Karter
Today I ended up waking an hour before my alarm clock went off which is honestly super weird as I slept insanely late last night. I tried falling back asleep by tossing and turning but it just wasn't happening so I just decide to get up early and start on with my day.
After my shower I put on a navy blue sleeveless button down shirt with a black knee length skirt. I complement my outfit with a pair of black high heels. I'm actually ready quite early today meaning I can comfortably enjoy my breakfast. I miss the days when I could just skip breakfast but dang my medication. Sigh.
As I was finishing up with my breakfast the doorbell rang. I clocked at my phone and it was almost 8:30. Who could be here so early to see
me? This is strange. I have to leave for work soon. I head to the door and I'm startled to see Karter standing there.
"Hey." Karter smiles.
"Umm Hi? What are you doing here Karter?" I ask.
"Really Mar
MarieHave you ever heard that ridiculous saying that delusional people share on their Facebook, no offence, the one that goes something likethe reason you can't fall asleep is because you're awake in someone else's dream.That quote. I can't believe people actually believe that. But then again sometimes, when I'm wide awake in the middle of the night, what if that's true, and if so who could possibly be dreaming about me? Is it the love of my life or a complete stranger? Is it my mom or my enemy. We can't control our dreams is what people often say, then why is it that most of our dreams revolve around the people we care about the most or the least?It was 3:30 am. I was staring at the ceiling with Karter sound asleep beside me. For some reason, I just couldn't sleep. As I couldn't fall asleep Idecided to go out for a little walk. I put on some sweats and a lose tank top and quietly head out not wanting to wake up Karter.
MarieThree months later"I can't tonight Nina. I have to attend a wedding, I told you remember?"Nina nods, "Oh yeah! I forgot about that. Well have fun okay?" Nina smiles at me.I smile, "I plan to. See you tomorrow?""Yeah let's get brunch or something?" Nina suggests."Done. I really should going now, I need to pick up the wedding gift on my way home it was coming in today and I need to get ready and stuff.""Sure. Can't wait to hear how the wedding turns out. Who knows maybe you might meet a cute guy there." Nina says as she move to hug me.I pull away and smile, "Haha maybe. Okay see you tomorrow. Bye!""Bye. Have fun!" Nina says and turns to walk the other way as I step into the elevator.It's been three months since Karter so casually walked out of my life. I haven't seen him since nor have a I heard from him since then. A day after Karter dumped me I called Carl and asked him if
KarterThe purpose of the last three months of my life can be summed up in a single word-realization. I realized several things in the past three months one of the them being that I'm a complete idiot. An asshole, a dick, an inconsiderate pig. Those are just few of many adjectives I would use to describe myself.At the beginning of this year, I had everything. I really did. Let me elaborate. My job was going great, I had met an amazing girl who accepted me for me and who made me open up to everything, my daughter had a motherly figure in her life who she looked up to, all my friends loved my girlfriend. Well everything was amazing because of one special person. I'm pretty sure you all know who that is.I'm still earning in millions, I still have my friends and my loving daughter by my side but my heart isn't truly happy with the stupid decisions I've made in the previous months. As any normal person would do after a break up, I started to isolat
MarieGod, I hate Tuesdays. For me they're worse than Mondays. They just remind you that you still have an entire long ass week before your weekend starts off. Ugh. I hate leaving my warm and cozy bed. It's too hard for me.After my morning routine, I head outside. It's an awfully cold day today. Gosh I really wish I could go inside and crawl into my comfortable warmbed but duty calls.Since I switched branches as in since I left the headquarters to work at Carl's branch, I have to wake up way earlier in the morning as my current office is more then 45 minutes away from my apartment so that fucking sucks. I can't even sleep in five extra mi
KarterI quickly make a stop at the flower shop before heading over to Marie's place. She wanted to have the double date at her place and wanted to cook herself.I was really hoping this could just be a one to one date but Marie set her own conditions. I could always give Liam a call and tell him to make anexcuse and cancel but I can't do that. Marie is starting to trust me again, even something so little might make her change her mind for good. Can't letthat happen now can I? I need to respect her decision and understand that I can't always get what I want.I stand outsi
MarieHave you ever just stayed up all night because you were too lost in your thoughts? Well I have. All night I kept thinking about my life. I know this must sound so cliché and maybe I sound like such a romantic right now but all night one person was continuously on my mind and that person was Karter.Tonight, was nice. It was better than I expected honestly. But there has been one thing that has been on my mind the entire night. Even beforeLouis and Ellie came. Am I still in love with Karter? The real question should be did I ever even stop loving him? I forgave him, I know that I did.But do I still love him?…The next morning, I was awoken by phone buzzing by my side. God. I want to sleep. Scratch that. I need to sleep. Ugh. I press answer and press my phone to my ear."Hello?""M. Don't tell me you're still in bed right now." Nina warns."It's a Sunday and it's" I remove my phone f
MarieI anxiously pace across my apartment waiting for Karter. Ugh. Why am I so nervous and freaked out? I need to calm down a little.There was a knock on my door and I immediately look up. Should I pretend like I'm not home so he can leave? No stop being ridiculous Marie.I kid you not, my hands were literally shaking as I held onto the doorknob. What is wrong with me? I need to calm down and take a breath before talking to Karter. He'll probably think I'm on drugs or something like that.I take a deep breath and unlock the door. Karter was standing there with a polite smile on his face."Hey." Karter greets me."Hi. Thanks for c
Karter"Come on. Get up sleepy head. Your friend's Cindy is coming over today remember? We can't have her here with you sleeping, can we?" I ask Millie.Millie jolts up in her bed, "Is Cindy here?" She asked sleepily."No she isn't but she'll be here in a while sweetheart. Why don't we go downstairs and eat breakfast or do you want to take a shower first?" I ask Millie."Breakfast." Millie mumbles rubbing her eyes."Okay then let's go downstairs. Come on." I get up and open my arms and pick up Millie who's still pretty sound asleep.
