Chapter 7
-INDIGO-
Everything is back to normal now.
Well, as normal as things can be when you're married to a billionaire and working for him.
"So, you're trying to say you and Mr. Grumpy pants have been married for close to two weeks and you guys haven't done anything dirty yet?" Matilda asks me and I nod slowly.
I continue to ask myself, time and time again, why am I friends with Matilda Fuentes?
She is literally the most annoying person to ever walk on this earth. But one thing she knows how to do is to pry out personal information from a person.
After delivering morning coffee to Mr. Grey, he dismissed me like a pest in front of her and Matilda—the real pest—started to pester me for information.
She asked about Mr. Grey and I sexual lives and I told her that we don't have any. To say she was shocked is an understatement.
How hard is it to believe that two responsible adults that are married are not having sex?
Apparently for Matilda, it's very hard.
She sighs, leans into her chair and grumbles to a few incoherent words to herself. She stays like that for while and I go back to work, trying to forget her existence.
"Is it you?" She asks, all of a sudden and I frown, as I stop typing.
I turn my chair around to face her one more time and I give her a questioning look.
"Or is it him?" She changes her question.
"What?" I ask in an outrageous tone.
"Aren't you two horny already?" She inquires, flaying her hands up in the air.
I'm taken aback by her vulgarity at first. It takes a few seconds to compose myself again before I put on a dry look.
"I've told you countless times, stop saying such vulgar words when you're in the office." I caution her, trying not to say anything about her previous words and she rolls her eyes as she folds her arms.
"Okay, Mrs. I-have-a-stick-up-my-ass-the-same-size-as-the-stick-up-my-husband's-ass." Matilda mocks and I fume.
"I have zero sticks up my ass and neither does Mr. Grey!" I defend fiercely.
She hums sarcastically and I narrow my eyes at her as I go back to what I was doing on my computer.
"You sure about that, Chica?" She asks a few seconds later, and I don't know when I slam my hands against my desk harshly and stand up from my chair.
"I do not have any stick up my ass! I am not uptight! My ass is stickless! Free! Untouched, beautiful and amazing!" I defend strongly, feeling satisfied with myself. Whereas, Matilda looks like she's stifling a laugh.
"What?" I ask her, and her eyes stray. I turn around to see the cause of her upcoming laughter and I see a large sized Rowan Grey.
Shit!
My heart immediately escapes from my body and my tongue vanishes. The man heard everything. Everything.
Oh my goodness, I feel like crying.
Don't cry, Indigo. Do not cry. Under no circumstance must you show fear.
But with the way Mr. Grey is looking at me, fear is the only emotion I can feel comfort in.
It wraps around me and threatens to choke me. I don't dare move an inch, I fear I might just run towards the direction of the nearest tight corner and hide in.
"My office." Mr. Grey grits out, emphasizing on both words and I can only bob my head.
He walks back into his office and it feels like a heavy weight has been shifted from the room.
Matilda bursts into a full blown laughter as she watches me walk into my doom. I'm tempted to strangle her because she's the reason why I'm in this situation in the first place.
This is what I get for standing up to myself. This is why I like keeping quiet whenever people taunt me. I'm the one that'll face the consequence at the end of the day.
I'm going to kill Matty later for this.
"Mr. Grey?" I call out, once I'm inside his office, stickingy head through the door before stepping in fully.
I see that he is already seated on his fine office chair. He's crossing his legs, his back is not leaning on the chair. His fingers are forming a triangle shape from across his face.
Oh oh.
He only does those things when he is heavily pissed.
"The Yuki investors just pulled out of the deal." He states, as his jaw ticks and I can see a popping vein across his forehead.
What? I thought we sealed that deal ages ago. I don't understand, why would they even want to pull out? They're benefitting from the deal as much as we are.
"What? Why? I thought they agreed already—"
"I did too!" He snaps, cutting my sentence off harshly, and I flinch at his tone.
Okay, he's in a terrible mood.
But, I'm still not seeing the reason why he is taking it out on me. He's so mean.
