Forgive the mistakes!
— H O O R —. . .Zahir is cute when he cooks and I have mentioned it before. When he cooks, he stains his face and jaw and he is not aware of it. He struggles with his hair that falls over his eyebrows but can't do it. I raise my arm and help him, pushing away his dark strands. He gives me a lovely smile. “Thank you.”I just shake my head, going back to my work. In movies that Parul used to watch and drag me along, I found the male lead doing such things — tugging back the female lead's hair behind her ear — but it was me who was doing such things. Zahir was giving me lovely smiles which tickled my heart every time. It took us time because I had to give him instructions but he was doing well. “Is it done?” He murmurs to himself, raising his arm to take off the lid of the breaker. I shot him a glance, wondering what he was talking about, and soon he jerked back, growling. I rush to him, gripping his hand instantly which he keeps jerking. He just hurt himself because the lid was
— H O O R —. . .Another day of work and I can't help but notice a few things. A few things that make me wonder what Siya has in her mind when she looks at my husband and especially for me. We are welcomed by everyone with respect. They bow their heads to us, being silent. Their eyes are always looking down in respect for us. The entire building is now well aware of the fact that their boss's wife is working with him. Anytime they look at me, they bow their head at me. I acknowledge them but not with a word. It all feels awkward to me. I am not used to this attention and treatment. Zahir has ordered everyone strictly about this. But Siya is really different from them. She greets me with a smile on her lips when Zahir departs. As soon as he is away, her demeanor changes with the speed of life. Gone is her nervousness along with Zahir's presence. She stands confident, her head held high, and confidence oozing through her. I wonder how she changes in the blink of an eye. She ente
— H O O R —. . .Silence was never fitting to me in my entire life. It was bitter to me. Like nails being pushed into my skin, it felt. The feeling suffocated me. I was never fond of deafening silence like some people are. They are in love with isolation while I felt it to be like a swarm of bugs crawling up my skin, giving birth to the urge to jerk them away but I can't because they are not physically present. The feeling chokes me. But not today. It is different. It is Zahir and I alone. The silence between us is pleasant or say it has veiled itself with pleasantness the moment Zahir entered the frame and held me close. Oh, what a beautiful feeling it is that my Lord has introduced me to. I can let it seep into my skin and run through my veins. I can let it fuse into my blood and go warm and influence my mind, my entire existence. I find it beautiful. I find it beautiful to realize that God made it possible through His amazing creation. I can feel it and I am glad about it. He
— H O O R —. . .Zahir patiently listens to Siya as she stands beside him in the circle. My attention is solely on Zahir and Siya. She speaks confidently, eyes lingering upon Zahir alone. I am not aware of what is there in those eyes of hers and I am not even to think about it because soon, Zahir calls me to him. I walk to them, entering the circle. Zahir offers his hand to me, thus, calling me to stand beside him and Siya automatically has to step aside. I do not get enough time to see Siya's reaction as I am mingled with an official conversation. The young man pleasantly smiles at me. Though I am well aware of his name and what business he does, I prefer to refer to him as. Zahir and he starts walking out of the room and I am to follow Zahir. Soon an old woman also joins us, trailing behind the guest. She is his personal assistant, as I have noticed already. We share no word, nor do I find it necessary to get acquainted with her. Their conversation seems to stretch and comes
— H O O R —. . .“One should never forget God's favors. Whatever He has done,” I begin with a simple sentence, holding a deep meaning, a worthy moral to accept in one's life if one wants to live happily.Zahir sighs as I start weaving my words into the real story that I have heard and read about. Close to my very heart, I have cherished it dearly, taking all the words in my life so I could walk upon it. It taught me very deep and amazing things that I want the world to know. “The nation God brought out of Egypt began to forget about their only God. Their ancestors disobeyed the Lord, going against the very first commandment that He gave to them through prophet Moses; Love the Lord your God with all your mind, with all your soul, with all your heart and with all your strength.”The sun is beginning to sink into the horizon, melting right there. The shades of saffron are fused into the whole sky, and stars begin to twinkle through the spread sheet. I behold the view behind Zahir throug
