Grayson pushed himself off of the couch, with me still wrapped around him. He set me down on the island.
He always did this. He didn't want us in the room until the last moment. Grayson liked anticipation. He could never just cut right to the chase.
I wrapped my legs around him as his lips moved across my throat.
"Grayson," I whispered. "Come on, people eat on this,"
"What do you think I'm about to do?" He was on his knees in an instant.
He dragged my body closer to him. I felt the lace slide from under my dress. Grayson's arms hooked around my thighs as he shoved his face up my dress.
My body arched immediately as a gasp escaped my lips. Grayson's tongue moved in a circular motion furiously. Every few moments he would moan into me, pushing me closer to an orgasm.
My body no longer felt like my own. My arms shot out, knocking things off of the island. That seemed to motivate Grayson even more. His grip tightened and the speed of his tongue increased.
I moved my hips up and down so he could hit the right spot. I was so close.
"Come on," Grayson whispered between laps, "I know you're almost there. Be my good girl."
My back lifted off of the island as a frenzy came over my body. My hands gripped the edge of the island as gasps and moans cascaded from my throat.
"Grayson!" I cried out as I reached my peak. He didn't stop until I had finally come down, breathing heavily.
Grayson kissed the inside of my thighs. "You're delicious." He licked his lips before standing up and kissing me on the mouth.
I slid off the island and frantically pulled at the buttons on his shirt. I pulled it off of his strong arms before he pushed me through the house.
I managed to get his belt off and unbutton his pants before he lifted me off my feet again.
We were halfway down the long hallway when he pressed me against the wall. I was becoming impatient.
"Grayson please," I whimpered. "I want it. Take me to your room."
"You're so sexy when you beg. Beg some more baby." He lowered me to the floor as his hands went into his pants. "I need to hear it."
"Please Grayson. I need you. I want you inside me. I want to feel your body against mine. I'm dying for you, please." I said in a low voice.
His eyes burned into mine as hand moved up and down on his erection.
"Get down," He shivered.
I slithered down the wall before putting my hand over his. I looked up at him as my mouth slowly closed around him.
Grayson's fist gently collided with the wall as he groaned. "Oh fuck Scar,"
I loved having him like this. In every other aspect of life Grayson was confident and sure of himself. With me he's just a little desperate and wild. He doesn't hold back with me.
I gripped his hips tightly as his fingers tangled in my hair. He put my head against the wall and thrusted into my mouth over and over again. He could never let me have all the control.
"Look at me." He demanded.
Our eyes met as I swirled my tongue around his tip. I saw the glaze come over his eyes. He was finally ready.
He pulled out, breathing heavily.
"You have five seconds to get in the bed or I'm going to fuck you right here."
"Is that a threat or a promise?" I asked, licking my lips.
"Five…"
I strutted quickly to the room, laying myself on the bed, hoping I looked absolutely irresistible.
I knew better than to take my dress off. That was Grayson's favorite part.
Grayson climbed on the bed and roughly flipped me onto my stomach. He tugged the silk dress off of my body and then went for the last bit of lace covering my breasts.
He planted kisses down my spine as he lifted my hips. His fingers danced tantalizingly over my entrance.
"Beg me for it," Grayson murmured.
"Please Grayson," I urged. "Give it to me."
"You'll be my good girl?"
"Yes. Please I need you."
We both gasped as he finally pushed himself into me. His fingers dug into my hips as he continuously slammed me against him.
Our moans filled the room quickly. One of Grayson's hands slid up my back and then into my hair. He pulled hard. Causing me to scream in pleasure.
His other palm collided with one of my ass cheeks allowing another scream to escape.
Grayson's pace slowed before he pulled out of me. "Flip over, baby."
I did as he said. He spread my legs, slinking his body between them. His forehead pressed against mine. He kissed me hard as he quickly entered me again.
I gasped against his lips. He shoved his tongue further into my mouth as he went deeper. My hips moved to meet his.
I let my head fall back on the pillows as a tingling sensation danced throughout my body. A haze fell over me. My head got cloudy and all I could see and feel was Grayson.
Only Grayson could make me feel this way during sex. No one else took me to another world. I now knew for sure I was no one else's girl but his.
"Scarlett…" his deep voice groaned. "Fuck, you drive me crazy."
"Are you almost there baby?" I asked.
I felt a sense of urgency. I had to take him there. It's like I had to prove my love for him.
"I'm close." He thrusted in me harder, causing my back to arch. He took an opportunity to go as deep as possible.
