Chapter 240

Asher's POV

He was speechless, and it was not for any reason other than the inability to effectively communicate with Philip, the real reason why I changed my mind about trying to ruin his relationship with Lyra. I hated the idea of being seen as someone who was finally able to see that the fault was his.

He knew for a fact that everybody held their breath, waiting for me to come to realization about the real problems I had with Lyra. And now that I had realized, I didn't want to see that expression on Philip's face.

That eye-roll. That look of relief that I was finally realizing that I was toxic and I was the problem.

I looked away from him and turned to the food on the table. It had grown cold, and I hated cold things. I hated cold people; I hated winter, and I hated myself.

"Are you gonna answer me?" Philip asked me.

I shook my head still not looking at him. "I don't think I want to answer you. I would rather have you stop asking that question."

Philip heaved a sigh and then leaned