He wants her!

Lucian's POV

I am Lucian Ellis, the Alpha head of the Darkmoon pack, one of the most dreaded packs in the south. I took that as a prestige as it helped keep intruders and imposters away from my territory.

The same territory I acquired by killing my parents. After years of being neglected, tortured, and abused by my father, my wolf thought to do the needful. He wiped the two of them away, but he regretted it since he took my mother who was completely innocent.

Seth, my wolf was a strong fierce wolf that even I found it difficult to control sometimes. I could say he was a wolf with anger issues, always ready to rip fleshes apart and make a meal of the blood of everyone who dared challenge us.

Once he had been calmed and that was when I was with Yvonne, my first mate. She had been my redemption, saving me from the darkness I had become so immersed in.

I loved her more than life itself. She was taken from me by the strong arms of death. A rival Alpha killed her to get to me. I succeeded in ripping him apart, but that didn't take care of the void that filled my heart.

My life was filled with anguish and my wolf turned cold due to her death. He barely spoke to me. My bipolar became worse and I became a walking ticking bomb.

Marriage and love meant the same things; vulnerability and commitment. Those were two things I didn't want to give in. I didn't want to feel more trapped than I already felt.

I wanted a breeder, not a wife, and most certainly not a mate. I didn't care about the mate bond. That was why I was able to look at Kristen and not feel anything when I knew she was my mate.

My wolf on the other hand grew vibrance for the first time in many years. He screamed out, restlessly.

“Mate! She is our mate Lucian!" He grew agitated within me, threatening to come out, so he could be with her.

I understood his desperation. He was tired of the cold and stillness. He wanted to feel something.

I, on the other hand, wasn't interested. I didn't want a second mate. The universe took Yvonne from me just to land me with this. She was pretty, but most certainly not my type.

One look at her and I was disgusted at the innocence in her eyes. She looked like the type who would want more. More wasn't something I was willing to give. She was a breeder, I was ready to leave it that way.

I didn't care about the glint I saw in her eyes upon knowing I was her mate.

“Why did you say that to her? What is wrong with you Lucian" my wolf shot at me in rage after I had diminished the girl

“Get over it Seth, I am never accepting her"

“She is so beautiful. I like her Lucian. Aren't you amazed by her? We can't continue like this. We need her. Let's get away from this darkness!" He screamed at me.

"Haven't you learned from what happened to Yvonne? We don't need her!“

"This is a gift from the moon goddess, you should accept it with gratitude!”

I stopped replying to him. I knew he wasn't going to let me hear the end of it if I continued speaking to him. I pretty much enjoyed it when he was quiet.

I thought ignoring him was to stop him from disturbing me, but he kept on going on and on for days.

He was the happiest whenever it was time for I and Kristen to have sex, but becomes angry when I would leave her without saying anything.

“You are worse than me, you know that right!" He snapped at me in rage. I felt like getting him off me and having a manly fight with him one on one.. maybe that would make him shut his mouth up.

“We don't need her. Once she has my baby, she is leaving"

“Please Lucian, don't take me away from her" he begged. Now he was sounding like a little child.

I sat on my bed as I rummaged my hand through my head, he was driving me insane.

There was a knock on the door distracting me from my thoughts. I walked to the door and opened it. One look at her and I groaned in frustration. My wolf leaped for joy, acting like a dog ready to play fetch.

“What did I say about..." She didn't let me finish before shouting

“I'm pregnant!" There was a huge smile on her face we she stared at me. Was she waiting for me to smile at her and hug her? What sort of Disney fantasy went on in her head?

“What do you want from me, a cuddle? This is your job. That is why you bloody signed the contract papers!"

The smile dropped as fear crowded her eyes. My wolf on the other hand growled at me.

I pointed my index finger at her. "The next time you think of disturbing my peace again, I'd have you chained to your room!“ I snarled and with that, I slammed the door shut.

“Apologize to her now!" My wolf roared at me.

I kept him quiet.

“If you don't, apologize to her, I'd never speak to you again"

“I'm used to it," I said unbothered.

***

"You need to visit her, she is pregnant for you” That was the first thing my wolf said to me as soon as I woke up from sleep. At that point, I pretty much wished I was wolfless. His constant taunts were enough for me to lose my mind.

“Alpha Lucian" a high-pitched voice called out, knocking on my door.

“Come in," I said reluctantly.

