Sid's pov
My blood boils whenever she talks about leaving me. How can she think of doing something like this? "Please don't make it complicated for me," she sighs, driving her eyes away. I take fast steps to reach her and grab her arm tightly. "I'm making it complicated or you?" I shrug. "You're just uttering nonsense since morning. Now keep your mouth shut and don't you dare to say this again," I raise my finger as she glares at me. "I'll not be following your orders, Sid," she says in a cold voice. "I have the full right to decide where I wanna go. You don't own me" "Yeah, I don't. But this time you'll be listening to me. Did you get that? You're not going anywhere" "Is she ok with it?" she asks me. "Who?" "Bella. Is she ok with me living with you in the same house, same bed?" she asks. I have no answer to it. I know Bella isn't liking it either. However, if I tell SanSana's POVI step out of the place where I spent 5 beautiful years with him. I want to release my emotions, cry out louder, and let my tears flow down. But I don't want him to know how much I love him. I could see the guilt in his eyes. If he gets to know I'm in love with him, that guilt will increase like hell. While climbing down the stairs, I recollect those memories I made with him. I lived with him. However, I've failed, I've failed to give him everything that he deserves. That's why he couldn't love me. I wish Bella gives him everything that can keep him happy. That's all I want.Roshan calls me from behind when I reach the entrance. "Sana," he yells. I immediately clear my tears and turn to him. "Where will you go? Let me drop you," he says, coming towards me. "Dad's place. And thanks. You don't need to drop me. I'll hire a cab," I sigh. "A cab?" he scoffs. "You'll go by cab?" "Yeah. I can'
Bella's POVMy heart sinks for a moment after hearing him. But he was right. He had never said he loved me, nor did he give me false hopes. He just said he felt something for me. I can't figure out what to say. "I'm sorry. I was just...," I mumble. "That's fine," he mutters. "Anyway, I'll talk to you later"He disconnects the call. I could realise how upset he was at Sana's exit. He never sounded so low. But I think I can heal him if I love him more than Sana. He'll soon overcome her. "So, what did he say?" my bestie Amela says, sitting on the bed. "Nothing much. He seems not to be interested in talking right now," I sit on the bed beside her. "Girl, do you even love him?" she rolls her eyes. "Yes. I do," I exclaim, looking at her. Why is she asking me the same question again and again? "Oh" "What do you mean by 'oh'?" I ask her. You've been asking me the same question repeatedly from the day I told you
Sid's POVSince last night only Sana has been roaming around my mind. I'm unable to think of anything except her. I look at Bella and examine her reaction. She may not like this gesture of mine towards her. She came here for me and I'm only talking about Sana in front of her. However, I can't control my emotions when it's about Sana. "I know. I mean..I know that I don't know you well like Sana. She was with you for a long time. I promise I'll try to know you well," she smiles.Now, what the heck is this promise thing? Who makes promises so soon? I never made it. In fact, I and Sana never made any promises still we were together for fucking 5 years. And now also. Are we? I'm not sure if Sana is with me now or not. She has just left my place, so I let her do so. But she can't leave my life, I won't let her. I hope she calls me and keeps in touch with me. "Are you listening?" Bella asks. I come out of my thoughts and shake my head.
Sid's POV "She… is… Bella," I manage to say. "Bella," mom beams. "You're so beautiful" "Thank you," Bella smiles back at her. "Umm… So you're here at work hours? How did this happen?" she asks in a confused voice. "We were just…," I mutter. "Hanging out?" mom asks, looking at both of us suspiciously. "Hang… what?" I exclaim. "Now you don't need to hide anything from me. You're here with Bella, that too during office hours. What does that mean? Ha?" Mom giggles as I look at Bella. I know I'm hooking up with her but not in that manner. I know mom will make a big issue of it if she gets to know about us. I can't deny that also as it would be unfair to Bella. "There's nothing like that Mrs Matthews," Bella denies, making me surprised. "It's Lydia Johnson. You can call me Lydia. I'm not Matthews anymore," mom passes a light smile. "I'm sorry. I didn't know," Bella ge
Sid's PovHer words are enough to shatter me into pieces. She never talked to me like that. I was trying to believe that she is my old Sana. But I can't find her. My eyes tremble to discharge teardrops but somehow I control them. "I have nothing to do with you? How can you say this?" my voice breaks. Why does it feel like she has already gone too far away from me? And I can never bring her back. "Because that's true," she says in a firm voice. "You don't need to worry about me. I'm fine and I'm enough to handle myself. I've lived 19 years of my life when you were not even in my life" "I know," I can hardly speak to her. Her rude behaviour is pinching me so hard. "But it's different. You suddenly got to know everything. I thought you were hurt. I was worried about you" "Who said it hurt? Did I ever say that I'm hurt? It seems like you think I have nothing in my life except for you. Why would it hurt me? For God's sake
Sid's POVI try to find the familiar smell of Sana, but I can't find it. I struggled to feel her again. But damn! I can't feel her. "Sana?" she exclaims, taking me out of my intuition. Fuck! It's Bella. I immediately leave her and look at her surprisingly. How can I imagine Sana in her? I've lost it. I've completely lost it, I shrugged into my mind. "I.. What were you doing?" I ask her roughly. "I don't know. It just happened. But I thought you may want that too," she says. What the fuck is that? I want that too? I've never thought of sleeping with her. Maybe I had thought of it before, I don't remember. But not now. I'm not in a state of doing all this. "I can't do that," I tell her. "Why? Isn't there something between us? What's stopping you?" she asks. I don't know what's stopping me. I just know I can't do it. "That doesn't mean we need to have sex," I shrug. "It's been just 2 months since w
