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October Chapter 133: The Abyss
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Everyone was so happy without her.
Everyone was laughing, playing games, sharing stories, and eating cake without her.
Everyone was better off if she disappeared.
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Lila knew, to an extent, that this was not true.
She knew that she had a future self somewhere that had gone through the exact same experiences that she was now going through, and had written this letter probably in response to those feelings.
Lila also knew that objectively, her emotions were just a response to the years of abuse and torture that she had faced at the hands of her parents, and that whatever she was feeling now was just a mechanism that would keep her under their thumb, and would preven
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