My eyes fall on the big picture of Amber as soon as we enter the shopping mall. My heart swells up with pride, seeing my sister's accomplishment. I've been told that she is a successful designer but I never got to see her in action. Her big picture in front of the fancy store screams how valable she is in her field of work.
While my eyes sparkle with joy and pride, Elliot's case is different. He looks disgusted as his eyes land on the banner where Amber is smiling, surrounded by her designed clothes. If looks could kill, Amber would be ashes by now. My blood boils in anger, seeing him disrespecting my sister like this. He has no right to judge Amber based on his little knowledge while possessing a nasty personality himself."Let's go to some other store." Elliot urges, already walking away. But I refuse to take even a step in the other direction.Acting like I didn't hear him or even if I did, I didn't find his offer appealing enough, I rush into the store that has Amber's picture. My eyes roam around different products around the store. Everything looks so expensive that I'm afraid I will be charged just for laying my eyes on them."I was thinking of taking you to the Gucci store. It's far better."Elliot drones behind me, his agitation is evident in his strained voice.Once again, I decide to ignore him and walk around the store. Amber has eyes for details. Each piece of her spring collection is full of pretty colour. My greedy self wants them all. But I know there lies from problems. Elliot promised to buy me a hoodie to compensate for my hoodie and all of these are pretty dresses. Secondly, If I go home with dresses, Amber will shoot me hundreds of questions. By now, it doesn't take a genius to know that I'm too broke to buy expensive clothes on my own."Excuse me, ma'am?" I swiftly turn behind to face the lady who is smiling at me politely."Pets aren't allowed inside the store." She politely informs me, hiding her annoyance behind a pleasant look on her face. She appears as if she really didn't enjoy her job.Her request makes me hesitate a bit. I don't want to keep Milo away while I'm here. In some way, he is my comfort system. With him being in my arms, I feel like anxiety slipping away from me. It's another matter that I don't have anyone who can keep him safe for the time being while I choose a hoodie for myself. I don't trust Elliot with my baby."I hope you can make an exception for us." Elliot comes to the rescue, giving her a charming smile as he strolls closer to me."And why would I do that, sir?" The salesperson questions, a tiny bit of politeness that hung in her tone when she talked to me is already abandoning her voice. She sounds harsh as she stands in a challenging position."Because I'm politely asking." But he is anything but polite. Even though he sounds calm and collected, his eyes hold a disastrous storm inside them."I beg to dif-" She closes her mouth shut when her eyes fall on me, or someone behind me.Someone emerges from behind, wearing a nametag with his position written just below it. He is the store manager. His authoritative figure and the fact that the lady has chosen silence over arguing back provide me with the sense that she is in trouble and the manager knows who Elliot is and how much power he holds."I apologise from her behalf, Mr. Ivanov." The middle aged man looks second away from pleading on his knees, causing me to narrow my eyes."I take no offence, Mr.-" He looks at the name tag briefly before continuing, " Mr. Gomez." Elliot lets him know in such a voice that certainly sounds like he took an immense amount of offence."She is still new so doesn't know her way around and how to handle customers." The manager tries his hardest to please the billionaire in front of him which only makes me want to break his huge ego. He is really an asshole."Do you know who he is?" The manager turns to the poor girl who is shaking in her shoes, fearing for her minimal wage job.And suddenly guilt hits me. She is in trouble only because of me. Apparently, Elliot is big of an asshile who likes to practise his power over simple people who won't stand a chance against him. I stroke Milo's fur as my mind keeps racing, trying to come up with a solution to get rid of the dispute and show Elliot his place."He is Mr. Elliot Ivanov. The youngest billionaire the world has seen and the most capable businessman of the decade." The manager announces. I can't help but scoff as a proud smile spreads through Elliot's lips.Elliot's hands are shoved inside his sweatpants' pockets as he witnesses the manager worship him. I won't be too surprised if the same man talks shit behind Elliot's back and calls him an arrogant prick."He is also the fiance of Amber Lovelace, the main designer of our company." The manager informs the girl who already looks regretful for mouthing off to