JESSICA'S POV ~The smile on my face faded away in the blink of an eye when I heard tiny stomps of people running down the steps. Like a magnet, my eyes couldn’t help but pull in the direction of the footsteps, and my blood ran cold as I came face to face with... Goddess... My babies.“Dad... Dad! Wilhelmina ate all of the chocolates and left me with these crumbs! It’s so unfair!” a little boy’s voice drifted into my ears, making an invisible hand grip my chest, squeezing the breath out of my lungs. They were so close...yet so far away. There was this invisible bridge keeping us apart. My heart felt like a stone, lodged uncomfortably in my throat and I wanted to cry...bawl my eyes out.“Hmph! You liar! I kept some for you, why are you greedy?” a little girl’s voice rang out, and then she came into view pouted, huffing like an angry bull. Every ounce of oxygen was knocked out of my body, and I froze like a damn statue, staring at the two cute kids right in front of me.Dusty dark blo
Emma’s P.O.VAfter instructing the maids on what’s for dinner, I left the kitchen and returned to my bedroom, my fingers trembling out of control. Sylvia Reynolds was right here in my house. It was like a dream and a nightmare come true. She was so beautiful, so otherworldly I felt like a frog standing next to her. Her skin shone spotless like glass…porcelain is the word. Goddess, I used to think I was the prettiest woman in Keagan’s life, but this Sylvia Reynolds proved me wrong. It pained me to admit it but she was ethereally gorgeous. And the worst part of it all was that she knew it.When Keagan confirmed she would be staying here with us for an indefinite time it felt like a rock fell into the bottom of my belly. I was honored that my role model would be sleeping in the same house as I did…but the same spirit of jealousy that had led me to kill my best friend filled me and I…I wasn’t sure if I could mask my emotions enough to hide my real thoughts.As I stared at my reflect
JESSICA'S POV ~I made sure my face was thoroughly dried and cleaned of every evidence of my breakdown before I entered into the dining room."Here... I made pasta with meatballs, please do tell me if you love it," Emma announced, scooping a portion to my plate before going ahead to serve the kids.Mina was chewing an apple, and I wondered if my little girl loved apples.Emma turned to serve the kids, and their eyes were fixated on their plates instead. "Hope everyone enjoys their meals."Keagan, who was busy on his phone, didn't reply, neither did I.I picked up the fork, playing with the pasta, and couldn't help but narrow my eyes at the meal, wondering if it was poisoned.But she wouldn't do that, would she? She just served the same meal to my kids and her beloved Keagan."You're not eating?" Emma asked, and I looked up from the plate."I'm trying to," I forced a smile to my face, which she returned with a soft one."Please, do tell me how it is," she simpered, and I smirked.Diggi
JESSICA'S POV ~ An hour and two minutes passed by when I heard footsteps and excited voices coming from the kids. I stood by the window where I had been staring at the starless sky, and made my way to the banister where I peeked down to see Keagan carrying the kids in both arms while Emma trailed behind them as they headed toward the large front door. “Daddy, is Aunt Sylvia coming along? She’s popular and lots of people would like to take pictures with her." I heard Mina squeal, wiggling in Keagan's arms as though to make him set her down on her feet. "It would make us a celebrity too!” My eyes twinkled and just then Emma stopped dead in her tracks. A cold smile twisted my lips and I wished I could fully see her expression, but her back was turned to me. Meanwhile Keagan smiled thinly as if he was displeased by the request. Then, he shook his head at his daughter, which made me fold my arms in piqued interest, leaning against the banister to take in very scene unfolding before m
Jessica's P.O.V"Where is it? Where exactly would I hide an audio recording of such importance if I was Keagan."I paced back and forth in Keagan's dimly lit room after an unfruitful search in his office. Shit? Time was flying and yet I couldn't find what I had come for. Thankfully, he hadn't locked the door when I arrived. It just took me a push and I was already in his large room. Now I was confused as hell.I moved to the large shelf by the corner of the room (which hadn't been there years ago by the way), ransacking through the variety of books on the shelf but saw nothing.I lowered myself on all fours to peek under his large bed and still yet nothing.I made sure to ransack through his wardrobe, went through the racks in his room, searched everywhere but I came up empty and now I was beginning to panic.What if it wasn't here? What if he had kept it away from my grasp? I was doomed.I combed my hair with my fingers and a frustrated groan rose to my lips. I really couldn't affo
Hi, this is a little note I hope you all read. Thank you sooo much for reading so far and for your unending support. Reading the comments is my newest hobby and God you don't know how much it keeps the BPD voices away. Knowing someone out there is loving Jessica and Keagan's drama the same way I am. I got inspired to write this book from my mom's divorce and how pretty dumb my birth father was and the things that ensued. that said, some of the things in this book really happened and so yeah, knowing my voice is heard brings me the biggest joy. (Many events are clearly escalated for drama purposes haha) This note is just to tell you guys I won't be updating very frequently up until 3rd of July BECAUSE I've got to prepare for chemistry tests and I'm terrified ಥ‿ಥ ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ... Don't stop supporting Keagan and Jessica ^^ I love you all so much and Emma seems to like you guys too. She says any publicity is publicity. She doesn't g.a.f if y'all hate her. (◠‿◕)
