"Thought you changed your mind," Rage said playfully when I arrived at our meeting place on the day of our departure.
"If only I had thought of another way to kill you, I could have changed my mind."
He hissed but still smiling. "Honest as always."
"I don't lie to make anyone feel better."
"Yeah. Sounds like very you."
"Now are we not going yet? I don't like chatting with you for long."
He shook his head with a ghost of smile on his lips and mounted his horse. "You really don't care if you hurt someone else's feelings with your words, do you?"
"Do I have to care?"
His lips parted in disbelief. I then reigned my horse towards the right way. Rage followed at once and coped up with my pace.
"You are so heartless."
"I don't need to be kind to live." In fact, my principle is the other way around. To kill is to live. That is the only thing I need to do. Why should feel those unnecessary sentiments when all of those are useless.
"Life must have been tough to you," he said. There was no hint of playfulness in his voice this time.
I don't know why I felt something different. But instead of talking back, I reigned my horse to a faster pace. I don't want to talk about my life with anyone. Especially with my victim. Unnecessary things should not be done to avoid conflicts later on.
* * *
"Beyond that rock formation is where the base of my grandfather's pack is situated," Rage said.
"Why do you have different packs when you are relatives?"
"They are my relatives on the maternal side. My parents had their own packs before, but when they got married, Mother chose to live in Raven Pack since Father is the Alpha and can't leav the his own pack."
So that is why. I was kind of confused before, but now I understand. Though, I still have a question in my mind. If he is the Alpha, then that means his father is already gone. And where is his mother?
"Are you ready?"
I looked at Rage and raised a brow. "I always am."
He smirked, and for some reason, I saw pride in his eyes.
"Let's go, then."
"Lead the way, mongrel."
He hissed. "Will you stop calling me that? You should start calling me by my name, or better if we have endearment for each other. That is what a real couple does, Elena."
I cussed under my breath. Damn him. Just damn him.
"What kind of endearment do you want, then? Should I call you love? Sweetheart?" I fired sarcastically. "I would rather be killed by your relatives than call you that."
"Is it that hard? You would just say the word, and you are telling me that you would rather die than do that? How inconsiderate of you."
"So I am the inconsiderate here? Who lured me to a contract without telling me what it truly entails? And you are saying that I am the inconsiderate between us?"
He did not say anything and draw a deep breath.
"Fine. That is my mistake, I apologize for that. But since we are already in this contract, can we do a little effort to make this work? Because if you would not help, then all our efforts will just be put into waste. And that would certainly affect whether you get what you want or not."
He really never forgets to remind me of the main purpose why I'm doing this. Such a smart asshole. He knows where to hit his opponent right.
"I am not making an effort, huh? I am already doing the best that I could, you moron!"
He shook his head. "You don't call your mate that way, Elena."
"Why? Are couples always necessarily sweet? I suppose not."
"What do you know about relationships, anyway? You have no experience."
"And you have?" I retorted, ears were flaring.
There was a pause, and then he cleared his throat. "I don't, but I know how to observe my surroundings and the people around me, unlike you who does not care about things that don't concern you."
"So what are you trying to say? That I should follow your idea because you know how things between couples work? And you are suggesting that we should have those ridiculous endearments? Just kill me instead."
"You are so hard, Elena."
"From the start, you knew I'm not the easy type of woman. You were completely aware of what kind of person I am, yet you chose me for this awful job—"
"I chose you because I know that you need something from me. It would make things easier."
"Easier?" I echoed the word with sarcasm. "You know what would have been easier? You should have just fought with me that night I broke into your chamber. If I was defeated and you had killed me, then you could have just hired a random girl willing to execute the pretend-for-one-week job perfectly."
His face is now grim.
"You really believe that I would kill you? That I could..." His voice was low, silent, but lethal.
"Given how strong you are as a werewolf, even I'm a skilled fighter, there is no doubt you could do that."
His jaw moved and without a word, he reigned his horse towards a path towards the huge rock formation. What is wrong with him?
I just didn't dwell much on that and reigned my horse too. I followed the same path and coped up with Rage.
