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Is This Love?

Author: Harmeen
last update Last Updated: 2022-08-27 19:55:53

I let go of his hand slowly, tears filling my eyes again. It was hard to process that somehow, I had lost both my friends. Somehow..in this race of love...I had lost Simon and was now on the verge of losing Hazel too.

Austin sat on the bed next to me and I looked up at him. He is worth it.

"I am sorry. I know it's hard..."He brought me to lean on his shoulder. "You can cry."

I wrapped my arms around him, my hands holding his shirt in fistfuls. He was warm, and he pushed himself closer to me, so I could rest on him better. I wanted to be careful not to let hin feel my tears, but once a tear dropped, I couldn't control it anymore.

I let out those tears in torrents, unconsciously making his shirt go up, exposing his back. He didn't quite care as he held me until I was feeling better. Until I don't want to cry anymore.

"What sort of change.. do you think made Eve do that? Just yesterday...she had brought up the idea of surprising you. She even got the wine and reassured me..." I swallow
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