Keagan’s P.O.V The spot where Jessica had slapped me tingled with an odd sensation that made my cock half-hard against my zipper. The memory of her hand connecting with my face played on repeat, every detail seared into my mind. The hatred in her eyes, the way her arousal and hate morphed into a raw, untamed fury – it was intoxicating. [My fists clenched beside me and I dug the heel of one palm into my eyes, trying to blot out the memory of Jessica in that nightdress, ransacking my room. But it fucking persisted and my wolf chose that time to imagine more. Wrapping my fingers around her pale neck, the contrast between–FUCK! I slammed my fist into the wall, the dull pain a welcome distraction from the unwelcome arousal clawing its way up. I needed to forget the fire in her eyes and focus on her fucking audacity. What the hell was she even doing in my room? Slinking around like some kind of spy. With a deep, shuddering breath, I forced myself to calm down. My eyes scanned the space
Jessica’s P.O.VI woke up with a jolt, the hairs on the back of my neck standing on end. It wasn’t a sound that woke me, not exactly. More like a prickling sensation that screamed I wasn’t alone. Without opening my eyes, I lay there, listening. Silence. Tentatively, I peeked one eye open, scanning the room. Everything was just as I’d left it the night before and yeah, no one was in the room with me.So what was that odd feeling, I thought, sitting up and throwing my arms high above my head in a tired stretch, jaws parted in a yawn. Must have been a dream.Seeing as it was still pretty dark through the opening in my curtains, I leaned to the side, trying to reach for my phone on the nightstand to check the ungodly hour.Just as my fingers brushed the cold wood of the nightstand, fucking ice-cold water splashed down on my head, drenching me from head to toe.The shock jolted me awake faster than a triple espresso and I bolted upright, the sheets slipping down my shoulders.“What the fu
Hi guys! I'm so sorry! I was checking the book file on G****e doc and realized I skipped a chapter between chapter ninety seven and ninety eight! ༼;´༎ຶ ༎ຶ༽ Because of how crazy the deletion would be, I decided to upload the missing chapter in this note (I.e for free.) It would mean the world if you could go back to read chapter ninety seven for a quick refresh and then read the original chapter ninety eight in this note so the progression of events won't be confusing. I'm so sorry!ಥ_ಥ MISSED CHAPTER Jessica’s P.O.V –I am leaving Rosario for a week. Sry for making you wait last night. I read that text for what seemed to be hundredth time, the familiar knot in my stomach tightening. That same one that had been there since he stood me up at dinner three nights ago. It made zero sense. How he just up and left. Ryder hadn’t even shown up for his shoots, according to his manager. But in the grand scheme of things, I probably shouldn’t be worried. Ryder was fine or he wou
Keagan’s P.O.VA mistake but a necessary one. I gave you want in return for you to find Ryder. So you will find him for me…The words would be stuck in my head for days and I really wasn’t concerned about it. What bugged me was how they coiled tight around my heart, choking me of my next breath until it hurt to take in oxygen. Of course, she thought I was a mistake. It was expected. I’ve only caused her hurt. I knew all of this yet those words rattled in my chest like poison. Fuck, today just like the night of my children’s party was one of the times I should have kept my mouth shut. But when she fucking taunted me like that…saying that I wasn’t a nice guy…and I never did anything nice for anyone except it benefitted me. She wasn’t wrong…nor was she fucking right. It’s just…I hated that tone…and it fed the dark monster in me until I gave in to that hunger that had been clawing under my skin since she parked in front of my gate. Besides, she’d smelt of that fucker. His fucking scent
Jessica’s P.O.VI whimpered at the implications of his words. “No,” I said, but my hands were pulling Keagan closer, tighter against my neck. He’d just asked to fuck me and then seal it with a mating mark. Even if we no longer had a bond… sex that ended with a mating mark was just as potent.The world was spinning, and my mind, and my inhibitions were quickly draining away. No. no. no. my body shivered with pleasure. Fuck, Keagan’s stubble felt heavenly against my neck.The alpha sucked hard on the mark on my neck, soaking me deep in his own scent so that not even a single whiff of Ryder was left on me. “Push me away.” Keagan gritted against me. “Push me away, damn you Jess. I want to be a better man. I promised. I wanna fucking stay away from you!”But I didn’t….couldn’t. My hands moved down to fumble with Keagan’s zipper and the next thing I knew, I had hard, hot flesh in my hand. Keagan’s cock. My husband’s cock. Fuck. a voice in my head screamed at me to stop, but I couldn’t.I st
