Curiosity. Shame. Anger. Lust.What I was feeling was a mixture of all these emotions. My thoughts were all in a jumble. I was trying hard to understand what happened between us last night.I am an adult woman. I have never been sexually touched by a man. I was sexually aroused last night in the library and it is completely normal. There's nothing to be ashamed of. Every woman goes through that phase. It happens in their early teens. Since I was held back from all these things, I never understood my body and my needs.Alessandro is a good-looking man and the first man in my life I have been attracted to. My body reacts to him of its own accord. I am not ashamed to say that I liked it, I liked his kisses, I liked his touch and I want to feel all that again maybe even more. I wanted him to touch me down there, my core ached for his touch.I paced back and forth in my room, I needed to talk to Alessandro. I wanted to feel all that again and I want to feel his rough hands against my skin.
"I wanted to talk to you..." I whisperedHis voice darkened. "About what?""About what happened last night..."He tilted his head to the side. "And what did happen last night, Natalya?"Natalya? I was back to Natalya. I don't know I kinda liked it when he called me an angel last night. My cheeks heated up, a blush crept up my body as I looked into his bluish-grey eyes. He knew what I was talking about..."I like that..." I blurted out with a smile.I know I was being bold but I had to say it because all this frustration will kill me. I wasn't allowed to have a boyfriend, I was attracted to Alessandro and I wanted to explore my sexuality. I was an adult woman and most of the girls my age were way too experienced than me in this department."You liked what?" he questioned, amused.I was new to this, coming to terms with my feelings. I knew what I wanted but I didn't know how to tell him that without humiliating myself."Alessandro, I..." I didn't know how to express my thoughts to him,
NATALYA'S POVAlessandro’s lips stretched into a sinister smile. "My little angel has grown wings"Before I could say anything, he grabbed me by my neck and pulled me into his hard, warm body even more. He nuzzled his face into my neck. My swimwear was soaking wet and I was aware of the fact that I was ruining his perfectly ironed expensive suit but he didn't care about it at all.His teeth gently nipped my neck, my legs trembled at his little action. My body heated up, and a blush crept up my face as my core throbbed with need.My breasts pressed against his hard body and a shiver shook my body. He ran his face up and down my neck, peppering aggressive kisses and biting the skin as if he was starving.I felt his other arm around my waist and he lifted me off the ground, instinctively I wrapped my legs around his waist as he walked toward the lounge chairs. He slowly lowered me to one of the chairs and lay me on it.His body settled between my parted thighs. Then all of a sudden, the
That was the first orgasm I have ever had, and it was the most addictive thing I had ever experienced. I can get used to this..."God!" I whispered."Alessandro'', he whispered back and then hovered over me so that we were face to face, his hand still cupping my sex. "Not God... Alessandro" saying that he roughly slapped me between my legs, I yelped and closed my legs together immediately.I could feel his rock-hard erection pressing against my thigh and I wanted nothing more than to reciprocate. I slipped my hand down his hard warm chest and as I was about to touch him from over his slacks, he gripped my wrist.Confusion washed over me as he got up and adjusted his clothes. I noticed that while I was stark naked, he was still fully dressed.I swallowed and asked. "Do you not want me to?"He touched my face, softly caressing his finger across my cheek. "This was for you, Angel""For me?" I questioned and pulled my legs to my chest and covered my breasts with my hands. I wanted to plea
There were only two things in the world that I was afraid of.Any threat to the safety of my family and addiction.This is why I was trying to avoid that little temptation back at home. I knew that if I touched her once, I will be addicted.I had bigger concerns than Natalya Martinez and I couldn't think about anything but how she had looked naked as she lay in front of me, looking up at me with those "fuck me" eyes.I couldn't stop thinking about her flawless skin, there was not a single blemish on her body, she looked fucking unreal. And one thing I just couldn't get the fuck out of my mind was her taste. Now, that I know what she tastes like, I'm not sure how I will get rid of this fucking addiction.The most fucked up thing about addiction is when you realize that you are fucking addicted to something, whether it's alcohol or women, you say to yourself"This is my last drink.""This is the last I'll fucking taste her"But you know that you just can't fucking stop because addiction
