Strange feeling

Mirabelle

Everything seemed to blur away and faded as my eyes remained fixated on the one person that had always made my heart flutter, the one person my heart had always desired.

All my life everyone had always ostracized me, like an outcast I'd always been pushed out by the people who I called family, the one guy who had ever been nice to me. Smiled at me and made me feel like I existed, the guy with whom I thought I'd find an everlasting love bound by the goddess herself, rejected me for my nemesis.

'Why me goddess, why me?'

Tears blurred my vision, I could hear Penny whisper beside me.

"Oh Mira I'm so sorry..."

Alicia gave me a smug glance, she wound her arms around Antonio's neck unabashedly kissing him in front of everyone.

My heart clenched further as I saw Antonio grab her by the waist, holding her so tight while kissing her deeply, intensely. It was a mingle of tongues and perhaps due to the mate bond, they both didn't care where they were.

The sight seemed to form an ice sword impaling deep into my heart, I felt my heart bleed and my stomach twist on the inside. 

'Why goddess? Why would you do this to me? My family hates me, I've never known my biological parents, and the only person I've ever liked you give to someone else.'

The heartbreak mixed up with anger, my legs moved as I picked up my dress, I didn't care about the gazes I was receiving from everyone. I heard Penny call after me but I had no plans of stopping.

The cold breeze hit my skin when I reached the entrance, I descended the stairs at the porch running along the paths towards the huge garden in the alpha's mansion.

The beautiful garden was illuminated with the moonlight, with tears in my eyes I looked up at the full moon, it glowed red as if being dyed by blood. 

I tugged at my hair pulling out all the pins and ribbons and my hair came tumbling down falling in waves down my shoulders, I began to wipe my face, scrubbing my lips with the back of my hand getting a smudge of the pink lipstick, I scrubbed off the faint traces of makeup on my face, tugged off my earrings with a pained cry I threw them far away. I kicked off my shoes sinking my toes into the damp grass before I weakly slumped down letting out the sobs.

"Why are you crying fawn?"

My sobs suddenly seized as I heard that deep voice, for some reason it seemed to have rumbled with a faint growl and a tinge of annoyance.

I suddenly felt myself picked up the floor, firm arms on my shoulder turning me around to stare into those deep grey eyes. 

The moon high up in the sky reflecting in his eyes, I felt it again, that flutter in my chest as my heart began to pound.

Antonio just rejected me, so what was this tingling feeling in my chest when I was in front of Roman?

I frowned, searching those deep grey eyes for answers, but he just looked down at me assessing me as if searching for injuries.

"I'm asking a question fawn, why are you crying for that jerk?" He asked gruffly, I was sure that he was annoyed but I was not focused on his annoyance, instead my mind was filled with questions.

Why was he after me? Couldn't he see that I was a nobody? Why did he claim he wanted to possess me? And why did his presence soothe me so much? So much so I could barely feel the pain anymore.

Was I destined to be his? Was i destined to eventually fall into the arms of Roman Blackwood?

No, it's impossible!

Even though I was not a biological child of the Blackwood family, I was still their daughter, and that makes Roman my cousin, the moon goddess wouldn't watch me pair with my cousin.

Turns out hoping for the love of my mate was wanting too much, now I had to watch my hopes shatter as he rejected me and claimed another as his.

More tears trickled down my cheeks.

"Stop crying else I'll do something that will certainly shut you up Mirabelle." 

I sniffed, frightened by Roman's threat at the same time surprised he'd actually called me by my name.

"What did you just call me?" 

"By your name little fawn." He said lowly, I closed my eyes as I felt his coarse thumb swipe across my cheeks, that strange sensation fluttered in my chest again. "Enough crying, tell me why you're so disappointed over a guy you barely know."

"You wouldn't understand." I said pulling myself out of his hold, but before I can step back he grabbed me again,

"And who said I wouldn't understand? Try me."

"How will you be able to understand anything I'm going through? Everyone loves you, they adore you. You'll never be able to know what it feels like to be me, someone ignored and disliked by everyone, even by my own parents." I pulled out of his hold again adding, "And for once in my eighteen years of life I like someone, but he chose someone else." I turned around to face him again, "Now tell me, do you still think you can understand me?"

I saw him frown, his grey eyes seemed to darken as he narrowed his eyes, "You like him?" He queried darkly.

For some reason, I got frightened by the look in his eyes, beneath his carefree demeanor I could fully glimpse that dark and dangerous aura swirling like a vortex in his eyes and I took two steps back. "Yes." I subconsciously replied to his earlier question.

All of a sudden it all dissipated, the rage I saw in his eyes a second ago, he seemed to dislike the fact that I had actually put distance between us in fear. He grabbed my hand pulling me towards him.

"Why do you look so frightened all of a sudden, I won't bite you." He remarked playfully, but I could glimpse the rage hidden behind the desire to keep me close to him, he didn't want me feeling afraid of him.

I tried to make my breathing faint, he was so close, so close I could strongly take in that earthy scent. For some reason it soothed me, like a healing balm suddenly being applied onto my bleeding heart, to my horror I felt the urge to lean into him, to wrap my arms around his waist and lay my head on his chest, to take in a deep breath of that pleasant scent that soothes my pain. To my utter shock, I envisioned myself doing just that when my eyes swung open in shock and I subconsciously pulled away.

His jaw ticks and he let out a low threatening growl, "I swear if you move away from me one more time little fawn." He looked angered as he dragged me back to him again.

"I...I was just..." 

"Just what?" He asked searching into my eyes, "Do you feel something?"

That question made me look up into his eyes in utter shock.

"Tell me Mirabelle, do you feel something?"

I felt tongue tied, couldn't utter a word. 

Why was he asking me that?

I did feel something, it was this strange feeling pulling me to him, irresistibly crawling into my heart, like a tempting bind bringing me to feel him, smell him, want him...

Appalled by that realization I quickly snapped out of it.

"No." I suddenly replied, denying that faint thing I felt in my heart.

He seemed to stiffen, I caught that haze of annoyance that clouded his eyes again but he seemed to put it under control. 

I didn't know why, but I suddenly regretted uttering the word 'No' when the rage disappeared, what I could see in those grey eyes were disappointment. 

I didn't know why the sudden disappointed look in those eyes sent a pang of guilt and slight pain into my heart, I suddenly felt the urge to say something to clear that disappointed look away from his eyes.

"Go back inside, you shouldn't be outside alone." He suddenly uttered.

"I..." Just when I took a step towards him, this time he stepped back, I suddenly felt an emptiness engulf me, a painful emptiness that felt unbearable, his strides were long, and before I could do anything he disappeared from my sight moving with a speed that I couldn't catch up to. As an alpha wolf, everything of his was above other wolves.

I searched around for any signs of him but he was gone, I suddenly felt an unease, my heart squeezing as if it had been suffocated, it was a strange feeling I'd never had before, without thinking I began to follow the path he disappeared in something inside me determined to find him, determined to be close to him again.

"Mira! Thank goodness I found you!" Penny's voice called to me suddenly snapping me out of it.

I stopped in my tracks, frowning deeply as I realized I'd actually lost my senses for a moment instinctively trying to follow him.

'What the hell was that feeling just now?'