The day I have been dreading has finally arrived the day I decide the fate of all my employees, I don’t know what to do, I can’t fire them because they are the best in the business, and I can’t let them off with a warning because that will make me look weak and I don’t want that. I face my biggest challenge and I’m not prepared for it.
I'm nervous because I just don’t know what I'm going to say to them and that’s not the difficult part of this thing; the difficult part is getting in there and delivering the most terrifying yet influential speech, how do you do that without scaring people away? I'm so conflicted and I'm never been this confused.
I'm in the middle of breakfast; Charles and Damien have left for work. While enjoying my fruit salad with yoghurt, the room goes icy cold and the hairs on my body stand. I at once know what’s happening.
‘Xander James Forsythe, you are a disappointment he says in disgust. I know he is right behind me, but I won’t turn to look at him.
“I’m doing my best father,” I reply, the chair suddenly turns, and I come face to face with my worst nightmare, the man that raised me, the ghost in my life, my father, Desmond Forsythe.
His pale blue eyes meet mine and I close my eyes and open them again to adjust to the image in front of me. His massively built body and pale skin frighten the living daylights out of me. Six foot six is tall and I'm only six foot two, I'm quite insignificant compared to my dad. His jet-black hair only adds to his frightening persona.
‘You're getting weak boy,’ he says shaking his head.
“I'm sorry father,” I say bowing my head.
‘All you have to do is do as you're told, and you fail to do it. Fire them and get new workers,” he says, I look at him ready to protest but something stops me.
“How do you know?” I ask instead.
‘Xander, I know. And please get that filthy whore out of your head,’ he says sternly it sounded more like a warning.
“Stop dad,” I beg, hoping he doesn’t go any further.
‘You like the whore, don’t you? Have you forgotten everything I've taught you? This woman will destroy you, she already has, and you’ve been too busy focusing on her body that you’ve forgotten your duties as the heir to my empire.’ he yells.
“I know dad and I'm sorry, she won’t be a distraction anymore, I promise,” I say quickly.
“Good, you better be careful son, I'm watching you. One more mistake and I’ll be dragging you to your grave,’ he says coldly and before I could answer he was gone.
Fucking hell, I'm screwed…
I quickly gather my thoughts and finish my breakfast; I grab my things and make my way out of the house. I got into my car and drove off. The drive is agonizingly long for some odd reason without Charles with me. When I drive in the guard at the gate calls bodyguards to escort me into the building, upon arrival at my office door I spot Charles and he smiles at me, and I already know he’s going to light up my day.
“Thank you, boys, for escorting my weak-willed brother,” Charles says, they all laugh quietly, and I growl, rolling my eyes.
“Charles,” I warn.
“Yes Xander,” he replies sassily, I turn to look at him and he at once gives me that don’t you dare look.
“Any meetings?” I asked with a smile.
“Boys you're excused,” Charles waves them off and they leave, “Uhm, you do, you have a meeting with Nathan from TechOne, Justin from Universal Music and a surprise call later in the day.”
“Surprise call?” I say I don’t like surprises, so I feel anxious at once. We walked into my office, and I put my stuff on the table and turned to face him.
“Yes, and I won’t tell you who, but you’ll be surprised,” Charles says with a smirk.
Gosh, the suspense…
“I really hate you,” I mumble to myself
“Likewise, James,” he winks and leaves my office.
I take my suit jacket off and hang it over my chair; I take my iPad and disks out, along with my laptop and begin the day’s work.
At about 11:14 my phone rings, at once find it a South African number but I don’t know who it is, fearing the worst I call Charles to answer it.
“Xander seriously, you're so annoying,” he groans and puts the phone against his ear.
“Hello this is Mr Martinez, this is Mr Forsythe’s phone who am I speaking to?” he says, his eyes light up and he puts the phone on the loudspeaker.
“Oh, Miss Mthethwa, how may I help you?” he asks politely.
“I just wanted to speak to Mr Forsythe,” my eyes widened at the sound of her voice; it was the most beautiful thing I had ever heard. Angelic, soft, and sweet, it gave me goosebumps.
“He’s not in at the moment; I’ll ask him to call you back,” Charles replies with a smirk.
“Thank you, Mr Martinez,” she says, and I know she’s smiling on the other end; I can see it and hear it.
“No problem,” he smiles.
“Have a lovely day,” and she cuts the phone, I continue to stare at the phone as my mind drifts into a world unknown where it’s only me and her on the beach whispering sweet things into each other’s ears and we are…
“Andy!” Charles yells and I shake my head and look at him.
