One smile can start a friendship. One word can end a fight. One look can save a relationship. One individual can change your life. For good or bad of course! I wished I knew this sooner. Maybe I could have restrained myself, put my pride aside, and it would have done us good. On the contrary, I was not weak. Otherwise my name meaning 'the strong one' would have had no meaning. I had the right to do whatever I pleased. Everyone always does, didn't they?
But still...
It'd been four days now since we received the ominous invitation from the keepers. Four bloody days. They were onto us, like we were criminals that needed to be punish. The next day we set out to work, old man Ayer had warned us to be weary of our footsteps. Mine especially, since I had gotten us into that mess anyway. They had sent a message to everyone in Beladonia not to trust us, and threatened to severely punish anyone who dared associated with us. More companies arrived each time we left the house. The last time, they had sent another note. Of warning this time, to continue staying at the 'tiny nest' we called home at our own risk. This tiny nest was the only thing left from our grandmother. The only family we had. How could they try to take that from us?
"That's the only way and you know it!" I remember Tara cried out last night. She had begged, advised, and even warned me a million times that we I what was right. She was right of course, but I just couldn't.
"Tara?" We were close to old man Ayer's place now, when the haunting thought formed up like a dark cloud in my mind. "I'm sorry about everything. Really."
"Don't be Ker-"
"No. Let me finish." I turned to face her. Eye contacts were needed here." I let my pride get in the way,talking to that bastard the other day. Even though I still think it wasn't entirely my fault. But we can't risk our lives staying in the house,at least for now. And I can never go and apologize to them for something I didn't do."
"So..what are you proposing?" I could feel the suspense filling her eyes brightly.
Blurting out awkwardly like I was being forced to.
"How about we stay over at the Ayer's for a few days."
She got lost in a deep thought for a few seconds, pausing like a frozen piece of ice. Then finally speaking with a big smile on her face"You mean the Tybalts,don't you?"
I've known Tara my whole twenty years,three months, and eleven days I've lived on earth. The cute I-get-what-you're-trying-to-say-and-I-love-it smile,the sarcastic response,and that spark in her eyes that glowed from time to time. It was a yes!
"Great then. You just break the news and then,we pack a few things and move in."
"Would have loved that, but you thought of it. So you tell him."
"Not really,you can tell him."
"No thank you,you should do it."
"You're the first child,aren't you?"
"So?"
"So you do it. I really insist. Besides there's no way I'm going to talk to that old man on a subject like this. You've always been so good with words so I pronounce that you should do it big sister!"
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".. So I thought you could let us stay here for a couple of days."
After a brief silence that felt like a whole day,he finally let out a sigh before responding." Kerik dear,I would love to have you children around."
As you might have guessed,Tara made me do all the work.
" It would be my pleasure to comfort you in every way that I can,so yes you can stay here for as long as you want to." Putting on a weak smile as he stared uncomfortably to thin air.
"Sir Ayer? You're scared aren't you? ."
"What if they harmed us? I don't want to lose my only daughter though I really want to help so much." He tried sympathizing with us. He was right. We had to find another option.
Like she already read through my head,Tara replied with the exact words I would have said." We're so sorry Mr Ayer,we should have thought of your safety too. Its risky enough that we have to come here everyday for our daily bread,we're okay with just that Sir. "
"Oh thank you my children. I'm really glad you could understand."
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I loved the sound of heavy rain and thunder on a dark night. I've found it so peaceful...
We were back home to our 'tiny nest' after a long heartbroken day. The whole room had gotten a little change after the destruction had taken place. We got a not-so-new bed from the old couple next door. We sometimes helped them do petty jobs around the house. After hearing what happened to us they decided to help us in little ways that they could. We got rid of the broken table,got some plates from Mr Ayer and other petty things that got ruined. The chair was gone forever so we sat on the floor now.
After a small meal of some left overs we had,we laid on the bed depleted of every energy we had left,tardily waiting for the spirit of sleep to take us away.
Then suddenly a deafening bang boomed round the whole room. At this time of the night, who could that have been.
"They're here again" Tara slowly whispered with her eyes wide opened. Crying slowly as she dashed towards the door.