It was one of the pack's nurses I had assigned to take care of my breeder. She was the one I had assigned to keep me posted about the baby she was carrying and to ensure they were safe so I wouldn't have to sleep with her over again.

“She is 6 months pregnant Alpha and the baby is doing just okay" she announced.

"Very good you can leave now” That was all I needed to know.

She looked reluctant to leave and when I looked at her, she spoke.

"The babies are doing okay, but I'm afraid, she is not doing fine. She has stopped.... “

I had to cut her short there."My business is with my baby and not her. That should be yours too. You can't come here and tell me some shit about how she is feeling okay?!“ I yelled at her in anger.

"Yes Alpha Lucian" she bowed and turned to leave.

Angrily I stood up from my bed to go to the bathroom for a shower. My eyes caught something on my table and I paused at the knitted ribbon on my desk.

My anger had never left me so fast before. I picked the ribbon. It looked so much like the ribbon my mother used to make for me when I was younger. How was that possible?

The same way anger left me was the same way it came back. The ribbon only reminded me of my monstrous self who ended my parents in cold blood.

Kristen was written on a note attached to it. Without bothering to read it, I tossed it into the trash. How dare she even come into my room, I thought in anger.

“It's from our mate. Aren't you going to see what she has to say" Seth cried out? I got more frustrated. "Why can't you just let her in? I need her Lucian. I want her as a mate. Don't let her lose hope in us” he cried out like a kid

I sighed in exasperation as I walked towards the bathroom. I can't believe I ever missed this. Seth was a wolf whose mouth knew no filter. He would talk about anything and everything. Sometimes he even talked me out of sleep.

It made me wonder how such a terrifying, enormous wolf would have the mouth of a child.

The next day, there was another ribbon. I groaned in frustration walking past it. I sat on my bed, removing my boots. As usual, my wolf worried me to get it. He even asked for just a sniff of the paper. He believed since she had touched the paper, he could have her scent.

What the hell went on in his head?!

Reluctantly I stood up and walked closer to the table where she had kept it. I took the note attached to the ribbon.

In the note, she kept rambling about how her day went. What she didn't like and what she did. How the baby was doing. She also added a little quote at the bottom of the note.

“Thinking of you keeps me awake. Dreaming of you keeps me asleep. Being with you keeps me alive.”

Without thinking I tossed the note into the trash. Was she stupid or something? Couldn't she understand she wasn't wanted?

The notes continued and as much as it pissed me off, I always wanted to read it to see what nonsense quotes she wrote this time. Another reason I had to read the notes was my wolf. He always pushed me to read it because he was eager to know how her day went.

Her consistency amazed me. How was she able to keep up? A week passed and the ribbons kept coming. I kept reading them with amusement and it got to the time where I would look forward to it for me to get a laugh due to how hilarious it was.

“It's better to cry than be angry because anger hurts others while tears flow silently through the soul and cleans the heart”

That was the last note I got from her. Occasionally, I kept checking to see if there would be another note, but that was it.

3 days passed and my wolf was out of control. “We need to check up on her to see if she's okay. Maybe something is preventing her from sending the notes. Don't be heartless. At least check on her! “

I ignored all his pleas until one week passed and I didn't get any notes from her. Now I knew something was up. I wanted to make sure she was okay, but my ego was too big for me to do that. I convinced myself that I didn't need her since I had different ladies to keep my company.

It soon got to me when one week and 3 days passed.

"Have you heard from Kristen lately? “ I asked a guard who stood beside me as I ate.

There was silence and I was forced to look at him to see if he had heard me. The tense look on his face said something was wrong.

"I asked a question” I reminded and he parted his lips to speak.

"She's gone. W... We. I mean I ordered a search for her and we believed we could find her before you get to” he stuttered as he spoke.

Anger flooded me instantly as I banged my fist on the table."What?! What the fuck do you mean by that!“

"She disappeared. We.. we.“

"So what now? She's a witch that can just vanish? What bullshit are you on?!“

"I'm sorry”

"How long has she been missing?“

"A week ago” he announced.

Rage surged through me again. I got up from my seat, punched him hard in the face, and jacked him by the collar.

"The next time something like that happens, you won't bloody try to fix it yourself. You'd tell me. Am I fucking clear?" I roared in his face. My anger doubled as I remembered she was with my child.

“Yes Alpha," he said and I dropped him.

“Ready the cars, we are going to find her and for your sake, you better hope her and my baby is in good health "