“Where are you daydreaming about her?” he asks with a smirk.
“Uh no I was not; I was just thinking about how I'm not going to call her back,” I lie, and I walk to my chair.
“Xander, you're falling in love,” he says crossing his arms.
“No, no, I'm not. Father would kill me if he was,” I say annoyed with myself and Charles.
“Xander stops being a bummer, there is nothing wrong with being in love,” Charles says sitting on the desk.
There is everything wrong with it
I could not fall in love; I didn’t want to; my father would drag me to my grave. I can’t let him down. I sit down on my chair and sigh; this is not good, not good at all.
Pull yourself together Xander…
“I'm not in love with the girl; it would be wasted time on a worthless woman,” I reply and then the guilt sets in.
“Xander, you do not speak about women like that. The only reason you and I are here is because of our mothers,” Charles says angrily.
“I am grateful for that I am, but my mother was a whore,” I shoot back.
“That doesn’t matter, you and your father need to get over what your mother did,” he says loudly.
“She hurt my father and me,”
“Stop being such a baby and let it go, you're a grown man and you can think for yourself, what if your mom had her reasons or what if your dad lied” Charles yells.
“My father would never lie,” I say defending the honour of my father.
“Of course, he wouldn’t,” he replies sarcastically, “And FYI I can see right through you. I know you, Xander, remember that.”
He gets up and leaves my office banging the door behind him.
Goddamn, why does he have to be right all the time?
I hate it when he’s right, it makes me feel stupid. I lay my head on my arms and sigh, what the hell am I going to do? What if my dad had lied to me why would he? What would have given him the reason to lie like that, I don’t understand it, and it just doesn’t make sense. Charles was trying to reel me up and said some things he shouldn’t have.
The first half of my day ends quickly and it’s time for lunch. I know everyone is waiting for me because I told Charles to announce to have everyone in the cafeteria.
I make my way down the cafeteria and as I step in the atmosphere changes, everyone is scared, and fear is lingering in the room, and it gives me a confidence boost.
“Good morning,” I greet them, and they all mumble back.
“So, it has come to my attention that people are unhappy in my company. If you’d like to resign, please do so but just bear in mind that you will have a criminal record I own most of the businesses in this entire country and it's quite difficult to get a job with a criminal record. Would anyone like to resign?”
Dead silence and fear are still lingering in the air; just cowering in fear.
“Okay good, now if it ever happens again, you will all end up in jail or on the street, understood?”
“Yes sir,” Charles yells from the back of the room.
“Proceed,” I say, and I walk to the fridge and open it, taking out my chicken salad and bottle of water. I call Charles who is busy having a conversation with Damien and his fellow bodyguard friends, Charles, and the men, he could turn all men gay if he wanted to, he just feels bad that the female population won’t be able to create more men and women, you could always get a surrogate.
I should get one.
Charles walks over to me and I can tell he is angry.
“What?!” he whispers harshly.
“Kiss your man goodbye, we have work to do,” I say, he groans and goes back to his lover and kisses him, “Have you forgotten to follow the rules, Charles?”
He looks at me and smirks; I internally roll my eyes and walk back to my office. Charles follows behind me and I can hear him humming. How does he do it? Stay so happy all the time even when I’m being a complete dick, and yes, I do admit that I can be a dick sometimes.
We walk into my office, and he closes the door behind him, and I go ahead to walk to my desk, and I place my food down.
“So, what do you need love?” he asks cheerfully, as he sits down on the chair across from mine.
“I have to fly to South Africa to meet Miss Mthethwa, I forgot that I had written it down in my book,” I say, placing my jacket over my chair.
“Okay?” he says questioningly.
“What?” I ask sitting down.
“So, you want to go see Nikiwe?” he asks with a grin. My eyes widen.
Ah, crap…
“No, not really, maybe, arg I don’t know,” I groan in frustration.
“Aww Andy, you really are falling in love,” he coos.
“No, I'm not Charles! Dad is already angry with me,” I say running my hand through my hair. He looks at me and his face goes from sympathy to one cold look.
“Xander, get yourself together and do it quickly. I am not dealing with that part of your life again,” he says with pain laced in his voice.
