IsabellaI wake up in the early hours of the morning, and I can still smell the scent of his aftershave on the pillow beside me, but he isn’t there. I feel better than I have in a while and I notice that my body isn’t as sore as it has been. After a shower and a clean, new set of clothes, I make my way to the kitchen, where I’m surprised to find Lisa.“Good morning, honey. Sleep well?” She is wearing an apron which I find strangely familiar, and I smell the scent of pancakes and sweet syrup.“Good morning, yes and yourself?” I smile as she gestures for me to take a seat. There is freshly squeezed orange juice, and she places a plate filled with pancakes in front of me as soon as I sit down.“Amazing. It’s wonderful what a good night’s rest can do for the body, mind and spirit.” Lisa beams as she sits down. “Dig in. You need to eat so you can heal.”“It is strange. I feel so much better this morning.” I frown. “Where is Asher?” I see something flash in her eyes before she smiles.“He h
AsherWe couldn’t just storm in. I couldn’t just claim Isabella. At least, not until she had her memory back and could confirm what we already suspect. What I could do was spy on her pack. I could gather the evidence we needed that would back up her story.The plan is to try and spy on her pack in their pack grounds, but we quickly find out that their borders are too far and their pack house is too well hidden. Since we can’t let them figure out what we were up to, we can’t even think about crossing the border.I try to talk to some of the neighbouring packs, but the only information we get is more of what we already know. They are very secretive. There are rumours of abuse, but nobody has concrete proof, and everyone seems to agree that Adam is a prick.After two days of dodging questions and making sure that nobody suspects that Isabella is with us, I finally return home. We don’t have much more than we knew before, which means we will have to depend on Isabella’s memories.The news
IsabellaLisa’s advice the past two days has been to take it one step at a time. Most importantly, she wants me to only think about the flashes when they happen. She believes if I don’t dwell on them too much it might just help me to get through the next one a little easier.For some strange reason, I feel better knowing Asher is back, and when he asks me to go for a walk, excitement kind of takes over. My heart starts to race as we get closer to the door and when we reach the threshold, I stop.It feels as though there is an invisible barrier all of a sudden and if I were to try and cross it, I would somehow be hurt. I look at the floor and then at Asher and I can feel the panic rising from deep inside. It’s too much. It’s too fast. I can’t!“Would you mind if I tried something?” His eyes fill with kindness and I nod. The moment he picks me up bridal style, I’m stunned into silence. He smiles and takes one step, crossing the threshold. “That wasn’t so bad, was it?” He smiles, and I r
AsherPacing back and forth in the library after what Isabella told us, makes me feel like a caged animal. Having to sit there and listen nearly forced my wolf out. Pacing is all I could do at the moment to keep him locked away. I can’t let Isabella see him yet. Not until she has her full memory back.“Son, you need to calm down. Don’t do whatever it is that mind of yours is planning.” My mom looks far too calm for my liking as she sits there blinking at me.“Did we just hear the same thing? Do you understand what they did to her?” I lose grip on my anger in my attempt to keep my wolf in check.“I heard, and it is awful, but running out of here and tearing whoever did this to her apart isn’t going to win her over. It’s not going to make it better. It’s over. It has already happened. All we can do now is to show her a better life.” She’s right. I know she is right, but I still want to tear something limb from limb!“Okay, so what do you suggest that I do?” I sigh and finally sit down b
IsabellaI wonder only for a moment if he is talking about the wild animals or actually himself. I have to push the idea to the back of my mind because it is just too ludicrous to think about. I don’t know if I read about fairy tale creatures or if I saw them on television, but I know for a fact that they can’t possibly exist.“I know I’m asking very personal questions, and you really don’t have to answer me, but how do you afford all of this?” I frown noting the slight smile again. He seems to relax again and explains that they have a couple of businesses both right there and in the nearby town that make enough money to support all the people living there.He talks about their green house and the fact that they also grow a lot of their food themselves and I really want to see it all, but just the thought of going outside sends a rush of adrenaline through my veins, and it is as though it activates my memories.I see my own hands this time. I’m busy peeling vegetables when I feel some
IsabellaThe second I open my eyes, everything comes flooding right back, and I take a deep breath to try and calm my mind. I look around my empty room, and remember that Asher and his mom was there. When the dizziness subsides, I slowly get up and take a long hot shower before getting dressed and going to look for Asher. As I half expected, I find them in his office and I can see that they have clearly been fighting.“Hi.” My voice sounds strange for a moment. There are so many facts flooding my mind still that I find it difficult to talk for a moment while Asher rushes to invite me in and his mother’s concerned eyes follow my every move. I sit down and wait for Asher to take his seat before trying to make sense of of everything I remember.“I’m Isabella by the way.” I start with a sheepish smile. As I look into Asher’s eyes, it feels as if he already knew that. I have a feeling that I will soon find out.“Take it slow, sweetheart. You have just been through a lot. I don’t want you t
IsabellaAlthough my flashes tell me that my memory coming back should not be a relief, I still hoped. Sadly, my memory coming back brings me no relief at all. I have been mistreated in the worst possible ways by the people who were meant to love me.When the realization of why suddenly hits me, I look at Asher and then at Lisa and for a moment it feels as if my heart doesn’t just skip a beat, but it stops working. I know what I am, and I know what they are. I’m astonished that I didn’t notice sooner what they were, which only means Asher probably ordered all of his wolves not to shift.“I’ve …” My throat suddenly dries out. He is going to reject me as soon as I say it. I just know it, but I need to tell him. Something inside me just wants to get it over with. “I’ve never shifted. I can’t shift.” I feel the tears burning the back of my eyes, but I can’t look at either of them. I hear Lisa gasp.“Okay, wait a minute. You can’t shift or you won’t. There is a difference. Or maybe you wer
Isabella“I don’t know.” The words are out before I even think about it. I know what he wants to hear. I know what I should do, but my memories are so overwhelming that, suddenly, I’m having trouble trusting the people who have been helping me.“I am not trying to push you into anything, but if you don’t accept me as your mate, I fear that my hands will be tied, and I won’t be able to help you.” His eyes fill with sorrow and it breaks my heart. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know who to trust or how to protect myself. Memories of being abused keep flooding my mind and I stuff my face in my hands feeling completely overwhelmed.“I know you are under a lot of pressure, Isabella, but you have to know that I would never hurt you. Nobody in my pack will ever lift a hand to you.” His hands softly touch mine and when I look him in the eye tears start to roll.“I will accept you.” I take a breath. Any possibility of living under sanctuary was destroyed when my brother claimed that I was kid