I'm always the butt of his fury. I want to make an annoyed face at his behaviour but I control myself. He might probably fire me on the spot of I choose to misbehave right now.
"Why did you go behind my back and tell them to pull out from the contract?" Mr. Grey asks in a serious tone, as he stands up from his chair and start to take predatory steps towards me.
What? I think I make a weird expression because he raises a brow at me. What the hell is happening right now?
"Me? I didn't do that! I was the one who even pushed this deal! Why would I want it to fall apart?" I cry out, flaying my arms in the air, trying to make sense of this awkward situation. But he's still walking closer to me. So I start to take small steps backwards.
"I don't know. Why would you?" He asks in a calculating tone as his eyes search mine for something.
That's a good question. Why would I even want to sabotage the deal I pushed forward in the first place?
This doesn't make sense at all. A million thoughts start to cloud my brain as my back hits the closed office door and Mr. Grey is less than two feet in front of me.
My breath hitches and the scent of his expensive muscular cologne jabs my nose. My knees start to feel weak and I'm tempted to tremble under the heavy gaze of the almighty Rowan Grey.
"I didn't do it, I swear. I think it's just a misunderstanding. I'll speak to them and we'll work things out." I rant in such a tone that contrasts to my normal calm and collected voice.
My rant does nothing to aid me in my situation as Mr. Grey looks even more serious than before. I'm breathless all of a sudden as fear and something that shall remain unspoken grips me.
I do not like being on the receiving end of Mr. Grey's wrath.
"Of course, you will," he says in urgency as he straightens his back on his spot.
"Huh?" I ask breathlessly.
"I've already set up a business dinner this evening with the investors." He says in a casual tone and takes two swift steps backwards, away from me.
The tension in the room reduces by a great height and I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. The air now feels suddenly free.
Mr. Grey is too intense. He walks back to his chair and sits down, as he starts to tap on his desk in a weird rhythm.
No, he's not tapping on his desk.
His hands are shaking.
I've noticed that about him over the years. Whenever he gets stressed, his hands start to shake uncontrollably. He covers it up by pretending he's in control of them.
It scares people whenever that see him tapping on his desk. For me, I worry. That's not normal, right? Right?
"This evening?" I ask for confirmation.
"Yes, you'll explain to me and the investors why you advised them to pull out from the contract." He says in a final tone, before turning his attention to his office tab.
"But I didn't do that. I swear!" I cry out one more time, but Mr. Grey's mind is already elsewhere.
I stand against his office door for the next two minutes, hoping that he'll look into my eyes and see the truth in them. But he obviously does not do that. When he eventually looks up, it's irritation that's in his eyes.
"Why are you still here?" He bites out and words fail me in that moment.
"Get back to work!" He barks and I immediately scurry out of his office.
My legs find their way to the lounge room so that I can get water. Along the way there, my brain starts to rack into a million theories behind what just happened.
Why would the investors even think I convinced them to pull out of the deal? Did I? No, I couldn't have. Maybe I was unaware when I did it. What am I even thinking? I'm not the one. At least I hope I'm not, it would be terrible if I actually were.
Is someone trying to frame me? What would they even gain by framing me? Or is this just some elaborate misunderstanding. Or am I just missing some—
"Ah!" I jerk as someone touches my shoulder and the cup I was drinking water from, falls to the ground.
I turn around to see Joshua standing.
"Oh, it's you." I say, letting out a sigh of relief. I pick up my cup from the floor and use a nearby mop to dab the floor.
"What is it?" I ask him, as I finish up.
"I wanted to speak with you," he says nervously.
"Okay, speak." I say to him in urgency.
"Are you really married to Rowan?" He asks and I veer back.
"What?"
"The news says that you are, everyone says that you are, even Rowan says that you're married to him. Are you really married to him?" He asks me.
Am I really married to Rowan?
I hesitate too long.
"Why, Indigo? Is he forcing you to do this? Is he blackmailing you in some kind of way?" Joshua asks in concern and I shake my head.
