JORDAN“You think I haven’t tried?” I sounded like a damn broken record. “She isn’t listening.” At this point, I’m lost. And I am not even trying to hide it. “Then you leave her the hell alone. I don’t even know where your head is at this days.” Nathan drawled, a hint of suspicion leaked into his voice. “We have an appointment with Meyer and you shouldn’t even think of slipping out.” I headed out of the living room and almost crashed into Rodney. “You’re messed up.” His eyes darted left and right my face.“Just shut the hell up, Rode.” My voice was flat. Cold.They are making it hard for me to hide my feelings. All sorts of my emotions, they wasn’t hard for them to read. I wasn’t aware of how much I had let my guard down with them. Probably because I am exhausted to the brim, heavy weighted emotions shouldered for me alone and helplessly, I let my shoulder sag. I let some of my hurt down. It was getting too gruesome to bear.“You’re pained Jordan. If you’re going to keep on sulk
JORDANI put on everything- from the gloves, the protective gear, the shoes. If not that it has become a routine, I would have forgotten what I was doing. Or how the hell to put the damn shoes on. It was all so heavy, that I wished I could kick it off, but I knew I needed it to protect myself. Never going to the ring barefooted!I took one last look in the mirror, my face a mask of worry. I wonder how I haven’t lost some weight, I think too much for my good. ‘I am ready for this.’ I began to assure myself.I walked out of the locker room, through the back door, and into the arena. The crowd was going wild, screaming and cheering as they saw me enter. I tried to block it all out, and focus on the fight ahead. And carefully, even with the bouncers guilding me past them, I made sure none of them touched me.My opponent was already in the ring, his eyes locked on me. Then I remember I don’t even know his name.I was beginning to think he was some newbie until his name was announced.
NORA“How has the search been?” I grimaced because holy hell, that sounds like his desired nightmare. We’ve talked about this before. In fact, the past few days, with the aid my driver, we go anywhere we can find him and I do what I know best— taunt him. Jordan hasn’t been living under his roof, I know that because each time I visit Jasper to give him a piece of my mind, it’s either it’s motorbike wasn’t outside or his door is locked. Jasper almost caught me at it yesterday.“It’s been tough. And you’ve been what? Apparently not sealing your mouth shut?” He laughed, though I don’t. “You think he loves you that much?” His smug tone irritates the hell out of me.“Yes, for a fact, I know I does. It is the same thing with me also, except that..” I said matter-of-factly. “You guys wouldn’t let us live the best of our lives in peace.”He wasn't even my father and yet he irritates me this much. Speaking with him alone was one exhaustion on its own. Which I find rather unbearable. Since
JORDANTwo Weeks Later“Good morning to you, too.” Sawyer mumbled thickly. “If you mean bad, then I’ll take it.”I have to be mean. That is if I want to get out of here alive. I had to come back under the roof, against my wish. Plus, a couple other reasons why I decided I could come over today. My friends? I have been in sabotage at their place for almost a month now. Not that they are complaining, no they never will. I could spend years at their place and nothing would be muttered.It’s also high time I get my own apartment, a few from the money I am saving up for college can get me there. I can start going to Meyer’s occasionally, to make up for the few spent money. First thing first, getting my beloved mother’s frames from my room and packing up my belongings. “Sounds like you’ve decided to come back home. I was beginning to worry.” She snarled, flipping her hair backward, shooting it out of its bun. “Sounds like you haven’t been staying home recently. I was worried you fled
LUCANThe more I watch them together, the angrier I get.I almost exploded, until Cassidy reprimanded me. Shity, my girlfriend asking me to greet her crush. The hard part been me having to put up with it. After she’s invited him over to the Friday party and with all power, finally left him, fast forwarded to being in the car with her, I felt like crashing the car into a wood but then, if I want to die, I had leave her out. “Fix your attitude, babe.” She looked at him and I couldn’t even stare back.I shall only consider changing my attitude once your heart stops belonging to someone else. Does she even know how fucked up it sounds? We haven’t even gone farther than kissing. I’m not complaining, no I am not. Just that I don’t think I can completely trust her. One blink that Jordan would accept her, she won’t think twice before giving herself on a platter of nothingness. I still stand on my word. I’m going to try until I can no longer try. Also, I won’t give up until I have reac
NORA“The Empire State Building?”Liam’s deep voice washed over me and I blinked, realized that he’s still watching me. His brows are furrowed and his mouth is turned down.“No.” I refuse to cry. I refuse to bawl like a little girl.“Museum of art?” Next was my father who waved his hand, dismissing my earlier rejection, he offered.“No.” My voice is hesitant as I spoke.I knew I would be messed up by the end of the semester but I never expected it this soon. Instead of my usual first position each year, I badged the second. I was so blinded by annoyance that I seeked out who took my place. However when I discovered it was Lucan- someone whom we have drifted apart- I dropped the confrontation. I came home since I couldn’t knock on Lucan’s door and what? The result has been sent to my father. Now here I am, seated across them as they try to pacify me. Reality calling me to my room, to go sulk my eyes out. Knowing I let them down, I am going no where. Taking me out would only warmup
