ask her to catch up or something?Nonetheless, seeing her under these terms was better than not seeing
Abigail's Wednesday was just as any day of the week. It was hectic, tiring and long. Still, it wasn’t over yet.She had just gotten home from her evening classes, feeling exhausted but still willing to do what she has to do to get by.Grabbing a cup of coffee from the kitchen island, Abigail shrugged on a trench coat, fished for her keys from her purse and rushed for the door. It was almost 9 p.m., and she had to be in her dressing room to get ready for the 10 o'clock opening of the night club.She had barely caught a breath after being in New York's terrible traffic on her way home from her classes, but she had to do what she simply had to do."Stay home and watch 'Home Alone' with me,
The coffee tasted quite bland today despite the fact that it was made the same way every morning.Theodore’s mood resembled the weather outside—dark and cold as rain filled the day with its gloom. Theodore wasn’t sure why he was feeling so dull. Maybe it was because there had been no improvements in his Italian vineyard, or maybe it was because he hadn’t had a minute to just relax.He no longer knew what it felt like to have a normal or fun life, and on some days--days like this--he was reminded even more.He skipped through the morning paper as he continued to energize himself with the black liquid. Even the papers were boring.He skipped to the sports section, where a woman was highlighted for winning a gymnastics championship. His lips twitched at the sight. She looked so happy with the trophy perched on her hip, as she posed for the camera with an o
Theodore didn’t know what to say. He didn’t expect her to agree so quickly, but he was glad that she did.“I am happy to hear that,” he said with a small smile. “I hope we can get along well.”Abigail nodded with a nervous gulp. “Of course. But as I said, I have terms.”“Name them.”This seemed fair enough in his mind. He knew this was a hard decision for her to make, and he still wanted to do it for her own protection and benefit. So, a few terms on her side wouldn’t be too bad. It is, after all, her body.“First of all, you cannot touch me. That still sta
“Abigail, put on the damn shoes and leave this damn house.” This had been the third time that Najay had to speak to her friend and roommate, but Abigail wouldn’t budge. She sat on the couch, shaking like a leaf for the past thirty minutes. “No.” Abigail couldn’t bring herself to move. Even with pep talk after pep talk which led to scolding, she found it impossible to get up. Why? She had no clue. “Just so you know, you signed a contract, remember?” Najay pointed out with a raised eyebrow. ”I know that,” Abigail hissed before squeezing her eyes shut.&n
Theodore circled Abigail as a lion ready to pounce on his prey. He enjoyed the shock and slight excitement on her face after seeing the room. It had been prepared the day after he sent her the contract. He figured if this was supposed to be her ’job’, a proper work area for her would be appropriate. He was pleased with the glint in her eyes as she examined the shiny silver pole under the red and pink lights. Across from it was a black, leather armchair for him. Her heels clicked against the black tiles as she crossed the room, and Theodore followed slowly behind her, appreciating the distinct swing of her hips under her large coat. He brought the glass to his lips, taking a sip of his wine as he took his seat. He watched carefully as Abigail easily found the music box, where she took a disk from her bag and slipped it inside its respective area. She was a natural, and the way she seemed so confident while doing something as simple as g
Theodore stood in his office with his eyes strained on the building below him. He held a glass of wine in his grip, trying to clear his mind of all things Kitten. He didn’t mean to rush out like that, but he knew that sooner or later, she would’ve realised why he seemed bothered, and it would only make her feel uncomfortable. The only good thing he could see from tonight’s performance was that he knew what to expect from now on. He squeezed his eyes shut as guilt gnawed at his mind. It was only a few minutes past eight, nowhere near the end of their hour together. But he could only imagine the turmoil that must be going on in her mind at that moment, even if she had already left. He had to be equipped to control himself for a whole hour for the next six months. If only she wasn’t so impeccably resistible. She had the body of a goddess. Theodore saw this much when she dropped the dress from her body. It almost made him jealo