Recap:- He smiles, “And?”“But Hoshea chose to obey his God, knowing that God isn't unjust.”“He is just.”“Indeed. Hoshea would have begged God in the beginning to let him walk away freely from the relationship but truly Hoshea needed to feel the way God felt or else, I; this generation would never have realized the intensity of pain he had to go through.”. . .— H O O R —. . .“...or else, I; this generation would never have realized the intensity of pain He had to go through.” “Right.”“But soon Hoshea learns that he can't walk away from this relationship because the woman is given to him till death do them part. According to the Word, they are not two anymore. They are one. They belong to each other. He'd have remained unmarried easily after divorcing the woman because he had God but God knew that the world would start harassing the woman after Hoshea divorces her. And most importantly, God not only wanted Hoshea to feel like God in this case but also to love like God in this c
— H O O R —. . .I wonder what was going through Zahir's mind when he was listening to me. I want to know though. The desire to know his opinions and feelings being the curtains of his sky-open eyes has awakened in my mind. It was quick, all in a moment but I couldn't help it. “Zahir?” I am not sure if he is still listening to me or has fallen asleep. The moment seems peaceful to him. I see his bright blue summer sky eyes veiled behind the curtains of flesh. He faces me and breathes peacefully. “Hmm?” His response is lazy, coming after a few seconds of my questioning call. Voice deep and husky as he just hums, sending a shiver down my spine. I worry my bottom lip. His impact on me is deep, I cannot hide this from myself. We are just getting closer as time passes. Despite knowing that we are destined to be separated or who knows what will happen next. Indeed, despite this, perhaps there is no fear in our hearts. Perhaps this is why they are ‘hearts’. “I wanted to know...” I begi
— H O O R —. . .Work is necessary and indeed very difficult to handle sometimes. Although I have always been passionate about my work, I do not deny that work also brings stress and fatigue. Especially when I have to tire my eyes and fingers just by sitting in front of a screen. But it is over.I sigh, turning my chair to the wall of my cabin. I raise my arms as I stretch them tight, releasing a yawn from my parted lips before I give up with a deep exhale. Finally, it is over! I put my hands on my eyes as I close them, darkness falling before them like the large curtains of a temple from high. A sigh has escaped from my lips as the warmth of my palms has kissed my weary eyelids. It is another definition of relief, trust me. From the spotless glass walls of my room, I behold the way of the sun melting behind the tall buildings, letting the moon peek from the other side. Stars have started twinkling upon the bright shades of saffron mingled with the pigeon hues of night. Gray shad
— Z A H I R —. . .It's been days since Hoor and I returned home after attending our relative's wedding. It was awesome, by her side, and on the other hand, I was nearly bored. Only nights were the most beautiful to me because we prayed together and spent some time together. I could not even imagine using the guest's room bed for making love with my wife so I restrained myself. However, it turned out to be a little harder when she kept throwing glances at me and getting ready for the functions. I had no other way than to look at her and praise her. I wanted to do more. After we returned, the first thing I did after taking a shower was to grab her in my arms and hug her like my life depended on it. She giggled, asking me about what changed in ms all of a sudden but I had nothing to answer her. I only breathed at that moment, loving her warmth and the softness of her chest against my head. That's my haven. That night we made love again and the more I explored her, the more needy
— Z A H I R —. . .I rejected it and I regret it now. It has been days since she confessed her feelings to me and I, like a bastard, rejected those feelings. Like every time, I only thought of responsibilities and all, not wishing to give our relationship a chance but after she started avoiding me, I had no other way than to realize my mistake. Hoor does not know, or maybe she is well aware of it that she even takes advantage of it that her ignorance brings me to my knees before her. I have felt it. Hoor makes me feel like I have admitted it to myself. Hoor has become a piece of mine, without whom, I am not whole. I am incomplete without her. I feel restless when she is away from me. When her eyes are not on me, I crave even one look at her. I know I can't live without her and she made me see it in those days. I thought maybe it was because we were getting used to each other so I decided to keep myself away from her. However, my own decision made me feel restless in my heart.
