Chapter 009

~Tristan~

I could hear her heart beat, could feel her relax into my arms when I carried her this time around back to the room where I wanted her.

Was way prepared for this already. And I’m making peace with the fact that the stubbornness comes with the age.

I didn’t want to call Sebastian this time around to carry her up here. He could do it yesterday without waking her up, I’m sure I can do it without getting too drunk on her scent.

I sat there, taking her in. I needed to define whatever this is.

What do I really want to do with her? What if I give in first to the mate bond thing?

Is she a risk I am ready to take? I watched the way her body relaxed, her chest rose softly as she made rough sounds that somehow made her sound so cute and pretty.

“Shit Tristan! We are supposed to be sticking to be the monster that she had made us to be.” I cursed on low breaths, refusing to look away from her face.

Just in how many hours I’ve gotten information I’m sure she didn’t even know about herself.

It’s not my fault I didn’t know how to react when an 18 years old wolf appears in front of me and is my mate.

Her presence isn’t going to do me good and I know it. Just with her being here I’ve been twitching up with my actions.

Sometimes acting like a sex deprived Alpha wolf and in the next second acting like a monster ready to tear her apart because of her lack of respect.

‘What you said about me not keeping her here, how’s that going to work?’ I asked Sebastian through the mindlink, refusing to give anything off.

I just wanted to hear what he had to say. It wasn’t in my heart to give her up even though I knew anywhere around me would be the most dangerous place she could ever be.

‘What’s going on? She did something again?’ His voice was leveled, asking like he was so sure she did.

Her making me think twice and going through all of this is her doing something so ‘yes she did something again’.

I uttered back, waiting for his reply. Sebastian is her best chance of getting far away from me as that was what he wanted.

‘I don’t think I need to ask what she did but funny enough and too bad for her that she has to stay here.’ He said, his voice sounding busy but was stern.

Too bad for her? I’ll just pretend I didn’t hear that because he never really believes any girl at all is safe around me.

My voice came out calmly, not that i was really planning on letting her go, just wanted to hear the options she had. ‘What? why?’ I let out through the mindlink.

‘Already did some analysis and finding, i don’t think she is safe anywhere else. They might likely use you know, her current situation to pin her down.’ He muttered, giving an exact thought out analysis. He definitely found this out before now.

‘We both know you don’t want her anywhere close to me and now you are saying she’s better here with me, should I believe you?’

I’m not blind, I’ve seen the say he acts around her. Acting completely like he’s invisible.

It was just me and him in this house before her arrival and I see the way he walks like he’s trying to clean his footsteps for her not to see.

That’s the thing about Sebastian, he’s always has a soft spot for younger girls. Always trying to be careful around them like they were eggs.

I wasn’t going to say anything knowing it’s a thing with him and the knowledge that my beta would never do or think what he's not supposed to with her.

‘She’s eighteen Alpha. Definitely she feels lost and even if she hates you, and the fact that you are anything but gentle with her, you are actually her best and safer choice.’ He was being serous.

He only ever addresssed me by my title when he’s being very serious.

‘Okay if you so. Then you can do the honors of telling her exactly how to act when she’s around me and keep your claws off, she’s mine!’ I didn’t think twice, just said exactly what I wanted to say, not planning ahead of claiming ownership of her.

‘Okay Alpha, noted.’

She definitely had good timing, i watch her turn a bit again. She’s been turning and rolling for a while, trying to get a better position.

I already took note of the fact that she’s not in the night wear I made Sebastian buy so she could put on yesterday.

Her milky skin in these maid uniform just had to be the worst thing ever as it looked like rags on her.

I waited for a little while till I could feel her heartbeat quicken. She was definitely up but was pretending.

I talked her out of pretending anymore and demanded she opened her eyes and gave her instructions.

This was exactly how it had to be if she’s going to stay here.

I give the instructions and she’ll obey them to guarantee her safety.

I warned her clearly not to leave this room so I don’t have to carry here myself.

The first time, I made Sebastian do it while the head maid changed her clothes. The second time I carried her back here testing my own limits on how strong I could resist her scent while having her that close.

Now if there’s a third, we never know what might happen as the feel of her soft skin on my arms still lingered and the wafting scent of hers etching on my skin like it knew it’s mate.

She’s safe with Sebastian that I know. I walked out on her, refusing her the opportunity of talking back like she always did.

Like she’s trying to purposely measure up and irritate me on purpose.

I walked out, hoping she’ll make the right choice and not try out apples again.

That’s a difference between me and Sebastian, and it’s the fact that there’s always a limit to what I can take.

A monster isn’t always readable, switching roles multiple times and one where she’ll pray for death in place of getting revenge is definitely one she doesn’t want to see.