Song for final chapter:Like I'm Gonna Lose You by Meghan Trainor ft John Legend ***Theodore sat in his office--thoughts filled with Abigail. The last thing he wanted was to entertain thoughts of the tantalising woman who drove him crazy, which was why the first thing he did when they arrived was head straight to his office. But he couldn’t help it. She was a few rooms away, sleeping, and he couldn’t focus on his papers. The last thing he wanted to do was write something in the wrong place. That could be chaotic.He closed the folder and ran his fingers through his hair, exhausted. He’d only slept three hours on the plane, and that’s after Abigail finally fell asleep. He checked the time, seeing that it was minutes after ten a.m. Theodore replayed the past twelve hours in his head after learning about Abigail’s miscarriage.The very thought caused a stab in his heart that he had never felt before. It almost felt as bad as when he lost Abigail. But losing his baby--their baby... It w
As the man and a woman, who Abigail assumed was his wife, approached, all she wanted to do was run for the hills. But Theodore smiled at him, too, showing that he knew the doctor quite well.“Doctor Danvers,” both Theodore and Abigail said simultaneously in two different tones, of course.Doctor Danvers beamed at the couple as his eyes settled on Abigail, Theodore’s hand around her waist, then on her stomach.Oh no.“How are you doing?” he asked, staring at Abigail.Abigail gulped. “I’m great. Never been better. I see you know Theodore?”“Ah yes,” Doctor Danvers said, sharing a quick smile with Theodore. “Our families go way back. I actually mentored Jessica when she wanted to be a doctor. Such a shame she gave it up. She had talent.”“Well, that’s Jessica,” Theodore concluded with a chuckle. A brief silence reigned, and Abigail tried to use it to her advantage to get away, but Theodore beat her to it as if just noticing that Doctor Danvers called Abigail’s name and not his.“Wait, ho
Abigail never fancied makeup, but she was utterly grateful for her tiny tube of foundation. She hadn’t realised that Theodore had gotten carried away with his love bites until she woke up this morning.She didn’t even go to Jessica’s bachelorette party. After they left the cellar, Theodore and Abigail showered and changed before heading to the dining room. Penny and Brad pretended that they didn’t notice the sudden change in attire. But Jessica was quite blunt with her remarks, even insisting that Abigail stay home, saying she “Must be tired from the long plane ride.”Abigail didn’t protest, and when Jessica returned home sometime after midnight, she spotted Theodore leaving Abigail’s room.Jessica took Abigail to the hotel to get ready, so Abigail hadn’t seen Theodore all morning or afternoon. She made a beautiful bride. Though they had to redo her makeup two times because her panic caused her to sweat and cry, smudging the lines of her eyeliners and making imbalances in her foundat
Theodore’s smile had disappeared entirely as if it weren’t there in the first place.“I have no idea. And I don’t care.”“Oh,” Penny simply said, realising she had upset both Theodore and Abigail. “I didn’t... Not that I care. I didn’t much like her anyways.”“Mother, you loved Cleo,” Theodore said, calling her out. Penny seemed uncomfortable.“I did when she was younger. But I don’t quite think she was right for you. I just thought that when the break-up happens, you’d just remain friends.”Brad, evidently seeing Abigail’s discomfort, changed the topic. “Abigail, I hope you like lasagne.”“I love it,” Abigail said, forcing a smile.“Great!”Jessica gripped Abigail’s wrist and pulled her to the other side of the room, seeing that Penny was trying to apologise to Theodore for bluntly bringing up Cleo’s whereabouts.“You must come to my bachelorette party,” Jessica said, curling her palms under her neck with a huge smile.Abigail--who had initially planned to go to bed--stumbled over he