"Oh Grayson," I gulped. "Baby, you feel so good."
"Say it," He choked out, "Scarlett, I'm so fucking close."
"I'm yours Grayson. I belong to you."
Just like every time I said it Grayson finally reached his orgasm. He cried out and his thrusts became more powerful and then suddenly slowed until he slumped against me.
"I love you so much Scarlett. You're mine forever." He almost wheezed.
I kissed his damp lips. "Forever, Grayson."
***
I loved waking up in Grayson's bed. It was so comfortable and he was always holding on to me.
When my eyes fluttered open he was looking at me.
"That's creepy," I commented.
"I get so few moments of silence from you, I have to bask in them when I can." Grayson laughed.
"Funny,"
"Did you mean what you said last night?"
"During sex? You know I embellish a little to make you feel powerful." I grinned.
"I meant before that...when you said you loved me. Was that real Scarlett? Or did you say that to shut me up?"
"It's real, Grayson. I love you. I just didn't realize it until yesterday. I don't want to see you with anyone else. And I don't romantically want anyone else either."
"What about sexually?" He breathed.
I sighed. "I can stop seeing Wesley if you want. He doesn't mean anything to me. He's not worth stressing you out over."
"Do I not sexually satisfy you Scar? Is that the problem?"
"How can you ask me that? You know I love having sex with you."
"Then why do you need to fuck other men? I must be doing something wrong. Am I too dominant? Do you need me to be more loving and passionate?"
"Grayson, don't take it so personally." I groaned. "It's not about you. It's just...I use sex to feel good, it doesn't matter who it's coming from. There are just times when I need something physically to shut everything else out."
"So sex with me and sex with another guy is basically the same thing to you?" Grayson asked. I could hear the insecurity in his voice.
Fuck, I had to fix this.
"No, Grayson. Hey look at me." His grey eyes met mine. "No. I mean physically sure, sex is sex. But I know you love me, so sex with you is different. I guess sometimes I feel like we don't make love. We just fuck. And maybe that's my fault for not being more open or-"
He kissed me. "It's my fault. I have all these things I have you do when we're together. The begging and having you say you're mine. I'm aggressive and I did that so I didn't make you uncomfortable with feelings. But that can change now that I know you love me. I can be gentle."
"Oh really?" I challenged.
"Let me show you,"
He slowly got on top of me. "Grayson," I whispered. "I can't miss Marketing twice in a row.""I'll have my parents email Professor Simon and tell him to excuse your absences." Grayson smiled. "Now let me make love to you."I didn't like that I got special treatment, but as much as I loved class, sex does feel better.Grayson had never gone so slow with me. His lips moved across mine slowly as his hands danced along my skin, giving me goosebumps."I love you, Scar." He murmured. "You're so beautiful.""You're really gonna go slow with this huh?"He nodded before moving down to my neck. There was no pain like there usually was. Only pleasure.
I made a big point of loudly dropping my purse on my desk the next day. Lee looked over. "Nice purse. Goes with your shoes." "Thank you. It was a really sweet gift, Lee, I appreciate it." "Don't know what you're talking about." "So you're saying you didn't buy this for me?" I asked. "Nope. Must have been a different LW." "How did you know LW was on the note?" "Fine of course it was me. But don't go around telling everybody. If girls hear I was nice to you they'll think I gotta be nice to them too.” "Ooh, can't have that. The secret is safe with me. You have really good taste t
"Um sorry," Lee turned and walked out of the room."Shit!" I said getting off of Grayson. "I told you we shouldn't do that.""Yeah well you weren't complaining when we got down to it.""I have to go talk to him.""You need to keep him quiet, Scar. My parents were very clear. No one outside of the family can know about us. If the press caught wind of this it would look very bad." Grayson stated."I know," I sighed. "I'll handle Lee, I promise. I'll call you later."I went straight to Lee's room, hoping Wesley wasn't there. I knocked this time.Lee opened the door, shirtless once again.
When I arrived in my room the next day I was surprised to see Carter in Lulu's bed."Where's Lu?"I asked."She had a study group," he answered. "This isn't what it looks like.""Really Carter, you wanna play that game with me of all people?"He sighed. "I'm not a bad guy.""No, you're a bad person." I said. "What you're doing to both of these girls isn't right or fair. Do you actually plan on choosing or is getting your dick sucked twice a day just too good?""It's not about sex Scarlett. I'm in love with both of them!""Then treat them like it! Lulu is going to be a very successful woman, she cannot be a mistress."
