Over the past six months since Oliver betrayed me, I've become a shadow of my former self and that's saying a lot. Oliver hasn't called me either but I've had the time to heal past the betrayal no matter how difficult it has been. I thought things were tough for me all these years, it's nothing compared to how I've been treated these past few months.
Lisa never failed to remind me of how I was fucking with her boyfriend. She called me a slut at every chance she got and often said things like “You didn't think anyone would ever love you when you look like that, did you?”
Her snarky comments always hit home. I know I'm not in the category of the regular slim build most girls usually weigh. I've always been… curvier than others and I wish it wasn't so. It's hard to love my body when everyone around me reminds me of how ‘fat’ I am.
That's one of the reasons I loved Oliver. I thought he saw me for…me. He never called me fat and he made me feel wanted. At least that was what I thought. I guess I was just too blind to see the real deal.
We accept the love we think we deserve.
Life has become unbearable here and it seems like Stepdad has only gotten angrier. He hits me at any slight opportunity he gets and I'm beginning to think it has to do with much more than my failed attempt to escape.
Today's experience has been the worst, so far. As usual, he came back drunk tonight and requested a different meal instead of what I'd already prepared for dinner. He wanted to have steaks and mashed potatoes but we had the last steaks two nights ago and I haven't been able to go grocery shopping yet.
He got back by 10 p.m. and the supermarket usually closed by 9 so I suggested he manage the dinner in front of him just for tonight since it was already too late to see any open supermarkets. As soon as I'd made the suggestion, he backed me up to the wall and raised an actual gun at me.
I was beyond petrified. I have never seen a gun up close before and if not for his forearms that held me against the wall, God knows I would have fainted right there on the spot.
“Never talk back to me.” He had said. I never talked back to him, all I did was make a suggestion but I wasn't about to say that to his face. Not when death was staring at me up close.
So much more could have happened but then mom came downstairs so he let go of me and hid the gun. I left them and ran into my room, locking the door shut behind me as I tried to regain my composure.
Maybe for once, I'm actually grateful for Mom's presence in my life. Just this once.
It has been a long day for me so the instant I lie on the bed, I'm knocked out almost immediately. But I'm woken from my sleep sometime in the middle of the night when my door flies open and two men in black suits walk into my room holding guns.
I immediately sit up in confusion and fright. Maybe I'm dreaming? Maybe I got so scared because of the gun pointed at me earlier that my dreams constructed two more.
I'm still having internal debates with myself when the men lift me from either side and drag me out of my room.
“Hey!” I shriek when I realize that I'm very much awake and I'm getting kidnapped. “Put me down.” But they don't regard me. They're so strong, my trashing has nothing on their stronghold on my arms.
The sitting room comes into view and the first people I see are my mom, my stepfather, and Lisa on their knees at the center of the room. They seem equally as scared and confused as me. Are we getting robbed?
By men in suits? Very unlikely.
About Four more men are in black suits as well and are standing at every corner of the sitting room, while the last of them is sitting on the armrest of the couch as he lights a cigar in his mouth. He's equally clad in black and his appearance is more distinct from the others which tells me he must be the leader. But what do they want from us?
Oh God, please spare me. I deserve so much more from life.
I'm brought closer to who I assume to be their leader and without warning, the huge men dump me at their boss's feet. I scramble away from him immediately but I don't get too far because I bump into one of the men who hijacked me here.
“This is the last of them, boss.” The one behind me says and steps back away from me a little.
“Mr Sandoval...” Comes my stepfather's shaky voice. I've never seen him this way before so seeing how jumpy he is now makes me wonder how much trouble we must be in.
I freeze when I realize the name mentioned. Sandoval. That's a name not many people like to mention. Could this be…
“I didn't…”
“What? You didn't think I would come for my money myself?” Mr Sandoval cuts in. “You didn't think I would find you?” The way his brown eyes dim and the corner of his mouth lifts with irritation makes me almost pee my pants. I have never seen a being more frightening in my entire life.
What has Dad done?
Dad shakes his head in horror and the move reminds me of the position he had me in earlier tonight. I know it's not a good time to say this but how the roles have reversed.
“I was going to contact Robbie but I lost his number.” Even I know that he's lying.
“Where's my $900,000, Richard?” He asks in a completely cool tone, one would think they were discussing the weather over a can of beer each in their hands. My eyes nearly pop out of its socket at the price Mr Sandoval just mentioned.