a rich business man."It's alright, Mr.Gomez." Elliot pries in, probably not liking the idea of being introduced as Amber's fiance.When I was in elementary school, I liked to act a little too much. I used to mimic my parents' voices and what not. Even though I'm fully aware that I don't possess that gift anymore, I really need to talk.Clearly my throat, I prepare myself to adapt my voice and sound different than I actually sound. There's a significant chance that I will get caught but I created the mess. The poor girl was just doing her job. She doesn't deserve crap for doing her job perfectly."Oh? Then why did you bring me here, Elli?" I ask Elliot, feeling victorious because I sound nothing like myself.Elliot's confused eyes fall on me, trying to understand what I'm talking about or he is just surprised thatI decided to talk."Are you cheating on your fiance with me?" I dare accuse him and I swear his eyes turn a shade darker at my bold attempt, causing me to gulp a little.Satisfaction is whatI feel when I see a dumbfounded manager and hear a snicker from the sales lady. No matter how much I try to cling on to the satisfaction, Elliot's darkened eyes take the cake. He looks like anything but a gentleman that he pretends to be as he continues to glare at me. The awkward air surrounding us is so sharp that it can cut through the hardest metal. However, an amused smile appears on his lips soon enough, his eyes twinkling with malicious glint. Oh no! What will he do?"Come on, Reg! Just because I can't make you my best man at my wedding as you are not a man, not a biological man at least, it doesn't mean you will put me through an awkward situation!" Elliot exclaims, placing his arm around me, giving his usual charming smile to the confused employees.My skin is set on fire at his touch. How dare he touch me? My face turns as red as a rotten tomato. Once again, I'm glad that I'm wearing a mask. I elbow him, trying to get him away from myself. His touch. It's like something that is making me feel weird. I miserably fail to understand if it's a good thing or bad.Elliot pretends to be hurt by my elbow, holding his stomach. "My best friend has one of her screws loosened. Don't mind her." Elliot explains to them, making me glare at him.With his one gesture, the two employees who look like they were held hostage against their wish, scatter around. Elliot takes his hand off me as soon as they walk out of our line of vision and glares at me."Come on, Reg. Let's see what my dear fiance has designed! I hope she can make a fashionista like you happy." Elliot utters a little too loudly, probably to let those two hear, clearly mocking me for my poor choice of fashion.I walk away from him to a corner of the store, finally finding some hoodies in the collection. As soon as I touch a hoodie, Elliot breathes down my neck, making me lose my balance as he manages to scare the shit out of me. I thought he stopped trailing behind me but he thought appearing behind me like a gene would be a great idea.I'm about to fall on my ass on the tiled floor but Elliot's strong arm holds my waist, saving me from the embarrassment of falling flat on my ass. I make the mistake of feeling thankful and being lost in his blue eyes as he saves me from the fall. Before I know it, he lets me fall when he feels eyes on us."Awww." I moan in pain, pulling off my most intimidating glare at Elliot who appears to enjoy it rather than being even a little guilty."Oh, Reg! You are so clumsy!" Elliot mutters, shaking his head in amusement.When I fell, Milo jumped out of my arms and started running around the store. For a matter of fact, I know that the manager doesn't appreciate it but he is forced to look at us with a professional smile. I believe I will turn into an asshole as well if I keep hanging out with Elliot. I pick myself up quickly."Pick Milo up before I spread your dirty laundry here." I threaten him, using the voice which I used before. I'm convinced that I sound exactly like my mother. Seems like my mimicry is finally coming handy.Like the asshole that he is, he shrugs his shoulders and looks back at the poor manager, silently telling him to get Milo. The man looks hesitant."Get the damn cat." The manager barks orders at the sales lady instead.Throwing a nasty glare his way, I take control of the situation and pick Milo up after running behind him for a minute. I bow down before the manager, giving him my sincere apology for creating a nuisance for him and others."My best friend is an asshole. His money can buy him everything but manners." I say to them, laughing a little awkwardly to make it look like I'm just pulling his leg like a friend, going along with his play."When he was born he wasn't naked like everyone. Nope. He had arrogance, selfishness and foolishness draped around himself." I say a little louder