Bad habits.
Everyone has one, two or several. I have several but one of them that I am particularly struggling with is 3AM snacking. I made a resolution -the ones people swear by as they begin a new year- that I haven't stuck to. The plan was to lose 30lbs by summer. I even bought a little polka dot bikini but I don't think I will fit into it if I am stuffing my face with chocolate chip ice cream at 3AM in the morning.
But first, I savor the delightfully delicious ice cream. I will regret it later, probably in a few hours when I am unable to climb the two flights of stairs at the tribune.
"Mm-mmm!" I moaned from the sweetness while quietly blessing the company that made this ice cream.
I opened my eyes for another scoop and caught my mother's reflection on the glossy surface of the fridge.
"For a second there I was excited to burst you with a man." She spoke in her usual unenthusiastic tone. "So disappointing. I am 61 years old and still, no grandchildren."
She is another one with a not so guilty pleasure; tea.
"I already told you ma, I am not in a hurry to have a baby. I don't even like children."
The look the old woman gave me could have sent me to my grave years too early. I lost my appetite and put away the ice cream in readiness for the speech.
"Careers don't bring happiness!"
And so it begins. My mother is one of those old-timers who strongly believe that happiness comes from a family. Let me break it down. In her opinion, I should find myself a man, marry the man, have a basketball team of children and spend the rest of my life being at the beck and call of my husband and children.
I have the utmost respect for my mother but we will forever disagree on her idea of happiness. Call me odd but I am pretty satisfied with a glass of wine at the end of the day all alone in a bathtub listening to Carrie Underwood. That is a good way to end a day and not slaving over a hot stove to feed stomachs that are not my own.
I don't come from a big family. I only have one sibling. My father passed away when I was in high school. He fell asleep on his leather recliner with a bottle of bear in his hand. My mom went to bed and left him because that was the night she wanted him to wake up with a bad back ache so that he can remember to go to bed but when her conscience battered her for not being a good Christian, she came to wake him up and that is when she realized he was gone. She sold that recliner immediately after the funeral. She has been sad and mostly sour since then.
I don't blame her. A criminal for a son and a career obsessed daughter later, she feels alone and neither one of us are bringing the grandchildren home.
I am used to these speeches. I actually fast forward to when they will end and then I just sit there pretending to listen. Sometimes I throw in a little arguing to spice it up and the dramatic walk out. That makes her day. She is usually fired up for round two but I yield when she starts something and it ends until it starts again when she remembers I am 26 years old with no prospects of a love story she would like to tell her friends.
The sound of a hooting car is the only reason she stopped talking. Like most people in this town, she is nosy as hell. With her face obviously plastered against the window, she asked, "Is that your bug?"
"Bug?" I joined her.
It is my little purple bug!
"And it comes with a man!" She was running to the door when I was chasing her down. "Oh heavens! There is a man outside our door! Maybe he wants to marry you!"
"Ma! Don't embarrass me!"
Too late!
At least this time she is not showing naked baby photos of me. It is always naked baby photos of me!
Lincoln Bancroft raised his green eyes to look at me as soon as I stepped in the porch. When he smiled, it is like the sun rose a little quicker. I fought the urge to smile back but when I lost, he was already talking to my mom and he did not see the stupid grin on my face.
Choosing to end the conversation before my mother invites him in for tea, I got closer. "Ma, you left the stove on!"
"Dear me!" She went back into the house.
My mother can leave the house only to return to check if the stove is off. For me, it's the iron box.
"Good morning." He rested his tall sinewy frame against the car. My throat is dry. What is the response to good morning again? "I asked them to rush. It's all good." He continued when I didn't speak. "Are you okay or are you not just a morning person?"
"Not a Bancroft fan." Ouch! I cringed on the inside. My mouth is something very independent from my brain most of the times.
"I won't waste a second more of your time." He cast his gaze down forcing me to notice the mismatched bunny slippers. The silly neighbor's dog ate one of my slippers thinking it's a bunny because of the pointy ears. "Cute."
I hate his smile. I hate him for looking this good even before seven in the morning!
"Keys."
"Do you want to take it for a test drive to make sure everything is working fine?"
"Did you do something to it?"
He narrowed his dark green eyes at me. "Are you usually this paranoid?"
"On my good days yes. On my bad days I'm a bat from hell crazy."