“I…I'll get it, Mr Sandoval. I just need a little time please.”
“Time's not on your side.” Mr Sandoval states and looks around the house for a minute before his eyes turn back to my stepfather. “I can see you're a family man. That's why you won your house back from the bet at Flores’ casino.”
What?!
I'm glad to find out I'm not the only surprised one this time around. Mom and Lisa stare at Dad in disbelief.
“I thought you said you were done gambling.” Comes mom's hushed tone.
“Not now, Mel.”
All eyes once again turn to Mr Sandoval when he gets up from the chair and adjusts his black coat on his over 6 ft build. He's an impossibly handsome man, it's unlike anything I've ever seen.
His dark hair is roughly slicked back, almost like he has a habit of raking his fingers through them. They're beautiful and it adds so much poise and youth to him. From looking at him alone, I can feel the insurmountable power that he commands. It's impeccable.
His chiseled face boasts of a well-defined jaw line which stands out sharply and is home to short beards. The frown on his face is what makes him seem rigid. I can't help but think that if he relaxes his features a bit, he might seem more approachable. But maybe he doesn't want that.
“I think I ought to thank Flores for letting you get out of the bet with your house, unscathed, considering it has piqued my interest.” Mr Sandoval continues. “Carlos, It's a very wonderful property, don't you think?”
“Extremely, boss.”
“See?” His eyes flick to my face for a second before he looks at the others too. “I give you three months to come up with my money, Richard. If you pass the time frame, I'll have to take your home and kill you all, I'm afraid. Three months is more than enough time to get the money. After all, you sold my drugs in less than that.”
So it is him.
I know he just said he would kill every one of us but I can't help but dwell on the fact that a legend is standing in our living room.
Javier Sandoval. His name comes with so many titles.
The most feared and dangerous man in the entire North America, and that's saying a lot. His name alone has a reputation for instilling fear and commanding power.
He's also called the richest man in Mexico. Known for running two empires, one of which he built single-handedly; real estate and property development.
My late dad called him the biggest drug lord after Pablo Escober and Javier Sandoval was just 22 years old as of then. The books I read said he took over the cartel at just 18 years old and did more than his late father's younger brother, Juan Sandoval, had ever achieved, only within a year. If my calculations are correct, he should be 36 years old as of now.
Javier Sandoval is a name we only got to hear. The only people who saw his face or knew him on a personal level were those who worked with and for him. Family members included.
Now, my point exactly is that of all people to steal from, it had to be the one man known and feared by all. From the little I've seen of Javier Sandoval, he definitely lives up to his reputation of being ruthless and without mercy.
I must have missed something amidst my train of thought because my stepfather suddenly runs up to me and hugs me tight. I freeze in my position on the floor at the queer feeling.
“No, please! Don't take her.”
Don't take who? What did I miss?
My eyes find Javier's face and then his men and like a tsunami, my heart instantly flares up with panic when I realize what has just happened.
One minute, Javier is nodding in my direction and the next, Carlos is picking me up and over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes.
Did my stepfather just use me as bait? He pretended to care for me so it would seem like I'm the valuable child. His pretense took the attention off Lisa and Mom.
My writhing and trashing has nothing against Carlos’ large frame as he waits for Javier to exit the sitting room so he can follow suit.
But Javier pauses mid-way, turns around, and sends two shots of bullets which hits my stepfather's right leg. He falls to the ground in agony, screaming his lungs out.
I look at Mom as Carlos exits the room. She's tending to Dad as she sees what she can do to nurse his wound. What she doesn't do is to spare her daughter a glance as she's being taken away by dangerous men. At this moment, I vow now more than ever to hate the woman who birthed me. Even in death.
My mind goes numb to every other thing that happens after I'm taken away. I know I'm as good as dead now and I can only hope death visits me much sooner before these men can break my spirit.
I've just been taken as collateral damage, and there's nothing I can do about it.