"Tara!" We couldn't just go running towards the call of death,we had to at least defend ourselves." Where's your dagger?" Quickly reaching for mine under the bed as my eyes flashed a heavy looking piece of wood lying helplessly under the bed. What was it even doing there anyway? Well looked like a pretty good weapon too. Picking up the heavy stick I scanned the room to find a trace of Tara. She had already gotten her dagger waiting so we open the door together.
Heading forward to the door we raised up our alarm,even though it felt like jumping down a cliff.
I signaled to her as she tried to opened up the door. Three.. Two..open!
"Tara! Kerik! They killed my father!" Cried terribly the voice at the door.
I couldn't believe my eyes. What the hell was she talking about. Killed who?
No...No!!!
Sir Ayer was dead. Dead! Nobody knew who killed him. No. Everyone pretended like they didn't know his killer. A logical thing to do,if you didn't want to become next. A coward. That was what everybody became. But I wasn't ready to turn into one. I might be sweet,nice and ready to abide to every rules and regulations, but the demon inside me was only sleeping. Not dead. 'Think about your life,is it worth foolishly loosing?' You might want to ask me that. Well is doesn't really feels like I was living. There's just the body,but no life in it.Charging grumpily to the gates of hell,well it wasn't scary at all. I felt no fear,on the contrary all that cluttered up in my lifeless body was this ravaging rage. This time the devil should be scared of me. A powerless,thoughtless, completely hopeless me.I thought there would be a somewhat change in mind as I got to the entrance,but no. Nothing."You there, open up!" If it's a visit t
What had I done? The monster that followed me around had finally found a way to kill me without leaving a tiny scratch on my body. How can he take away my last remain of happiness? What then will I do from henceforth? How would I live when a big part of my heart had stopped breathing? This was really the end. I lost.Fenrel had asked me to marry my sister off to him,and I had rudely turned down his offer. Again. I wasn't going to give up my sister to a beast like that. Besides I could never marry Tara to any man. That had to be her choice. Although I left the keepers territory in one piece,watching Fenrel with a big smile on his face. I knew it just wouldn't end there. More was to be expected. Reaching home I immediately warned Tara and Ragnila who was with us at the moment, suggested that we quickly packed a few things and moved out of the city for a few while. Luckily they didn't even argued. After a while we were do
"Kerik! Kerik!"I could hear a voice faintly crying out.That was strange. My name was being called."Kerik!" The voice became a little louder.It was just a dream. Nothing was real. Finally I could wake up."Kerik!" Ragnila screamed out shaking my shoulders.No. It was all real. Fenrel had just vaporized into thin air and Tara.. She was still gone."He's, he's,he's-" Staring blankly at Ragnila as I fumbled for the right words,wishing everything could just made sense. I felt a lump in my throat as I was already misty-eyed. No. I fought against the urge to cry. I had to do something. Anything else but to cry."Kerik. I saw what happened,I know it was intense but I know how to help. Let me help,please. I know who took Tara." She babbled on,but got my attention when she mention Tara."Who?""I don't know exactly but I think-""Hold on
"Careful with that..""Don't.."I woke up to the muffled sound hushed from - very close by. I hadn't met the owners of those voices but I already knew I hated them. Who goes around disturbing other in their sleep. I allowed my body turn overed preparing for another round of sleep. The tickling of damp grasses on the uneven ground,chattering of squirrel and the melodious birds singing..Where was I? I jumped up with my eyes fully opened scanning the environment I'd found myself in. I observed Ragnila still sleeping peacefully like an angel,next to a lizard. I advanced forward to wake her, chasing the lizard away. I hated those creepy slimy creatures. Remembering our visit with Angela,I figured I was finally in the land of the dead. Angela had killed us.