A group of older people welcomed our arrival. Every each of them looked at Rage first, and then to me. All of them looked at me with the same expression. They stared at me in awe as if they could not believe that Rage brought a woman. Though I wonder if it is not against their customs to have a human mate? But I suppose Rage would not have chosen me if that was the case, right?
"Rage!" a man his age went to him the moment he unmounted his horse. I was about to get down from mine when Rage was suddenly at my side.
My eyes narrowed. What is he doing? I can definitely get down by myself.
When I didn't move, Rage stared at me as if he was trying to convey something through his look.
Ah. I then understood what he was trying to say. I remember the "intimacy" thing. I sighed and stopped myself from doing something that could worsen this situation. Everyone is watching us so I should not be impulsive when it comes to these trivial things.
So I ended up reaching his hand even deep inside me, I was cursing him so bad. The ghost of smile on his lips told me that he knew.
I couldn't help glare at him when he held my waist. The fuck is he doing?!
"Quit glaring," he whispered on my ear when I successfully landed on the ground.
How can I stop glaring at him when he is making me furious? I agreed to the intimacy he wants but I don't want to be intimate with him if it is unnecessary!
"Thank you," I said for everyone to hear. Then I leaned closer to him for a whisper. "But next time, you don't need to support me from getting down the horse because I'm not paralyzed."
He didn't say anything and instead faced the people expecting him. I gritted my teeth in silence when his hand stayed at the back of my waist. I know we already talked about this but I still don't like it. It's pissing me off.
"Grandfather," Rage acknowledge with respect. My eyes drifted to the old man who still looked like he could wrestle with a wild lion.
"Rage, my grandson. I am glad that you are here. But I hope this beautiful lady with you is your Luna?"
"Oh!" the younger man smirked at Rage and punched his shoulder playfully. Judging how they treat each other, they must be close. Maybe they are cousins or just friends.
"Indeed, Grandpa. She is Elena, my beautiful mate," Rage said proudly that I almost hissed if only I was not reminded that we have a bunch of audience. I looked at him and slightly raised a brow. Looks like he is into acting. He is quiet good in this pretend thing.
"Hello, Elena. Welcome to Phantom Pack. I'm Richard Black," Rage's grandfather welcomed me warmly.
"Thank you, Alpha," I said, trying so hard not to sound too cold. But I also don't want to look strangely friendly. That is entirely out of my character.
"No, no. Don't address me that way, dear. You are my grandson's mate. You should call me grandpa."
Why would I? I'm not part of your family and I don't have any plans to—
Rage's slow tap on my waist stopped my thoughts. He looked at me with a sweet smile but his eyes were giving me a warning.
I heaved and swallowed the lump in my throat that was supposed to be curses. Patience, Elena. Remember the goal. Remember that you have to kill the only man who dared to control you, the man who dared to touch you. With all that he has done, he should be punished severely before his death. I promise to give him what he deserves.
The images of him dead on my hands gave me satisfaction. That motivated me to do well on this job so I can execute my plan later on.
"It is my pleasure to call you that, Grandpa," I said, a bit more feminine than my usual voice.
"Very good, love," Rage whispered with a husky chuckle. I could feel my blood boiling. If only we were not in front of these people, I could have given him an uppercut even if I know that I would also be hurt because of the contract.
"Hi, Elena. I'm Tyler, Rage's cousin," from the younger man. He even had the audacity to ask for my hand for a handshake. Should I really get throught these trivial things?
I was about to swallow my pride again and reach for Tyler's hand, but before I could do it, Rage already slapped his cousin's hand away.
"Woah! Chill, bro. I'm just trying to know your mate." Tyler laughed.
"There is no need for a handshake for introductions."
Tyler hissed. "You are too possessive, Rage. Don't worry, even I'm a bit more attractive than you, I will not steal your mate. I will find my own."
He is more attractive than Rage? That is quiet debatable since I think Rage is more attractive than—wait, what the hell I am saying? Why am even I praising that damn mongrel?
"Your chamber is already clean, Rage. I will ask someone to put your things there. For now, let us go to the banquet I prepared for your arrival."
Dinner with a pack of werewolves. Great!
"Behave, my love," Rage whispered as he led me the way, still holding my waist.