On the third day of my abduction, I fear that I might be losing my mind. I know I'm all about solitude and all but the quiet has become too much. If anything, it has become pure torture to me.Fear of the unknown.I don't know what to expect and the silence has been killing me. On the night of my abduction, I was tied up because I wouldn't stop struggling and then they dumped me in the back seat of an SUV as we drove off. I was seated in between two big men and the if-you-move-we'll-strangle-you look they gave me was enough to make me sit still. It didn't mean I stopped panicking though. I was a mess inside.I thought they would lock me up in an underground room, all alone during the day and then take turns abusing and raping me at night. Instead, we pulled up into the grandest mansion I have ever seen. The huge black gates opened to let the cars in on our arrival and closed behind us as soon as we had driven in.The grand mansion stood at the end of a long, winding driveway, surrou
Stepping into my home office, I breathe a sigh of relief. I don't know why I thought it was a good idea to let a male have access to the room I kept Richard's daughter in. Things would have gotten really messy if I hadn't gotten there in time. I have Nana Guadalupe to thank for that. It took her two days to give me reasons why the poor girl shouldn't be treated poorly because of her father's sins. I assured her the poor girl wasn't being treated poorly, but she wasn't having it. “It's dangerous to leave a woman out there by herself. Bring her in so she can help me around here.” She had said, and that was all it took to give in. They are very few people in my life that I usually take instructions from, Nana Guadalupe is one of them. I've known her since I was 10 years old. She was our housekeeper and mum's best friend. Even after my parents died, she stood by me. In her words, I was too young to be by myself. And ever since then, she has refused to go anywhere else even when I took
I'm awake and fully dressed for the day by 5:30 a.m on the dot. I don't know why I'm up this early, especially since Nana Guadalupe said activities usually started between seven and eight a.m. I can't tell if it's the aching of my head from yesterday's assault or the fact that this is usually the time I wake up at home. I'm guessing both.I had a good seven hours of sleep after Nana Guadalupe showed me the kitchen and the door to her room. Something tells me she would have given me something for my headache which started last night if I had told her, but I couldn't bring myself to ask. No one ever listened at home so I fear my instincts could be wrong about Nana Guadalupe. I'm not about to let this headache earn me a punishment so early so I'll rather deal with the pain silently.It's still dark outside and I can't spot any movements outside the windows. Putting my ears to the door, I don't hear any sounds in the hallway either. Am I the only one awake this early? I shouldn't be sur
Almost two weeks into being here, and I can swear that this is the most peace I've ever experienced in a very long time. All I do is to take instructions from Nana Guadalupe all day, which mostly involves cooking.It's almost usually a very small meal for us and Javier. And then, on some afternoons, we prepare meals in large quantities for Javier's associates. Nana Guadalupe is the one who serves them, though. I doubt my legs would ever successfully take me to that side of the house. Not like I've tried or anything, but they are usually so many men trooping in and out of the house, I fear running into them, so I stay as far away from them as possible.Nana Guadalupe understands this and only asks for my help in setting the table when none of the men are present yet. Other than that, I've helped her once when it was just Javier and Carlos.I haven't had any personal encounters with Javier since he saved me from being raped at the cottage and the brief almost encounter in the hallway. I
I have two laptops positioned on my desk before me. Both are powered on and are being in use. While I use one laptop to draft a coded filled email containing different routes to the team in charge of transporting my drugs, the second laptop displays the faces of two of my corporate standby team, arguing about what properties should be tagged for sale when my potential client for the day joins our zoom meeting in a few minutes.“Oh please.” Zachary's voice comes on. I'm not looking at the screen, but I can probably imagine him rolling his eyes. “Tell him, boss. The properties down south don't even sell at this time of the year.” “Zachary, I promise you that no one cares. Our client is a billionaire. If that's what he wants, then that's what he gets.” Laden says.“Why don't we just present any of the recently bought ones. We could rebuild it and sell it. I think it'll fit someone of his status.” Now it's my turn to comment. “That is entirely up to Mr Harris. If it's well within his bu
I've had embarrassing experiences. A ton of them. But someway somehow, last week's incident made the other experiences seem like a child's play. I don't know what was more embarrassing; walking into Javier's office without the confidence to state my request properly or the fact that he totally shunned me.Carlos hijacking me back to my room was definitely the least of my expectations. I thought and had set my mind to being whipped for making such an unruly demand. Getting shot at was also an expectation. If only the floor could open up and swallow me. What the hell was I even thinking, going to ask for my freedom. But that's just it. I wasn't thinking at all. If I was, I wouldn't have subjected myself to such embarrassment.I've been less busy throughout the morning that I decided to catch up on my drawings. I have my third art of the day sitting on my desk as I compare them with the ones I drew a very long time ago when my dad was still alive. I've come a long way and made so much
