"Have I ever told you how beautiful you are?" Lee asked.
"I don't think so."
"Well I should have. You are the most beautiful person I've ever met." He kissed me. "I like you a lot, Scar. You have no idea how long I've been waiting for this."
"I...like you too." I whispered.
"I never thought I'd hear you say that."
"Yeah me neither."
We had sex a few more times then we were cuddling. I never took Lee for a cuddler.
"Merry Christmas." He whispered.
I checked the clock on the nightstand and sure enough it was 12:17am. Christmas.
"This is a
I didn't think anyone else could make me feel as comfortable as Grayson could. I didn't know I could just sit and watch movies with another guy while just cuddling and drinking and making jokes.But I could.With Lee.He has his arm around me, gently stroking my arm as we watch The Grinch. I don't know how he knew it was my favorite Christmas movie to watch.I noticed he wasn't looking at the movie. "Why are you looking at me?" I asked."Have you seen you?""There's a movie going on, Lee.""I found something better to look at." He whisperedI couldn't help but smile and ki
I haven't slept in my own bed in about a week. Every night I go to my room to get clothes for the next day and then go to Lee's room and I don't leave until the next morning.We shower together every morning and eat breakfast together. Then we either watch movies or have sex. Sometimes both. We have lunch, go to the movies or the arcade. Then have dinner, watch a movie or go to the club and then head to bed for the night to do it all over again.We're kinda inseparable, but in the best way. We don't have to talk to each other all the time. He can be on his phone or I can be online shopping and we don't even speak.Then one of us will nudge or kiss or stroke the other and we're back to being all over each other.When we were in public we were affectionate. We held h
I was practically seething as Sandra tossed her perfect, shiny honey blonde hair behind her shoulder and laughed. I don't remember Lee being that funny. Sandra runs her fingers over the buttons on his shirt and is clearly saying something seductive and clever. Ugh. Then Lee puts his hand on her lower back and whispers something in her ear and I've had enough.I force myself to look away and calm down. I could not be this jealous. Lee is not my boyfriend so he owes me nothing. In fact I had a boyfriend and it wasn't Lee.He's at liberty to flirt with perfect girls throwing themselves desperately at him. It's totally fine that he clearly wants to fuck Sandra and can't keep his stupid hands off of her. I'm so completely okay with the fact that I will sleep in my own bed to
"I'm kind of in the middle of something Windsor, can it wait?" I asked."No.""Should I go, Scar?" Freddie asked."Yeah I think you should." Lee snapped."Lee!""It's fine." Freddie assured me. "Just come find me when you finish with whatever this is." He kissed me again before walking off.Lee looks ready to explode. He grabs my hand and pulls me up the stairs to the first empty room, locking the door."Who is that guy?" He demanded."Freddie.""Why was he all over you?""Because I allowed him
My eyes snap open and dread comes over me. Oh no. It's here. I quickly but quietly hop out of Lee's bed, grab my clothes and haul ass to my bathroom. The first cramp hits and I'm almost knocked to the floor from pain. Godammit, why couldn't I be pregnant?! Then I thought about all the boys I'd slept with in the last month and decided this was best. I planned on being completely out of commission for the day. I got on my comfiest sweats. Took my last three midols and fell into my bed, curling up like a fetus until I faded back into sleep. "Scar? Babe wake up." "Hmm?" I groaned as I opened my eyes. There was Lee. "Why did you sneak out of bed this morning?" He asked. "I'm havi
"W-Wesley this isn't what it looks like." I insisted. "Well I mean it is but, just let us explain.""So he's been the other guy all along?" Wesley whispered."No, no! Lee is not the other guy. This is...recent."Wesley's eyes were now on Lee."How could you do this?" Wesley yelled at Lee. "You went behind my back and fucked her!""It wasn't like that, man it just happened. There's this...connection between us. I couldn't ignore it anymore." Lee insisted."Sure you could! You wanted this to happen! I saw the way you would look at her and you were always making sexual comments to her. You knew what you were doing.""Wesley, l