"Stop calling me that or else I would end up losing my cool," I warned him but he only chuckled. I really hate him.
"You should practice calling me like that too, you know."
"I thought we already decided about that matter?" I asked, impatient and irritated.
We already talked about the endearment thing last night and we both agreed to just call each other by our names. But here he is, teasing me again and again. So far, I think the biggest mistake I had ever made was to accept this mission. If only I refused it, I won't be in this complicated situation. I hate him to the bits.
I sighed my irritation away when Rage pulled a chair for me like a goddamn gentleman. I was used to doing my things all by myself ever since I was a child, so being look after by a person irritates me.
I sat and tried to lighten my expression when I realized that most of them were looking at me. Well, it is obviously because of two things: first, because I'm a new face, second, because Rage was the one who brought me here. Or it could also be because I'm not their kind.
"You are such a beautiful lady, Elena," an older woman said. "I'm Cordelia by the way, Rage's aunt and Tyler's mother. You may call me aunt if it is fine with you."
Ugh. Too many names. Why does Rage need to have a so many relatives? I hate memorizing the names of people.
"It is all right with me, Aunt," I said in a lower voice to hide the coldness of it.
"Can you be a little warm, at least?" Rage whispered. He is smiling sweetly so that the others would think that we are just having the usual small talks between couples.
"I am already trying the best that I can. Don't push me too much," I said in a smooth voice but my eyes were like cold silver cutting through him.
"I can see that you are not one of us, Elena. In what town are you from, then?"
"Asran, under the kingdom of Hales."
"What do you do?"
"I'm an ass—"
"Her family owns a tavern, Grandpa. That was where I met her."
Darn it. I almost slipped. This is really my problem with lies. I hate lying because I usually have a hard time remembering the lies that I had said or I would say. But this werewolf, Rage, sounds like an expert when it comes to lying. He does not even mind if he is lying with his family and friends. In short, he is an asshole.
"Have you already introduced her to your pack?" Richard Black asked.
"Not yet, but I will once we got back. I'm still buying time for Elena. I want her to be ready first before I introduce her to the pack," Rage answered.
"Yes, I agree. She is not our kind, so it would surely take time for her to adjust." Cordelia smiled at me. Meanwhile, I remained still, the corners of my lips did not even rose for the least bit. I don't know how to fake a smile when I haven't been smiling for a while now.
"But I have to say, as a normal human, it takes quiet a courage to come here in the base of a huge pack of werewolves." Cordelia chuckled.
For all she knows, I'm not a normal human like she was saying. I wonder what would be their reaction if they would know that I am an assassin from the famous House of Spades and hundreds of lives were killed by my hands. The idea made me smile unconsciously.
"I was honestly nervous, but Rage kept on convincing me that it would be all right. I can see that now," I said. I realized it is quiet fun to play around with these extraordinary humans.
"I understand. My husband also felt like that the first time I brought him here to introduce to the pack."
My forehead creased slightly. Is she saying that her husband is a normal human?
As if she heard the question in my mind, she then answered. "Yes, my late husband was a normal human like you."
Late husband.
"I'm sorry about that," I said, but I think I sounded cold and indifferent rather than apologetic.
"No, it's okay. It was already about a decade when he died. It is nothing to me now."
I nodded and started eating although I'm not hungry. I just need to do something else so that they would not notice my indifference.
"Didn't know you actually know how to apologize, huh," Rage whispered, teasing me.