so that it can reach Elliot's ears.The manager only manages a weak laugh, not really knowing what to do in this situation."I'm sorry for breaking the store code and bringing my cat here." I apologise to the lady before walking out of the store. To hell with his hoodie. I refuse to breathe the same air as him."What was that?" Elliot demands to know, walking behind me. He doesn't sound angry or annoyed, rather curious. And that makes me angrier. He doesn't even realise how he forces other people to do his work using his billionaire status."Fine. I'm sorry for dropping you. It's not my fault that you are heavy." Elliot comments in a matter of fact voice.This makes me turn around and witness his grinning face. He is enjoying it too much. I honestly don't know what to think of right now. He is a confusing character with a hint of mystery and tons of arrogance and ignorance."You are an asshole." I remind him, cursing him in a careful tone, trying my best to hold my hatred for him in check and use a neutral voice which won't give my identity away."You started it." His joyful voice turns serious suddenly, making me shudder.His tall frame towers over me as he inches closer to me. But I refuse to cower beneath him, no matter how scared and intimidated I'm right now."I bet your friend Leo must share the same opinion as me." I mutter, subtly reminding him of his dirty laundry."Fine. I'm an asshole. You win. Big deal." He shrugs his shoulders. I turn around, not wanting to tolerate his nonsense anymore."At least let me compensate for the hoodie." He yells behind me, finally stopping stalking behind me.Without looking back, I lift my arm over a little and flash him a middle finger. I swear I hear him snicker instead of being offended but I decide not to react to it and leave the mall. If anything good yielded from the whole fiasco, it's that I'm now sure now how unfit Elliot is for Amber. I must stop this alliance from forming. Amber deserves better.As in que, I get a call from Amber. My heart starts beating loudly against my chest as I stare at my phone screen. When I finally gather the courage to pick up her phone, I hear Amber's worried voice."Yeah…. I will handle it. Don't worry." I assure her, despite knowing I may not be successful.Telling myself to just suck it up, I increase my pace and take a cab towards Amber's apartment. I need to take care of the situation. Amber needs it. I need it. It doesn't matter if I'm not ready or not. I need to do this.I've always been afraid of confrontation. I have spent minutes, hours, days, months and years hiding from the eyes of people so that I didn't need to control them. I can hardly contain the tears in my eyes which are threatening to fall. My eyes linger at the petition figure, working in the kitchen. How do I face her? It brings back memories. Back in the golden days, I would find my mom in the kitchen when I came back home after a long day. Somehow she would know it beforehand if I had a bad day. So, I would find her making grilled cheese and tomato soup; my comfort food. Gone are those days, what remains is the silhouette of her memories engraved in my mind. There stands the woman who is supposed to be my biological mother. Who, for some reasons unknown to me, decided to erase me from her life. And here I stand, watching her, my cat in my hand, longing for the love I never received from her. How do I confront her when I can't even trust my own voice? My heart is hammering against my
I've thought a lot. By a lot I mean I thought all night. It won't come across as a surprise if I have bags under my eyes. I wasn't even able to grab a wink of sleep last night. Not after waiting for Amber to show up and talk about the situation at hand. When she arrived though, she was too drunk to be holding a civil conversation. When I woke up in the morning, she was still snoring like there is no tomorrow. However, the first thought that popped into my mind was to hack into Eliiot's systems and expose his hypocrisy. The only problem is that I don't know how to hack a million dollar system and I don't know anyone who will be willing to do that for me. That made me think of my second choice. Hire a spy to collect dirt on Elliot. But there's an obstacle, of course. A spy really? How would I get hold of one? My mind was generous enough to think of hiring a hitman to scare the shit of Elliot so that he backs off. But how would that go? I can only imagine Elliot grabbing the gun from th
