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The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Dark Colours
[Forsaken To Believe Lies!]A heart thunders vehemently against a chain of bones that creaked with sorrow, with each demanding throb. Eyes — watery eyes stared deeper into a pair of deep chocolate–coloured eyes that were twinkling with mercy. The world was slowly fading away and everything else became blurry — slowly breaking apart. "TRAVIS!" David whispers, unbeknownst to him that his lukewarm breath was kissing every inch of Travis's skin, encouraging goosebumps to excursion throughout his system. Close — they were standing so close to each other and their lips almost touching. "His-s-s lips…! Should I, perhaps…?" His eyes touring David's heart-shaped lips, Travis hissed silently to himself, unconsciously taking a step closer to David — their noses rubbing against each other. ——"I was so…close!" Travis growled. "I shouldn't have done it, right?" He clenched his fists, readying himself to throw large blows at the big pillow beneath his knees. His heart was jumping excitedly in
Last Updated : 2023-08-15The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days A Pest
[THREE DAYS AGO!]——A tiny figured individual stealthily marched upon the city's dead streets, dressed in only black clothes that were as dark as this cold night and the piercingly cold atmosphere that surrounded them. It was so hushed on every abrupt turn they made — the only thing that was keeping their ears hostage was their heart that throbbed bitterly fast, right in the core of their ears. Fear — it marched throughout their system, hindering every perfect step they were trying to take. Cold air mercilessly bit into their lungs, filling their system with the unwashed air of the decay zone. Suspense trailed on every one of their nerves as they were snaking underneath the smoothness of the night. Ominous shadows crept across the streets, quickly infusing aghast to swallow their heart — leaving it shallow and grime. "Come on, where is it?" The terrified individual spat, her words quivering as their eyes were cautiously observing the location they were in. "Is it…them?" They inves
Last Updated : 2023-08-18The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Butterflies and Broken Hearts
["WHO AMONG US?"]"D-DAVID?" Travis's eyelids trembled softly as if someone was blowing wind on his face. — Twas his face that swiftly became pale almost white as a sheet whilst he unconsciously froze to the spot, intensely and attentively staring at the one who dares make his heart jingle closely in the chambers of his chest. His veins were incredibly taut — ecstasy was swimming on every part of his figure; a pocket full of untamed delight — that was indeed how he felt at this point and nothing was stopping him from smiling, NEVER. How unruly! His heart throbbed loudly and disrespectfully right in the core of his ears, where he was forced to hear only the rhythmical beats that fastened as seconds ascended. His hands, together with his legs shuddered involuntarily, evilly thwarting him from touching anything else without making it fall. "And here comes the brat that gives me the shits!" There, Jiyeon sharply made a four with her beautifully slender legs and hissed silently while s
Last Updated : 2023-09-03The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days The Gentle Breeze
[THE SUN RISES UP IN THE SKY, CLOUDS DANCE AROUND WITH THEIR RIGHTFUL MATES. WILL WE EVER STOP HIDING?]•••The wind blew and whispered inaudible utters in the ears of those whose hearts were dancing to the enchanting rhythms of the unspoken songs of the wind. How breathtaking! The dappled sun shone relentlessly through the trees, creating mysterious shadows — not scary but beautiful for the eyes of both Travis and David to look at. Twas those two boys who were leisurely strolling beneath the tall, blossoming trees whose yellow flowers danced beautifully to the whispers of the gentle breeze. Looking up — the sky was flawlessly blue and dotted with fine, pulsating stars that shyly smiled at the city down. There on the pavement wheels of a black bicycle squeaked and creaked, gently intruding into the tranquillity that the two boys were happily and silently enjoying to the fullest. It had been only six minutes since they came out of the cafe — backpacks were carefully placed on their
Last Updated : 2023-09-04The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Blinking Hearts