After the argument with Wesley, Lee and I needed some time to think and process, so I went back to my room. It was weird being there alone. I ended up falling asleep and I awoke when my phone started ringing loudly."Hello?""Scarlett?""Speaking. Who the hell is this?" I yawned."You don't recognize my voice?""You know how I am when I wake up, Lee. What's up?""It's getting late, where are you? My bed feels empty." I'm sure he was pouting."In my bed." I answered."Well can you come to mine?""I don't know. I'm feeling very lazy. I
Classes were back in session and I wouldn't admit it but I was nervous about what that meant for Lee and I.We had all of our classes together, so avoidance wasn't possible at all.Grayson wouldn't be returning until late tonight, so I had one more full day with Lee."You'll sit next to me in every class right?" Lee asked as we did our hair in the mirror. I kinda love that he's tall enough to stand behind me and still be able see himself in the mirror."If you want me to." I responded."I do.""Then I will.""And if there are projects, you'll be my partner?" He questioned, rapidly running his fing
What was wrong with me? Why was I putting myself and the boys through this all over again? Things were kind of normal. I had a routine and Grayson and Lee were my friends and I just wrecked them by having sex with both of them in the span of fourteen hours. How stupid could I be? But also what was wrong with them? Making deals behind my back and deciding what I could and couldn’t do. They infuriated me! I was surprised later that night when there was a knock on my door. It was Lee and Grayson. “What do you want?” I asked. “We should all talk.” Grayson said. “Why? You two talk enough. You make deals and decisions without me. You don’t want to keep doing that?” “Scarlett, come on.” Lee groaned. “Just let us in.” I clicked my tongue, but let them in. They sat on the couch and I took the armchair. “What do you want?” I asked. “To talk about how you both fucked me and then told me it was a m
“Grayson, I’m sorry.” I groaned, sliding off of the island. “I didn’t even think of that!”“You seriously haven’t thought about it? At all?” He demanded, sitting up.“A little, I guess. But I thought I was supposed to be focusing on my sobriety!”“Of course that’s important, but I would think things would be clearer than ever right now. That you would know what you want now.”“I never know what I want, Gray.” I knelt next to him. “I’m honestly shocked you guys even still want to be with me.”Grayson went back to fixing the sink. “How many times do we have to tell you how much we love you?”“I thought you moved on! You had girlfriends!”“I went on a date, geez, Scarlett! I thought about you every single second of the day! I missed you like crazy. And now I’ve been doing everyt
One month of sobriety.It’s been an interesting time. I decided to get a plant like they suggested we did. I named him Herman.Herman has been doing incredibly well so far. He’s stunning and gets a lot of light from the window sill.Getting back into work was shockingly easy. Rex Adams was wonderfully supportive and all my coworkers were nice. It felt so good to be back in business again.My friends were so proud of me. They saw the lifestyle change I’d made and commended me for my hard work. It felt good that someone was proud of me again. Rudy was doing some traveling and was trying to figure out what he wanted to do with his life. He said being a drug dealer no longer made him happy.I saw Grayson and Lee the most. We’re friends for now. Being in a relationship could really mess up my sobriety so we’re taking this slow and learning how to live with the new me.I’d been attending NA mee
A week later, I was released from the hospital. I was meant to go straight to the facility. It was the middle of the day on Wednesday, so only Grayson, Lee and Rudy could be there for me. It was almost symbolic. The three catalysts for my relapse were helping me get help. Grayson was right. The facility was insanely nice. My last one was a bit more off the grid to keep anyone from finding out. This didn’t seem like a place that people went to get better. It looked more like vacation. “This looks like a rehabilitation center for a doll,” I stated. “It’s really nice, Scar.” Grayson replied. “So am I rehab barbie?” Rude chuckled slightly. “Is now the time for jokes, Letty?” “There’s always time for jokes,” I shrugged. We parked and the boys grabbed my bags. A part of me wanted to run. I knew this was my choice, but I still wasn’t thrilled about going back. I was still on me