"He's not! Why would you even think that?" I ask in horror.
"Because you two don't even look like you're husband and wife. He treats you like you're his secretary—"
"I am his secretary!" I cut him off.
"Indigo, please just tell me you're uncomfortable with that monster and I'll help you. I'll find a way to free you from him." Joshua says in a pleading tone and I take a step back from him.
"He's not some kind of evil monster that's trapping me. He's my husband and my boss as well! I don't appreciate your words. He is a-a good man." I stutter at the end.
"Please, don't ever badmouth my husband ever again or next time you'll be having a conversation with him and not me. And it won't be a friendly one." I say to Joshua in a curt tone.
"Indigo, can you hear yourself?" He asks me.
"Yes, I can. And I agree with myself. Rowan Grey is my husband, and you have no business in our matters." I say finally, before walking away.
God, I'm so stupid. Why did I just defend a monster in front of one of the good guys? I'm going crazy. I can't believe myself right now.
But I had to. To make this marriage between Mr. Grey an d I look real, I'll have to be doing what I just did almost everyday and in tenfold.
What have I gotten myself into?
I made a deal with the devil, and now I have to live with the terms.
Chapter 8-INDIGO- Is it just me or has Mr. Grey become more cruel and grumpy than he used to be, before we got married? "Indigo, I'm not paying you to stare into space. Sort out the files faster!" My husband cuts into my thoughts with a sharp voice. Nope, it's not just me. Before we got married, he never use to order me around like some slave. He had some unspoken respect towards me. But now, all that is gone. I'm like some kind of errand girl to him all of a sudden. It's all 'Indigo, do this!' 'Indigo, do that!' 'Indigo!' 'Indigo!' 'Indigo!' Ugh! I'm starting to get sick and tired of my own name.I seriously have no idea what I'm doing. Mr. Grey just rang me up and told me to sort out files into his locker. His exact words were 'Indigo! Sort out these fines!' He didn't even tell me what order to do it in. Who the hell does that?! It's because I'm readily at his disposal. That must be the only reason why. "Yes, sir," I say respectfully in contrast to how I actually feel
Chapter 9-ROWAN-I've lost my mind. That's the only reasonable explanation for the things I have been doing lately. Marriage is horrible. There should be a cover for marriage spelling out 'Do not do this. You will run mad.'Yes, surely it must be marriage madness. Nothing else. That is the main reason why I sent for Indigo to come to my office and asked her to review reports that are perfectly okay.Madness is the only valid reason why I am straining my eyes, trying to look for a cleavage between the tightly knitted turtleneck that Indigo is wearing.As if she notices my heavy gaze on her, she immediately looks up. I frown at her. Her face is even more of a distraction than her body."Mr. Grey?" She calls out in a sweet voice. "What?" I spit harshly, I shouldn't give off any vibe that I actually like the sound of her voice. What am I even saying? I do not like her voice. I do not like anything about her. She is Indigo, my secretary wife that I will divorce after six months. That
Chapter 10-ROWAN-"Is it too early to file for a divorce?" I ask Jax in a serious tone.He laughs, probably thinking I'm joking. I wait it out for a few seconds before he calms down and realizes that I'm not joking. "Is being married that bad?" He asks, with humor laced in his tone."It's horrible." I say, gulping down half the contents of my glass and slamming it against the table in front of us, harshly. "She's everywhere. I wake up, she's there. I'm at work, she's there. I'm eating, she's there. I can't stand it! It's like she's a witch!" I growl in frustration and Jax chuckles.He thinks it's a joke. I'm starting to suspect Indigo of witchcraft. It's not normal to be everywhere, every single thing. Even when I don't see her, I think of her. Of her voice, of her face, of her body, of her eyes, of her everything. I'm losing it. My sanity. She's the cause of it all. We've only been married for two weeks and I'm fed up. How am I supposed to manage five months and two more weeks