12 years laterMarieI felt a pair of arms tighten around my waist and a few kisses were being planted on my neck. I smile as my eyes slowly start to open.I turn the other way to be faced with a smiling Karter ,"Morning beautiful.""Good Morning handsome." I smile at him. I was still semi asleep."How'd you sleep?" Karter asks."The usual. Good." I smile."I'm going to go get started with breakfast okay?""Okay." I smile yet again."It's still early, rest for a while before the little rascals' wake up." Karter says as he places a kiss on top of my forehead."I will. Thanks babe." I smile."Anything for you." Karter flashes me one of his billion dollar smiles and walks to the bathroom.I really am the luckiest girl in the world. I turn the other side to see a few pictures on our bedside table. One was of Karter, Millie and I on our wedding day. Millie was just a little girl
Karter"By the power vested in me, I now pronounce you man and wife. Karter Allan, you may kiss your bride." The pastor says."Finally." I mumble before latching my lips onto Marie's.The rest of the audience start to clap and cheer for us. Marie and I smile into the kiss as we deepen the kiss. We pull away and look into each other’s eyes."I love you." I say."And I love you." Marie smiles.We walk down the aisle hand in hand with everyone cheering and clapping beside us. I was smiling so much that
Marie1 year laterOne thing I hate the most in this world is dieting. I just hate dieting. I hate it. Maybe I'm being a bit too cynical because I haven't eaten proper food in over a week now. I'm on a juice cleanse. I'm surviving on smoothies and boy do I hate them. Just one more day until I can eat solid food again. Thinking about it is making me so happy. Tomorrow is going to be magical not because I'm getting married but because I can finally eat junk again. Can tomorrow come by any faster."Marie? You can come out anytime today!" My mom yells from outside the bathroom. I was trying on my wedding dress right now. I forgot. I was lost in my thoughts."Just one second mom!" I say and quickly start to fit into my wedding dress.I zip myself in and walk out of the bathroom carefully. Can't ruin this dress, it's very important for tomorrow.Everyone outside gasps as soon as I step out of the bathroom. I give all of t
Karter"Come on. Get up sleepy head. Your friend's Cindy is coming over today remember? We can't have her here with you sleeping, can we?" I ask Millie.Millie jolts up in her bed, "Is Cindy here?" She asked sleepily."No she isn't but she'll be here in a while sweetheart. Why don't we go downstairs and eat breakfast or do you want to take a shower first?" I ask Millie."Breakfast." Millie mumbles rubbing her eyes."Okay then let's go downstairs. Come on." I get up and open my arms and pick up Millie who's still pretty sound asleep.
MarieI anxiously pace across my apartment waiting for Karter. Ugh. Why am I so nervous and freaked out? I need to calm down a little.There was a knock on my door and I immediately look up. Should I pretend like I'm not home so he can leave? No stop being ridiculous Marie.I kid you not, my hands were literally shaking as I held onto the doorknob. What is wrong with me? I need to calm down and take a breath before talking to Karter. He'll probably think I'm on drugs or something like that.I take a deep breath and unlock the door. Karter was standing there with a polite smile on his face."Hey." Karter greets me."Hi. Thanks for c
MarieHave you ever just stayed up all night because you were too lost in your thoughts? Well I have. All night I kept thinking about my life. I know this must sound so cliché and maybe I sound like such a romantic right now but all night one person was continuously on my mind and that person was Karter.Tonight, was nice. It was better than I expected honestly. But there has been one thing that has been on my mind the entire night. Even beforeLouis and Ellie came. Am I still in love with Karter? The real question should be did I ever even stop loving him? I forgave him, I know that I did.But do I still love him?…The next morning, I was awoken by phone buzzing by my side. God. I want to sleep. Scratch that. I need to sleep. Ugh. I press answer and press my phone to my ear."Hello?""M. Don't tell me you're still in bed right now." Nina warns."It's a Sunday and it's" I remove my phone f
KarterI quickly make a stop at the flower shop before heading over to Marie's place. She wanted to have the double date at her place and wanted to cook herself.I was really hoping this could just be a one to one date but Marie set her own conditions. I could always give Liam a call and tell him to make anexcuse and cancel but I can't do that. Marie is starting to trust me again, even something so little might make her change her mind for good. Can't letthat happen now can I? I need to respect her decision and understand that I can't always get what I want.I stand outsi
MarieGod, I hate Tuesdays. For me they're worse than Mondays. They just remind you that you still have an entire long ass week before your weekend starts off. Ugh. I hate leaving my warm and cozy bed. It's too hard for me.After my morning routine, I head outside. It's an awfully cold day today. Gosh I really wish I could go inside and crawl into my comfortable warmbed but duty calls.Since I switched branches as in since I left the headquarters to work at Carl's branch, I have to wake up way earlier in the morning as my current office is more then 45 minutes away from my apartment so that fucking sucks. I can't even sleep in five extra mi
KarterThe purpose of the last three months of my life can be summed up in a single word-realization. I realized several things in the past three months one of the them being that I'm a complete idiot. An asshole, a dick, an inconsiderate pig. Those are just few of many adjectives I would use to describe myself.At the beginning of this year, I had everything. I really did. Let me elaborate. My job was going great, I had met an amazing girl who accepted me for me and who made me open up to everything, my daughter had a motherly figure in her life who she looked up to, all my friends loved my girlfriend. Well everything was amazing because of one special person. I'm pretty sure you all know who that is.I'm still earning in millions, I still have my friends and my loving daughter by my side but my heart isn't truly happy with the stupid decisions I've made in the previous months. As any normal person would do after a break up, I started to isolat