JORDAN‘’You came back alive.’’ Bile lurched up my throat as I spotted Nathan and Rodney crawling down the wall. I turned my back to them and with direct insertion of my key in the ignition, I got on the seat and immediately they climbed behind me, we took off.‘’We were almost caught.’’ Rodney chuckled to himself as if it’s an inside joke, and before I knew it, his arms came encircling my waist. He doesn’t back away as he should.I wanted to be the first to rebuke him but Nathan was faster.‘’Incase Rodney has started journeying towards bromance, I think I would rather walk home. I still haven’t asked my crush out.’’ Nathan told us, his voice firm.Yet again, I wonder whom he’s referring to. Nathan isn’t the secretive type and even though he’s never spoken to us about having a crush, his tongue slipped.‘’You seem to be hiding a lot.’’ Rodney reminded him, sounding pissed. Clueless to my distress, they began to argue. That point in time, I wish I could fly us home. ‘’She was fast
LUCANMy phone has been dead. My handiwork. Perhaps I don’t want to receive any of Cassidy’s calls. I’m not even fighting with her, I just want to keep a short distance for now. Maybe by tomorrow, I can then decide to make my contact active. I was on my way back from where I headed for a fast meal when I saw one of Liam’s cars. I didn’t run, I just kept my stance as I kept walking. I didn’t expect him to drive past without seeing me- since it’s broad daylight, nor do I wish he stopped. The latter occurred. I decided to stop, watched him get out of his car, his driver closing the door behind him. He walked towards me, his steppings confident like the young CEO he is. I stood, right on the spot, not sure what apology to lay down at his feet. He stopped in front of me, and I found myself face to face with him, mouth sealed with nothing to say. No excuse to give. ‘I did it because I had to.’ Something so easy yet difficult to say. I can smell his cologne, a mix of richness an
Third Person’s Pov{Seven Years Later}“Do you know who my mother is?” Sky blue-eyed golden curls, Caily leapt on her feet, screeching.“No, you! Do you know who my father is?!” Aged five deep brown-eyed Nico with a mass of tousled dark curls boomed across the field, running unscathed to shelter the door. “Do you know who my daughter is?” Spencer challenged the two kids, stepping out of his car to squint his eyes at them, taking their sights in. Their resemblance was what alarmed him first. Nora had informed him at the jail five years ago she gave birth to a baby boy and four years ago too, that she’s already pregnant with a baby girl just a month after giving birth. It was risky but he remembered giving her his blessings. These can’t be his daughters bearing. They look too handsome and pretty for a child— the girl taking after her mother and the eldest, the boy taking after the father. “Who’s your daughter here, sir?” Caily’s pouty face turned serious. “We happen to know our pa
NORA {College, Three Years Later} Stony Brook University. Just the asignsment alone drives me crazy. I don’t have a choice. I became pretty much popular after my father’s scandal three years ago and luckily, people didn’t treat me bad because of that. Instead, they placed burdens on my shoulders. No events comes without me been among its planners, and you don’t speak of the teachers’ favorite without including me. I never thought I was going to experience such privilege in my life, even though it was so exhausting. Somehow, I have managed through three of my years here, left with just one year and I will be free. The fact that mostly half of the school would miss me not enough to encourage me to fail my last exam, and lag behind just to continue staying with them. “How are you able to read and write in such a noisy atmosphere as this?” When my roommate, Alice, came in, that was the first thing she asked me. “The fear of failure kept me going. Then again…” I hit my pe
JORDANAfter the night spent with Nora two days ago, I told her we should schedule our next meeting for when I have spoken with my mother. I want to introduce them to each other. I want my mother to see the girl that captured my heart. My mother and her boyfriend are somewhere around New York, and ever since she told me of their address, I never had the chance to visit them. Until now. The taste of calling him my mother’s boyfriend remained bitter on my lips. They better get married, being her husband would make far more better meaning. “You didn’t tell me beforehand you’re coming.” Was the first thing my mother said when she saw me at her doorstep. It’s a rented apartment meanwhile she gave me an owned bigger one, bought in my name. Where would I have been by now? At my friends’. Embarrassing. “You want me to go back?” I carefully asked before stepping insude. She shook her head and let me in. She walked me around the house and the only impressive thing about it was the big