[THE CHRONICLES OF A SHADOW AND A BEAM OF LIGHT LIE WITHIN THE SWEET EMBRACE OF THE MOON AND IT SETS TO RISE IN THE SKY — AND YET, I AM BEHIND YOU!] ——TRAVIS'S POV: A step — a nervous, hesitant step closer and I swiftly feel my heart start to tremble right in the folds of my ribs. There, our eyes stared deep into each other's eyes, silently revealing all the secrets buried in the interior of our visions. "Why are you doing this to me?" I promptly asked but only, I wished my question would have reached his ears and maybe I would have understood what he was thinking. NOTHING — I did absolutely nothing as his body was nearing mine while his warm hand securely flew right on my wrist once again. I was at a loss for words, my whole body was suddenly numb to his touch — I was vulnerable. Above our heads was a heavy, beautiful blanket of stars that were shining brightly across the night sky. Night? Neither of us took our time to pay attention to the darkness that surrounded us — in fact,
Last Updated : 2023-09-05The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Evolution Resumes
["Hello Trouble!"] "Well? I'm waiting!" Mrs Park hissed angrily and loudly so that her voice echoed piercingly across the whole house, unintentionally inviting a confused Arthur into the living room — there, where Travis was standing a minute away from his grandmother, his eyes locked to the floor that was glimmering brightly beneath his shoes. Arthur's bloodshot eyes squinted at both his grandmother and cousin — like a bag of nails, exploring Travis's cheeks that were dreadfully burning. Travis swiftly shot Arthur a detached glance and looked away immediately. His eyes were full of cold nothingness that was entwined with embarrassment he so wished to hide but failed. "Did she…see what…happened? David and I…?" Travis silently interrogated himself, his hand stealthily clenching into agitated fists right in the depths of his trouser pockets. He never removed his eyes from the floor — only listened to his heart as it hammered against his chest. "Is everything ok…?" Arthur questioned
Last Updated : 2023-09-06The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Grey
[Bombs Are Falling!]"Good morning!" Mrs. Park greeted immediately when she entered the dining room, a bright smile dangling across her face. She swiftly gave Arthur a brief hug and walked over to her chair, inhaling the sweet, warm smell of the food cluttered on the table. Arthur greeted back with a smile that was shining adequately as his grandmother's and stuffed his mouth with a red berry. "Mmh…! Where's Travis? Has he not come down yet?" The old woman questioned immediately when her eyes landed on his younger grandson's vacant chair. "I don't know. I haven't seen him today, perhaps he is still preparing for school." Arthur shrugged and replied soon when he had swallowed his cereal. There was hollowness wrapped around his features — either from the unending analysis he had made of his cousin's last night's behaviour and how many questions were floating in his head. Arthur quickly released a deep sigh and continued gobbling his breakfast. "He cannot still be getting ready for sch
Last Updated : 2023-09-08The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Cages and Blues
"One, two, melatonin is coming for you. Three, four, baby won't you lock the door?" There was Travis mumbling and whispering words of a certain song under his ice cold, quivering breath. Every one of his muscles was tight — his body was as stiff as a board.His eyes — so bloodshot and filled with many veins, were intensely staring at the toilet bowl, his head buried deep in a thought that mercilessly teleported him to a world of delicacies — in a world far away from reality; a world that seemed to fill his system with inexplicable dread that spread throughout his soul, filling it with nothingness. Venomous — A giant hole had finally found a permanent home in his heart; surely it was there to stay. He looked like ugly and the heartbreaking consequences that came with its presence. A hideous, prominent shadow quickly took all his strength — he could not speak nor was he able to cry; there was a nameless void in his heart and soul. Travis unceremoniously leaned his head against the doo
Last Updated : 2023-09-09
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The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days She Leaves
