After the argument with Wesley, Lee and I needed some time to think and process, so I went back to my room. It was weird being there alone. I ended up falling asleep and I awoke when my phone started ringing loudly.
"Hello?"
"Scarlett?"
"Speaking. Who the hell is this?" I yawned.
"You don't recognize my voice?"
"You know how I am when I wake up, Lee. What's up?"
"It's getting late, where are you? My bed feels empty." I'm sure he was pouting.
"In my bed." I answered.
"Well can you come to mine?"
"I don't know. I'm feeling very lazy. I
Classes were back in session and I wouldn't admit it but I was nervous about what that meant for Lee and I.We had all of our classes together, so avoidance wasn't possible at all.Grayson wouldn't be returning until late tonight, so I had one more full day with Lee."You'll sit next to me in every class right?" Lee asked as we did our hair in the mirror. I kinda love that he's tall enough to stand behind me and still be able see himself in the mirror."If you want me to." I responded."I do.""Then I will.""And if there are projects, you'll be my partner?" He questioned, rapidly running his fing
I never was good at juggling.I could never grasp the concept of switching off at the right time so that nothing would fall.That has changed.The way I was juggling Grayson and Lee was wildly impressive. And the best part? I didn't even have to lie.Lee of course knew about Grayson and I told Grayson that Lee and I are mock business partners for our Econ class which is true. I could easily just tell the other who I was with and it wasn't a problem. It's too easy.Except that my feelings for Lee continue to grow. I kind of thought and hoped when Grayson came back, I would stop falling so hard for Lee, but I think I may be falling even harder now. He just understood me completely.
I turned away to face Lee and kissed him, trying to erase the intense blue eyes."You okay?" Lee asked."Of course. Just missed your lips" I ran my thumb over his soft pink lips."Oh my god Scar, did you see who's here?" Lulu asked. "Ty Dalton.""Wasn't he kicked out of Wrenford for drugs or something?" Carter asked."Yeah." I said. "He was dumb enough to bring them on campus.""Why is he looking over here like that?" Lincoln questioned."Probably recognizes us or something." Analeigh shrugged. "Who cares, let's go get a drink."The drink didn't calm my nerves. Nothing rea
I woke up to the sound of heavy rain. I loved rainy days. Too bad I had shit to do today like talk to my ex drug dealer and probably explain to Lee about the kind of person I used to be. I felt lips on my shoulder and then my neck. "You awake baby?" Lee asked. His voice was sexy in the morning. "I am." "Did you have a good night? Was it a good birthday?" "Most of the night was perfect." I turned around and faced him, giving him a kiss. "And that was because of you." "I was hoping we could talk about last night." Lee sat up. "Do you really want to talk when we could be doing other things?" I ran my fingers over his ba
I got in the shower. The water washed away my tears. I shouldn't be this upset. Things with Lee were never supposed to get this far anyways. I should be thrilled. The choice had been made. It's Grayson. Grayson who has always supported me and saved me and didn't judge my addiction. Shit I should call him. Our minds must be linked or something. When I grabbed my phone off of the counter I had a text from him. Rain check on today? (pun intended) storm is causing problems at work love u the most Damn it. I could really use some cuddling from him, especially on a day like this. When I exited the bathroom, Lee was back. "Don't worry, I'll be gone in a few minutes." I said.
