Remember people, Your children do not exist to achieve the dreams you couldn't.
ELOISEMy decision to still spend a few days with Orla turned out to be a blessing in disguise as I got to see Matthan every passing day. We went on dates and even on walks. It made it seem like a normal relationship. I did notice a difference. Unlike how it had been with John, I didn't feel fake. John had been great and I had loved him. He made life better. He was one of those people that actually made me enjoy life but the whole time we were together, there was just this voice at the back of my head, telling me it was all make-believe. Reminding me that no matter how hard I tried to be normal. I wasn't normal and I would never be. With Matthan, I really didn't have to hide some parts of myself. He knew it all. But that didn't also mean my relationship with Matthan was perfect. There were still cracks here and there. One thing that still bothered me was Matthan's dynamic when it came to relationships. It wasn't just the words Declan had whispered into my ears. I knew how he had been t
ALICE As the days progressed, it became increasingly clear that happiness would be a rarity if I stayed with Declan. If we even survived heat season. The worry took away my sleep and my mother's words started to get to me. I wasn't going to end up with absolutely nothing. I refused to succumb to such a fate. Staying with Declan was only going to give him a title and with the way things were progressing between us, I doubted that was even an advantage to me anymore. So I did as my mom has advised. Whatever it took to secure my happily ever after. Except, I added a twist of my own. I wasn't going to just do everything in my power to end up as some miserable Luna to some gay Alpha. I was going to do everything in my power to get the better man. I made an order while the preparations for the next pack meeting were going on. It was a hectic time for the servants around. If the Gardenia was doing pack meetings in the confines of the Gardenia mansion, it meant something important was going t
ALICE At the arrival of the sun, everyone in the mansion seemed to join in. The quietly calm atmosphere became a frenzy of panic and deadlines as servants scattered around to ensure things were at their best. Guests soon began to pour in from all four corners of the house. From my window, I could tell that it wasn't only Gardenia wolves that would be in attendance. Many of the guests had different crests. One that particularly caught my eye was the Crow crest necklace a dark woman wore. I couldn't miss that insignia even if I wanted to. The Crow pack was here. I was guessing that was the human mate that somehow tamed one of the brutal twins and ended their mad ideas to converge all werewolves into a single entity. It was unimaginable to believe that I could be jealous of someone that didn't even know I existed. My moping was immediately ended by the forceful knocks on my door."Mistress, it's morning and we have your dress, could you open up?" Their overly polite voice asked.I obli
ELOISE I was glad I chose to come. It wasn't easy to admit but it was refreshing to see what life could have been like if I had been born into a different werewolf family. All these people were here probably had a good life. Their clothing proved it. Sure, ugly secrets could be hiding behind those pretty dresses and smiling faces but their demands couldn't lie. Neither could the beating of their hearts."Are you alright?" Matthan asked me, clutching my hand softly and leading me to a relatively empty table."Yes. Overwhelmed maybe but I'll be alright." I assured him with a weak smile. He smiled back before we both took our seats next to a couple. The woman was dark skinned and extremely beautiful. She smelled to high heaven of grace and there was simply something about the way she sat. Royalty. Her man had this broody look and a scar on his throat that was covered by his shirt collar. I returned my gaze to the woman because she was just so beautiful to beyond and the ruckus around me
ALICE I swear I stumbled. If Declan wasn't strong enough, I would have fallen flat and taken him along with me. I quickly composed myself. I tried to. But it was hard. What was she doing here? No. This didn't make sense. My plan. How? How did they get back together? What sort of woman was she? Did she have no atom of self-respect in her being? Matthan had done something unforgivable to her and she still forgave him. Make it make sense. That wasn't the only thing that bothered me too. She was seated with the Alpha and Luna of the Crow pack probably having a swell time because they whispered something now and then. It didn't seat eight with me. But I couldn't let it get to me. I was the center of attention and regardless of her presence, I was going to use the bottle that rested secure in my purse. She was just a rebound. My replacement. Nothing else."Are you alright?" Declan asked, concerned. His face looked it at least. "You looked tense for a moment there." I was about to answer whe
ALICE My breath came in hitched when I jumped back into the auditorium. I tried not to look bothered. It was difficult. Considering there were a few blue plates I could sight. Matthan even had one in front of him. My eyes scattered across the room like an advanced computer. On one hand, I was telling myself that maybe the effects of the Aphrodisiac were slow, but I chose to ignore the swiftly changing atmosphere of the room. How the once before prim and proper guests were now doing stuff. Hands under skirts. Kisses lefts and right. Goddess, it was happening. When I made it to our table. My heart sank. Declan wasn't in his seat and his plate was empty. He wasn't kidding when he said he was hungry."Where is Declan?" I asked my mom."He followed you out. Did you not see him?"Of course, I did not see him. I had been hiding from the entire world under a staircase. The probability that he had passed and I didn't even see him was highly plausible. My hands were shaking as I began thinkin
ALICE I went back to the party with one goal in mind. The last grab at a future. At happiness and all I needed to get it done was one bottle of champagne and two flutes. When I returned to the auditorium, half of the crowd has disappeared. Probably doing goddess knew what but that was good. An even better turn of events was that my parents and Declan's were no longer in their seats. I waited for the Omega girl to arrive before putting my plan into motion. We walked together. My stride was a little faster as was planned so I got to the table first. As fate would have it, the Crow couple weren't on seats too. My eye caught another blue plate not to far from where they were seated prior."Matt," I began, ignoring how lost he looked staring at Eloise. The Aphrodisiac seemed to have already taken effect because Matt looked like he was on cloud nine and maybe considering gobbling Eloise up. "Can we talk?""Alice?" He replied. There was no emotion behind his voice. He didn't even look at me.