"Noted. It should be fine. If anything is wrong or amiss, call me but mostly text." He offered me a card. I looked at the auto shop dealership. He reached out and his fingers grazed over my skin. I almost jumped. "My number is at the back. Sorry."
With this proximity, I caught a whiff of sweat mixed with a sweeter scent but he backed away suddenly. "My lawyer will come by your work. You have to sign an NDA so that we put this thing to rest." He rubbed the back of his head. "Well... have a lovely day."
He pulled the dark hoodie over his head, tucked his hands in the pockets of his sweat pants and walked away. I watched until he disappeared into the line of trees forming the woods.
"Is he gone?" My mother asked me. "I had to pee. The stove wasn't on! Where is he? He is a polite young man."
"He is the snake's child."
She followed after me. "Excuse me but he is a good catch!"
"Yes ma, he looks that way! The devils are created to look that way! The handsome face, the charming personality, the bank vaults scents-"
"He is rich too!" That is all she has gotten, dollar signs in her head.
"Do you know who he is?" She has followed me to my bedroom and will not give me any privacy until she deems this conversation over.
"He said his name is Linc! Just Linc!"
"And you want to marry me off to a man with a single name?" I grimaced.
"Don't be silly! There is a first date, he comes over for dinner, I burst you two going at it and then you get married and little grand babies with green eyes fill thus house!"
"That sounds like something from a horror story ma. I have to get ready for work, out you go." I pushed her out of my bedroom and locked the door. "Don't bother! I have a spare key!"
I think she cursed me.
He said his name is Linc. Just Linc. Why am I still thinking about you?
*
I am losing my job soon and I am busy trying to figure out how I will be too valuable to be disposed off.
I need a big story!
I need something that will capture the attention of the whole town and set my career rolling. The drawing board is still blank. It is so blank it is making my head hurt from the absence of ideas. Where do I get a big story in a small town?
"Miss Nolan I presume."
I turned my head so that my eyes, met an older man's eyes hiding behind a thick pair of lens. He must be as blind as a bat.
"Mostly Clara but how can I help you?"
He looks important. Maybe it is the clean cut suit that looks expensive. I spotted my boss looking over with interest at the old man. Indeed, he must be important.
"Mr. Grieves!" My boss chirped with excitement while extending both hands to him. "I wasn't expecting you."
"I am here to talk to Miss Nolan." He stated flatly. "Where can we talk?"
"Up on the roof-"
"In the board room!" My boss offered with a big smile.
I have no respect for people who fire me from job for no valid reason and also people who suck up to others because of what they have. This man must be a big deal.
My boss accompanied us to the boardroom. I followed the two men with all the eyes in the office escorting me. It feels like they all know something I do not. "Is there anything I can do to make you comfortable Mr. Grieves?"
"Close the door and make sure you're on the other side of it." He stated in a bored tone. I restrained my laughter. "Miss Nolan, my name is Peter Grieves and I am one of the Bancroft family lawyers." I don't even have a lawyer and this family has so many that they identify themselves as 'one of the Bancroft lawyers'. "I am sure you were informed that you are expected to sign an NDA today. In case you don't know what that means, it is a-"
"Non Disclosure Agreement. Did Linc send you?"
"I did not know you are on first name basis."
"If we call all of them Mr. Bancroft, won't it be ambiguous?"
He smiled fleetingly. He passed me the document and provided a pen. I like to read what I am signing. I picked it up and read word for word. The old man waited patiently until I was done. "Sign on the dotted line."
"What if I don't sign this? What will you do?"
He leaned forward. He lowered his glasses and exposed his brown eyes with a grey ring around his iris. "Miss Nolan, I am just the lawyer. I am not responsible for what happens when you refuse to put your signature on the dotted line."
"Are you... are you thr-reatening me?" I merely squeaked.
"I said I am just the lawyer. I am not responsible for what happens when you refuse to put your signature on the dotted line."
Clever chap. He won't be caught if something happens to me outside this building. It could be a hit and run. A stabbing during a mugging. It could be failed brakes. Good Lord! I can die and they will make it look like an accident. Once the Bancrofts consider someone a problem, they get rid of them.
I signed as expected. The man thanked me and left.
When I got back to my desk, people were still looking at me. Kimberly, the office gossip monger promptly made her way to my desk. "What were you doing with the Bancroft lawyer?"
