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Drift Apart:- Scared of Attachment
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2022-07-27 04:20:53
HarmeenHey there. Harmeen here. So I particularly wrote this chapter to be slow burn and pave the way for my characters to actually bond. I believe in slow romance that leads to something ethereally beautiful, and I hope you like the speed I am taking that. Anyway, I wrote this chapter listening to Dmeanor's the moment. It just put me in the feels for this chapter and I hope if you decide to listen to it, it will for you too. Here is to watching Austin and Hazel's story. Thanks for sticking with me.
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