IT FELT LIKE a bomb exploded inside my head and that made everything stop. My breathing, my thoughts, my ability to mutter a single word. With one last kiss on my forehead, Callan covered me with his coat then he settled himself back in the driver’s seat. Did I hear that right? Did he really say we’ll get married tomorrow? Callan made a call through his phone. The next thing I new was I was still speechless as we got out of the car to settle on the back seat and Callan’s car and someone sat on the driver’s seat. Callan assisted me in every movement I made. Until I heard the engine of his car turn up. Suddenly, I slowly dozed off to sleep and it started taking over me that my eyelids started falling. Then I felt Callan’s finger traced up my chin and allowed me to lead on his shoulder as I fell asleep and he did the same. The car was moving and I scooted further onto Callan’s warmth and he wrapped his arm around me. That was enough for my mind to be soothed into silence. I didn’t ev
I WAS LOOKING at Callan as we walked outside of their mansion. To my surprise, there was a different car waiting for us. A shiny black limousine. It shimmered under the lights that surrounded the mansion. Beside the car, the driver was waiting, he was also well-dressed then bowed before greeting me and Callan. “Good evening, Madam and Sir,” the driver said then opened the limousine door. Callan nodded to the driver and motioned for me to get inside the car first. I smiled at him and muttered a thank you. I raised the hem of my dress as I stepped inside the car, a fresh lavender scent wafted on my nostrils. My eyes couldn’t help but wander in the surroundings—I’ve never rode a limousine before. Even if my family had a comfortable life, it didn’t come to this level of affluence. This was a first time for me. I was in awe. Callan moved as if he was already so used to everything. As the car door closed beside him, he settled on his seat and pressed a button below. A hidden compartmen
THERE MUST BE something wrong. I couldn’t help but feel uneasy in my seat. Something in my gut tells me everything is happening so fast.As Callan’s parents were talking with the wedding organizer that they had contacted and Aunt Yna joined them in planning what preparations would be made for the civil wedding, I couldn’t even munch my food in peace.I excused myself from everybody and acted like I was heading to the restroom. But Callan who was sitting beside me noticed me fidgeting. He stood up and also excused himself at the same time.We both walked away from the long table. I walked faster so I could get away from Callan but my long dress and heels were getting away from my attempt to do that.He managed to catch up to me and grasp my wrist so I could face him. “Why are you behaving like this, Esmé?”Instead of answering, I glared at Callan. I was just trying so hard not to burst out crying in front of those people who looked so genuine in planning something that I couldn’t even
CALLAN AND I walked back to the table as if nothing happened. This time, I had managed to smile. I still felt overwhelmed by the situation but mustered the courage to remain tough. Callan held my hand and looked at me before pulling a chair for me. “Thank you,” I muttered softly. Callan gave me a nod and then sat beside me. The table got silent and I noticed that everybody was now looking at us. “We were talking about the venue for the wedding reception—” Callan’s mother smiled at me as she started talking. But I politely interrupted her, “I am very moved by your generosity, Mrs. Ravij.” I didn’t mean to. But I don’t wanna add up to the expectation of the kind lady. It might break her heart so much if she learn we are just pretending to be all in for this upcoming marriage. “Please just call me Estelle… you are gonna be part of the family soon. You might as well call me mom.” She seemed happy while saying that. I felt the guilt inside my gut. This woman… she’s an epitome of end
I DIDN’T MOVE in my spot, looking down at my feet wasn’t enough for me to pretend that I wasn’t observing Capo Luca and Callan’s sister’s movements ever since that unexpected talk with her happened. From a distance they look like they were just gazing at the scenery with a glass of cocktail and whiskey in their hands. But on my side, at this angle… They looked so serious when discussing something. It was just a series of whispers for a moment yet soon turned into an aggressive exchange of words. I wish I could hear them. What are they arguing about? The atmosphere at the yacht changed as soon as the dinner had ended. The wedding planner that Callan’s parents invited were then task to just prepare something fit for a simple civil wedding. I was planning to talk to Aunt Yna after excusing myself for the rest room, but instead, I kept stuck right here. After getting bombarded by Callan’s sister… getting back to my spot earlier and talking to Aunt Yna left my mind… Someone got near m
EVERYTHING WAS ALL WHITE. I squinted my eyes in hopes that I could see better but nothing changed. My vision was still blurry. Outside, the blazing sunrise passed through the windows until I slowly recognized what I was seeing. My parents were sitting on the couch looking younger than they had been the last time I saw him that night.In front of me, a scene was unfolding. A normal day for us as a family, the TV was on and my parents were watching. My mother was resting her head on my father’s chest and they kissed before looking at me—I was young… playing with my toys. I remember this memory. I was just 7 at that time, Dad didn’t have to go to work and so we spent the time hanging out in the living room. I invited them to play with my toys with me and they did until they got tired and needed to sit on the couch.“I love you, honey,” my father whispered to my mom’s ears, to which my mother didn’t answer back but she leaned towards him even more.The smiles on my parents’ lips and the v