MATTHAN I felt weird. I was happy but not happy, I just couldn’t put my finger on it. It felt nice to be without doubt or fear. There had to be something in the drink Alice had given me. But that didn't matter now. Alice didn't matter to me anymore. I needed to find Eloise. Her scent stood out amidst the others my nostril caught. It had to be the tomato soup and her body heat. My feet automatically moved towards it, following the scent. I went up the stairs and eventually made it to a hall at the innermost part of the mansion. It was where all the guest rooms were located. Her scent only seemed to get stronger as I walked past a few doors. She was close. Finally, I stopped at one of the doors. The scent was coming from inside. That could only mean she was here, in this room. So I knocked quietly."Eloise, Are you in there?" I asked."Yes." There was no mistaking her voice for anyone else's. "The door is opened." She told me.I smiled. "Alright, well I'm going to come in."I s
ELOISE(A few days later)The full moon did come and when it did. Matthan decided it was time to perfect our bond. He took me somewhere. I wouldn't miss that narrow and crooked road. It was the same path we had taken when he lead me to the tree with a door. This time around, Matthan took another turn and we arrived at a clearing in the middle of the forest."We aren't using the tree door?" I asked getting down. "I thought the mating ritual was supposed to take place in the Gardenia pack house?"Matthan pocketed his car keys and joined me. "Yes. But I don't want us to have a sex orgy. This is special for me. Sacred. I want us to remember tonight sometime in the future."I smiled at him. "You are very romantic, Matthan Gardenia." I teased but my face fell when I saw how serious he looked. I quickly looked away, blushing.We stood facing each other, silent. Matthan looked down at me and then stepped closer until the two of us were touching. He gently placed his hand under my chin and rai
ELOISE"We are here today to honor..." I tried to listen to the priest as he droned on about his mother but I was distracted. My mind was elsewhere. The words of the priest barely registered as I focused on what lay ahead. It was hard for me to accept mom had died. In fact, it felt so unreal it scared me. I didn't want to let go. But it wasn't like I had any say in the matter. I couldn't bring back the dead. I played with my fingernails as the priest went on to list all the good deeds she did for the church and the people around her. It made it hard to even breathe. She was a good person. She didn't deserve what fate she got.Matthan squeezed my hand in comfort. A gesture I appreciated in ways he wouldn't even understand. He looked over at me and said in a gentle voice, "You ok?"I nodded but didn't feel much better. The only difference was I could stomach it better. Clay stepped out to give his speech. It was long. It was also difficult for him to go through it all without bursting i
ALICE Since I made the call, I hadn't known peace. It wasn't guilt. I very much knew what was going to happen to Eloise and her brother when I informed Judas Carnation about his daughter. The trouble that I faced was when I would hear some tragic news. Judas' main target was his daughter but there was a big fat chance that others would be caught in the crossfire. Some days later, the effort of my hard work came to fruition, the day strings of murders came ringing into the Gardenia house. Someone had murdered some individuals working in a diner at Ashlake. The supposed unfortunate news was followed by another mother. A woman with the surname Carter had been brutally murdered. This time she hadn't been killed with the typical weapon. The stories they spun made me remember who else had died like that. Fadia Carnation. Eloise's biological mother. Joy could not describe the feelings I experienced. My heart was wrung and I couldn't stop smiling throughout that day. An added bonus was Dec
ELOISEMatthan took my hand and led me out into the cool air and towards the woods behind the house where his car was. I looked back and watched as the fire swallowed the house, the last remnants of it fading into a cloud of red smoke. I couldn't help but smile seeing it burn to the ground. I truly hoped no one decided to make this double tragedy another social experiment. The horrors that had occurred in this ground deserved to remain just ash and cinders forevermore.I could hear faint sounds of a siren coming from town; someone must have called an ambulance, but I doubted they'd get here before it was too late. Matthan opened the car door and helped me in, then buckled me in. He sat down on the opposite side of the car, putting on his seatbelt. The moment he clicked in his keys and started up the engine, I looked at the house one last time. I had wanted to stay but Matthan had been against it. Even with many in high places acknowledging the existence of shifters, most still didn't