And once again Charles Dante was right…
“Xander James Forsythe,” Charles yells from downstairs. “I’m coming Dante, just chill, beauty does not make itself,” I yell back as I fix my hair in front of the mirror. “I swear to god you're gay sometimes or bisexual” he laughs. “Shut up,” I say as I walk down the stairs, “You're the gay one Charles” “Xander tell me something I don’t know and hurry up we’re going to be late for our flight, Damien is already in the car,” he says as he walks to the door. “I know Charles,” I roll my eyes and make my way out of the house; Charles turns on the alarm system and locks the door. I walk to the car and can see that Damien is glued to his phone in the backseat. I’m sure he is playing the new game Pokémon Go; I’m making billions with that game. I jump in and he gives me a warm smile and looks back at his phone. “Pokémon Go?” I ask; he doesn’t look up at me. “Yep, it’s fucking addictive,” he says with a childish grin. “I know Dame, I know,” I chuckle. “How many have you found?” he asks,
As we make our way to Abraham’s Incorporated in Sandton City, Charles, and Damien cannot stop talking about just how amazing this meeting is going to be. Coming up with crazy scenarios of how I’m going to react, all of them end up with her pregnant. At this very moment I am upset with her, why were there rumours of a merge? Hopefully, it is just the public making assumptions for her sake but nonetheless, I am still upset with her and in all honesty, scared too. I didn’t want to meet her, after seeing those pictures that day, I haven’t been the same, that’s all I see, in my head and my dreams, I hate her. “Uh, Xander, you’re thinking out loud,” Charles says to me worriedly. “There is nothing to be scared about Xander, you’ll be fine,” Damien says. “I am not scared,” “Dude, you’re angry and somehow terrified of the woman, she is way better than you and I mean if she – ouch!” Charles says, and Damien gives his lover a looking of warning. “What? I’m being honest,” Charles says. “May
The next morning, I was somehow in a good mood, nothing could get me down today, not even Charles and his little antics. I got out of bed and go straight downstairs; Charles is sleeping on the couch, which is odd because I could have sworn, I left him in his room last night and Charles made a vow a few years to never sleep on the couch and he hasn’t until now. I walk over to the couch and tap his shoulder and whisper his name, he doesn’t respond. “Charles,” I call out. “Charles?” I call out again, a little louder. “Dante!” I yell, he jumps and looks around before his eyes land on me and he lies back down and groans in frustration. “What is wrong?” he asks groggily, rubbing his eyes. “What are you doing on the couch?” I ask, his face falls and I immediately can tell that something is wrong. He sits up straight on the couch and I jump over the couch and sit beside him, preparing for a dramatic sob story. “Damien ditched me last night,” That doesn’t sound like Damien. “Why?” I ask
Damien – ‘Xander, be nice, be a gentleman and show some respect.’ Damien and I are texting each other in the car because our little agreement cannot be known to Charles because once he’s involved the whole world will know. ‘I’ll try, I text back. ‘Don’t try, DO! Or you’ll be dealing with Charles,’ he texts. ‘FINE’ ‘Good, then you’ll find.’ I look up and smile at him and smile back. The car stops, and the nerves immediately set in, my palms are sweaty, and my mind is racing, I want this to work, for me to get over my hate for women and maybe learn to be civil with them. I step out of the car and put my suit jacket on. “Relax Xander, you’ll be okay,” Damien whispers to me. “I hope so,” I whisper back, Damien takes my briefcase and I put my phone in my suit pocket. Charles steps out, walks over to me and fixes my collar. “Charles, please stop,” I ask, I hate it when he moms me in public and for no reason. “You have to look good, to feel good,” he says, “And PS I want those c
After dinner with Aiden, we decided to watch a movie. I’m lying on top of him, ear to his chest, listening to the sound of his heartbeat. He shifts beneath me, and I look up at him and as soon as our eyes meet, our lips follow suit. Aiden moves his hand to my cheek and strokes it with his thumb, deepening the kiss, his tongue slips into my mouth and I moan, but he pulls away just as I beginning to enjoy it. “God, I missed you,” he says kissing my lips. “Work has been so stressful without you,” he kisses me again. I had missed him too, the way he held me, kissed me, and just made me feel special, there was no man like him, he has always been the one for me. “I missed you too,” I say, we both sit up and he signals for us to take upstairs to his room, and I nod my head, in one movement he swoops me into his arms and carries me bridal styles up the stairs, “You have no idea