I COULDN’T BELIEVE that I’d ever be witnessing the exact moment that I just wondered about having months ago. From running to safety to having the courage to fulfill the last words of my father and gamble with the people I had just known, everything led to this. They say a wedding is a profession of love, well, as if for me it is a way of fulfilling my duty and finding out the truth. Callan was waiting on the other end of the altar while I was about to walk down the aisle. Yesterday I was just at the hospital recovering from a concussion. But today, I’d be walking for my wedding. True enough, the designs at the wedding venue were simple but it didn’t exactly mean that there were no efforts dedicated to it. There were flower arrangements all the way from the start of the aisle towards the end… there were several chairs covered in white linens lined up on the sand, there were no other people at the beach resort. It felt like it was booked only for this specific event. I’d like to give
AS THE GUESTS congratulated us with the success of our wedding ceremony, everyone was then accompanied to the massive function hall at the beach resort. Callan and I savored the sunset behind us… standing beside each other and looking at the horizon and feeling the ocean breeze that started to feel cold on our skin. Before we headed to the reception venue after the ceremony had ended, we decided to let all the guests settle at the reception area first and we would be following. Because we need to talk. Callan’s parents went near us. Callan’s mother kissed me on the cheek as she whispered, “So happy for you and my son.”And Callan’s father gave him a tap on his shoulders. From a near distance, I saw the men who are leaders of the rajiv organization and they seemed to be waiting for Callan’s father to get near to them. I was just in awe of everything that just happened from the wedding designs, the venue, the guests invited… everything seemed to be going into plan. Except I don’t kno
Growing up, I have had a sense of good and bad in the world. I learned that people make choices and sometimes they make bad actions, which makes other people label them bad. Yet, there’s more to people being and choosing to do bad things. I had never seen people do the most brutal bad things until I saw men barge into our house and fired bullets at my father’s already dead body. And my mother—which wounded my soul to the point of not even knowing if I could ever get back on my feet once again, only to discover that I have been betrayed by my own mother. She’s already dead. For real this time. I have not forgiven her, but I have learned to move forward. But the sudden turn of events of my life allowed me to grow in ways I wouldn’t have imagined and led me to the arms of the man that I could trust, fight, and grow old with. And today’s our 5th wedding anniversary. Even if we had to go through hell and fight for our lives, it led us to this paradise that I wouldn’t trade for anyth
TWO MONTHS after staying in our new house in Chicago, I have grown much closer to my husband. Our routine was basically waking up and preparing meals for us both. On some days, he’ll be joining me in the chicken, and on other days, he’ll still be there but will be doing work on his laptop. Callan had been hands-on in collecting real estate properties in our area as part of the expansion project of Chevalier Holdings. I love staring at Callan as he gets lost in his work, conducting meetings with his colleagues. While I cook in the kitchen and prepare snacks for him. Then I would get lost in doing my own tasks as well. On these days, I have seen Callan in every mundane moment that I could think of and I have loved him more. The way we lay in each other’s arms around evening after all our tasks are accomplished it certainly felt like home. Ever since I lost my family, I have learned that life must go on even if you feel like the world has just collapsed on your shoulders. A significan
I COULDN’T believe that a day like this would still arrive in our lives. I was standing in the middle of the airport with people roaming around. While Callan had just paid our travel tax and was smiling widely raising our first-class plane tickets up in the air. He looked better than he did weeks ago, I must say. He could smile now. Joke things with me. His face has more color time, and the dark circles under his eyes start to fade away. As for me, I still wake up in the middle of the night from nightmares of the chaos we experienced. I remember there were nights when I dreamed of the people I killed. That night when I shot Aldo Cato. Things haven’t been easy for us to return to living our normal lives. We had been deeply affected by the loss, battle, and exhaustion that we had gone through just to sort out the mess in the mafia world, at least in our lives that involved dealing with the Cato clan and resolving things regarding the order and structure in the ravij organization. We
