Scarlett’s POV
Everything felt blurry.
The lights, the walls, the ceiling. I felt like I was being rushed in time or something. I could hear voices far away. They sounded panicked.
I think I was hurt. They were trying to save me.
Suddenly I remembered. The crash. The boys were hurt and it was my fault.
Why didn’t I just make a decision? Why did I string it along and go back and forth? What if after Lee told me he loved me I had just chosen him?
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A giggle escaped my lips as I woke up. Lee’s lips were furiously kissing my neck.
“Lee!” I squealed. “What are you doing?”
“You were sleeping too long, baby.” He murmured. “I missed you.”
“I missed you too. The dream world was not kind to me.” I admitted.
“Oh yeah? What did you dream about?”
“Um...nothing important. I’m here with yo
“What’s the date?”“I don’t know. I don’t know how long it's been.”“Last text you sent?”“Um…”“Maybe ask her something easier?” Mrs. Wrenford suggested.“What’s your full name sweetie?” The nurse asked softly.“Scarlett Blair Watson.” I answered.“Great, and your birthday?”“Feb-February eighteenth.”“That’s good!” Mr. Wrenford smiled. “That’s good, right?”“I think so.” The nurse answered. “Your parents’ names, hun?”“Scott and Bianca.” I stated.“We’re going to want to keep for a few more days, just to monitor her, but it seems like there’s no memory loss, so that’s really good. Now are we sure we don’t want to get her on some painkille
There was a moment of silence before the room exploded. Voices overlapped filled with shock and confusion. My eyes were on Grayson and Lee. They looked like they weren’t fully processing what I had just said. “Please, everyone calm down, please!” The room slowly quieted. “Th-thank you, I will take a few questions. Blue tie.” “What does choosing yourself mean?” “I’ve made a mess of everything. I’m so wrapped up in this triangle that I don’t know who I am anymore. I lost myself in this. I mean I know I love both Grayson and Lee very much, but maybe I’m not ready for such a serious commitment. I think I still have things to learn before becoming someone’s fiance and the future of the company. I also want them to realize they can do it without me. They have the potential.” “So what about the boys?” Another reporter asked. “Do you think you’ll ever be with one of them?” “I hope so,” I admitted. “But I think it has to be when me and whoever
The first line felt like fire racing through my veins!Oh I had missed this feeling! This was fun and exciting and so completely numbing! There was nothing in the world like this feeling.“Are you sure you didn't do this for three years?” Rudy laughed.“Sure doesn’t feel like it anymore.” I giggled before doing another line.“I missed you Scar,” He admitted. “You’re the most fun girl I’ve ever been with.”“Don’t get sappy now, you’re gonna make me cry.”“I mean it. I mean I know we were never serious, but you’re like a piece of sunshine. You make every moment more fun.”“But I’m so fucked up,” I pointed out.“Part of your charm,” Rudy whispered.His eyes landed at my lips. He was going to kiss me and I was going to let him.Grayson and Lee had moved on so
It had been two months since I broke my sobriety.I loved life.I had something of a routine. I would do a few lines when I woke up, Rudy would drive me to work, I’d snort for lunch, and when I got off there was Rudy to take me to whatever wild party was happening. We would get high, have sex and party all night until we passed out. Then we woke up and did it all over again.I of course made time for my friends so they didn’t suspect that anything was wrong with me. My limited communication with Grayson and Lee continued. Both had tried to explain the girls, but I didn’t want to hear it.I had moved on.On quieter nights, Rudy and I got high alone and watched stupid movies and fucked on my couch. Our relationship was both severely codependent and low maintenance.We simply wanted what we needed from each other.It sounded complicated but was wonderfully simple.“Hey wh
“Lee?” I asked.“Um...hey there, Scar.” Lee smiled slightly. “You look...great.”“Thank you! You do too! I mean you always look great. You’re Lee Windsor, that’s kind of your thing. Looking hot. You’re just hot.”“Uh...thanks babe. I mean Scarlett.”“Babe,” I giggled. “Isn’t that such a strange word like doesn’t it mean baby, which is like an infant, but also another pet name who comes up with this shit?”“Can we talk? Alone?” Lee questioned.“Sure,” I turned to Rudy. “I’ll be right back babe.” I kissed him before following Lee.“So...that’s your new boyfriend?” Lee whispered.“Yeah, I guess. It’s not serious...but like it is pretty serious. He drives me to work a-and home. And he met everyone for the first time tonight, which made m
Lee’s POVI was pretty fucked up after Scarlett didn’t choose me. However, I was relieved that she didn’t really choose anyone. I thought for sure she would go with Grayson. He was the obvious choice.Older, more intelligent and sophisticated, they had a history.I was actually kind of proud that she chose herself and wanted to truly figure out who she was. I was hoping that meant she would come back to me.I hated how weak and lonely I was without her. My bed was lonely and after all that time without sex, I was craving it badly.Enter Rebecca Walsh.She was stunning, sexy, and liked to have fun. I knew I wouldn’t be serious about her, but I needed to at least feel satisfied.It worked, but only up to a point. I could get off and feel sexually fulfiled for a few moments and then the emptiness set in.Now that I had made love, just fucking felt so useless. It didn’t give me
Lee’s POVThis was horrifying.Scarlett’s behavior was unlike anything I’d ever seen. The Wrenfords had been right about how she was in this state. I could tell she was breaking Grayson’s heart with her words, but he still stood there and took it.He really loved her.I stepped forward. “Scarlett, babe please. It’s me. Will you just talk to us?”“I’m done talking, Lee? Aren’t you? All we do is talk! About our daddy issues and insecurities, I don’t want to talk anymore. Especially not to you. You ruined everything!”“What?”“I was happy before you. I had a plan and you eviscerated it within months! You tricked me into falling in love with you!”“Tricked? I didn’t make you fall in love with me, I told you not to!” I reminded her.“Right because your family is always telling you you’re nothing.
Grayson’s POVSometimes there are moments in life when time slows down completely. Like someone hit the slow-mo button and you’re forced to watch either some of the best or worst moments slowly unfold and you’re unable to do anything about it.I’ve had a few moments like that. When I first met Scarlett, when I found her overdosed on the bathroom floor, when I first kissed her, the night she told me she loved me, finding out about her and Lee, when the car crashed. And then there was tonight.Rudy said that Scarlett was in trouble and to call an ambulance. I swear we were all moving quickly to get to that park, but it all felt like it was happening at snail speed.When we arrived at the park, I could see Scarlett. She was lying so still on the jungle gym. Once again it felt like it took forever to reach her.Tears filled my eyes when I saw her. She wasn’t breathing.I forced myself to start CPR