Judging from the spark in her eyes, she already has a theory and I bet she has shared this with as many people as she possibly can. I bet she sent out emails beginning this way: 'I just heard from a credible source...' She is the credible source. "Run your theory by me."
"It's just a hunch but I think it is a prenup."
My eyes bulged at her. "Prenup?" I asked a little loudly and from the frenzy that followed, it served as confirmation for the rumor Kimberly Shelton has started.
I can already see it on the gossip section.
'Local girl to get hitched to Sunrise Cove's own billionaire, Lincoln Bancroft!'
'Local girl, Clara Nolan to get hitched to Sunrise Cove's own billionaire, Lincoln Bancroft!' Story by Kimberly Lawrence. That is the headline of the rumor on the gossip column and it is selling newspapers like hot cakes. The picture she chose to use is not at all flattering. I made a face at the neighbor whose eyes are glued to me. Our neighbor never talks to us. She's one of those stuck up people who think they are better than everyone. I'm surprised she's even looking at me. I looked over my shoulder just to be sure. Yup! She's looking at me. She raised her hand and waved awkwardly. I almost waved back as a reflex action but when I saw the newspaper in her hand, I didn't. She wants a wedding invitation just like everyone else in town will want one and to get it, they will be super nice to me. Perhaps this is the day to get away with anything I want. Who will mess with a Bancr
Beck Hall's words are still ringing in my ears days after we spoke. I have till the end of the year to make myself valuable to the Tribune. It's a newspaper business. What do newspapers need? Big headlines!I accepted Linc's invitation to join in him on his trip with intent.The Bancrofts are a big deal to the town. Anything to do with them excited people. It's almost like the way the English love their Queen. If the Bancrofts were to stand in the balcony of their home and wave, the small town folk will gather to wave back. I just need something that is not the pointless rumour Kimberly Lawrence started.What kind of scandals are rich people likely to be involved in?Financial crimes, making people disappear, dirty pay offs, sex scandals... I glanced at the shirtless man at the deck. Linc is well put together. There are no red signs warning me to back away. He dived into the water and was under for a bit. I stood up to get closer to the window
4a.m Monday morning and I'm in a chopper carrying me across the stretch of woods that is close to home. It's my first time being this high up in the sky and I'm terrified out of my mind. The only thing keeping me from passing out from the anxiety is his hand holding mine with assurance that everything is going to be fine. I can see the lights in the city and they look like little sparkling gems. He wasn't kidding when he said we will make it. He had no intention of driving but flying. He left his car and said his chauffeur will pick it up later today. I glanced at the man wearing a grey beanie. He has closed his eyes. After our conversation that first night, I became fully aware of the need in his eyes everytime he looks at me. Even the most fleeting touch of his fingers isn't innocent anymore. He wants to get intimate, that much is clear to me. My knees are pressed tightly together. The thought o
I think that everyone reaches a moment in their lives when they ask themselves 'is this right?' This moral question is reserved for those with a conscience. The majority of the people that walk the streets of this town don't have this faculty called a conscience. They either bend to higher power without question or they assume things never happened. They are never self driven to truly look at a situation independent from influence. I fear that at this moment, I am part of the majority that don't have a conscience or possibly I'm lacking in ability to step away from this situation and see it clearly.I want this to mean what I want it to mean.I want a story so badly I can twist it into anything so that it is something to keep me at the Tribune.What I saw a few nights ago can have a decent explanation. But I don't want it to. I want it to mean something else. Something that can help me keep my job.