“Esmé you wanted to know why I did this? I wanted my daddy to prioritize me. I should have been the heir to the ravij organization! I was his eldest daughter! It wasn’t fair!”As she said that, Callan took a shot from the revolver she got from me, the shot left a dent on her chest as she looked upward towards me muttering soft voices leaving a faint fake smile on her face as if she was grateful.I then hugged Callan, replaced my face on started crying Callan patted my head and he tried to calm me down, “It is over, my wife. It is over.”Immediately afterward, someone spoke from the black boxes in the room, “What a great show this was. It is certainly not over. Definitely not. Please move upstairs.”Callan shouted, “Bastard, I will kill you for killing my men and for hurting me and I will break your limbs for hurting Don Thoron.”Callan laughed, “Whoa, well, you should be very careful what to say next. Move upstairs. I am right here waiting.’“It must be a trap. Husband, let us go bac
FURIOUS, I RAISED my face upright in the eyes of the man who was holding a sniper on the 3rd floor looking at us, and then one by one other men from other floors looked below from the balconies of that building and some started shooting from the windows. We covered ourselves and I aimed precisely, even though many of my bullets were not hitting the target, I managed to take down quite a few from the sight. The abandoned building was a 12 storey high and there were soldiers of the Cato clan inside and outside. The men that spotted us first were the ones on the balcony. As instructed, twenty of our men started running to the gate to enter the building. As they were running, one fell down and got shot. Another soldier tried to lift him up on his back but ended up getting shot as well. The others ran for their lives and got inside. As they went inside, they took down all the men of the Cato Clan on the first floor and started walking upstairs. I could only hear bullet after bullet, no
MAYBE IT IS true that when love finds you, the fear of losing it is greater than the risk of dying itself just so you can fight for the person you love.Is rescuing someone worth it? I do not know about anyone but for Callan, I will do everything.“Hey, Esmé. We are ready. It is only logical if you lead this mission in the absence of the underboss.”I cleared my throat and thought of the words he just said.I looked around; I don’t think whoever leads the troop will matter at this point. We are all marching towards a similar purpose.But if I were to judge the situation, Aakil should be the one to lead instead in the absence of my husband. Or maybe Capo Mariano.“Hmm… maybe Capo Mariano could be the leader. Or Aakil?”Aakil cleared his throat and then spoke, “The consigliere mentioned your courage and we saw it too. That gave us determination. This is what the organization needs. I cannot take Callan’s place. I am not a descendant of Ravij's head. They won’t accept me as their leader
CALLAN DID NOT SEND any updates and I was left without any notice. I woke up to an empty space beside me on the bed. With everything that happened for the past days and after learning that Don Thoron had been captured by the Cato clan and had been tortured by the men in their camp in town, I knew Callan was deeply affected by it. I saw it in his eyes before he left.The unwatchable footage sent to us was brutal. But Uncle Mariano said that Don Thoron particularly said not to risk the remaining troops to save him because Callan still has to be protected when he returns.If nothing is heard about him for three days straight, Callan shall immediately become the new mafia boss of the ravij family.Callan didn’t say anything, but he balled his fists and he was greeting his teeth. No one could talk to him other than me.Their mafia boss had been captured, tutored, and maybe already dead at this point.Preventing the urge to cry from the sinking feeling in my stomach, I got up in bed and gra
CALLAN'S POVI arrived at the hideout of the Cato Clan in my hometown… the silence was deafening.In the middle of the night, I moved in silence as well.I brought a gun with me and started looking through the surroundings.I saw a group of Cato’s men, feeling so complacent as they roamed around their camp—an abandoned building with almost no lights to light up the place. That was an advantage for me.I already hid my car with weapons somewhere nearby. As I stepped out of the darkness, I was welcomed by a group of henchmen who were carrying knives in their hands.One of the men tried to enrage me and said, “Look the dead man’s son is here.” I drew my gun and shot his head and they all went alarmed and hid behind the walls and barriers and I hid behind a stack of broken tires nearby.There is a room up ahead that they are guarding. That was their hideout. I remember when Arinya brought me to their hideout not knowing I was the first son of the ravij family. Her twin brother treated me
CALLAN'S POVMY MIND COULD only think of the darkest things that could happen as time passes by. I have no other means to unleash feelings of ease and lightness, I only hope Don Thoron, my father, was still breathing.Whoever that person was that dared to smash my father with a baseball bat, I don’t care if she’s a woman. If she’s as evil as the men that we come across in the organization she deserved the violence she was causing to others. And Aquila, the last time I saw him was at the bar when I broke things off with Arinya. They were stepping into the situation. The news was Aldo Cato died after all with the mission that we did.Esmé did well in shooting him multiple times, just like I told her. I will make sure that whoever was orchestrating actions from the Cato clan does not live to tell the tale. The lion of the ravij family that was once sleeping inside has now risen up and it will now obliterate all creatures that cross the path of his might. “We have to leave if we want t