"Um...that was...I was just kidding." Lincoln stammered. "I don't want to...you know.""It's okay if you do.""Well I don't! It was just a fucking joke, Scarlett, jeez." He stomped away from me."Everything okay?" Grayson asked."Yeah, um it's fine I guess.""Okay, so dinner with my parents tonight.""Huh? Grayson, why didn't you tell me earlier?" I demanded."I just found out myself, baby. It's gonna be fine, it's not like you've never met them.""I know, but I've never talked to them as your girlfriend. What if I say the wrong thing and they think I'm not good enough to be a W
Avoiding two guys at once is absolutely exhausting. I have resorted to having my phone on do not disturb so I don't feel every fucking buzz. Grayson was apologizing profusely and Lee just "wants to talk". If he wants to talk so damn bad, he can call up Nina and they can talk all night long. Avoiding them during the weekend was easy. I didn't have to leave my room and I could pretend that I wasn't in my room when they stopped by. Monday morning ruined the avoidance of Lee Windsor. "Hey Scar," He smiled hopefully as I took my seat next to him. "Good morning Lee." I said politely. My voice lacked the warmth I usually had when I was with him.
I stood in front of the door, just staring at it.I was furious with Lee for being smart enough to get me to talk to him. He was currently winning whatever game we had started.I sighed and knocked on the door. He opened the door immediately, once again shirtless. Does he not own shirts?!"Scarlett," he smiled. "Come to get your laptop?""You're an asshole." I pushed past him into the room."I had to get you here some way.""Well where is it?""Where's what?""Laptop, Lee." I snapped."Oh that, right. See, I'm not going to give it back to
This club is kind of cool actually.It's surprisingly packed for a Monday night. Or maybe I'm just not up date on what goes on at clubs like this anymore.I used to go to them all the time high off my ass and dance the night away. But since getting clean I'm not exactly allowed to go to clubs alone in case there are temptations.I had to go with Grayson and he'd always take me to high end clubs that I didn't really enjoy.I guess it's okay that I'm here since I'm not technically alone.Lulu was ranting about Carter as we waited in the fast moving line."So I ask him 'Carter, why can't you make a decision?' and he says because dating us both is like dating the perfect woman. So app
What was wrong with me? Why was I putting myself and the boys through this all over again? Things were kind of normal. I had a routine and Grayson and Lee were my friends and I just wrecked them by having sex with both of them in the span of fourteen hours. How stupid could I be? But also what was wrong with them? Making deals behind my back and deciding what I could and couldn’t do. They infuriated me! I was surprised later that night when there was a knock on my door. It was Lee and Grayson. “What do you want?” I asked. “We should all talk.” Grayson said. “Why? You two talk enough. You make deals and decisions without me. You don’t want to keep doing that?” “Scarlett, come on.” Lee groaned. “Just let us in.” I clicked my tongue, but let them in. They sat on the couch and I took the armchair. “What do you want?” I asked. “To talk about how you both fucked me and then told me it was a m
“Grayson, I’m sorry.” I groaned, sliding off of the island. “I didn’t even think of that!”“You seriously haven’t thought about it? At all?” He demanded, sitting up.“A little, I guess. But I thought I was supposed to be focusing on my sobriety!”“Of course that’s important, but I would think things would be clearer than ever right now. That you would know what you want now.”“I never know what I want, Gray.” I knelt next to him. “I’m honestly shocked you guys even still want to be with me.”Grayson went back to fixing the sink. “How many times do we have to tell you how much we love you?”“I thought you moved on! You had girlfriends!”“I went on a date, geez, Scarlett! I thought about you every single second of the day! I missed you like crazy. And now I’ve been doing everyt
One month of sobriety.It’s been an interesting time. I decided to get a plant like they suggested we did. I named him Herman.Herman has been doing incredibly well so far. He’s stunning and gets a lot of light from the window sill.Getting back into work was shockingly easy. Rex Adams was wonderfully supportive and all my coworkers were nice. It felt so good to be back in business again.My friends were so proud of me. They saw the lifestyle change I’d made and commended me for my hard work. It felt good that someone was proud of me again. Rudy was doing some traveling and was trying to figure out what he wanted to do with his life. He said being a drug dealer no longer made him happy.I saw Grayson and Lee the most. We’re friends for now. Being in a relationship could really mess up my sobriety so we’re taking this slow and learning how to live with the new me.I’d been attending NA mee