Grayson’s POVSometimes there are moments in life when time slows down completely. Like someone hit the slow-mo button and you’re forced to watch either some of the best or worst moments slowly unfold and you’re unable to do anything about it.I’ve had a few moments like that. When I first met Scarlett, when I found her overdosed on the bathroom floor, when I first kissed her, the night she told me she loved me, finding out about her and Lee, when the car crashed. And then there was tonight.Rudy said that Scarlett was in trouble and to call an ambulance. I swear we were all moving quickly to get to that park, but it all felt like it was happening at snail speed.When we arrived at the park, I could see Scarlett. She was lying so still on the jungle gym. Once again it felt like it took forever to reach her.Tears filled my eyes when I saw her. She wasn’t breathing.I forced myself to start CPR
Lee’s POVThis was horrifying.Scarlett’s behavior was unlike anything I’d ever seen. The Wrenfords had been right about how she was in this state. I could tell she was breaking Grayson’s heart with her words, but he still stood there and took it.He really loved her.I stepped forward. “Scarlett, babe please. It’s me. Will you just talk to us?”“I’m done talking, Lee? Aren’t you? All we do is talk! About our daddy issues and insecurities, I don’t want to talk anymore. Especially not to you. You ruined everything!”“What?”“I was happy before you. I had a plan and you eviscerated it within months! You tricked me into falling in love with you!”“Tricked? I didn’t make you fall in love with me, I told you not to!” I reminded her.“Right because your family is always telling you you’re nothing.
Lee’s POVI was pretty fucked up after Scarlett didn’t choose me. However, I was relieved that she didn’t really choose anyone. I thought for sure she would go with Grayson. He was the obvious choice.Older, more intelligent and sophisticated, they had a history.I was actually kind of proud that she chose herself and wanted to truly figure out who she was. I was hoping that meant she would come back to me.I hated how weak and lonely I was without her. My bed was lonely and after all that time without sex, I was craving it badly.Enter Rebecca Walsh.She was stunning, sexy, and liked to have fun. I knew I wouldn’t be serious about her, but I needed to at least feel satisfied.It worked, but only up to a point. I could get off and feel sexually fulfiled for a few moments and then the emptiness set in.Now that I had made love, just fucking felt so useless. It didn’t give me
“Lee?” I asked.“Um...hey there, Scar.” Lee smiled slightly. “You look...great.”“Thank you! You do too! I mean you always look great. You’re Lee Windsor, that’s kind of your thing. Looking hot. You’re just hot.”“Uh...thanks babe. I mean Scarlett.”“Babe,” I giggled. “Isn’t that such a strange word like doesn’t it mean baby, which is like an infant, but also another pet name who comes up with this shit?”“Can we talk? Alone?” Lee questioned.“Sure,” I turned to Rudy. “I’ll be right back babe.” I kissed him before following Lee.“So...that’s your new boyfriend?” Lee whispered.“Yeah, I guess. It’s not serious...but like it is pretty serious. He drives me to work a-and home. And he met everyone for the first time tonight, which made m
It had been two months since I broke my sobriety.I loved life.I had something of a routine. I would do a few lines when I woke up, Rudy would drive me to work, I’d snort for lunch, and when I got off there was Rudy to take me to whatever wild party was happening. We would get high, have sex and party all night until we passed out. Then we woke up and did it all over again.I of course made time for my friends so they didn’t suspect that anything was wrong with me. My limited communication with Grayson and Lee continued. Both had tried to explain the girls, but I didn’t want to hear it.I had moved on.On quieter nights, Rudy and I got high alone and watched stupid movies and fucked on my couch. Our relationship was both severely codependent and low maintenance.We simply wanted what we needed from each other.It sounded complicated but was wonderfully simple.“Hey wh