Chapter 5

When Alpha Chase left me, my heart pulsated as I stared at the arrogant Alpha who was mostly noted for his ruthless ways. The manner he stared at me made me wish the ground would open and swallow me so I wouldn't get to stare into those grey eyes that held no emotion but made my soul tremble, perhaps it was the intense that was fixated on me, or the fact that I still couldn't fathom why he saved me. After what happened in the pack house, he should have just let me go so he could get rid of me from his life, I knew he didn't love me and I did not intend to change his mind where I was for I know that would never happen. His sister will never allow it and neither will her friend.

"Why did you make such utterances?" He asked casting fear over my soul and so I glanced everywhere but not at him.

"What utterances?" This was my favorite game, a game of pretend and feigning to be dumped. It was the only way that I could get to live past this nightmare that my foster father had pushed me into. To think that he married my mother and she accepted to be his bride made me feel dejected. Mother must not have known what sort of monster he was to leave me all alone with him. I missed my Mother and Father and wished that perhaps I could get to see them again each time I closed my eyes but never happened and so I realized that they were dead and never coming back again. The moon goddess didn't give them another life to return to me and explain why they left me all alone only for me to be used as a sacrifice of appease for my Foster Father.

"What you told the pack doctor?" 

"Lewis?"

"Yes"

"I just said what I felt, Why did you save me when you should have let me fall asleep in death, I would have loved that you know"

"You are out of your mind" he was furious and I wondered why. The Alpha was a difficult man, I was too scared to lift my eyes and look at him Then perhaps I would have seen the lines on his face, every crease on his perfect face that makes him very handsome and charming, I would have seen right through him but I couldn't.

"I'm sorry Alpha, please forgive me for talking so thoughtlessly right before you" That was all I could do all the time so as not to face his wrath. It was a gesture I considered to be stupid since at the end of the day I was still the current object of his wrath, the only one he wanted to have nothing to do with, that was why he never wanted to touch me and haven't done anything with him since I was married to him. I couldn't imagine the number of women who warms his bed, had a feeling Francesca was one of them since she had feelings for him and wanted to be the one who gets to be the Luna of the pack. It wasn't just Francesca, I got to know about this during the pack meeting that I was rejected, could see the glares of the women at me while some of the men took pity on me but didn't dare show it so as not to face the Alpha's wrath. 

"Shut your mouth, first you ran off without seeking my consent and now you speak about dying in front of Lewis, what were you hoping to achieve? Do you think he is going to save you?"

Right there I realized that I could not stay in bed and so I stood up attempting to walk towards the door when he grabbed my arms and pushed me back on the bed, I fell, my body was wearing out and the room was starting to close up on me.

"How dare you walk away when I am not done talking to you"

"What more do you want Alpha Chase? I only ran off because I couldn't breathe just ask I cannot breathe right now"

"Are you saying that I suffocate you?"

"That's not what I am saying" I lied hating to face his wrath. Now that he has rejected me, there was a lot that could happen to me, I was not protected by the man who married me, not that I was ever protected by him but now even the pack members can trample over me and I dare not say a thing about this. 

"Then what is it that you are trying to say?"

"You already rejected me and I need to let out my emotions, Would you have had me crying like a baby right before your pack and made you look like a horrible person, You don't deserve it Alpha" I stated hoping that he wouldn't see past my act. The other thing I cared about was survival and so I was going to say any word that made him believe that I was sorry but I wasn't. The fact that I ran away was the right thing to do. What did he expect me to do?

Staying and listening to him reject me in front of everyone as if I was some trash that he picked up along the roadside was something that my heart couldn't take any longer, the pain was excruciating and I had to choose the easy way out which was to run to the mountain. If I had known that he would chase after me, something I know wasn't out of guilt over what he said because he enjoyed it as much as Quinn and Francesca did, I saw that by the smile that formed at the side of his mouth. 

"Look at me when I am talking to you"

Clutching onto my garment looking into the eyes of the man who married me only to punish me, right there I discovered the answer that I had been searching for all along in the corner of his eyes. He didn't chase after me because he cared so much, he didn't, he cared after me so he wouldn't lose his object of amusement for him and his family. I was that object of amusement for him, Quinn, and Francesca.

"Did it hurt?" He asked which got me confused. Chase was a complicated man who I assumed didn't believe in love, he only cared about his family, his sister Most especially was one of the few people he could do anything for so I refused to believe that he was asking because he cared, he was probably looking for an object of amusement and thought that I was the easy one which I was ever since I was given away by my Father.

"No, it doesn't" I lied.

As if sensing that I was lying holds up my jaw staring into my eyes as if searching for something he wasn't sure about. "You are a liar"

"What?" I Feigned to be confused. He must have seen right through me that I lied to him earlier. But was it necessary for me to tell the truth? I was hurt and he knows it all but the Alpha will choose to punish me further and to watch me cry than to see me smile. I hated to believe that he was a sadist but it wasn't just him every member of his family except the very few who were nice to me.

"I know you are lying to me Layla" That was the first time he said my name which made my heart jump. It should have skipped if he didn't reject me but he did and now it could only fear him at every word he said to me. The thought of what was going to happen for the next few months that I would be married to him crossed my mind and I trembled, tiny goosebumps crawled up my body and I swallowed the lump forming in my throat.

"What I said hurt you and that was why you ran away, isn't that so? You have to admit the truth you know"

"Yes I was hurt but is all over now, you must have a reason for rejecting me"

He looked at me scornfully and right there I wished I hadn't opened my mouth then perhaps he wouldn't look at me with those eyes. "I rejected you because you are stupid and in every way lacking, how could I choose you to be the Alpha of my pack? You don't deserve to be here Layla and right now I regret every decision I made to seek peace between our pack, I shouldn't have made that proposal and could have rejected you instead of going this far with you but now it has been done and so the only thing I can do is sit back and watch live in misery every single day of your life, you shouldn't have married me" He scoffed turning around to leave.

Anger seeped through me and so I knew right there that I couldn't keep quiet any longer and so I stated. "Why did you marry me then?" That was all it took for him to freeze.