Haunted By A Memory

…Xavien POV…

I was always going to do anything for Mekayla.

One thing I never thought that I would do, though, and which no man would ever do, is taking a life.

It was easier said than done. Perhaps not true completely; at the time, it was easy to pull that trigger. But what happened afterward has not been easy at all.

This seems like it happened yesterday; in fact, it did, well, four weeks ago now, but I can still feel it. Yes, being a real cowboy, you are going to shoot the odd coyote now and again. But that is a coyote.

Now it should feel the same, but I can remember as if I am doing it right now.

That feeling as you gently pull the trigger, a slight squeeze, the mere flick of a finger. That is the start that sets it in motion. Once you lay that index finger against that tiny pin, you have made a decision that you cannot take back.

Next comes that feeling as you feel the bullet, now even if that is possible, but you f