NORA‘He’s leaving the country.’ Early in the next morning after I barely managed to sleep, the text woke me up. I don’t step out of the house without taking my bath but it was so tempting to do it for the first time. What stopped me was the bad smell drifting from me that would discourage Jordan even if he eventually decide to take me back. I took my bath but it was snappy, the shortest I have ever spent inside the bathroom. I didn’t get to make choices from my closet. I opted for the first one my hand reached. I knew first impression was everything but this wasn’t the first time Jordan would see me and then, I still remember him telling me how beautiful I look even without trying. “Where to?” It caught me by surprise that Liam was at home then it dawned on me it's Saturday. I wanted to turn around and just go back to my room but it's more scary not trying.“Jordan’s.” I responded. I waited for him to stop me from moving or even go as far as locking the door. I won't put it p
NORAA Month LaterI haven’t even applied to any college. It’s been a month of me constantly locking myself in my room, each time I go out only happening because I need to take my meals. My life has been upside down. A month of heavy changes in our family— my father no longer being the prime minister, my mother still forming enmity with us and her children. And above all, Jordan still not wanting to see me. Or should I say I don’t even know his whereabouts? Theodore kept checking up on me, not understanding I don’t want him here, not anywhere close to me. I don’t want to see anybody. I have tried chasing him off but he won’t leave. I know it’s Liam’s handiwork, thinking Theodore can get me to leave the walls of my room. He's a good guy though. He's not considering my behavior though I am trying to change towards him. If I don't want to remain a loner.Over the month, I went to the jail to check on my father and unlike what I expected of him, he didn’t chase me away. I told him o
LUCAN“No, you’re staying here with us.”I’m instantly on edge, tensed beneath my parents probing gaze. My decision to corner them before leaving for work, failing woefully. “I have nothing doing here.” I again try to persuade. “No, you have school here. Your resumption is barely two weeks away.” My father interjected this time, again turning the dice on me. Cassidy’s burial was just yesterday, and I am already fed up staying at New York. Everything reminds me of her, her memories too disturbing for me to live with.I don’t even get myself. If I ever want to, I need to vacate to another country. The problem now been my unyielding parents. If I ever want anything from them, what I know so far was how I have to work my way for it, by persuading then like there's no tomorrow.“You are capable of transferring schools for me. I’m tired of NY, I just want to change location. Nothing else, I promise.” I’m being wise. Staying here, I won’t even be able to mind my studies, everywhere I g
Third Person’s Pov{Feelings At The Burial}Mere looking at the casket being lowered to the ground almost had Jordan tearing up. The fact that ought to be him and not Cassidy, has his brain on a pause, discarding every other thoughts. If only he was in the right sense to chase after Jasper that day. With his own very hands, they would have killed him away, accepting to live the rest of his lives in jail. Then he saw his mother. The person who has been long murdered by the two devilish husband and wife. He wanted to go to her, to check if he was seeing the reality but the dead body in his arms was much more worthy than running after the woman who abandoned him. If she wasn’t dead, she should have came for him but that was a now. She left him with her heartless ex husband to witness nemesis. And when he saw Nora at the Ford’s, the fear of rejection once again appeared before his face. He’s still dealing with a loss, having her come to tell him they can’t work would be another bruis
A Week LaterNORAThere’s going to be a burial, for Cassidy. The burial is going to take place at the Green-Wood Cemetery, Brooklyn.Together with Natalie, we are going to be visiting her family first to offer our condolences before we all head to the Cemetery. The school announced her death about five days ago through the school news portal, since the school has been on break. A few were saddened, most were gladdened receiving their freedom. I almost felt like punching holes in their faces whenever one or two of their disheartening comments popped up but I’d just injure myself by punching my phone. It would have been better face-to-face. How can people be so cruel? A little sympathy even if they don’t mean it most definitely won’t hurt a fly.The Ford’s family are rich, even if it looks average. The security guard must be having a tough time opening and shutting the door, for the numerous visitors. “They’re inside.” He directed us and I gave him a nod. A little more and I’d for
NORAYou want to know that one time I feel like jumping over a cliff? The moment I ran to the scene, and got there only when the deed was done. Fate didn’t even give me the chance to be in her stead. You think I wouldn’t in a blink? I would. What use was life to me before? Nothing. The guy I want, I can never get. I got him, I must not stay. Now what? If anybody doesn’t, I’m going to make sure Jasper regrets the ruin he caused. I’m angry, I feel annoyed, I want to drag my nails over my face. Cassidy fucking died! She was murdered. I saw her being rushed into the ambulance in cold blood and my body lost all blood. How can a father be so insane to go as far as killing his own son? If not to get out of prison, then I wonder what his motive was. And my father? I don’t know how else to say he’s in trouble.To be frank, Jordan didn’t even want to speak with me. I remembered running towards him, where he was on the floor wailing, and it was unexpected when he totally ignored me befo