With precise steps and strong determination, I walk towards the room until I'm right outside it. "Shh…Stay quiet. She will hear us otherwise." Elliot whispers to someone. My heartbeat quickens as I grab the door knob. How can someone be so shameless? He is planning to get married and yet he is sleeping around with different women. He didn't have the decency to get rid of his lover when he knew his fiance was just a few steps away from his room. Luckily the door isn't locked. He probably didn't think that I could go past his henchman or woman and get here. I turn on the camera of my phone as I open the door and step in. "You bastard-" My words die down in my mouth as I find Elliot trying to squish himself in his closet, trying to close the door. "What's happening here?" I mutter awkwardly, taking my phone down. I look around but there is no sign of any woman. Is he a child that is hiding his body in a closet? Did he hear me come? I get my answer when a kid emerges from behind th
"You look great." Amber says cheerfully as she finishes my makeup. "Though I hate the dress." She scrunches her nose in disgust, " This dress really didn't deserve the award." She complains, fixing my hair. "That stupid bastard really wanted to test my patience by sending me this dress." She mumbles to herself. "Amber, I don't think I will be able to do it." I take her hands in mine and confess to her. We had a lot to talk about last night. Though I wanted to get away and go back to my actual life or let our parents know about my existence, Amber's cry for help held me back. Apparently, she doesn't know what's the deal with Elliot. She assured me there's nothing underneath the surface. He is just an asshole who tries to establish the fact that he is superior to us. But she is afraid of Elliot. He can be considered as a damn powerhouse. "I know, I know." She reassures me, squeezing my hands gently. "But it's the last favour I ask of you, Willow." She promises, her big doe eyes be
"Having fun, aren't we?" Elliot asks as soon as he places his warm hand against my clothed waist, pulling me closer. "Not anymore." I reply to him, holding his burning gaze. His smirk only widens at my reply, looking more sinister than playful. He takes my hand, twirling me around. Unlike the first time, I manage to twirl elegantly like others this time. Though I would love to give myself the credit, I know Elliot's strong composer and expertise is partially responsible. When I'm done with the spin, he brings me so close to his body that I can smell his rich cologne. He smells like sandalwood, fresh out of the forest. His smell hits my nostrils like a pleasant surprise. I had to physically stop myself from sniffing him. That's embarrassing, even more because I just got caught by Elliot. He flashes me a sweet smile. That's a first. "For someone who wants to call off this alliance, aren't you too obsessed with me?" Elliot teases me, moving his body in perfect rhythm against mine. Hi
I'm well acquainted with fear. It's something I've always felt in the pit of my stomach. It's something which always accomplished me even though everything and everyone abandoned me at some point. I faced my real and worst fear when my mother was still alive and living with me. We were anything but happy. Dealing with my father's untimely death wasn't easy. It hit us out of nowhere, whacking our lives, shattering our hearts. Mom's condition worsened after his death. She was showing severe signs of schizophrenia. I didn't have enough money for her therapy and treatment. I lived in constant fear when I left her alone and went to work to earn our livelihoods. Every second I feared that she would do anything drastic and harm herself, every second I felt like a failure as a daughter. Fear. I'm feeling it now. However, in different stages of my life, fear wears a different disguise. One time it's life threatening and the other time it's mind numbing. Like right now. I don't know how to pr
I don't care about anything anymore, especially not about Amber's image after she lied to me and led me to believe I was in this with her. I tried calling her millions of times but each time the call didn't go through. She has turned off her phone, leaving me with no other choices but to suck it up and deal with it myself. And by dealing with it, I mean running away from the scene of the chaos. Alcohol. I hate this vice. I remember the first time I tried to drink this poisonous liquid when I was a high school senior. After one drink, I kept drinking and drinking until I vomited my gut out. But that wasn't the worst part. Being intoxicated by alcohol, I did something I wished I never did. I confessed my feelings to Ashton Coopers, the boy on whom I had a huge crush. When I was sober enough to attend school the next day, I became the laughing stock of school. From there onwards, school became a hell for me. Constant teasing and bullying became parts of my syllabus. My fault was to dream