The following day has to be the busiest I've ever been since I got here. The errands Nana Guadalupe had to run yesterday were in preparation for today's family dinner Javier is hosting. She said they had it occasionally, and since Javier's the head, it's only right that he hosts it. So far, Camila and Daniel are the only ones who have arrived. Daniel and Javier are doing some work in the sitting room upstairs, while Camila takes a nap in one of the rooms and is also upstairs.Nana Guadalupe and I are already done preparing dinner. It's been hectic having prepared food for at least four picky eaters and the other guests, but I also find it fulfilling learning new recipes. I was only ever restricted to a few back at home. “Alright, that should be all for now. Help me take this to the dining room. Be careful so you don't fall.” Nana Guadalupe points to the chicken casserole dish on the table.Grabbing it carefully with a kitchen towel so it doesn't burn my hand, I lift and head for the
My uncle has to be the proudest man I've ever known, and that's saying a lot, considering I've worked with so many men of his status. No one else comes close for sure. I'm seated at one end of the table while he occupies the other end. As we eat, we all listen to him brag to Alejandro, Sofia's father, about his newly bought villa in the Hamptons. What he doesn't mention is that I was the one who gave it to him as a gift since he wanted a retirement gift to add to his collections. It's okay, though.“So…” Camila draws my attention from Uncle Juan's bragging session. “It's been ages since we last saw, Javi. How have you been?”I laugh at my little sister. “Since when did two weeks turn to ages, Cam?”“Still… two weeks is a long time. I've missed you.” She reaches for my hand, and I take it in mine, giving it a squeeze. She's sitting to my right, so it's not hard to maintain conversation without interrupting my Uncle's talk.“I've missed you too.”“So…” I look at her sly expression as s
I'm up bright and early as I stand in the last place I thought I would be after last night's encounter with Javier. Every action of his just screams to me to run the opposite way, but I never do. He has my stepfather, who is probably dead by now. I don't care about his death. Some part of me only wishes I could have been the one to somehow put an end to his life. The thought gives me an odd satisfaction which just makes me wonder the amount of mental fuckery being here has brought upon me. I hear approaching footsteps down the hall as Javier leaves his room. When he comes into view, he stops at the door and looks at me in surprise. This seems to be becoming a daily occurrence. He's dressed impeccably as usual, quality navy coloured coat atop his three piece armani suit fitting his tall and muscled form effortlessly. “Good morning, sir.” “Morning, Elsa.” He walks past me to grab the fruit bowl I brought upstairs for him and I turn and watch as he stabs a piece of watermelon and
I don't know how, but I feel the instant Elsa's presence dissipates. It's been happening more times than I would like to admit. Before I found her waiting for me in my sitting room, I sensed her presence right from the corridor. I usually know the feeling of when intruders are present. But unlike the cold sensation, which would creep down my spine, this one felt warm, and I just knew she was near, waiting for me. And that feeling followed me right after I left that room and got here. Up until now, that is. She left, probably because she caught sight of her stepfather and can't stomach what comes next. The man in question is knocked out, courtesy of Carlos, since he wouldn't stop shouting out his lungs. Another man lays on the floor, well out of view of the window Elsa was looking from. Unlike Richard, who is unconscious, this one is fully awake. Bloodied and missing a few limbs? yes, but awake nonetheless. He watches as I take closer steps into the room, life almost snuffed out
‘This changes things.’Of everything that happened last night and what I learnt of my family trying to escape without me… including Mom, that one sentence Javier uttered has been the one thing invading my thoughts. ‘This changes things.’There it goes again. In what way has things changed? Did he mean by killing my family or between us? My mind and soul tell me it is the latter, and some twisted part of me gets excited upon the revelation.But then another thought occurs to me. If Javier thinks that way, does he intend on still holding me captive? He did say he wasn't going to kill me. He could still do other unimaginable things to me. After all, he's the don for a reason.As my mind continues to twist and turn in a panicked state, just as it has all day, I decide that it's finally time to visit Javier's office. I need to know where I stand and… it saddens me to admit this, but I also need to know what fate has been decided for my mother even though I know I shouldn't care.I leave m