Tell me if a person falls apart alone in the dark,does it make any sound? And let's say it does,is it as loud and devastating as a decaying broken heart when it's finally found? Or is the sound a soft strangulation hidden that we all miss the time behind words like 'I'm fine'?Nila had mention earlier that Tara's necklace just fell on the floor and she didn't wanted to return it yet because she was afraid of how I'd react."I found it, and I knew I should have rightfully returned it but.. I'm sorry Kerik. You just weren't in a stabilized form to have received it yet"Maybe she was right after all. Tara meant the whole world to me and she still does. My only motivation for living. Imagine if your most precious possession; your mother,father,sibling,best friend or even your dog disappeared in your presence,and you. You felt t
"You are weak my friend!" Irises said as she threw her short knives at me. She just stretched her hands forward and boom! The knives came out. I didn't understand the magic of how that happened.She mentioned her name was Irises and her mission on finding the last of the dragon stone to return to her master. How powerful was this necklace anyway? I didn't know. Besides she didn't really offered me much time to think about that.I quickly bowed dodging the released knifes that floated up in thin air,ordered to chop off my head. For a woman named Irises,she was nothing like her name. Instead she had one task only. To get this necklace off my neck however means necessary. Even if that meant killing who or what ever gets in her way."Surrender at once! I wonder why our gel doesn't work on you." She paused for a moment,then continued her hunting."Why do you need this necklace?""I don't ne
"You are weak my friend!" Irises said as she threw her short knives at me. She just stretched her hands forward and boom! The knives came out. I didn't understand the magic of how that happened.She mentioned her name was Irises and her mission on finding the last of the dragon stone to return to her master. How powerful was this necklace anyway? I didn't know. Besides she didn't really offered me much time to think about that.I quickly bowed dodging the released knifes that floated up in thin air,ordered to chop off my head. For a woman named Irises,she was nothing like her name. Instead she had one task only. To get this necklace off my neck however means necessary. Even if that meant killing who or what ever gets in her way."Surrender at once! I wonder why our gel doesn't work on you." She paused for a moment,then continued her hunting."Why do you need this necklace?""I don't ne
"You are weak my friend!" Irises said as she threw her short knives at me. She just stretched her hands forward and boom! The knives came out. I didn't understand the magic of how that happened.She mentioned her name was Irises and her mission on finding the last of the dragon stone to return to her master. How powerful was this necklace anyway? I didn't know. Besides she didn't really offered me much time to think about that.I quickly bowed dodging the released knifes that floated up in thin air,ordered to chop off my head. For a woman named Irises,she was nothing like her name. Instead she had one task only. To get this necklace off my neck however means necessary. Even if that meant killing who or what ever gets in her way."Surrender at once! I wonder why our gel doesn't work on you." She paused for a moment,then continued her hunting."Why do you need this necklace?""I don't ne
"Kerik! Kerik!"I could hear a voice faintly crying out.That was strange. My name was being called."Kerik!" The voice became a little louder.It was just a dream. Nothing was"Here, follow me." The woman who was supposed to be my mother, lead us to a small room close to the kitchen. "We'll be safe in the pantry, my child." She smiled again, like she'd been doing since she appeared to us."Thank you ma'am." Bellamy quickly appreciated her rendered help, and looked at me for a reply too. "We thank you so much." He added after getting nothing but a blank expression on my face. "She's just been through a lot.""No worries. I'll leave you two to send off anything that might leave a trail on your hide out." Her lips curled into another smile, but was instantly replaced with a worried look. "I love you, so much." She whispered, then focused on Bellamy. "Please take care of her, and stay safe." Having said that, she t
Tell me if a person falls apart alone in the dark,does it make any sound? And let's say it does,is it as loud and devastating as a decaying broken heart when it's finally found? Or is the sound a soft strangulation hidden that we all miss the time behind words like 'I'm fine'?Nila had mention earlier that Tara's necklace just fell on the floor and she didn't wanted to return it yet because she was afraid of how I'd react."I found it, and I knew I should have rightfully returned it but.. I'm sorry Kerik. You just weren't in a stabilized form to have received it yet"Maybe she was right after all. Tara meant the whole world to me and she still does. My only motivation for living. Imagine if your most precious possession; your mother,father,sibling,best friend or even your dog disappeared in your presence,and you. You felt the most helpless to do
"WHAT!" My voice came out a little louder than I'd expected. "What the bloody hell do you want?""Where are we going next?" And with that statement, he provoked every nerve that filled me, and I could fill my eyes twitched in annoyance, like I could just face him and strangled every bit of essence left in his poor soul.Meat.You don't even have to ask. Judging from the name, nothing normal could have come out from it.You don't even have to ask. Judging from the name, nothing normal could have come out from it."But still-""But still-"
The tone in her voice alerted nothing but one sense. Danger. I had endangered the lives of others because of my foolish pride. I could have walked away politely, and save others. Tara. But leaving the devil to reign did not fully assure me that my family and friends would be saved."This is your last chance Kerik." She added, then paused. Waiting for me to fully accept to the proposal. My mind raced over a million things. What if I choose this option, and defeating the devil seems more impossible than I'd expect. Then I would never forgive myself. If only I could get more time, more days to puzzle over the prodigious decision. But even if I was opportune to that kind of indulgence, I feared my answer would still remain constant."Yes. That's what I choose. This is what feels best to me, so I've made up my mind." Her head lowered into a slow single nod. Then she came forward and handed me the amulet around her neck."Once you
"Kerik you're not expecting anyone, are you?" Tara finally asked, making use of her words and immediately walking straight to the door."I know I'm a lot of things, but I don't keep insane humans as friends."Following Tara to the door I thought about who must have been desperately trying to break down our door.Tara slowly reached for the door and opened it gently. Standing grumpily in front of us was a burly figured bald man. Glancing at him, I quickly observed an ornamented sewing of a black serpent on his chainmail amour. A knight you might say, but no ordinary one. He was a member of the keepers. The bald Knights. Even the women always were too. It was believed that they had to get all form of impurities so one can be pure and cleared from their sins. Like that made any of them less corrupt."Took you long enough!"he scolded, his cold eyes fixed on us.
