Before I could respond, Reginald had approached. "Come on, Windsor. I'll race you on the obstacle course!" He pulled him away as I stood there frozen.
"What's going on?" Analeigh asked me.
"Lee just told me he loved me." I said blankly.
"Holy shit!"
"Yeah."
After a few moments I shook it off. There was no way we could truly discuss this until we were alone, which wouldn't happen for some time.
I went outside to watch Lee and Reginald on the obstacle course. Lee looked so happy. I couldn't believe I made that happen.
I was so lost in thought, I didn't notice Lee coming over to me until he had already picked me up and thrown me ove
Well I sure made a mess for myself didn't I?In love with two men. Both rich and handsome. Both want to marry me. One knows about my situation and the other knows only a fraction of what's really happening.Scarlett Watson, you're in big trouble.***"Scar? Are you okay?"I looked up and saw Quin. I had been splashing my feet in the water of one of the pools, while contemplating what the hell I was going to do."Um, eh...not really." I admitted."Nervous for the ball?"Tonight Hal would be given Business Man of the Year award and they were having a ball to honor him.
I pulled Lee back before they saw us."What the hell was that?" He hissed."This is gonna sound crazy, but I think they're married. I saw her credit card and the last name said Windsor.""He married my fucking nanny?""To be fair they do seem to be in love." I offered."Yeah I guess." He muttered. "We should get back out there."It was time for dinner now. Lee kept glancing at Hal and Ninette. I wondered if he would ask them about their relationship tomorrow."Brantley I almost forgot, I need you to do a little speech to introduce me." Hal whispered.Lee's eyes widened. "F
What just happened? I took a few more moments to catch my breath and then got ready to go back. I knew Lee would be looking for me. I spotted him immediately. "There you are baby. Feel better?" He kissed me. "Oh yeah. I really needed that air." "There's so many more people to meet tonight. Hope that's okay." "Oh it's fine!" I waved my hand. "Woah, babe what happened to your wrist?" I looked down and saw it had started to bruise. "I'm just the clumsiest bitch. I was in the garden and I tripped on my heels. My wrist kinda broke my fall."
“Um...I don’t understand, Holly.”“Look I get it okay. Lee is very rich and handsome and he can give you things other boys your age can’t. He’s also very insecure and looking for someone to care about him, which I’m sure you do to an extent. But it’s not fair to him for you to continue this relationship, wanting to get something in return. So how much money will make you leave him now instead of stringing him along? Two million?”“Holly, no. I’m not with Lee for money.
I spent the rest of the yacht trip on the deck. I didn’t feel like eating or drinking or talking to anyone.My phone buzzed furiously in my purse. At first I was going to ignore it, but then I saw that it was Grayson.“Hey Gray.” I answered.“You sound sad.” He stated.
