CHAPTER 73As they got out of the building, Myla grabbed his hand like old times, twirling one of his new rings. He jerked his hand away with saucer-wide eyes and furrowed his brows before clearing his throat.“I didn’t accept because I want to date you, I accepted because you’ve been asking for over two months now and I’m tired of turning you down”, Noah said coldly, avoiding her eyes. Myla didn’t even feel anything, she was accustomed to his words. And she was immune.“Well, keep being tired, I’ll wear you down soon enough”, she shrugged and grinned, this time not holding his hand as they walked forward.Noah felt the phantom feel of her small hands in his, he seemed to remember it like muscle memory. His hallucinations in the afternoon were coming back very slowly, he remembered what it felt like to embrace her in his hallucinations. He also remembered something about a picnic but he couldn’t remember clearly.They entered Noah’s new car.“Don’t you feel bad, trying to take another
Chapter 74"Wh-what? What the fuck did you just say?", Myla said, her ears ringing as the high of what they just did came crashing down. She could understand if he said he didn’t love her, after all he didn’t have his memories, but calling it a mistake?!"I lost control, wear your clothes”, Noah said, buttoning up his shirt with a stony face. “I would have apologized but you seemed to enjoy it so no harm, no foul", he said coldly."What the fuck Noah!", Myla yelled, her eyes stinging, what was he insinuating?"I don't love you, I've never loved you, I will never love you, this…this was a moment of weakness for me, it will never happen again. Now do you want your lunch or no", he ended casually, he was fully clothed now.Myla shook her head repeatedly. No, this wasn’t her Noah, Noah would never say something so awful. Her heart was on fire and she resisted the urge to clutch her scantily clad chest to try soothing it."You're not the Noah I know! When did you become so cruel?", she sai
Chapter 75Noah didn't mean for it to go this far. He didn't mean to sleep with her. At least not so suddenly in his car. But he had been overwhelmed with lust when he heard her. He had finally done it. He expected that he would be free from his desires, he expected that he would get it out of his system, but all that came out of it was him wanting more.His wolf reacted viscerally, as if wanting to seal her to him permanently already.This could not stand.He knew he wouldn't live long. He could feel his life draining by every hour, he couldn't have her caring about him only for him to suddenly leave forever. For this same reason, he had limited his hanging out around the twins, he couldn't have them feel the joy that he was finally back only for him to die.He could feel her wolf sated, he could feel her joy at having her mate back. He could feel her happiness as she lay in his arms. Noah couldn't do this to her, or to anyone.As expected, she rebelled. It was better for her to hat
Chapter 76Myla bit her lip, she was slightly nervous. She was here on pure instinct alone. She hadn't asked her mother for any advice before coming, she didn't even know what he'd be feeling at the point she knocked."What the fuck?", Noah asked, his brows furrowed and his mouth twitching in a half snarl."At least let me finish my coffee, you really are a horrible host", Myla said a little seriously. The first time he brought her to his home more than two years ago, he just left her to her own devices. He really needed to change his hosting tactics."You…you….you…""Yes, me me me, what do you want from me?", Myla asked with a lilt to her voice. After careful consideration and brain churning, she came to the conclusion that Noah was hiding something. Their…affair was far too intimate for someone that didn't care.He looked scandalized, like he couldn't fathom where she got the audacity to talk to him like this in his own home. Frankly even she didn't know where."You're courting deat
Chapter 77Myla abruptly ended their kiss and Noah tightened his arms around her, pulling her flush against him. "My questions", she struggled, trying to push against his chest. "You can ask them later", Noah said, bringing his mouth forward and falling on the bed with Myla letting out a yelp under him.He buried his face in the crook of her neck and sniffed, laying small kisses. Myla giggled, trying to escape his grasp. He opened his mouth and started sucking on the skin all over her shoulder when she grabbed fistfuls of his hair to lift up his head."No! I have pale skin!", She exclaimed. Suddenly Noah remembered. The entire rush of his emotions startled him. He remembered everything, from the moon goddess asking him to watch her to seeing her for the first time. He remembered it all. He remembered their conversations that always somehow turned whimsical no matter the beginning of the topic. He remembered the laughter. He remembered the happiness he felt everytime they held hands
Chapter 78Noah settled into the bean bag in the living room. He had no idea how he'd convince her to hate him, especially not when he had his memories back."I have rogue blood running through my veins", he deadpanned. Better to rip off the band-aid at once.Myla gasped, not properly settled into her chair before she launched herself up."What? Your parents were rogues?", She asked in fear. Noah squinted slightly. It seemed she was disgusted by rogues. It would be easier to get her to hate him than he realized. His heart twinged in sadness."Not were, they still are. Let's just say my father is making new rogues with poison. And I was bombarded with the poison, so I'm a rogue, and will probably go insane soon", he said casually, like seeing every expression that flitted across her face wasn't making his heart shatter.Myla looked to her lap as she sat. She stayed silent for what seemed like minutes."Is there a way to get the poison out?", She asked shakily."Death", he said in a low
Chapter 79Myla paced around the room. What could she do? She needed to help him. She needed to find a way to help Noah before it was too late.She had half a mind to summon her mother, but the moon goddess would be busy giving new mates at this hour, it would be annoying to be pulled from work.She sat on his bed, and wrapped his blanket around her. He smelled like he should again. Their scents were mixed completely, so much that she couldn't figure out where his began and hers ended. It smelled right. She closed her eyes, going through her mind, trying to figure out how to extract poison from the bloodstream. That was why he hadn't hung out around the twins for so long. She wiped a tear with her sleeve, thinking about how Noah hadn't even enjoyed having a mate for long at all.The tiny wolf with adorable lavender eyes came to sit in front of her face. She smiled and smoothed his fur. His eyes looked a lot like the shade of Noah's wolf's eyes. She loved the colors of Noah's eyes, re
Chapter 80Myla's eyes filled with understanding, she reached out to Noah, her heart aching for him. He looked guilty, and she could see the self hatred swimming in his eyes.Noah's usually unyielding facade was crumbling, he didn't hesitate. With a mixture of vulnerability and longing, he pulled her closer, nestling his face in her hair. He pulled her close, and she could feel the tremors coursing through him as his arms enveloped her. It was Myla who had initiated this hug, and she did it with the profound awareness of how deeply Noah had been affected.She could feel his ragged breath against her shoulder, and she ran her fingers gently through his hair, soothing him with her touch. It had been a night of chaos and fear, and Myla knew that Noah had been shaken to his core. Noah had lost control and bitten her. He had sealed their fates without being able to soothe the terrifying pain Myla felt as his teeth sank into her skin.It had been a moment of sheer terror, and Myla's heart h