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One hundred and twenty three
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2021-04-17 05:25:20There's nothing in this world that is more insane than searching for your own sanity, long after you've lost it... Why wouldn't I loose it? Life has never for once gone easy on me. And why would it? When all I'd ever done was to hurt all those that were around me. Why the bloody hell would life go easy on me!
They say the name, Kerik, meant 'the strong one'. The strong one? Well, if strong meant loosing your own sanity after you accidentally loose it. Or letting your mind get away with murder on you every second of your life. Or when the demons in you, decides to drag you into the eternal darkness, into fire and ice. Maybe all of that means being strong. Maybe as the darkness gets too dark, the sun burns and dies with it because being strong meant never to see the sun shine any longer. I was now a prisoner. Prisoner of my own burden, of my pain and never ending suffering, with no one to come to my rescue. Slowly dying internally, with e
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Getting there, a young man covered in full pile of blood was laying helplessly on the ground. His eyes.. Oh his eyes were already so pale that I was starting to doubt whether there was any black left in them. It became so hard to even notice where the wound was from. I couldn't really tell much, but from the looks of it, it looked like he was butchered on purpose. He had been completely rough handled. Poor man. What feared me most was that his soul was already half gone from his body as his body was close to being empty at the moment. It was so scary, yet sad and devastating. I couldn't protect him. All of the happiness inside of me, crumbled away and dissolved into the air like dust. There was a silence to my soul; like I was fall leaves under frost. I felt the chill in my blood, coldness bringing the synapses of my brain to a stand still. Part of it was a pain, yet one I felt I could endure, one I could sleep through night after night without the need of false hope.