It's the wee hours of the morning. I think. I've been dreaming of none other than Javier Sandoval. Forbidden thoughts of my boss. My captor. It's fucked up, I know but It's almost like my consciousness can't help these feelings. I sigh into my pillow as I change position on my bed, trying to quieten the spiraling voices in my head. Or is it the voices in my dream? The voices disappear the second my eyes land on Javier's piercing stare. There it is again. Exhilaration. like epinephrine straight to the heart. How did the sight of him tangle my thoughts while unraveling my insides? He's sitting on a chair, leaned back, a leg folded over the other, hands on the arm rest while he stares at me. Even in my dreams he's still the most beautiful, and dangerous man I've ever seen. Not like I've met a lot of them if I'm being honest. “I was wondering when you would wake up.” He mutters, running the back of his fingers across his stubble, but I hear him loud and clear. I blink once, then twice
I can't exactly say I had the best of nights last night, but sleeping with the thought of Elsa made half of it bearable. The more she crosses my mind, the more angry I become with myself for acting like a teenager smitten by his crush. It's crazy considering our age difference. I'm not exactly sure of her age, but she shouldn't be more than 25.I've had women I liked in the past. But that was a very long time ago before I became the head of the cartel. Up until now. my love life hasn't been something to write home about because I never dated. If I had an itch, I found someone to scratch it, and that was it. There was always someone available for it. Of all I slept with, it's impossible to compare what I felt for them to what I feel for Elsa. And that's saying a lot because even I can't put a word to what exactly it is I feel.After much deliberation, I concluded that maybe I actually just need to fuck and get the thought of Elsa out of my system. Hence my presence in my Club Siago rig
I've come to realize that the more time I spend around Javier, whether alone or in the midst of company, my little brain gets fogged up and sends the wrong signal to… my heart. It even feels off saying it and I know why. It's because I shouldn't feel this way towards my captor. Yes he's impossibly attractive and what I think a man should be like but that's just about it. I don't even know him well enough like that. I might not have been the one to offend him to be taken as collateral but it doesn't change the fact that I'm still his captive either way. I'm not about to admit that I might be having Stockholm Syndrome but if I'm checked well, that's the exact name to call what I've been feeling no matter how much I don't want to. How else do I explain the weird thudding in my chest each time I hear Javier's voice even from afar? There's no mistaking that feeling for fear, because it's not.But It isn't right. By all ramifications, the man is possibly even betrothed to Sofia. Why else w
“I had different routes sent. What do you mean my drugs were hijacked?” I ask Carlos, leaning back in my seat. In as much as it has been a productive three days, it has also been stressful. I had to leave for China to finalize a pending deal with the president. On my way back, Carlos called saying that one of the routes I spent hours navigating to find wasn't safe. We were ambushed, my men were killed, and the drugs were stolen. Those were eight figures worth of drugs being transported to New york. Unfortunately for the fuckers responsible for the theft, all my trucks have trackers installed in them. It won't be long before I find the people responsible.“The team is tracking the truck as we speak. The others were delivered safely.” “While that's good to hear it doesn't change the fact that we might have a mole in here. How did they get information on that particular route?” His eyes runs down my laptops and I know he thinks I've been hacked. I know I haven't. “The firewalls were in
“Do you need anything?” This has to be the first time in a long time since I was last asked this question. No one at home ever asked, including Oliver. It was me who only ever gave. Hearing Camila's questions directed at me, along with the concern etched on her face, is heartwarming. It reminds me of last night when Javier and Nana Guadalupe came to check in on me. I knew Nana would come, but finding Javier outside of my room was very shocking. I didn't think he cared. And to think I ran out to get the door with nothing beneath my dress. I only became more overwhelmed when Nana joined him and began fussing about me. It was more than I could imagine. More than I'd ever received since the death of my father. “No, I'm okay.” “I'm serious, Elsa.” “I really am fine.” I smile at Camila. While Nana acts motherly. Camila acts like an older sister. It's beautiful to watch, and knowing that these emotions are directed at me makes me feel really good on the inside. “If you do need anythin
My uncle has to be the proudest man I've ever known, and that's saying a lot, considering I've worked with so many men of his status. No one else comes close for sure. I'm seated at one end of the table while he occupies the other end. As we eat, we all listen to him brag to Alejandro, Sofia's father, about his newly bought villa in the Hamptons. What he doesn't mention is that I was the one who gave it to him as a gift since he wanted a retirement gift to add to his collections. It's okay, though.“So…” Camila draws my attention from Uncle Juan's bragging session. “It's been ages since we last saw, Javi. How have you been?”I laugh at my little sister. “Since when did two weeks turn to ages, Cam?”“Still… two weeks is a long time. I've missed you.” She reaches for my hand, and I take it in mine, giving it a squeeze. She's sitting to my right, so it's not hard to maintain conversation without interrupting my Uncle's talk.“I've missed you too.”“So…” I look at her sly expression as s