"You should rest for the night now. Elena must be tired," Richard Black finally said. I'm very bored of all the storytelling."Right. Let's now go, love?"I looked at Rage. This mongrel never really listens. It makes me want to punch him straight to his face right there and then."Dang, I'm jealous. I really need to find my mate soon," Tyler teased.As soon as I stood, Rage's hand was at my waist at once. I breathed, trying get a hold of myself. I should get used to this for the time being."Have a good night, Elena, Rage.""We will, Grandpa," Rage answered and he then led me out of there."Do you really need to hold me all the time?" I asked irritatedly once we were already inside the chamber. "And why do we need to sleep in one chamber? You should have said that we will be needing two!""Keep your voice low, Elena. Someone might hear you."I hissed and gritted my teeth."Look, as what I have told you
"Why do I have to come with you? You should have done this by yourself!"Rage's grandfather asked him to buy some stuffs in the town for the preparation, and he dragged me with him. I couldn't say no because Richard Black was in front of us."And your grandfather has a lot of subordinates. Why did he have to make his grandson do the job?""It was just an excuse."My forhead creased. "Excuse? What do you mean exactly?""He is thinking that you might want to take a look of the town. He wants us to give alone time together, if your pretty head still don't get it.""Why do we need to have alone time together? We have been together yesterday and last night. Your face is already giving me an eyesore."He winced as if he was hurting. "Your words stung, love."My expression turned grim."Do you really want to die?""If you would be the one to kill me, then it would be my pleasure." He winked. He is not really
"Want to come with us? I promised Tyler to join them on playing football," Rage said after he had given the stuffs we bought to his grandfather. "Why would I? I'm not interested on watching that kind of sport. I would rather stay on the chamber or walk around the forest." "But Aunt Cordelia is expecting you to come. She told me to ask you to go because she wants to get know you more. But..." he hesitated but still continued. "If you don't really want to go, I can just tell her that you are tired..." I sighed. "Fine. I'll come." His face lightened and the ghost of smile on his lips didn't go unnoticed. Later that noon, we went to the wide clearing beyond the forest for the football. Cordelia went too along with several younger women to watch the game. It looks like doing this is somewhat a hobby to them, something usual. I also noticed that all those younger men are friends of Rage. They all consider themselves as "brothers" which I find ridicu
"What is this?" My forehead creased at the big box beside me when I woke up the following morning. Rage was already up, buttoning his upper clothing."Box?"I glared at him."Good morning by the way. You look pretty with messed hair." He winked. This brute. Every time he is like that, I'm always reminded of those so many ways of how to torture a man."That is yours. It was sent ealier. It was said that it was from Grandpa. He said that is a gift."Gift? Why would I be given a gift?I grabbed the big box with a purple ribbon and opened it. My lips parted when I saw an olive green dress with intricate golden vines and crystal flowers on its bodice."Why did he give me a dress?'"I told you, it is a gift. And it was also said that you should wear that dress on Grandpa's birthday. It's his request."Damn. Why does everyone wants to give me a dress? This thing is obviously luxurious. Sure I can buy myself a dress like this bu
"Ready for tonight?"I don't have to turn to see who spoke behind me. I just bathed and when I went out, I saw the people very busy with all the decorations. It's our sixth day here and the day of celebration."Never been not.""That's my girl." He chuckled and went beside me. He was about to hold my waist like he always did for the past days but I shoved his hand away this time."What?""We don't need to be intimate. No one is watching. They are busy so quit with your damn acts. And may I remind you, I'm not your girl so don't call me that.""Really? But everyone else here knows you as my girl."For all he knows, his dear cousin knows our little secret. We didn't have an agreement to keep each other's secrets, but I guess both of us decided to keep our mouth shut. Why would I tell anyone what I saw, anyway? It's not my story to tell. I'm out of it so why would I concern myself? All I just have to do is to do my mission, and to
I couldn't move. I couldn't say anything."Yes. You heard it right, Elena. I'm doing all of this because I want to be with you."No. How is that possible? He has a fucking mate!But will it matter if it's not the case? If he don't have one, will everything change? Isn't it suppose to not matter to me at all?All of these trivial things shouldn't matter. My feelings shouldn't matter. His words shouldn't matter. He shouldn't matter to me. But why my set plans are suddenly a blur? I can no longer see clearly the path going to that direction. He is leading me to somewhere else that I myself don't know. And that shouldn't be the case."You are insane." Then I turned my back on him and walked away.However, just after a few steps, I froze in my position when the next moment, I saw people in black suddenly went out of the shadows and attacked the dancing crowd who were caught off guard. And it's not just a dozen, there are more, a lot more.