Sid's POV "I've told the driver. He will drop you," I come inside the room and discover her near the landline. "What happened?" "Someone called on a landline. Maybe it was the wrong number," she says. "Oh! It can be. No one calls me on landline by the way. Nevertheless, you should go now. We have a presentation tomorrow," I tell her. "Yeah. Sleep well," she says, wrapping her arms around my torso. I hug her back, finding the peace I wanted to have. However, it doesn't help me. "Hmm," I mutter as she breaks the hug and leaves my room.I look at my phone again. No calls, no messages from Sana. I know she will call me no matter what happens. I should just wait.Laying down on my bed, I keep staring at the phone, waiting for a single call from her. But hours passed, and I don't get anything to hear from her. My eyes are burning since I haven't slept for two nights. Still, I don't feel like clo
Sid's POVShit! Only shit is happening in my life. I roared inside my cabin, the only thing I can do right now. I don't have any other way to reach Mr Watson. He must be in Australia now. I move near the window, thinking about how things changed overnight. Meanwhile, I hear a knock on the door. "Come in," despite not being interested in meeting anyone I allow. "Sir," James mumbles, coming inside. "Now what?" I light a cigarette, standing near the window "The news of Mr Watson's rejection spread all over the city. The investors are making an issue of it," he stammers. "What kind of issue?" I ask in a cold tone. "They are...they are saying... You can't repay the debt...," he manages to say. I clench my fist tightly to control my outrage, puffing the cigarette. "So, what do you want me to do?" I spit. "Sir, you need to take some action" "Now you'll tell me what
Bella's POVAfter that day 6 months passed. I didn't try to meet Sid after that. I know what my father had done to him. But I'm not guilty of that. Because it was inevitable. Sid would've generally lost everything even if I didn't enter his life. I cried for him continuously for the first two days. I wanted to meet him and tell him that I'm ready to do anything for him. However, I wasn't allowed to meet him. Dad snatched my phone and locked me inside the room so that I wouldn't be able to meet him. I tried to commit suicide that night but failed because I was too afraid to do that.The next day, it hurt less. After 2 days, I was upset but I didn't cry. 5 days passed, and I didn't talk to anyone. 10 days later, it didn't hurt much, I smiled. 11 days later, I started talking to mom dad and Amela. The 15th day was normal for me. Just 15 days! I needed only 15 days to move on.I doubted was I actually in love with him? I got the answer. It was a big 'NO'
Sid's POV"What did you say?" she exclaims."A spirit possessed you?" I roll my eyes as she immediately kisses me again. I pin her against the wall, strolling my lips down to her neck.Sana's POVWhen he uttered the word 'girlfriend' it felt like magic to me. I'm still afraid that it's my dream. I can't even measure my happiness. He finally got back to me, this time forever. I don't know what will happen in the future but I'll never let him leave me now. I fucking won't let him. He must know that he is only mine now and from onwards I will not tolerate any shit. The moment he said he is giving me a commitment, he is bound to me. He can't justify every shit he will do from now on. And I won't leave everything like before.He reaches down and extracts me as I moan aloud. I can't describe in words how much I missed this, how much I missed his touch on my body, how much I missed his lips strolling all over me. But I had my insecurities a
Sid's POVAfter a long time, I found my morning beautiful when I woke up and discovered myself on her ample breast. Though it was not the first time I woke up like this, today it feels amazing. I touch her face, thinking about last night. I know I did wrong. I shouldn't have done that when she was not in her senses. I won't resist if she gives me two hard slaps across both cheeks. But somewhere I know she must be feeling the same as I felt.I can never describe how amazing she felt to me last night. I wanted more and more of her. After a whole fucking month, I made love to her. It feels like years. It was my stupidity to ignore her when she was trying her best to keep me close to her. I never knew her actual worth. Besides, I didn't trust myself. I thought I would never love her the way she deserves to be loved. Nonetheless, now I know I can love her more than anything else. No one can love her more than me, no one can accept her flaws except me, and no o
Sid's POV"Let me go. I don't wanna stay here," she screams as I enter inside. She is throwing her hands and legs to get down of my arms but I don't give a fuck about her words. She always loses it when she is drunk.I put her down, locking the door of our room so that she can't go anywhere. I call Menon and tell him that Sana is with me. "You asshole!" she curses me, slapping my chest with both hands and I let her vent her anger. I wonder how many days she suppressed her pain and anger. I want her to show everything today. I keep looking at her when she slaps and punches my chest."You think you can do whatever you want and I'll tolerate everything? Why don't you let me go? Why do you wanna tie me to you?" she yells, grabbing my collar."You were the one to show up on my engagement," I smirk at her."Because I wanna see how happy you are after breaking my heart," she nudges me, losing the balance as I hold her again."