California--the state of sunshine and beaches.Abigail had a considerable amount of time daydreaming about getting fresh air compared to New York’s busyness. And more times than she’d liked, Theodore was present in those daydreams too, either holding her hand along the beach or kissing her under the open moonlight.It was quite inappropriate to dream about, but she couldn’t help her wandering thoughts. Najay, having tried everything she could to stop Abigail from going, helped her pack and tried to shove the largest, most unattractive underwear in Abigail’s carry on. But Abigail noticed before Najay could close the zipper and packed some moderately decent underwear--not too sexy, but not too repulsive either. Not that it mattered. Theodore and Abigail wouldn’t even share a room. So that shouldn’t have been a concern.Theodore.Abigail hadn’t seen him since the day she went shopping, and they had talked but twice on the phone to arrange the time for pick up and departure. The way he le
Slowly, they all turned around as if they were two-year-old triplets being caught colouring on the wall.Behind them stood Theodore and his COO, Jerry. Abigail met Jerry once, but Cleo knew him quite well.“Theodore,” Abigail mumbled, clutching the dress to her chest.He ogled the dress with an approving glint in his eye, imagining how its soft silky-like texture would look on Abigail. And how he could almost run his hand under the--“What the hell are you doing here?” Cleo’s voice snapped him from his naughty thoughts, but every warmth disappeared from his eyes when he met Cleo’s.“I would ask you the same thing,” Theodore growled.Without taking his eyes from Cleo, he stalked towards Abigail and slipped the dress from her fingers before handing it to Sarah.“Get this ready for me, would you?”“Are--are you buying it, s-s-sir?” Sarah stumbled over her words. But the question yielded a glare from Theodore, which had her squirming. The dominance and power that radiated from him were a
“I don’t like it.” Najay had made it abundantly clear five times already that she didn’t like the idea of Theodore and Abigail becoming... acquainted again.Najay believed Abigail would just end up hurt and fall into a cycle of Theodore and heartbreak all over again.When she learned that Abigail had lost her baby, Najay didn’t blame Theodore. No one did. But she believed it would be too hard on Abigail to be around him--especially since he didn’t know.“I know you don’t like it,” Abigail said, “but I think this is good for me. I need a vacation.”“Not with him. And won’t a wedding make you feel all... I don’t know...woozy?” Najay said, throwing her arms in the air. Abigail chuckled as they stopped in front of the salon.“Woozy?” Abigail snorted.“I don’t know, okay? Just be careful.”“Najay, I’ll be fine. I’m keeping him at arm’s length. Besides, what’s the worst that could happen?”“Well--”“That was rhetorical.” Abigail quickly cut her off before dashing across the street. “I’ll se
“Yes!”The email Abigail had been dreading over the past week had finally arrived, and thankfully, it bore good news.Abigail jumped from the couch, throwing her arms in the air as she performed a mini dance in front of Najay. Najay couldn’t contain her laughter, happy that Abigail seemed to be getting back to her old self.“Yes what?” Najay asked, though she already knew.“I just got the confirmation email about my special request. I am officially done with grad school. I made it bitches!”Chuckling, Najay grabbed the beer bottle from her friend’s hand and closed Abigail’s laptop. “Okay. Take it easy, tiger.”“I’m easy,” Abigail grinned. “I’m really, really easy.”“Okay, let’s get you to bed.”Abigail darted away from Najay’s hand, dashing towards her bedroom.“No! I have to go to Vanx Club, remember?”“Like this?” Najay asked, following behind Abigail. “You’re not in the right mind space to go out tonight. It’s almost ten.”After grabbing a mini dress from her packed box on the grou
She sat in the single armchair, knowing it was the safest choice considering the other was a loveseat. Theodore and Najay sat across from her only seconds later. They all waited for someone to start speaking first. Ultimately, it was Najay.“We have one fight, and you leave the city without telling me.”“Najay...” Abigail sighed, knowing it would lead to this.In truth, Abigail was just as surprised to see Najay as she was to see Theodore.“No, Abigail. I was pissed, yes. You accused me of something not just awful but disgusting and heart-breaking. I spent days wondering what I could’ve done to make you doubt my loyalty. I admit I kept a few details away from you because I didn’t want you to freak out. But when I invited Nicholas inside my apartment, it was only to threaten his sorry ass in a place where no one would hear.”“I know, Najay. I was stupid and scared and hurt, and I should’ve never accused you of something like that.”“No, you shouldn’t have.” Najay had always been bare-f