A week later, I was released from the hospital. I was meant to go straight to the facility. It was the middle of the day on Wednesday, so only Grayson, Lee and Rudy could be there for me. It was almost symbolic. The three catalysts for my relapse were helping me get help. Grayson was right. The facility was insanely nice. My last one was a bit more off the grid to keep anyone from finding out. This didn’t seem like a place that people went to get better. It looked more like vacation. “This looks like a rehabilitation center for a doll,” I stated. “It’s really nice, Scar.” Grayson replied. “So am I rehab barbie?” Rude chuckled slightly. “Is now the time for jokes, Letty?” “There’s always time for jokes,” I shrugged. We parked and the boys grabbed my bags. A part of me wanted to run. I knew this was my choice, but I still wasn’t thrilled about going back. I was still on me
Grayson’s POVSometimes there are moments in life when time slows down completely. Like someone hit the slow-mo button and you’re forced to watch either some of the best or worst moments slowly unfold and you’re unable to do anything about it.I’ve had a few moments like that. When I first met Scarlett, when I found her overdosed on the bathroom floor, when I first kissed her, the night she told me she loved me, finding out about her and Lee, when the car crashed. And then there was tonight.Rudy said that Scarlett was in trouble and to call an ambulance. I swear we were all moving quickly to get to that park, but it all felt like it was happening at snail speed.When we arrived at the park, I could see Scarlett. She was lying so still on the jungle gym. Once again it felt like it took forever to reach her.Tears filled my eyes when I saw her. She wasn’t breathing.I forced myself to start CPR
Lee’s POVThis was horrifying.Scarlett’s behavior was unlike anything I’d ever seen. The Wrenfords had been right about how she was in this state. I could tell she was breaking Grayson’s heart with her words, but he still stood there and took it.He really loved her.I stepped forward. “Scarlett, babe please. It’s me. Will you just talk to us?”“I’m done talking, Lee? Aren’t you? All we do is talk! About our daddy issues and insecurities, I don’t want to talk anymore. Especially not to you. You ruined everything!”“What?”“I was happy before you. I had a plan and you eviscerated it within months! You tricked me into falling in love with you!”“Tricked? I didn’t make you fall in love with me, I told you not to!” I reminded her.“Right because your family is always telling you you’re nothing.
Lee’s POVI was pretty fucked up after Scarlett didn’t choose me. However, I was relieved that she didn’t really choose anyone. I thought for sure she would go with Grayson. He was the obvious choice.Older, more intelligent and sophisticated, they had a history.I was actually kind of proud that she chose herself and wanted to truly figure out who she was. I was hoping that meant she would come back to me.I hated how weak and lonely I was without her. My bed was lonely and after all that time without sex, I was craving it badly.Enter Rebecca Walsh.She was stunning, sexy, and liked to have fun. I knew I wouldn’t be serious about her, but I needed to at least feel satisfied.It worked, but only up to a point. I could get off and feel sexually fulfiled for a few moments and then the emptiness set in.Now that I had made love, just fucking felt so useless. It didn’t give me
“Lee?” I asked.“Um...hey there, Scar.” Lee smiled slightly. “You look...great.”“Thank you! You do too! I mean you always look great. You’re Lee Windsor, that’s kind of your thing. Looking hot. You’re just hot.”“Uh...thanks babe. I mean Scarlett.”“Babe,” I giggled. “Isn’t that such a strange word like doesn’t it mean baby, which is like an infant, but also another pet name who comes up with this shit?”“Can we talk? Alone?” Lee questioned.“Sure,” I turned to Rudy. “I’ll be right back babe.” I kissed him before following Lee.“So...that’s your new boyfriend?” Lee whispered.“Yeah, I guess. It’s not serious...but like it is pretty serious. He drives me to work a-and home. And he met everyone for the first time tonight, which made m
It had been two months since I broke my sobriety.I loved life.I had something of a routine. I would do a few lines when I woke up, Rudy would drive me to work, I’d snort for lunch, and when I got off there was Rudy to take me to whatever wild party was happening. We would get high, have sex and party all night until we passed out. Then we woke up and did it all over again.I of course made time for my friends so they didn’t suspect that anything was wrong with me. My limited communication with Grayson and Lee continued. Both had tried to explain the girls, but I didn’t want to hear it.I had moved on.On quieter nights, Rudy and I got high alone and watched stupid movies and fucked on my couch. Our relationship was both severely codependent and low maintenance.We simply wanted what we needed from each other.It sounded complicated but was wonderfully simple.“Hey wh