Sid's PovI didn't know why I continued overhearing them. However, the fact of my mom not being my mom had torn me terribly. I could barely stand there. My legs get numb. I couldn't take a step back. Thus I could hear the whole conversation."Shut up Matt," she shrugs. "Don't use that word again. What if someone hears us""Let them hear. I've tolerated your nonsense and greed only for the sake of my sons. I wanted to focus on my business. That's why I left my sons to you. But you cooked up a fake story before them. I considered you to be their mother. But then you started all the shit? You told them that they are stepbrothers?'' Dad screams.I had to survive with more truths, I guess. Alex is not my stepbrother."What was your motive behind that? You made them hate each other. You deliberately showed fake love towards Alex. You made Sid hate his own brother. You washed Alex's brain against Sid. And now you're asking for your fu
Sana's POVDad holds my shoulder when I am frozen, looking at the tv screen. My eyes burn, tears flow through my cheeks but I remain reactionless."Sana. Are you okay?" dad jerks me.I don't know how to react and what to say. My whole world shook within a few minutes when I saw the news of Bella and Sid's engagement today itself. Just a minute ago, I had started dreaming about my future with him again. And it crashed within a few minutes."Sana," dad jerks me again with his concerned filled voice. I immediately turn off the television and breathe heavily, placing my palm on my forehead. I close my eyes, taking deep breaths. I feel dad's hand on my back. He was rubbing my back to calm me down. I try hard to stop myself from panicking."I'm fine," I finally open my eyes and sigh, taking the spoon again."I don't think so," he shrugs. "When will you get over him, Sana? People come, people leave. In the end, only you're there for yo
Chapter 48Sid's POV"You're lying," I immediately respond."Huh!" she enlarges her eyes. "You think I'm lying? Why would I lie?""You better know that Sana," I shrug, smashing her against my torso. Though she isn't trying to free herself, I still tighten my grip."What do you think of yourself, Sid? If you could date another girl when I was already with you, why can't I date someone else when I'm not with you anymore?" she spits. I clutch her arms tightly and she hisses again."Stop saying the same shit, again and again, Sana," I shower fire through my eyes. "What do you mean by you're not with me? I told you several times that you're more than a fucking date for me. Why do you always stoop so low in my life? You always underestimate yourself and then you blame me?" I angrily spit my words on her face."I wanted to be the only one," she says in a low tone, dropping off her gaze."You never told me that," I
Chapter 47Sid's POVI can't believe my ears as Menon utters the word 'club'"What did you say?" I ask him again. "Don't try to fool me. Did you get it? She can never join the club again. Be honest and tell me where the fuck she is," I yell."I'm telling you the truth," he passes me a blank look. "She told me where she is going to work"Anger shivers down inside me, knowing the fact that Sana has joined that damn club again."And you let her go?" I exclaim."Does she listen to anyone?" Menon questions.Indeed, Sana never listens to anyone. She does whatever she likes. But I didn't know she would take this step without letting me know. I turn around to go."Sid, for God's sake, doesn't create any mess in her life now," Menon screams from behind. However, I was in no mood to listen to him. She created a mess on her own and now I'm going to fix it.I get inside my car and drive towards the cl
Sana's POV "So, what brings you here, Sana?" Felen asks me, gobbling a whole glass of vodka. He is sitting in front of me on a massive couch. "Didn't Micky inform you?" I mutter, showing the least interest. "He did. But I wanted to hear that from you," he grins. "I wanna join again," I say. Though I wanted to spit my words on his face, I didn't feel like jumping into a conflict when my state of mind was ruined very badly. "I see! Your fucking boyfriend dumped you?" he laughs out. I clench my fists to punch his face but somehow I controlled myself. "That's none of your business. You're not my boss. Behave yourself otherwise, it'll be forced to meet the owner," I shrug. "Relax! Don't be so hyper, girl," he pours another drink. "But it's our business. How can I forget the day when he created a scene here to take you away. You guys had ruined the whole party. Bloody fuckers! Now he