We arrive at the office on time and walk to the reception and I am told to head up to Miss Abraham’s office, thank the heavens that the slutty receptionist was here today, we walk to the elevator and press the up button. “Xander, does you being in a good mood means that your period is finally over right?” Charles snickers. I sigh, “Ha-ha, very funny Dante,” I reply, the door opens, and we step inside. “Charles, what did we talk about?” Charles huffs, “No teasing Xander,” I turn my head and look at Charles, “Look who’s finally become the submissive,” “Shut it, James,” he mumbles. “I think someone needs a spanking,” I tease. Earning a chuckle from Damien, the elevator doors open, and we walk down the hallway to Miss Abraham’s office, just as we are about to arrive, Aiden comes walking out looking flushed
Xander Chantel Pieters, an interesting woman, but not more interesting than Nikki. She knows how to hold a conversation, knows a lot about business, sports and just everything else, not once did she show fear when I tried to intimidate her. She stood her ground and pushed back; I like her. To also add to her intellectual knowledge, she is beautiful, curly short hair, honey-brown eyes, freckles on her cute nose, gorgeous body from what I could tell and caramel coloured skin. No wonder my father is against them, they draw you in like bees to honey, and before you know it, you’re hooked. Stay focused, Xander. “So, how long will you be here?” “Well, I’m planning on going back, in a few days,” I reply, “Why?” “We need to discuss a few things about project finances, get your account details and just confirmation on transfers and all that,” she replies. “Sure, of course,” I nod. “Great,” she stands up from he
Xander “Dude, come one, what’s wrong?” Damien asks for the 100th time. “As I said, I do not want to talk about it,” I reply, looking out the window. “Did she crack a male joke that threatened your masculinity?” Charles asks. “No,” “Did she touch your stuff?” Damien asks, “She nosy?” “No.” “Hungry?” “No.” “Then what the fuck is it Xander?” they all yell. Ring, ring. Thank you, Lord, for your timing. “Hello?” “Hello, this is Chantel speaking,” “Chantel, hi, how are you?” “I’m good, look, I’m just going to cut straight to the point, I know what you saw with Miss Abrahams, and I’d like to apologize on their behalf,” “What are
Epilogue – Xander It’s safe to say that it all worked out in the end for me, and for everyone. If there is anything that I have learnt from this is that no matter how life turns out, always be the bigger person. Never let anybody else determine how you see the world and the people in it. My dad messed up a lot of things, for his selfish reason. He sowed seeds of self-doubt, hatred, and selfishness in my life, and now I’m doing the work of re-growing my emotional garden. Everything he had ever taught me was wrong, especially about women. Found my mom, fell in love, and met some incredible women along the way. They taught me more than my father ever has, and that’s saying something. Women overflow with wisdom and grace, too many of them oppressed by the men they marry or encounter. As men, we should be protecting them and uplifting them. They are the carriers of our children and future generation. I have forgiven my father for everything he has done. He was only human. God says we mu
XanderIt’s been two weeks since Aiden has been back in custody, and all I can say is that it was the best decision we had ever made. Jessica was arrested but we had her released on probation. She knew that Aiden was our half-brother and only wanted to protect him. She apologized and all was forgiven.Aiden was going to be sentenced again for his escape and they were looking at adding another two years since he returned with no incident. It was a relief for everyone because his sentence was only going to be fifteen years, according to what our lawyer had told us.I was sitting in the visitor's area of the Sun City Prison, waiting for Aiden. Today was going to be the first time I had spoken to him ever since he was arrested earlier in the year.I hear chains clanking and I look towards the door and see Aiden's handcuffed from his knees to his arms. I stand up and wait for
XanderEverybody had gathered at our house. Everybody, I mean, Damien, Charles, Chantel, and X. We were waiting for X’s team to tell us that they had captured Aiden and he was in the set location. Emotions were running high, but we were all keeping our cool.Nikki and Chantel were currently occupied by their gossip, and the guys and I were gathered in the kitchen with the burner phone set in the middle of the table.“You are seriously considering murder?”X nods, “Yeah. If we let him live, who knows what he’ll do to us? To anyone.”I felt guilty. I wanted to know more about him and why my father kept him a secret. There had to have been a reason.“X is right,”“Guys come on. What about hearing his side of the story? He is your brother; do
Charles“You can’t do that Dae. I will not allow it, you understand me,”Damien sighs, “Fuck Charles, I’m trying to keep the both of you safe. Who knows what that manic is capable of.”“Don’t you dare raise your voice at me,” I yell, “I will not let that man terrorize me or my family? We will remain here, and we will see this through together.”There was no arguing with me, I was going to have the last say and that was it. That sorry excuse of a man will not ruin our lives again.“Call Xander, we are all going to his house, and we are going to talk about this,” I say and walk out of the kitchen.I go to the spare bedroom and find Chantel sitting on the floor, with her phone in her hand.“Honey, you okay?”Chantel looked at me and she looked shaken.“Aiden is Xander’s brother?”“What? No, who told you that lie?”She gets up from the floor and sits on the bed.“Nikki just called me and told me that they found Aiden, and Aiden is Xander’s older half-brother,”“Damien!”Chantel sighs, “Th