The next moment, I just found myself being dragged by Rage towards the forest. I had no time to protest nor I had plans to. I was too stunned of everything that happened that my mind can’t still process it. We stopped by the river and that was when I managed to composed myself. A lot of events happened tonight and with all that I realized about myself especially in connection to my feelings with Rage, I don’t know what I should do anymore. I felt like a wild flower lost in the middle of the forest. I can’t seem to justify all my actions, nor stop my emotions from flowing. I know I shouldn’t feel this way considering that what we have is just fake and Rage will soon go back to his true mate, but what can I do with this stupid feelings of mine? I can’t control it nor eradicate it easily like killing a victim for a mission. It doesn’t goes that way when it comes to love. This is a whole different thing “Why did you brought me here? You could have just told them the trut
I don't know anymore. The next day, I just woke up beside a werewolf — not just an ordinary werewolf but the alpha of the Raven Pack. I know I shouldn't be there in the first place. I know I shouldn't have done that thing but what can I do now? It already happened and I don't think I can undone things now.I was throwing all the curses I could think of in my mind when I remembered everything that happened. What the fuck have you really done, Elena?! You messed up everything and now I don't think you can have a way out of this mess. This is already so messy.I moved but the next moment, I felt a hand on my wrist. I sighed and closed my eyes, I inhaled and exhaled impatiently."Where are you going?" Rage asked in his velvety voice."I'm leaving," I said in a monotone and tried to calmly fix the ribbons of my dress. But no matter how much I try to calm myself, I still can't take all the nervousness away. I was never been nervous around anybody since I
Rage's POV"Oh, Elena is here." Jonas pointed to the girl wearing a pale pink dress. She was staring at the piano with her curious innocent eyes.His candle-like fingers traced the space in front of the piano. The amazement was etched on her pale face. Looking down, his long lashes were sharpened. Those have little curls at the end, making her eyes look so soft.Her hair is longer compared to previous visits. Although I heard she's only nine, the way she looks and moves told me she's older than that. Her demeanor was refined even as a child. And she has that paper white skin that I always notice every time it turns to pinkish white, when it's sunny or when from tiredness every time she helps her Mama."She's so pretty, isn't she? I'll make her my girlfriend once she's thirteen or fourteen," Carson said to me immediately."Why don't you prioritize your project? You're not here to fancy a little girl, Carson.""Ow. You sound like you're too ol
"Congrats! Another successful performance!" Luke hugged me at the same time, while Rita was still in tears by our side."You're really good, Miss Elena!”Many more greetings happened backstage. Rose and Brenda, who had a banner before, didn't give up. It wasn't the first concert I had, but it felt like the happiest. Not because there were more spectators, but because they were waiting for me below the stage.When I entered the dressing room, I did not hesitate to find him. He was leaning on the small table, staring at the gifts I received from the fans.I slowed down and stared at him intently. He's now staring darkly at the boxes of chocolates. His brows furrowed, seemed so annoyed at the innocent chocolates."You like
After the show, we returned to the city and Rage took me home. He said he would pick me up at six o'clock tomorrow. Although he assured me that his family will surely like me, that didn't ease my nervousness.I know I have achieved so much. But I still can’t get over the thought that many women are more deserving of him. He's holding two of the companies under their empire, if he chooses a woman in line with his track, he has a partner in management. To think it was easier for him then. It's an advantage he didn't take."Elena, answer me, will you? I've asked a question here before but you don't answer me!" Luke sighed as he followed my movements.I was busy finding an appropriate dress while he was prying around. Of course now that we're on our own he hasn't missed it yet. I'm sure he was very eager to ask me earlier. Only now was given the chance so I wasn’t let go."Are you really? Something happened to you? How was he in your suite earlier
In drowsiness, my eyes warmed as I leaned against his chest. He caresses my hair as silence prevails over us. All happened too fast, I can't help but close my eyes and remember all of it bit by bit. If I wasn't drowning to him before, now I can say I'm drowned, and I might not be able to get up again."I won't go to work tomorrow," he said.I looked up at him, eyes wide. He lifted my head a bit, he adjusted the overlap of my head on his arm. He then snaked his arm on my waist, resting his hand on my hip."It's okay. It's also my last mall show here in Laguna. I'll be back in Manila right after. Just go home tomorrow."His eyes darkened, the reluctance was surely screaming in his head."I don't have important meetings tomorrow. Why can't I skip even just a day? Besides, I can make time for you always. I want to be with you. One more thing, I hope I have a plan for us tomorrow night. Will that be okay? "I looked up at him even more. He crouch