Clara's POV"Is this is what an eventful night looks like to Mr Lincoln Bancroft?" I asked him after we found a quiet place away from the hyped club. He drank beer from his bottle with a strange expression on his face."Why does this sound like an interview that will be in tomorrow's paper?" He chuckled."It's not. I'm just curious.""I'm curious too." His gaze darkened.I don't think we are talking about the same thing. A light blush covered my face. I looked away for a second or two. I want to ask what he's curious about but I may end up naked in his arms as he demonstrates a response."A small town can feel cramped. The city is always better." He looked at the far distance. "It's always eventful not to be in Sunrise Cove."The roof of this building offers a great view of the city. It reminds me of that morning on
Clara's POVI studied Beck Hall as he read my article. I know the famous expression where he thinks an article presented to him is something. I spent all night on this and I never pull an all nighter! I gave it my all according to the limited information I had. He looked between me and the sheets of paper in his hand. He let out a deep uncertain sigh. The momentary confidence I felt suddenly faded."It's something, right?"He took off his glasses and looked at me. "I see what you're trying to do." I sense a dismissal coming on. "You're trying to keep your job. But I can't decide that. The new owners-""The story can be something. Kimberly gets to keep her job and she peddles gossip for a living. Mr Beck, the Bancrofts have dirty secrets. Everyone knows that and if you just give me a chance or at least let the new owners know I have potential, I can expose them.""Clara, there are things
Linc's POVIt's unfortunate that I'm quoting him but my grandfather is find of saying that if a man gives a woman what she wants, he can have whatever he wants.I don't completely agree with this. Only to some extent. I gave Andrea everything she wanted and I ended up cheated on, in a jail cell and now I have the yoke of blackmail around my neck. I agree with him if it's in a carnal sense. Andrea did put out better when she got her way. I do not regret how much I took when she put out. It's a horrible way to look at how a relationship works but unfortunately, for those of us who can't love or a woman's heart, we can have their bodies after throwing a lot of money at them. If this works for my grandfather, then it only speaks about his intentions where a woman is concerned and it explains why he's unmarried after so many years.In my case, I already tried the good guy thing where I gave my heart and it didn't work out. I'm not do
Linc's POVMy thoughts are wrapped around Paris. They are fixated on the hour just before midnight when she came out of the bathroom in the little black nightgown. I can't get what followed out of my mind. I keep hearing her delicate whimpers of pleasure in my ear. The feel of her petal soft skin in my hands still feels real. I'm craving her already and not even a week has gone by. I was romantic. I was gentle. I want to be something else the next time we see each other. Something wild and ravenous. Rough and demanding.I turned my attention to the young woman I have been waiting for."Laurie. A word please.""Leave me alone Linc!""Hey!" I took her elbow in my hand. She has lost weight. She looks high. "I am not going to indulge you in a war of words. I'll get straight to the point. Are you using?"She scoffed. "Don't meddle in my affairs."
On a cold winter morning, in the ballroom of the Bancroft Manor, Lincoln and I exchanged our vows in the presence of our families. We kept it small but meaningful.That was the idea, small and meaningful.But still, the town threw a party on our behalf and the Bancrofts gladly supplied food and drink and most importantly, cake. It was a big celebration.We chose not to honeymoon because of how close I was to my delivery date. Having the mansion all to ourselves when his family left to visit Vermont was a honeymoon on it's own.It was completely relaxed and I was well rested as well as loved and pampered like the queen he has made me out to be.Come early February, the cries of our son filled the usually silent Bancroft Manor. It was just after 8am when Victor James Bancroft was born. I was a mess of emotions when the doctor placed him in my arms surrounded by an e
Linc's POVToday is the day I plan to propose to Clara.When I woke up early this morning, I couldn't leave her side. I watched her sleep for quote some time before I got out of bed. When I was looking at her, I couldn't help but think of what we mean to each other. This will be my third attempt to ask a woman to spend the rest of her life with me. The first time I was rejected and moments later I was beating a man to death because I found him in my house with a woman I expected to be faithful to me. The second time, it was Clara. It wasn't a formal proposal but she still turned me down when I showed her the ring. The plan was to go back to Virginia and of I found her waiting for me I would have proposed. I went back to an Emory house instead. This is the third time and I seriously hope that I have been reading her right. It's the same diamond ring she rejected before. I left it with her but I be recently got it back.The
Clara's POVI have been silently looking at some baby clothes.It has never really crossed my mind to start buying some but now that I'm a mere fifteen weeks or so away, i might as well see a few. Maybe I'll ven buy something, the very first outfit.I'm spoilt for choice and probably confused. I'm not sure what to get. At time like this, I wish mom could be here. She would know what to pick. I went online looking through baby clothes and hoping to find some sort of manual on how to buy clothes.Linc and I just came from the doctor. We had a check up today and as usual he was very excited and had a million questions. He's more curious than the woman having the baby. He ran into an sold friend and I left them catching up as I grab something to eat. I have wandered into the clothing section. The idea was to find a bigger bra but now I'm looking at onesies, bibs and little hats.