XanderI hate it when someone says that. It usually means something very messed up is about to happen and there is nothing we can do to stop it.“Just say it,”“Aiden is your biological brother,” X says.Damien and I look at each other. We both couldn’t believe it and it couldn’t be true. Could it?“How? I am the only son of both of my parents,”X looks at his screen, “Well, it looks like your father was a hoe.”I push X to the side and read what is written on the screen. His records were somehow sealed from the world, probably my dad’s doing. He was born the same year that I was just a few months before my birth, fuck that makes him my older brother.“His mother is unknown,”X looks at the screen, “I’ll have someone look into that.”“You’re taking this well,” Damien says nervously.I look at him and I shrug, “I’ve genuinely run out of fucks to give when it comes to Aiden and anything involving him but what’s bothering me is that my father. My father. I hope he’s in hell,”“Do you thi
“Do you still have men in the house?”X looks at his PC and nods, “Yeah, everything is good. They are still in the living room.”I was out with X and Damien, trying to figure out if the rumour of Aiden’s escape was true. We were waiting for Damien to return from prison with some information. We were at X’s house, in his basement. His family was out for the day, so we could work without his family disrupting us too much.“Do you think he could be out there?”I sigh, “Yeah, I do. He’s a sneaky bastard, that man.”X shakes his head, “We’ll find him, and deal with him accordingly. The rest of the squad doesn’t have to know.”“You’ve done stuff like this before?”“You mean assassinate, murder, make people disappear? It’s part of the job description, man. I’m hired by all sorts of people,” X replies but it’s a side of my business most people don’t know about.I nod, “Of course.”“People like Aiden have gotten away with so much in their lives that they have run out of their extra lives but s
NikkiI groaned as I sat on my bed, the baby was growing at an exponential rate and my back was hurting like hell. I look over and see Xander fast asleep. I smile as I brush his curls out of his face.Finally married. I couldn’t believe it. God finally granted me one of my heart's desires and another one is on the way.I get out of bed and put my slippers on and make my way downstairs to the kitchen. I proceed to make breakfast and Xander comes down the stairs. He sees me and smiles at me.“Good morning my gorgeous wife, and baby,”He kisses my cheek and bends over to kiss my stomach.“Good morning baby,”He takes the spatula from my hand and tells me to sit down. I don’t argue and I sit down on one of the bar stools.“Why didn’t you wake me up babe? You’re in your second trimester and I don’t want you to strain yourself.”I sigh, “I’m pregnant, not disabled Xander. We’ve had this discussion.”He frowns, “I’m sorry babe, I don’t mean to be overbearing. I just want you and the baby to
Xander Lobola Day“Shit,” I mumble to myself.I was standing outside the gate to Nikki’s family home, and I was nervous. Shaking even. I didn’t know what to expect. Xlanti had told me everything that I needed to know but still, I was nervous. I wanted to make a first impression, a good one.“Don’t worry Xander, we are here for you. just let me do the talking and everything will be fine,” X says.I nod. Damien places his hand on my shoulder, and I let out a shaky breath.A few moments pass and two men and a woman step out of the house and stand by the gate. Xlanti puts an R200 through the gate.“Siyanibulisa badala bam,” Xlanti says.“Molo nyana wam,” one of the men greet.“Silapha ukuze sithethe nabadala malunga nelobola kaNikiwe,” Xlanti says.The three elders look at each other.“You can speak in English, for the sake of understanding each other.”“Thank you,” X says and places another R200 through the gate.One of the uncles comes to the gate and opens it, we walk through the gate
Nikki I didn’t want him dead. Even though he deserved it but still. None deserves to die. I couldn’t wrap my head around the fact that he was dead, I didn’t want to believe it. It’s been a few days since Aiden died and were sitting in the backyard, on the lawn. Xander had his eyes closed, I think he was asleep, and I had my head on his lap. I was looking up at the cloudy sky. Praying to god that he had at least in his final moments asked for forgiveness and that he was in heaven. Our lobola was in three days and I was excited, but I was also anxious. My dad’s side of the family was a tough bunch. Being half Xhosa and Zulu was not a good mix. My dad’s side of the family was Xhosa. I loved them to bits, unlike my maternal side, who decided to cut ties with my mother after she decided to marry my dad. Tribalistic idiots. “You okay down there?” I nod, “Yeah I’m okay. I’m just really nervous about Saturday,” Xander sits up and he looks down at me with his mesmerizing blue eyes. I was