I've always loved birds. They remind me of the freedom I never had. I've always wished for the ability to fly away from the misery of my life like those birds. But right now, there's nothing in the world which I hate more than birds. I scramble around the bed to look for pillows. A sigh of relief leaves my mouth as soon as I grab two pillows and put them beside my ears. My head is pounding and the chirping noise of the birds isn't helping one bit. “Stop it.” I groan out in desperation, rolling to my left side. “Please.” I mumble as if birds would acknowledge my pleas, “I need sleep.” I continue to whine. But these birds take no mercy on me. Closing my eyes tightly, I try my best to grab some sleep. I don't know why it's hurting so bad. It's very rare for me to get sick. However, it's not the time to inspect the reason. Just when I'm about to ignore the loud noises of the birds, I can hear footsteps inside my room. “Who is it?” I ask myself, panicking in my sleep. Apparently, slee
No. She is definitely joking. It can't possibly be true. I heard the conversation between Elliot and Leo in the car. He has the reputation of being a playboy. The fact that he is a virgin contradicts all other allegations. “Stop joking around.” Lailah’s facial expression says that she didn't expect that reply from me. “You are talking about things which are exactly opposite. He is a well- known playboy. How can you say that he is a virgin? It's like the joke of the year.’ I scoff. My strong reaction shocks them momentarily. I sound so jealous that it shocks me as well. I realise how far I've fallen. Elliot has turned me into a lovesick girl. I don't remember ever being jealous over anything or anyone. But now, there's a bitter taste in my tongue, in my mind. In fact, jealousy is written all over my face. Lailah doesn't say anything. She looks back at Leo who gives her a “told you so” look. “Leo?” He looks at me, responding to my call.“Yeah?”“Now that you know I'm Amber, you mus
“Are you sure she will be alright?” I can hear an angry tone even when I think I'm deep into sleep. The angry tone itself tells me that it's none other than Elliot. Is he talking about me? “Elli, I'm not a doctor but I have ears, fully functioning ears. And those ears heard what the doctor said.” A new voice emerges, sounding sarcastic. My consciousness can't pick up the voice but I feel like I heard it before. I know who talks with this kind of sarcasm. I try to open my eyes and see who it is, but I just feel so tired. My eyelids feel too heavy to move. “Leo, don't be mean. Elliot is just worried about his wife. Be good!”A female voice chides him. Leo? What's he doing here? If the guy is Leo then the girl must be Lailah. What are they doing here all of sudden? I want to know, I want to open my eyes. “I'm sorry.” But he doesn't sound sorry at all. Typical Leo. “I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings, Mr.Ivanov. And yeah, your wife will be alright. That's what the doctor said. So, now
“Are you serious?” My hands are on my hip like a classic mom who is angry at something. “What?” He feigns innocence, looking at me with puppy eyes. “You want me to believe that you could manage only one room?” He nods his head. “Isn't that what the receptionist said? If you don't believe me, go ahead and listen to him again.” He shrugs his shoulders, walking ahead of me. “You are a billionaire for God's sake!” I say behind him, walking behind him. “So?” He halts which causes me to collide with his chest. “You want me to waste my money just because I'm a billionaire?” He asks, bending down a little and touching the bridge of my nose with his finger.“Yes. I do.” I swat his hand away, “How are we supposed to share a room here as well? If you have forgotten, let me remind you, we aren't married.” He looks bored of my speech. “Not yet.” He corrects me, “Besides, weren't you too bold, too eager earlier?” He whispers in my ear. I push him away and walk towards the room. It's not lik
“Is the greatest of all, the strongest mafia leader the world has to offer, afraid of flight?” My voice is teasing, eyes twinkling with newly found interest. Elliot scoffs at my face, not admitting it. He plays cool by picking up a glass of liquor. But I can see his discomfort. It's written all over his face. It makes me wonder if he has always been like this. I can't even imagine it. He has to fly all the time for his business. It must be a hassle to always feel uncomfortable and slightly scared while flying, that too so frequently. It's not my first time flying. But it's definitely my first time flying in a private jet. Who would have thought that the girl who was fighting poverty, working overtime to get meals 3 times a day, would have the luxury to ride on a jet like this? Definitely not me. I'm still awestruck by that fact. However, my joy of being in such a majestic vehicle doesn't last long. The reason? Elliot fucking Ivanov. You are wrong if you think I'm saying this because