Water was shooting up my throat. I coughed hard and spit up the disgusting water, gasping for air. So much was happening. Crying, screaming. I was surrounded by so many people.“She can’t swim! She can’t swim!” Lee just kept wailing the same thing.Quin’s face was inches from mine.“Am I dead?” I asked.“Close but no cigar.” He tried to smile but he was too worried. “Just stay there.”“I’m fine.” I insisted. “Except for my head, Jesus.” I rubbed the back of my head and it felt kinda sticky. My hand was covered in blood when I looked at it. Again I was consumed with black.This time I just knew I was dead.***The next time I opened my eyes I was in a room I didn’t recognize. It was mint green and smelled exceptionally clean.I slowly sat up and looked around. It was almost like a hospital room, but it felt to
“Lee Windsor.” Grayson whispered. “You’ve been seeing Lee Windsor.”“Grayson let me expl-”“You told me you weren’t fucking him!”“And I wasn’t at that time, I swear but...after that…”“You said it wasn’t serious.” Grayson whispered. “Th-that this was just some other guy, but you met his entire family?”“You told me to spend Spring Break with him.” I pointed out.“I didn’t know who he was. I-I didn’t know he was bringing you to Windsor mansion. How could you do this?”“You didn’t want to know, Grayson remember? No questions. How did you even know I was here?”“The doctors called. I’m your emergency contact, remember? They said you were in the hospital and I thought you relapsed. I was fucking terrified. And then they told me that you fell off of a do
When I woke up, I still didn’t have a clear answer. I was more confused than ever. Seeing Grayson stand in front of me reminded me of all that I loved about him. How handsome he was and how even when he was upset, he looked at me like I was the most magnificent thing to ever grace this earth. And then there was Lee. So sweet and caring. He had been holding on to this crush for so long. He cared more about my happiness than his own. He even tried to break up with me so my life could be better. Who does that? I wish I could just choose with my head. Compare the jobs and perks I would get from being with each person. But I was thinking about who I could truly see my life being with. The problem was I could see two different paths. Both were similar. No matter what, I would be financially taken care of. I would have a job. I would have a man that adored me. Everything I had ever wanted. *** There was a small knock
What was wrong with me? Why was I putting myself and the boys through this all over again? Things were kind of normal. I had a routine and Grayson and Lee were my friends and I just wrecked them by having sex with both of them in the span of fourteen hours. How stupid could I be? But also what was wrong with them? Making deals behind my back and deciding what I could and couldn’t do. They infuriated me! I was surprised later that night when there was a knock on my door. It was Lee and Grayson. “What do you want?” I asked. “We should all talk.” Grayson said. “Why? You two talk enough. You make deals and decisions without me. You don’t want to keep doing that?” “Scarlett, come on.” Lee groaned. “Just let us in.” I clicked my tongue, but let them in. They sat on the couch and I took the armchair. “What do you want?” I asked. “To talk about how you both fucked me and then told me it was a m
“Grayson, I’m sorry.” I groaned, sliding off of the island. “I didn’t even think of that!”“You seriously haven’t thought about it? At all?” He demanded, sitting up.“A little, I guess. But I thought I was supposed to be focusing on my sobriety!”“Of course that’s important, but I would think things would be clearer than ever right now. That you would know what you want now.”“I never know what I want, Gray.” I knelt next to him. “I’m honestly shocked you guys even still want to be with me.”Grayson went back to fixing the sink. “How many times do we have to tell you how much we love you?”“I thought you moved on! You had girlfriends!”“I went on a date, geez, Scarlett! I thought about you every single second of the day! I missed you like crazy. And now I’ve been doing everyt
One month of sobriety.It’s been an interesting time. I decided to get a plant like they suggested we did. I named him Herman.Herman has been doing incredibly well so far. He’s stunning and gets a lot of light from the window sill.Getting back into work was shockingly easy. Rex Adams was wonderfully supportive and all my coworkers were nice. It felt so good to be back in business again.My friends were so proud of me. They saw the lifestyle change I’d made and commended me for my hard work. It felt good that someone was proud of me again. Rudy was doing some traveling and was trying to figure out what he wanted to do with his life. He said being a drug dealer no longer made him happy.I saw Grayson and Lee the most. We’re friends for now. Being in a relationship could really mess up my sobriety so we’re taking this slow and learning how to live with the new me.I’d been attending NA mee