Chapter 11-ROWAN-"It's time for you to do those things you said you would do to me soon." Indigo says in a seductive voice and I'm at a loss for words.I clear my throat awkwardly and take a good look at the woman beside me. She's biting her lips and continuously winking at me.Sober Indigo would never do this. This is her intoxicated self. Indigo that almost never looks up at my face, this is just the drink talking.But still, my body reacts to everything she does. Temptation. Temptation. Temptation. That is what this woman is. She starts to thread on my left arm, humming an upbeat sound which is very annoying. "Stop it," I warn her in a sharp tone. She sighs heavily, before placing her head against the glass. "Ugh! You're such a fun sponge!" She remarks, flaying her arms mid-air, and I frown. She turns away from me and starts to trace her seat belt with her finger nails playfully, making a weird sound. I should be staring at the road, but every two seconds, my eyes glance at
Chapter 12-INDIGO-"Ah, my head!" I groan loudly as I try to open my eyes.I slowly take a sitting position on my bed, before opening my eyes fully. I look around me and it's still somewhat dark. The light entering through the closed windows are dim, so I take it the sun hasn't risen fully yet. I check the alarm clock by my side to see that it's 5:32am. Shit! I'm supposed to wake up before five. Why didn't my alarm go off? Oh, my gosh, I'm going to be late for work if I don't get up now. Everything is spinning as I take weird shaky steps to the bathroom. As I turn on the shower and step underneath, a memory slams through me. "It's time for you to do those things you said you would do to me soon." No no no no no no no no. That was not me. I was not the one who said those words to Mr. Grey.What the hell was I thinking?Memories of everything that happened last night floods my mind and a shiver runs down my spine. I can't believe I did all those things last night.Oh no! I knew I
Chapter 13-INDIGO-I catch a cab back to the house and I simmer in anger all the way. Once I get to the house, I stomp through the halls and head for my room.Annoying, infuriating Rowan Grey!What does he expect me to do all alone in the house? I kick off my shoes and take off my jacket. I drop my shades by my bedside.I plop on the bed, tiredly. Why does he always boss me around? I know he's my boss, but still? He never actually talks to any other of his employees the way he does with me.It's just so infuriating.My back hits the bed, I scoot my body deeper into it so that I can lie down better. Once I'm comfortable, I intertwine my fingers on top of my stomach and look up to the ceiling.This is my life now.I wonder if my parents are up in heaven, looking down at me. They're probably disappointed. I was their model child, I never did anything wrong while growing up. Never told a lie, never cheated, heck, I never even associated with boys.Now look at me, I've gotten myself into
Chapter 14-INDIGO-"Unbuckle the belt." Mr. Grey—Rowan commands in a rough tone.My eyes are almost out of the socket as I stare at him."Do it," he grits out, groaning loud.I start to unbuckle his belt and I try as much as I can, not to touch his 'you know.' Once I'm done with the belt, he eyes me, silently ordering me to take off his pants.My hands have never been shaky.I'm always in control of my reflexes so what the hell is happening right now? My hands tremble as they come in contact with Rowan's pants. I start to undo the zip, suddenly, something overwhelms me and I'm up from the bed, grabbing my phone and pants that's on the floor and running out the room."Indigo!" I hear Rowan calling out for me but I don't look back. I dress as I run downstairs and I'm out the mansion's doors in a few seconds.I catch a cab almost immediately and it's only then that I relax to catch my breath.Oh my goodness, what is wrong with me?What just happened? What did I do?I let my boss husband
Chapter 15-INDIGO-I'm in deep shit now.I slowly turn around to face Rowan, I don't expect him to be few feet away from me as I do turn. "I'll get those files for you!" I chirp awkwardly, walking over to where he was sitting down before to grab the documents on the table.I'm able to turn around when I feel something behind me.Him.He's behind me. I don't move an inch. Rowan presses the front of his body to my back. From my slightly bent position, I carry my body up and stand upright.Heaven knows why I did that because now I can feel his hot breath against my neck. Why the hell did I wear my hair up in a ponytail today?"Um, Mr. Grey, I uh—""Rowan," he cuts me off. "I told you to call me Rowan." His voice is gruff and harsh as he speaks."Uh, R-Rowan, did you want me to do something for you?" I croak out in an uncertain tone."Yes. I wanted you to suck me off yesterday." I gasp at his vulgarity."Mr. Grey—""Rowan," he cuts me off again."You can't talk like that to me here. We'