Linc's POVIt's been really quiet between Mrs Nolan and I. We haven't said much since she asked me to stay for tea. I wonder what she's thinking. Her expression is bitter. She's upset. I told Clara I'll take the hits for her. I'll be the villain and make all the difficult decisions she doesn't want to make. I won't allow her relationship with her mother to suffer. I'll be the bad guy if necessary."You're right." She broke the silence. "There was a time I wanted it work between you and Clara. I was excited about it especially because she was dating that weird guy in the city. That DJ who had nothing to offer her. When you came into the picture, I felt it and I knew it would work. I was right. It has worked. But not the way I thought it would. Lincoln, my issues with you stem from the moment you abducted Clara. When you texted back and forth with me pretending to be her... I hate that I couldn't tell the difference. I just thought she had gotten more atten
Clara's POVWaking up in Linc's arms is something I haven't done in a long time. I can't help but smile to myself. It's a cold rainy morning. The sound of the rain drops pelting against the bay window with dark wood frames is even more comforting than the warmth in this comfortable bed.The gloomy weather is the perfect backdrop for this cozy morning. I snuggled closer to him enjoying the warmth his naked body has to offer.Last night was incredible. Being reminded of his love is just want I needed. It was expected when he insisted we will share a room. We talked for a while before we got comfortable and comfortable turned into love making. I can definitely do it all over again."Lincoln." He grumbled. "Are you awake?""Now I am." He whispered. He pulled me back against his body. We are skin to skin. "What's on your mind pretty?""I was wondering if you'r
Linc's POV"I lost to her mother." I caught my grandfather's attention with those simple words. He lowered his newspaper. "Clara isn't here because I lost to her mother.""Oh boy. The mother." He folded the newspaper closed. "Why don't you have a seat Lincoln. You are setting a dangerous precedent.""What do you mean?""A woman belongs to her mother when she's single and especially not pregnant. Clara is neither of those things. Her mother has no business holding on to her and if you allow her to take the driver's seat now, I promise you, you will be inched out if the picture until you become a distant thought. It will start with her not informing you of doctor's appointments. She will claim it slipped her mind. She will progress to not including you in the health decisions about Clara and the baby. Then she will purposely forget to let you know when the baby is due. Befo
Clara's POVMy mother has always fussed about grandchildren. She also fussed about me getting married. But if these two ambitions were to be ranked, I would put the grandchild above the husband and son would she. Based on how she's behaving now, she has decided that Linc is irrelevant to the picture. It's going to be the two of us and the baby, no father.She believes herself capable of raising children without a man. I know she can be strongly independent and heavily opinionated about things when she's especially motivated. Her current motivation is Linc not being good for me. He has a list of offenses that boost his standing with my mother. Thanks to Mikey, mom knows how things between Linc and I transpired. I had no plans of telling her because deep down, I was avoiding the part of the script where she turns against my baby's father.But the script is going her way. I gave in to her arguement. I love Virginia and I love
Linc's POVI have given Clara's mother the chance to go in first and see her daughter.I can concede to her not liking me but she can't separate me from my child. As long as the baby is part of Clara, I want them with me. After the baby is born we will all agree to a way to share but for now It's best if Clara and the baby are with me.I never thought I'll be a father.I didn't want to be a father.From early on I told my father that I will not contribute to the Bancroft bloodline. I was hell bent on it never happening. Now that she is expecting it changes things. It has changed my outlook. I'm beginning to warm up to the idea of fatherhood.I have wandered into the unit of the hospital where they keep babies. I'm standing outside the glass looking at the newborns. I can't help but smile."Which one is yours?" A woman asked me.
Clara's POVG.G is acting strange. The confidence she was strutting around with slowly fading. In its place are constant glares, strange silence and a lot of pacing. Something tells me that Linc has no plans to confess anything.I'm feeling ambivalent about his decision to not comply with G.G. It's a good thing because I believe Linc has been through enough. Being born into a crazy family is hard enough. Losing your mother at a young age and being a witness to it isn't easier. Being threatened to silence by the very people who should be protecting you is just horrible. Then came the girlfriend he gave the world to and she cheated on him. And then the one who befriended him with intent and then left him hurt after he took another risk to love another. He's been through enough. But what about me and the baby? If he won't comply, aren't we in trouble? G.G is crazy! If she does something, we could die or I could lose the b