A week later, I was released from the hospital. I was meant to go straight to the facility. It was the middle of the day on Wednesday, so only Grayson, Lee and Rudy could be there for me. It was almost symbolic. The three catalysts for my relapse were helping me get help. Grayson was right. The facility was insanely nice. My last one was a bit more off the grid to keep anyone from finding out. This didn’t seem like a place that people went to get better. It looked more like vacation. “This looks like a rehabilitation center for a doll,” I stated. “It’s really nice, Scar.” Grayson replied. “So am I rehab barbie?” Rude chuckled slightly. “Is now the time for jokes, Letty?” “There’s always time for jokes,” I shrugged. We parked and the boys grabbed my bags. A part of me wanted to run. I knew this was my choice, but I still wasn’t thrilled about going back. I was still on me
Grayson’s POVSometimes there are moments in life when time slows down completely. Like someone hit the slow-mo button and you’re forced to watch either some of the best or worst moments slowly unfold and you’re unable to do anything about it.I’ve had a few moments like that. When I first met Scarlett, when I found her overdosed on the bathroom floor, when I first kissed her, the night she told me she loved me, finding out about her and Lee, when the car crashed. And then there was tonight.Rudy said that Scarlett was in trouble and to call an ambulance. I swear we were all moving quickly to get to that park, but it all felt like it was happening at snail speed.When we arrived at the park, I could see Scarlett. She was lying so still on the jungle gym. Once again it felt like it took forever to reach her.Tears filled my eyes when I saw her. She wasn’t breathing.I forced myself to start CPR
Lee’s POVThis was horrifying.Scarlett’s behavior was unlike anything I’d ever seen. The Wrenfords had been right about how she was in this state. I could tell she was breaking Grayson’s heart with her words, but he still stood there and took it.He really loved her.I stepped forward. “Scarlett, babe please. It’s me. Will you just talk to us?”“I’m done talking, Lee? Aren’t you? All we do is talk! About our daddy issues and insecurities, I don’t want to talk anymore. Especially not to you. You ruined everything!”“What?”“I was happy before you. I had a plan and you eviscerated it within months! You tricked me into falling in love with you!”“Tricked? I didn’t make you fall in love with me, I told you not to!” I reminded her.“Right because your family is always telling you you’re nothing.
Lee’s POVI was pretty fucked up after Scarlett didn’t choose me. However, I was relieved that she didn’t really choose anyone. I thought for sure she would go with Grayson. He was the obvious choice.Older, more intelligent and sophisticated, they had a history.I was actually kind of proud that she chose herself and wanted to truly figure out who she was. I was hoping that meant she would come back to me.I hated how weak and lonely I was without her. My bed was lonely and after all that time without sex, I was craving it badly.Enter Rebecca Walsh.She was stunning, sexy, and liked to have fun. I knew I wouldn’t be serious about her, but I needed to at least feel satisfied.It worked, but only up to a point. I could get off and feel sexually fulfiled for a few moments and then the emptiness set in.Now that I had made love, just fucking felt so useless. It didn’t give me
“Lee?” I asked.“Um...hey there, Scar.” Lee smiled slightly. “You look...great.”“Thank you! You do too! I mean you always look great. You’re Lee Windsor, that’s kind of your thing. Looking hot. You’re just hot.”“Uh...thanks babe. I mean Scarlett.”“Babe,” I giggled. “Isn’t that such a strange word like doesn’t it mean baby, which is like an infant, but also another pet name who comes up with this shit?”“Can we talk? Alone?” Lee questioned.“Sure,” I turned to Rudy. “I’ll be right back babe.” I kissed him before following Lee.“So...that’s your new boyfriend?” Lee whispered.“Yeah, I guess. It’s not serious...but like it is pretty serious. He drives me to work a-and home. And he met everyone for the first time tonight, which made m
It had been two months since I broke my sobriety.I loved life.I had something of a routine. I would do a few lines when I woke up, Rudy would drive me to work, I’d snort for lunch, and when I got off there was Rudy to take me to whatever wild party was happening. We would get high, have sex and party all night until we passed out. Then we woke up and did it all over again.I of course made time for my friends so they didn’t suspect that anything was wrong with me. My limited communication with Grayson and Lee continued. Both had tried to explain the girls, but I didn’t want to hear it.I had moved on.On quieter nights, Rudy and I got high alone and watched stupid movies and fucked on my couch. Our relationship was both severely codependent and low maintenance.We simply wanted what we needed from each other.It sounded complicated but was wonderfully simple.“Hey wh