Epilogue-INDIGO-"I feel hot. I don't know why. Do you feel hot as well? Or is it just me?" I rant to Matilda and Henry.Matty places her hands on my bare shoulders to caress me. "Indy, you're hyperventilating right now. Cool it." She says, and I realize that she's right.My chest is heaving up and down in an erratic manner. I feel like my head is about to explode. I don't know if it's because I'm nervous or if it's because of something else entirely.Why am I nervous a person might ask? Well, that's because I'm getting married today. Yep, you heard that right. I'm getting married to Rowan today. Again. We're going to have an official wedding today.It all started last two months after Frederick got arrested. The proceedings for the court were wrapped really quickly because of the confession I had. Charlotte and Frederick got long prison sentences. Rowan and I started to hang out more. Though I didn't return back to the company. Instead, I'm now working for Henry's restaurant with no
Chapter 71-INDIGO-"He might not have proof, but I do." I say as I step into the room, holding up my phone with a sardonic smirk on my face.Frederick pales immediately at the sight of me. "Wh-what are you doing here?" He stumbles on his words.I turn my attention to Rowan and throw him a sympathetic look. "I'm sorry for ever doubting you, Rowan. When I saw you with Charlotte, I just totally lost it. I thought- I thought so many things and I needed time to think and reflect."I thought about it so hard. But you never liked Charlotte, did you? Even before you got married to me, you hated sharing meetings with her. I thought about it and found it so hard that you would want to bed her. It all sounded so mixed up to me."I came here today to ask you more questions about it, then I ran into your conversation with this man," I spit out with venom laced in my voice. "I couldn't be sure what was happening, but since I've always known that he's a no-good sleazebag, something in the back of
Chapter 70-ROWAN-Ah, shit. Shit, shit, shit. I've finally done it. I've ruined my life through and through. I take a huge gulp from the champagne bottle in my hand and set it harshly against the bar slab."Fuck." I curse out loud. This is all my fault. If I had just told Indigo the truth when I found out maybe things wouldn't turned out this way.I was so fucking foolish to think that pushing her away was going to help matters in anyway. I didn't think things through that time, and my decisions are now biting me hard in the ass. I wish I was more sensible.I take another huge gulp from the champagne bottle, then groan loudly afterwards. I feel like I'm being ripped apart from the inside. Nothing in my entire life has ever hurt this bad. Absolutely nothing.Heartbreak is the worst pain imaginable. I never thought it was but now that I'm feeling it, I know it is. Indigo hates me now. There's no coming back from that. I bet she's going to move on from me sooner than later, leaving me a
Chapter 69-INDIGO-I can't believe the scene in front of me.Rowan and Charlotte are kissing. I feel like my head and my heart are about to explode. I can't think straight. I'm shivering all over.My exclamation makes them pull apart from each other. Charlotte, who is wearing a thin silky robe, breaks into a sly smile as she notices me. While Rowan, there's guilt all over his expression.So he knows that he's done something bad. This isn't even supposed to be hurting me the way that it is but I can't help myself. I knew him to be a liar and betrayer but not a cheat. Never a cheat.I guess I was wrong about that too.Tears prick the corner of my eyes but I try as much as I can to suck them back in with little to no success.Rowan reaches for me, but I flinch away, not wanting his dirty hands to touch me."Indigo, it's not what it looks like. I can explain." He says in a desperate tone as he pushes Charlotte away and starts to walk towards me.I'm backing away from the door, shaking my