ELOISE Judas seemed to become smaller in my eyes. My bones cracked and twisted. I expected pain. True undiluted pain but there was nothing. Only rage. There was something else too. The shock in his eyes was almost liberating. As if on instinct, I grabbed him by the throat and threw him against the wall. He dropped like a broken toy. The air felt strangely stale around us. I felt different. The air I was taking in didn't feel like fire anymore. The choking had stopped and even though the fire that now engulfed the room singed my body, I was strangely unaffected. My attention wasn't focused on the burning wood that collapsed here and there or the exploding window frames. I had my eyes only on the cowering man."You will never hurt anyone again," I told him. "Tonight will be the last day you terrorize my life and all those innocent people."Judas must have seen an opportunity because the color of his eyes shifted into gold and claws grew from his hands and feet. His skin became grey, cov
ELOISEMy body hurt all over. He had broken something. The sting surging to my brain like a radio signal was a dead giveaway. I also could barely move. I wanted to run. I just couldn't do it. No matter what I did, I couldn't move a single muscle. It felt as if someone had stuck needles into all my muscles with a blunt object and twisted them around until they were stretched tightly and painful beyond description."Let's go back to your mother's room," Judas said, seizing me by the hair and dragging me up the stairs. I cried out in pain but it didn't make him stop. As we ascended the steps, I screamed at him, and tried kicking him but nothing worked. I couldn't fight him because every movement sent pain shooting across my body. "Do not be difficult Eloise. I do not want to hurt you now." He didn't stop until I was back in the room. I obeyed him. I stopped being difficult. Not because he had asked and it definitely wasn't because of the pain that assaulted my body with every movement tha
ELOISE I walked through the streets of Marblefay with nothing but questions in my head. I wondered if Judas would even be there considering I might now have the upper hand with the help of teleportation. I could also be wrong. Maybe Judas wasn't working alone. Maybe he had people on his side who were just as sick as him. A man like him couldn't have survived all by himself, right? When I left Matthan's house, the sun was out. When I reached the house I was born in, the house my father burned to the ground, the sun had become a pretty orange hue, and the birds sang. I could smell flowers blooming in the gardens of the home I grew up at, hear cars passing by on the highway, and feel the wind that brushed against me. This was not how it happened. The house I stood in front of looked exactly the same, though. That renovator kept to her word. The house looked nothing like it should be. It looked beautiful. I stayed outside, wondering if people had already moved in. A quick g****e search to
ELOISELike clockwork, the door unlocked and out of it appeared Matthan. It was a strange thing to admit but seeing him made things a bit easier."Your place or my place?" He asked."No one will be barging your place anytime soon," I replied. At least, that wasn't a lie.True." Matthan took my hand and led me towards the door. I looked back at my room one last time. There was a possibility this was the last time I was going to see it. I had been afraid of telling myself that since I had made the Carter home my home but now that it was happening, I wasn't so scared anymore. I looked forward, trying not to think about what could go wrong. We both walked through the door and I shut it. Now wasn't the time to think. I needed to act. I knew Matt would ask questions. Many I wouldn't want to answer and the last thing I wanted was to recruit him to die along with me so before those questions could leave his pretty mouth, I grabbed him by the shirt and kissed him hard on the lips.He was taken
ELOISEI don't think I was able to cry. The numbness overpowered all my other senses. It was like an out-of-body experience where you could see it all happening but there wasn't much you could do about it. I dreaded what was to come. I dreaded passing by the sign welcome to Ashlake and eventually getting home. By the time we arrived, I could already hear the wails of sirens and the chatters of passersby. No miracle was happening. I looked outside the car window and that was when the numb feeling exploded into something I knew like the back of my hand. Men dressed like paramedics carried a big black bag from the house as they loaded the body inside the ambulance."It's not real," I told myself, and how I wished that were true. What I would have done to let that be my truth."Miss, there is–" I didn't even let the butler finish before I opened the car door and stepped outside."Tell Orla that I am grateful for everything she has done for me." I managed to say while holding my tears. Tha