The air became cold. Eyes bulged with unspoken fear as they mysteriously glided over the figure of Jiyeon. The girl had tilted her head to her right, her eyes slyly following every jumpy movement that her mother made. Her smile widened just when she noticed confusion covering the red, wet face of her mother. “You bastard! How could you do that to your own mother!?” Mrs Choi hissed through her trembling lips that were now dry as a hard bone. Her mouth felt like a desert, parched and craving moisture as words played hide and seek in the back of her throat. Beads of sweat lined up across her forehead as her breath became shallow. “Oh dear, I am my mother’s daughter. One bastard gave birth to another bastard.” Jiyeon released an annoyed sigh and chuckled when she caught her mother’s lips trembling. “Did you know, father always thought that I looked nothing like him. He made sure to remind me every time we went on an ice cream date, when I was only five. It became a song and you said
The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Jiyeon Choi
JIYEON CHOI“Are you sure you want to go?” Mrs Park investigated shortly after placing her hand on Jiyeon’s trembling hands. “You don’t have to, I will ask a person to get them for you. Don’t force it!” The old lady assured the girl whose eyes were tightly shut; feeling ashamed to let Mrs Park see her weakness. Jiyeon bit her lower lip and silently counted to three before she could open her eyes. “It is okay. I want to go…and get them myself.” Squeezing Mrs Park’s hand with her free, uninjured hand, Jiyeon whispered soon after taking a deep breath. Mrs Park stared at the girl for a while and never said a word. She nodded at her driver and the engine of the car they were in growled as it began moving. The car roared out of the Park mansion to a destination where Mrs Park was not so sure they should go to. Jiyeon quietly watched the tall, luxurious buildings pass as the car drove by. Her heart was jingling in the embrace of her ribs, as an unidentified number of emotions collided i
The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Claws Of Fear!
Night descended like a velvet cloak, softly enveloping the world in an inky blackness that seemed to have a texture all its own. The stars twinkled like diamonds scattered across the fabric of the sky, their gentle sparkle casting an ethereal glow over the landscape.The moon, a silver crescent, hung low on the horizon, casting long, sinuous shadows that stretched and twisted like living things. “Thank you.” David who had just come out of the taxi, said as he bowed and watched the taxi drive off. An oppressed sigh found its way out of his lips as he stood in the same spot for a while. His mind was set alight by a fountain of thoughts that made it hard for him to breathe or concentrate on anything else. “A sin? How is it a sin? And why would you find the pleasure in continuing this sin?” Travis’s words rang in the back of his head, poisoning his heart into a temporary melancholy. “Find the pleasure in continuing this sin? What does he mean? He doesn’t view this as a sin. He does n
The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Close!
“Come out, I am outside.” David whispered over the phone, making Travis’s heart jump, this time with fear. He flinched from the bed and rushed towards his window where he began searching for David. “Where are you? I can’t see you.” Hardly holding his breath, Travis whispered, standing on the balcony, intensely searching for his boyfriend. It was as if he had lost his mind. Travis did not notice the tall walls that prevented him from seeing the world outside the huge gates. “Fuck…!” He said silently to himself when it had finally dawned on him that he had to sneak out of the house and meet his boyfriend. His blood was running warm as his heart uncontrollably jingled in the chamber of his chest. The longing to see David had become an all-consuming force, a restless hunger that gnawed at his very soul. As he stood there, his fingers instinctively curled around the curtain, his nails digging deep into the fabric like talons grasping for an anchor.His breathing grew ragged, a slow, to
The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Mrs Park's Wish
——The golden rays of the rising sun slowly floated into the room and landed on Travis’s face whose sleep was quickly chased away. With a frown across his forehead, Travis unhurriedly opened his eyes and let out a groan. He got up and stood straight on the bed before reaching for his phone. “Nine? I’m late for breakfast!” Travis growled as he sprinted to the bathroom. He quickly washed his face, brushed his teeth, and raced downstairs when he was done. He found his grandmother and cousin, Arthur, already seated for breakfast. Jiyeon was absent from the table, something Travis quickly understood. “Sorry…for being late.” He apologised as he sat down on his chair. His grandmother only nodded, while Arthur smiled. “How did you sleep?” Arthur investigated and smiled widely as he sipped his apple juice. “Well, I…slept like a baby,” Travis replied shortly after clearing his throat. He instantly began to recall last night — his hand’s job and then a conversation with Jiyeon. His heart slo