Sir Ayer was dead. Dead! Nobody knew who killed him. No. Everyone pretended like they didn't know his killer. A logical thing to do,if you didn't want to become next. A coward. That was what everybody became. But I wasn't ready to turn into one. I might be sweet,nice and ready to abide to every rules and regulations, but the demon inside me was only sleeping. Not dead. 'Think about your life,is it worth foolishly loosing?' You might want to ask me that. Well is doesn't really feels like I was living. There's just the body,but no life in it.Charging grumpily to the gates of hell,well it wasn't scary at all. I felt no fear,on the contrary all that cluttered up in my lifeless body was this ravaging rage. This time the devil should be scared of me. A powerless,thoughtless, completely hopeless me.I thought there would be a somewhat change in mind as I got to the entrance,but no. Nothing."You there, open up!" If it's
"Kerik you're not expecting anyone, are you?" Tara finally asked, making use of her words and immediately walking straight to the door."I know I'm a lot of things, but I don't keep insane humans as friends."Following Tara to the door I thought about who must have been desperately trying to break down our door.Tara slowly reached for the door and opened it gently. Standing grumpily in front of us was a burly figured bald man. Glancing at him, I quickly observed an ornamented sewing of a black serpent on his chainmail amour. A knight you might say, but no ordinary one. He was a member of the keepers. The bald Knights. Even the women always were too. It was believed that they had to get all form of impurities so one can be pure and cleared from their sins. Like that made any of them less corrupt."Took you long enough!"he scolded, his cold
"Kerik! Kerik!"I could hear a voice faintly crying out.That was strange. My name was being called."Kerik!" The voice became a little louder.It was just a dream. Nothing was"Here, follow me." The woman who was supposed to be my mother, lead us to a small room close to the kitchen. "We'll be safe in the pantry, my child." She smiled again, like she'd been doing since she appeared to us."Thank you ma'am." Bellamy quickly appreciated her rendered help, and looked at me for a reply too. "We thank you so much." He added after getting nothing but a blank expression on my face. "She's just been through a lot.""No worries. I'll leave you two to send off anything that might leave a trail on your hide out." Her lips curled into another smile, but was instantly replaced with a worried look. "I love you, so much." She whispered, then focused on Bellamy. "Please take care of her, and stay safe." Having said that, she t
Getting there, a young man covered in full pile of blood was laying helplessly on the ground. His eyes.. Oh his eyes were already so pale that I was starting to doubt whether there was any black left in them. It became so hard to even notice where the wound was from. I couldn't really tell much, but from the looks of it, it looked like he was butchered on purpose. He had been completely rough handled. Poor man. What feared me most was that his soul was already half gone from his body as his body was close to being empty at the moment. It was so scary, yet sad and devastating. I couldn't protect him. All of the happiness inside of me, crumbled away and dissolved into the air like dust. There was a silence to my soul; like I was fall leaves under frost. I felt the chill in my blood, coldness bringing the synapses of my brain to a stand still. Part of it was a pain, yet one I felt I could endure, one I could sleep through night after night without the need of false hope.