Three weeks later, Lee still hadn't found the right answer. I figured he didn't want to, which was fine.We still sat next to each other in each class and worked on our project, but we didn't speak about the relationship we had only weeks ago.I decided to throw myself into my relationship with Grayson like I should have been doing before. Things were better than ever between us. I spent any time that I wasn't at school at his house. It almost felt like we lived together.We were in the living room at the opposite ends of the couch. He was working and I was doing homework."So, did you and that other guy you were seeing end things?" Grayson questioned suddenly."Sorry?""I k
"Grayson what?""Marry me?""I-I will. But you said you were proposing later this year.""Screw it. I had an idea." His grey eyes glimmered with excitement. "What if we eloped? Fuck the schedule and the timing and all these things my parents set up for us. We can go to the courthouse tomorrow and just get it done with.""Grayson, your mother will die if we do that." I said. "I'm sorry, we can't.""You hate that schedule. Y-you hate the thought of the decisions they'll make for us. So let's do this. Our first decision as a real couple. Let's say fuck you to my parents.""I can't do that, babe. What if they take back everything they said about me being COO because we didn't do thing
Analeigh's question rang in my head for days. "Who are you spending Spring Break with?" It should be Grayson right? He was my boyfriend and I had spent Winter Break with Lee. Though that was Grayson's fault. And from what Lulu tells me, Lee always goes home for Spring Break with his family. We're not serious enough for that right? Probably not. So I would be spending it with Grayson. "So Scarlett, about Spring Break…" "Oh I've been thinking about it too, Gray. Do you wanna go away somewhere secluded or have a staycation here?" Grayson fidgeted nervously. "Um my parents kind of planned another business vacation for Sprin
What was wrong with me? Why was I putting myself and the boys through this all over again? Things were kind of normal. I had a routine and Grayson and Lee were my friends and I just wrecked them by having sex with both of them in the span of fourteen hours. How stupid could I be? But also what was wrong with them? Making deals behind my back and deciding what I could and couldn’t do. They infuriated me! I was surprised later that night when there was a knock on my door. It was Lee and Grayson. “What do you want?” I asked. “We should all talk.” Grayson said. “Why? You two talk enough. You make deals and decisions without me. You don’t want to keep doing that?” “Scarlett, come on.” Lee groaned. “Just let us in.” I clicked my tongue, but let them in. They sat on the couch and I took the armchair. “What do you want?” I asked. “To talk about how you both fucked me and then told me it was a m
“Grayson, I’m sorry.” I groaned, sliding off of the island. “I didn’t even think of that!”“You seriously haven’t thought about it? At all?” He demanded, sitting up.“A little, I guess. But I thought I was supposed to be focusing on my sobriety!”“Of course that’s important, but I would think things would be clearer than ever right now. That you would know what you want now.”“I never know what I want, Gray.” I knelt next to him. “I’m honestly shocked you guys even still want to be with me.”Grayson went back to fixing the sink. “How many times do we have to tell you how much we love you?”“I thought you moved on! You had girlfriends!”“I went on a date, geez, Scarlett! I thought about you every single second of the day! I missed you like crazy. And now I’ve been doing everyt
One month of sobriety.It’s been an interesting time. I decided to get a plant like they suggested we did. I named him Herman.Herman has been doing incredibly well so far. He’s stunning and gets a lot of light from the window sill.Getting back into work was shockingly easy. Rex Adams was wonderfully supportive and all my coworkers were nice. It felt so good to be back in business again.My friends were so proud of me. They saw the lifestyle change I’d made and commended me for my hard work. It felt good that someone was proud of me again. Rudy was doing some traveling and was trying to figure out what he wanted to do with his life. He said being a drug dealer no longer made him happy.I saw Grayson and Lee the most. We’re friends for now. Being in a relationship could really mess up my sobriety so we’re taking this slow and learning how to live with the new me.I’d been attending NA mee