The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days PHASE SEVEN: JIYEON CRIES
——Lips painted by a red gloss carefully pressed against each other immediately after withdrawing from the white cup. “How are you feeling now, dear?” Mrs Park investigated shortly after placing the empty cup on the table. Her eyes gently fell on Jiyeon who had been nervously staring at the plaster cast around her arm. She bit her lower lip and nodded, “I am…fine.” Jiyeon replied in a voice that had dropped to a whisper. She slowly raised her head and turned her eyes to her left, where Travis was sitting. The boy had been quiet as he asked himself questions as to how Jiyeon got the big bruise on her face. The bruise decorated itself across the left side of Jiyeon’s face like a big wing of a butterfly. Travis wanted to let his eyes linger on Jiyeon’s face, but he couldn’t, he averted his eyes away from her face to his grandmother who seemed to have a lot to say. “It is late, you guys go to sleep, and we will have a talk tomorrow.” Mrs Park suggested instantly after getting up. The t
The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Together
Silence — it was absolutely hushed. The wind released a soft cry that left a hole of embarrassment in the two boys' hearts. Their eyes nervously darted from one place to the other. Travis shifted from foot to foot, wearing a glowing, sparkling smile that magnificently decorated his face. David silently fought with his heart, urging to gain control over it, but he continued to fail over and over again. No words could describe the amount of jingling in the depths of Travis’s heart as he was fishing for words to spew, but none came forth. “One, two, three...” He counted as he tried to wipe his smile, but he had no control over it. His eyes gently landed on David’s pale face for a brief while and then they quickly flew away from his face to the dusty nightstand. “S-so…how are —!?” “I need to use the bathroom,” David whispered with a hiss when Travis was speaking. The boy quietly nodded and carefully watched David as he hurried into his bathroom. “Calm down, breathe!” Immediately after
The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days Conditions by Sean
•••The rays of the rising sun flooded into the space, gently landing on the black island table that separated the two individuals — one wearing a smirk that was carefully spreading across his face and the other with eyes that were dilated with shock. It was very quiet — so hushed, making it easy for Sean to hear how loud and demanding David’s heart was throbbing. “Remember it, David. Remember well how you tightly clenched the sheets, endlessly moaning my name. I did not force you; you were the one who jumped on me even when I was asking you to stop. You were not drunk; we both know that.” Sean murmured, leaning forward and allowing the sunbeams to expose his green gleaming eyes. The man ensured that his gaze strictly fell on David’s face, studying its movements and the change of colour — from pale to red. David closed his eyes and gritted his teeth so hard that an unbearable pain kept his gums hostage for a short period. He did not want to react to Sean’s words, but his body diso
The Brightest Shadow: Teenage Days That night
–“Falling deep into blue…! I wish I did not, but I ended up doing it. It is painful and it hurts so much.” A boy who whispered through his clenched teeth lay on a king-sized bed whose sheets were wrinkled. The beams of the rising sun floated into the huge room through the naked window and landed kisses on his pale, nude body. His eyelids trembled when he felt every warm touch from the sun. A smile faintly spread across his dry, chapped lips immediately when his eyes slowly opened and collided with a white, vaulted ceiling. He bit his lip and closed his eyes again. “How many times have I been looking at you? It is still the same and I hate it. Maybe he should change the design…!” David breathed instantly after clearing his throat and never dared himself to move his body, not even an inch. “Maybe we should do it somewhere else. In another room so that I don’t always look at the ceiling. I had to look at it all night.” The boy added with a loud, rough sigh, ignoring the sun’s beams th