— H O O R —. . .He picks up the call while I sit, anticipating what is going to happen next. I fear Zahir's answer to Mr Hunt. I know he is a nice man but Zahir, in anger, says harsh things. I do not want him to start a fight with Mr Hunt. He puts the call on speaker and looks at me. His eyes linger over my face and solely catch my eyes. I swallow when I hear Mr Hunt's voice. “Hoor?” He asks, and I know I have to keep my mouth shut. “Hoor is with me. And stop calling her, okay?” Okay... It was not as gruff as I expected. I literally expected him to grab Mr Hunt's collar right pushing his hand into the screen of the phone and venting out all the frustration of the past night but he controlled it. Phew!“Uh...”“Yeah,” he breathes and disconnects the lines, tossing away my phone. My eyes widen. “Zahir, it's my phone! Have mercy on it!” I utter, trying to reach for my phone when he grabs my wrist and pulls me to him. I gasp, swallowing as I look at his face. I am glad the sheet
— H O O R —. . .“What's your problem, huh? Why are you behaving like a beast?” I utter, fuming with anger after whatever has happened. He has done this all! His jaw clenches but he does not give me a single look. I see his grip becoming lethal around the steering wheel as he drives the car smoothly. “Ask yourself! What's your problem, Hoor?” He asks instead, giving me a sharp glance over his shoulder. I purse my lips, trying not to say any bad words that will make me regret it later. “I'm totally fine. It's you alone who created a drama there. I don't understand why are you behaving like that!” I do not care if I am making it even more serious. I need answers. The atmosphere inside the car seems to change as it drops. He is trying hard to control his anger but I know he is dangerous when angry. However, I am not afraid to see his limits. Have seen his sides before and no doubt he is going to be like that again; harsh and brutal with words. “Behaving like what? A beast?” He tau
— H O O R —. . .Finding Mr Hunt at the party gave me some kind of relief. As Zahir too knows him, we got interacted and there I got to meet the girl with him. He introduced me to her and she felt pleasant. His choice is very good. However, on the other side, I could see Zahir glaring at us non-stop. It irked me. Now what does he want? I ignored that look. Mr Hunt too noticed how Zahir was keeping a poker face and answering him gruffly every time. When he was called suddenly by some of his partners, it was only Mr Hunt and me left alone. The woman he took with him also left to use the washroom. “Why is he behaving like that?” He asks me in a mutter, confused as he looks at me. My eyes remain on Zahir who is busy holding a conversation with an official man. There are two more with him, keeping him occupied. I stare at him silently, not answering Mr. Hunt for a moment being. I do not feel like doing it or maybe I am too lost admiring my husband among them. He is handsome, after
— H O O R —. . .“May I come in, ma'am?” I know what he is taking with him, and it is only for me to handle. I sigh as I look up from the screen that troubles my eyes. My gaze lands upon a man standing at the door and I am not sure how many times I have seen him today with towers of files in his arms. Only for me!“Of course,” I have to pass him a fake smile.He comes in and sets the tower beside other files. Wow. Just look at my room. How amazing it looks filled with files and files alone. And whose hand is all in this? Surely, my husband's! Because he does not want me to meet Mr Hunt anymore and he can't even confront me and order me around, so he is using such methods to keep me here. Not only that but he is keeping me with himself in meetings. All the meetings which were to be held in the next month and whatever was arranged by me, he thought of completing them all in this month itself. He made me make some changes in the schedule and everywhere he carried me. All this just
— H O O R —. . .“So tell me...” He begins nervously, running a hand through his hair as he looks at me. I wait for him. Maybe he is going to take eternity. Who knows? He is always like that around me; shy and all. Even now he is unable to look me in the eyes. I too do not have any obsession with it. To me, Zahir's eyes are everything. Keeping the straw in my mouth as I enjoy my Faluda ice cream, I steal a glance at his already-flushed face. Now what does he see? I roll my eyes back to the setting sun and realize that I have spent more time with him. I do not worry about my work. I know I will complete the pending tasks but I needed to refresh my mind which he helped me having. He is an amazing friend, to be honest. After how Zahir spoiled my mood with that interrogation, he called me and I came out to meet him. He took me to places around and bought me ice cream. Walk with him was nice as he kept cracking silly jokes. I was even laughing. Yeah, I like such stupid jokes. He wa
— H O O R —. . .Three days have passed. Life is going on as before. The only difference is that whatever happened between Zahir and me seems like a dream. Everything disappeared as soon as I opened my eyes.Work and prayer help me to forget all this every moment, but I cannot use them every moment to escape from the past. Because of whatever happened that night, I still feel as if there are wounds in my heart that have not healed yet. But I know that time will change everything and all wounds will heal. God will do it. Right now I am just waiting for these days to pass. Now that I know that our relationship is not going to improve, I do not want to stay here any longer.Another time my phone rings. It is Mr Hunt. I have been ignoring his calls since this morning but he does not seem to give up. I am not in the mood, simple. I do not want to talk to him but I know I have to. I will be responsible for many things then. Clenching my jaw, I pick up the call and I remove my gaze from
— H O O R —. . .“Are you out of your mind, Hoor?” He says, breaking all my expectations just in a second. I stare at him dumbfounded, my heart sinking deeper. My eyes do not flutter as they are set on him but he has my hands clammy in anticipation. I muster up the courage to ask, “Wh-What do you mean, Zahir?” My tone is confused. Still. I am still expecting him to give me an explanation so it can relieve the burn in my chest. “It's simple, Hoor!” He utters, getting up as he releases a deep sigh. His arm raises and he runs a hand through his hair. Once again as he shows he is frustrated. I narrow my eyes at him, staring at his face as he steps away, continuing, “It's simple that I don't wanna be in a relationship. And haven't I told you that already?” The next he turns around, eyes boring into mine. They hold frustration and anger, resembling a darker and deeper shade of ocean. His jaw clenches as he adds, “I made it clear already!”He did but I started having feelings for him.