I was busy for the next few weeks. Rage visits me regularly. We can't go out much because my schedule is hectic. On top of that, I also avoid the people so I can’t go to crowded places. I didn't hear any complaints from him, though. I also lost my fear of Lyka because they were already locked up and Rage made sure that they could not get out again.I was shocked when Lyka's mother asked for an appointment with me. He talked to Rita and since it seemed like he had no bad intentions, I agreed. It was true, she didn't mean any harm. In fact, he met with me to apologize for what Lyka had done. She said, it was her fault she didn't guide her enough to be a good person. I said it wasn't his fault. It was Lyka's choice to take the wrong path.We always have a choice to be good or bad. That is not the fault of the people around us. It is our own will to choose what we want. And sometimes, we tend to do things we know could hurt other people."Ma'am, there are flow
When we got out of the car I adjusted the bag on my shoulder before facing Rage. "Don't go up. I can go alone from here," I told him and pointed to the elevator.I noticed that the security of the whole building was tightened even more, and even here in the car park the guard increased."I'll walk you to your door," he insisted.I bit my lower lip subtly and just nodded to avoid an argument. If I contradict him, the conversation will be long. And I am still embarrassed of how I confessed earlier at his penthouse. I can't believe I had the guts to say that to him. And when I remember his reaction it was like someone was drumming in my chest. I've never seen him that surprised... and genuinely happy."Is Luke already inside?" he asked as we confessed to my unit.I nodded. “Maybe already asleep...""Okay. Get inside," he demanded softly.I nodded. "Are you going back to the penthouse?""No. I'll sleep at home first because D
Elena’s POVWe used the chopper to go back to the city. At the helipad of the MG building the chopper landed, and I didn’t expect who were waiting for me there. Luke, Rita and Rose were there. As well as Georgia and Zoren. But what surprised me was to see who was on the side of the five of them."Livius..." I whispered under my breath."Put this on," Rage said and handed me his black coat.I nodded and put it above my sleeveless dress. She helped me fix my wind-blown hair before we approached the waiters."Elena!" Luke's voice can surely break walls. He couldn't wait any longer. He met me halfway and hugged me tightly."I'm glad we met again! It's finally all over! I missed you so much, K! You worried me so much too!""You made us all worry, Elena. I just found out everything that happened yesterday. Why didn't you tell us? Mommy and I could have helped you," Georgia said.I let go of Luke's hug and faced them. My e
Rage’s POVI can feel my hands slightly trembling. Fuck. Why does she have to hurt me over and over again? She's the only one who can hurt me like this. Only her. But why does she keep on hurting me?Confused and pained, I followed her steps. I gently touched her arm once calling her name. She faced me with anger in her eyes. She violently removed the arm from my grasp."What? Didn't you hear me? I said, go out! Get out!""Why are you doing this to me?" I asked weakly.She told me she'll visit me on my office. But he did not come. Worst, she was nowhere to be found. I'm very worried. I even ditched my meeting with a foreign supplier and canceled the rest of my appointments because I was busy searching for her for the last six fucking hours!Then can I reach him like that? Kissing the bastard that was beaten up? She didn’t know how dark my vision was when I saw them in that position! For the first time in my life, I felt like I ca
I gasped a few times as I stared at the sea. I don’t know what came to mind and I went here in El Fuego. But I don't have anywhere else to go. Well, not literally. I mean I couldn't think of another place to go. Maybe because my mind is clouded with the things that’s going on so I can’t think clearly.I'm angry, that's the truth. I am angry at what is happening in my life. Yesterday, everything was okay, I was happy. But suddenly all of these shits happened. Seriously? Don’t want to stay happy with me? I'm not doing anything wrong, ah? Why doesn't destiny want me to be happy? Am I a cruel person? I know I'm not that good. But I also know that I'm not that involved. So why is this? Why do I have to shed tears over and over again?"Crying won't make you look pretty."I looked at the person speaking next to me who I didn’t even realize was approaching me. Recognizing who it was my jaw dropped in shock. It's been years since I last saw