Jessica’s P.O.VI stepped into the dark study, my eyes struggling to adjust to the odd dim light. I wanted to ask why it was so black in here but I was a stranger in Keagan’s space. After everything that had happened between us, I’d best not push it.As my vision adjusted to the darkness, I finally saw Keagan. He was sprawled in his chair behind the massive mahogany desk, a cigarette dangling from his lips as his eyes closed in concentration. Keagan looked absolutely delicious in his black shirt and tailored pants, his tanned throat bobbing sexily as he inhaled. But I couldn’t shake the feeling of irritation that he didn’t even stir when I entered the room. I knew he fucking knew I was here. After the way he’d shamelessly chased after me, well I didn’t expect to be on the receiving end of his icy attitude.I stopped in front of him and the asshole didn’t even move. He only continued smoking, his thick honey-blonde lashes slowly lifting and fixing stunning obsidian eyes on me. They we
Jessica’s P.O.VThere was only one explanation but I refused to believe it, to even consider it for a moment. Yet as another day went by with a few posts from Ryder, his signature mystery mask worn in a luxurious room, location undecipherable, I started to consider it.Ryder stole. Ryder was a thief. He absconded with the money from Elsa and her boyfriend John, whom I met this morning. John was…very plain-looking and pretty unremarkable. He had a face I could come across on a run and never remember. Not that it was bad…it was just my observation. Usually, I wouldn’t have given him a second glance, but for one, he was my boyfriend’s agent. Secondly, Elsa really seemed to love him. She kept clinging to him and bursting into tears until he left her alone with me in my hotel suite, saying he had a few errands to run.I felt awful and incredibly sorry for her. She didn’t deserve this.‘And neither do you.’ a voice whispered in my head, making me shiver. It was crazy how disconnected I felt
Jessica’s P.O.V I woke up to the warm rays of sunlight peeking through the curtains, stretching my arms above my head. A soft yawn escaped my lips as I arched my back, biting back a smile when I felt a slight soreness between my legs. Wow. I did it. I allowed Sylvia to consummate her mating bond with Ryder. It was like their bodies were made for each other…and last night I had felt like a third party, having an out-of-body experience as I watched Sylvia sleep with her mate. I really feel like I did the right thing so what is this odd feeling of wrongness that won’t stop clinging to me? As I sat up, the sheets slid off, and I felt a gentle breeze caress my bare skin. I shivered instantly, pulling the sheets back up. Where did I put my clothes? I wondered. Then realized that the space next to me was empty. Where was Ryder? Swinging my legs over the side of the bed, I planted my feet firmly on the ground. Could he be in the kitchen? Well, there was only one way to find out. I stood
Keagan’s P.O.VMy blood ran cold and I gripped the steering wheel so tightly, my knuckles turning white. Shit. oh fuck. I almost swerved off the road, the car fishtailing dangerously as I fought to regain control.“Is…is she okay?” I demanded as my voice grew strained, cold sweat appearing on my brows.“She’s being treated by the school’s nurse, but we think she might need stitches. The bleeding just won’t stop. We’ve already called an ambulance and it’s best if you meet us at the hospital.”Then she hung up.I slammed on the brakes, the tires screeching against the pavement. My heart pounded in my ears as I turned the car around, ignoring the swears and curses from the drivers I almost collided head-on into. I had to get to her now. Jessica, my half-assed plan —all of it faded into insignificance, Mina was my fucking priority now.When I arrived at the hospital, I was met by Mina’s class teacher. She looked pale and fearful, making the knots in my stomach tighten even harder. I grabb
Keagan’s P.O.VThe sun cast long, dancing shadows across the manicured lawn as my children chased each other, their laughter echoing through the air. A pang of hurt shot through me, that familiar ache in my chest that I’d grown accustomed to over. I yearned to join my children, rebond with them after I’d abruptly yelled at them over dinner last night. But they might request me to shift so I could play chase with them where the beast in my wolf form would chase them around. They were very attached to my wolf and whilst most men shook in fear at its sight, Mina always giggled and poked at his fur, saying he looked like a big puppy. That was the only reason Mina and Liam didn’t ask for a pet while growing up. I, in my wolf form, was their pet.A sad smile curled my lips downward as I continued to watch them. This was all my fault.My gaze soon drifted to the sprawling gardens and the sparkling pool at the back that was currently covered with an automatic pool lid to make it kid-safe. I d
Jessica’s P.O.VThe knock on the door shattered the cozy atmosphere, making me pause my show with my brows pulling into a slight knot. Glancing up at the door, I tossed the remote in my hand away and called out, “Ryder, did you order something?”Ryder’s voice floated from the bathroom. “No, I didn’t?”A sigh rose to my lips and I stood up, wrapping myself in a robe to cover my thin nightgown. As I approached the door, the knock sounded again, more insistent this time. I peered through the keyhole, but the fish-eye lens revealed only an empty hallway. What the…?I turned to leave but the knock echoed again.My irritation grew and I yanked the door open, ready to rip into the pesky room service person.But it wasn’t a uniformed hotel attendant by my door.Keagan stood in the doorway, his ruggedly handsome face scowling at me, like it had since morning. I swallowed hard, my heart skipping a beat when our eyes locked.“What are you doing here?” I forced out through suddenly dried lips. I