Chapter Forty Nine

Josh made me feel many emotions I can't explain in words. He is a sweet soul. As I watched him drift off to sleep, his long eyelashes were tickling my fancy. I moved closer to him to take a good look at him, and then he smiled and drew me in closer. I spanked him playfully on his chest, laughing.

"So, you weren't sleeping?" I said in between laughs.

"Nope," he replied, popping out the 'p' sound.

I had to have a one-on-one conversation with him, at least to hear his thoughts.

"Josh," I whispered.

He looked at me in acknowledgment without saying a word.

Words can't express how sorry I am for how everything turned out. Not trusting you enough to tell you about Nolan, how he had been pestering me with calls and all.

I'm sorry for you finding out the way you did. Trust me, many times I tried to tell you, but most of the time I see how happy you are, and it breaks my heart to try to take away that smile from you.

He still didn't say anything.

I'm not promising I'll be the best, but I know I'