Chapter 68-INDIGO-I don't know why I keep thinking about Joshua's words. It's been two days and still. I still can't get over it."How much he loves you..."Loves me? Rowan doesn't love me. He only Loves himself and his lies so why can't I get it out of my mind? Anyways, since I have no job now, thanks to the lying bastard, I have to start updating my CV to find a better one.Henry offered me a spot in his company but I'm still thinking about it. I don't want to be the girl who divorced a billionaire and now works for said billionaire's best friend. It has an odd ring to it.Though it would be very beneficial. I'd have a friend at work, Henry, and I can bet that his working environment won't be as toxic as Rowan's. Henry is a much nicer person. Or worse comes to worse, I could take up a waiting job at his cool ship restaurant.I think that's even a better odd. I miss that place so much. I hate that my first and only memory of it is tainted with a man named Rowan Grey. My goodness, e
Chapter 67-INDIGO-"Hi, guys." I say to everyone as I step into the kitchen.Matilda, Jax, and Henry are all caught off guard at the sight of me. I mean, I haven't read the room that Jax graciously spared to me since the day Rowan came by.They've been the ones to come checking up on me and all of that. Yep, I've been heavily depressed but last night, I don't know. I had this self discovery thing happen to me during a whack dream I had.I can't keep pining over Rowan my entire life. It's not like I'm the first person in the one who has been lied to, betrayed, and heartbroken, nor am I going to be the last.I'm not going to let a little set back in my love life predict the rest of my entire life. I had a pep talk with myself. Yes, I know it's going to be incredibly hard but I need to move on.Find a new job, a new house, something to love for. Rowan has moved on, he hasn't been back at the house, he hasn't been pining over the place, begging for another chance do why should I be the o
Chapter 66-ROWAN-Fuck, I can't think straight anymore. Everything is all blurry in my head, my eyes, my everywhere. But I have to attend this meeting.Even if it's just to tell the investors fuck themselves. The cab driver that drove me tontge office kept asking me if I was okay? What the fuck is that question all about?Can he see that I'm not fucking okay? I can't even remember the last time that I was okay. Wait, scratch that. I can remember. It was when I was with Indigo. When she was looking at me like I was the most important thing to her in her entire life.I just had to ruin that. When I get down from the cab, I stumble on my tracks. A few people on the streets throw curious glances my way but I ignore them. I don't give a shit about all of that.I choke on a cough as I manage to get through the front door of the building and into the lobby of my company. Everyone freezes as they spot me. It's been a while since I came to the office.Without her it doesn't feel worth it anym
Chapter 65-INDIGO-Rowan's eyes go dead at my words. Perhaps he was expecting me to listen to what he had to say and continue deluding myself blindly. But I'm not going to do that."You heard her, Rowan. Just go." Matilda points at the door as she speaks. Rowan stares at me, hoping that the last few seconds was just a figment of his imagination and I hadn't truly just told him that I would murder him if he got too close.Sadly, it's not. I harden my expression more and better. When he sees that I'm not budging. He sighs and his face falls. "Believe me, I'm sorry." He says one last time before steering around and walking out of the house.Once I can no longer make out his figure, I let out a choked sob as I fall to the ground, smashing my kneecaps against the cold hard tiles hard. The loud sound seems to pull Matilda's and Jax's attention as they rush to my aid.They try to help me to stand up but I'm totally a mess. I hear myself blubbering and spewing out useless rants. I cry and cr
Chapter 64-INDIGO-"Do you want ice cream?" Matilda asks and I shake my head, clutching onto my blanket tightly."Should I turn on the tv?" Henry asks and I shake my head."Should we run a bath for you or something?" Everyone of us turn to stare at Jax, he shrugs. I shake my head.I want to be happy. I want everything that's happened within the last two days to be a dream, a nightmare, that I'd just wake up from one morning and let out a sigh of relief. I want to be able to go back to the mansion to prepare breakfast for the person I thought I love.I want to not feel so horrible and betrayed all the time. I want to be able to eat without the good tasting sour and causing me throw up. I want to be able to smile without having to cry afterwards. I just want what I lost.I don't say any of that though. It sounds very pathetic in my head, I don't think I could summon the courage to actually say it out loud. So instead of voicing out of my thoughts and freeing myself. I shake my head and