“Can I talk with you for a while, dad?”I ask him over the phone. “Well, you are talking now, baby girl.” His voice is humorous as he speaks. “Yeah.” I don't let my annoyance show at all, “But I want to talk about something private, something serious.” He sighs loudly over the phone. “If something is bothering you, we should talk face to face. I will swing by your place tonight.” He offers. The affection that he holds for his daughter is unparalleled. It's hard to believe that he has done anything wrong. Maybe it's his love for his daughter which led him to the wrong path. “No need for that. I'm standing right outside your office.” I let him know. I can imagine the confusion on his face. “Then why aren't you coming in?” He proceeds to ask. “Because your secretary told me you are busy with work. So, I decided to call you.” He laughs out at my answer, probably getting the shock of his life that Amber decided to wait and call. “Now that I'm talking to you, I think you are not as bu
“Get dressed.” Elliot orders me in a cold voice after we are done. His behaviour hits me like a bucket of cold water. He was such a gentleman, treating me like a princess. His tone has totally changed. He has come back to his usual cold self which makes him a self-centred jerk. Was I really getting ahead of myself? Is he gonna be more of an asshole to me from now on because he has gotten a taste of me? “Come on, hurry up.” His voice gets rougher, “We haven't gotten all day. What if someone comes through?” He asks, buttoning his shirt which is all crumbled up. “Didn't you say you don't care about what people think about you?” I ask him, my voice bitter and is battered with hurt. “Yeah.” He agrees, using the dresser to check himself out in the mirror, “But I do care what others think about you.” My heart pounds like crazy against my ribcage with that one sentence. Elliot may be the most confusing person I've ever encountered. The rough edge of his voice went into hiding, making an
“Are you gonna sleep now? I know I'm soft and comfortable but, I can't possibly be a substitute for a pillow or a mattress.” Elliot's soft voice brings me back from my reverie. I feel so embarrassed that I don't even want to look up at him and keep burying my face in his chest. Apparently, I've grown so comfortable with him that I don't mind our close proximity. I don't mind that I'm hugging him for my dear life. If my old self peeked into this situation, she would be so surprised to see herself in this position. “Aren't I a jerk anymore?” He jokes humorously, taking his hand off of me. Did he really have to make me so embarrassed? I'm already thinking of digging my own grave. What did I think before breaking into a fit of tears in Elliot's arms? Apparently, nothing. But I'm glad he is at least a decent human being. No. He needs more credit than that. No one held me like that while I cried since my parent's death. No one made me so comfortable without even saying anything. No one ma
Keep telling myself it's a do or die situation, and I need to fight back, I turn back only to find Cara standing behind me. This crazy bitch! I pick myself up quickly before she can take advantage of me being in a disadvantaged position and attack me again. Like I said, she strikes at me again but I dodge her skilfully, causing her to collide with the sink. “I will fucking kill you today, you bitch.” She hisses like a snake, coming towards me again. Just when she thinks she has me in a tight position, I grab her by the hair and turn her around, making her face the mirror. She messed up with the wrong girl if she thought she could easily overpower me. I was never physically weak. My father used to teach me how to fight when I was a little kid because he was a frantic fan of wrestling. I wasn't weak, I was just a coward. I belonged to the bottom of the food chain. How was I supposed to fight with the rich kids who had everyone and everything to back them up? So, I had to keep my mout
Cara isn't as foolish as she lets others believe. She didn't make a haste call to one of her men demanding answers. She called her sister, talking about the design of a girl's dress that she liked. Who could have thought that even at a time like this, she was thinking of her work? She doesn't fool us either. She is trying to distract us, playing safe. While Elliot is busy talking to different people, I get a call from mom. Finding a less quiet place, which would be ideal for the phone call, I pick it up. “How's the date going?” She squeals like a schoolgirl with a crush. Her enthusiasm doesn't cease to make me smile brightly. “Mom.” I say in a gentle yet scolding tone, “We are attending a party, not a date.” I remind her. I can imagine her disappointed face right now. “That's a bummer.” She even sounds disappointed. Sometimes, I feel as if she is stuck in an old person's body. Her spirit is still so young. “Right. It's so sad.” I add, putting salt in her burn. “But I would let y