A week later, I was released from the hospital. I was meant to go straight to the facility. It was the middle of the day on Wednesday, so only Grayson, Lee and Rudy could be there for me. It was almost symbolic. The three catalysts for my relapse were helping me get help. Grayson was right. The facility was insanely nice. My last one was a bit more off the grid to keep anyone from finding out. This didn’t seem like a place that people went to get better. It looked more like vacation. “This looks like a rehabilitation center for a doll,” I stated. “It’s really nice, Scar.” Grayson replied. “So am I rehab barbie?” Rude chuckled slightly. “Is now the time for jokes, Letty?” “There’s always time for jokes,” I shrugged. We parked and the boys grabbed my bags. A part of me wanted to run. I knew this was my choice, but I still wasn’t thrilled about going back. I was still on me
Grayson’s POVSometimes there are moments in life when time slows down completely. Like someone hit the slow-mo button and you’re forced to watch either some of the best or worst moments slowly unfold and you’re unable to do anything about it.I’ve had a few moments like that. When I first met Scarlett, when I found her overdosed on the bathroom floor, when I first kissed her, the night she told me she loved me, finding out about her and Lee, when the car crashed. And then there was tonight.Rudy said that Scarlett was in trouble and to call an ambulance. I swear we were all moving quickly to get to that park, but it all felt like it was happening at snail speed.When we arrived at the park, I could see Scarlett. She was lying so still on the jungle gym. Once again it felt like it took forever to reach her.Tears filled my eyes when I saw her. She wasn’t breathing.I forced myself to start CPR
Lee’s POVThis was horrifying.Scarlett’s behavior was unlike anything I’d ever seen. The Wrenfords had been right about how she was in this state. I could tell she was breaking Grayson’s heart with her words, but he still stood there and took it.He really loved her.I stepped forward. “Scarlett, babe please. It’s me. Will you just talk to us?”“I’m done talking, Lee? Aren’t you? All we do is talk! About our daddy issues and insecurities, I don’t want to talk anymore. Especially not to you. You ruined everything!”“What?”“I was happy before you. I had a plan and you eviscerated it within months! You tricked me into falling in love with you!”“Tricked? I didn’t make you fall in love with me, I told you not to!” I reminded her.“Right because your family is always telling you you’re nothing.
Lee’s POVI was pretty fucked up after Scarlett didn’t choose me. However, I was relieved that she didn’t really choose anyone. I thought for sure she would go with Grayson. He was the obvious choice.Older, more intelligent and sophisticated, they had a history.I was actually kind of proud that she chose herself and wanted to truly figure out who she was. I was hoping that meant she would come back to me.I hated how weak and lonely I was without her. My bed was lonely and after all that time without sex, I was craving it badly.Enter Rebecca Walsh.She was stunning, sexy, and liked to have fun. I knew I wouldn’t be serious about her, but I needed to at least feel satisfied.It worked, but only up to a point. I could get off and feel sexually fulfiled for a few moments and then the emptiness set in.Now that I had made love, just fucking felt so useless. It didn’t give me
“Lee?” I asked.“Um...hey there, Scar.” Lee smiled slightly. “You look...great.”“Thank you! You do too! I mean you always look great. You’re Lee Windsor, that’s kind of your thing. Looking hot. You’re just hot.”“Uh...thanks babe. I mean Scarlett.”“Babe,” I giggled. “Isn’t that such a strange word like doesn’t it mean baby, which is like an infant, but also another pet name who comes up with this shit?”“Can we talk? Alone?” Lee questioned.“Sure,” I turned to Rudy. “I’ll be right back babe.” I kissed him before following Lee.“So...that’s your new boyfriend?” Lee whispered.“Yeah, I guess. It’s not serious...but like it is pretty serious. He drives me to work a-and home. And he met everyone for the first time tonight, which made m
It had been two months since I broke my sobriety.I loved life.I had something of a routine. I would do a few lines when I woke up, Rudy would drive me to work, I’d snort for lunch, and when I got off there was Rudy to take me to whatever wild party was happening. We would get high, have sex and party all night until we passed out. Then we woke up and did it all over again.I of course made time for my friends so they didn’t suspect that anything was wrong with me. My limited communication with Grayson and Lee continued. Both had tried to explain the girls, but I didn’t want to hear it.I had moved on.On quieter nights, Rudy and I got high alone and watched stupid movies and fucked on my couch. Our relationship was both severely codependent and low maintenance.We simply wanted what we needed from each other.It sounded complicated but was wonderfully simple.“Hey wh