Being at alert

Eve's POV

Water cascaded down my skin, running through my fingers and then down my body. I closed my eyes, trying not to tremble or lose my mind at the feel of water on my skin.  

I could see it all again. Could feel that emptiness pulsing through me, driving me crazy. I could hear Tom's laughter as he dunked my head over and over in the bucket. As the water sloshed around my head, rushed down my throat and forced me to gargle on my spit.  

My eyes flashed open and I gasped, wrapping my hands around my neck trying to breathe easy. 

No. No please, a part of me begged as the memory played on and on in my head. I could feel his hands in my hair again, grabbing, pulling and spitting in my face. I could feel every slap, every blow, every kick to the stomach. 

I hated him.  

"I hate him with every single part of m