I knocked on his study door and waited, it was still early, so, I know Scott won't be there. Alessandro was usually alone in the mornings. Perfectly Scott-free.A gruff come-in made its way to my ears and I flung the door open. I stilled as I saw him talking on the phone with someone. He seemed tense, he always had a dark aura surrounding him but today it seemed darker.I made my way around his desk and he rolled his chair back, slightly turning towards me. I leaned my butt against the edge of his desk and watched him as he finished up his phone call."I have made it clear many times before, Moretti"Moretti... Ugh, even the way he says people's name is beautiful.I stared at his strong hands, they were so clean, veins protruded out of them, and the nails were perfectly trimmed. Even his hands are perfect. The same perfect hands that were between my legs yesterday night gave me the most amazing feeling in the world.I don't know where I got the courage from because the next thing I di
"Anastasia Costello"I smiled. "That's a beautiful name and your dad's?"I still asked even though I knew his father's name, I wasn't going to tell him that I researched on his family."Luciano Costello""How did they meet?"He let out a dry breath and stopped whatever he was doing. He looked at me with a sense of bitterness. Was I annoying him? He then opened his desk drawer and pulled something out, he placed it on his desk and looked at me."Take it" he ordered.I got off the couch and made my way to his desk. I saw my cell phone resting on his desk, I gasped and looked between him and the phone.My lips parted, "You trust me enough now?""No, but right now I need you to stop talking, so, I can work, Natalya. Take it before I change my mind."I squealed and picked it up before he could take it away. "But can I stay in here? I won't make a sound, I promise"He gave his head a subtle shake. "Fine"I walked back to the couch and unlocked my cell phone. I saw hundreds of notifications
I made my way downstairs and went straight to the kitchen. It was empty as Alessandro has fired the entire household staff even the cleaners. That is why it was incredibly silent today. I reached for a glass from the kitchen cabinet and filled it with water. I drank the whole glass in one go and placed it on the countertop.Thinking about if I should do what I was thinking of doing.I thought I was past my reluctance when talking about my desires but apparently, I'm not. I heaved a sigh and went upstairs again, eyeing Alessandro’s bedroom door I headed towards mine.Not knowing what to do, I glanced at the nail polishes on my dresser. I sat on my bed and chose a bright red color, it made me feel bold and confident like I could just burst through his bedroom door and please him the way he did to me. I carefully put the red nail polish on my nails, the color resembled blood like the blood that gushed out of that man's body. I fanned my hands out while my nails dried, blowing on them unt
"I'm not bedding you before our wedding."She grinned. "When have you turned so old-fashioned?""Since my father wants me to give you the respect you deserve as my wife," I told her, glaring at her, letting her know that her presence wasn't fucking needed here.Her shoulders sagged, she tucked her hair behind her ears from both sides and sighed. "Do you not like me, Alessandro"I let out a breath, not this again. "I'm marrying you, aren't I?"She crossed her arms over her chest. "Not by choice! You're marrying me because it is expected of us.""Hellen, I'm in no mood to have this conversation with you right now. I just want to get some fucking rest."She glared at me and then stomped out of the room like a fucking brat she was. I sat down on my bed and held my head in my hands. My cell phone vibrated, I grabbed it and stared at the screen for a few minutes Evangeline.I picked up the call faster than I should have."Natalya?"I didn't hear her voice in return but a muffled sobbing. It
ALESSANDRO’S POVThe gunshot rang out the entire dining room. Everyone glanced at me and then diverted their gazes back to their meals not questioning me or my authority. The Russells seemed wary of my decision to kill my own men off.The truth is he had pissed me off two months ago and since then I have been trying to get my revenge. He had shown a desire to marryNatalya and that for some reason pissed me the fuck off.Leaning back, I rested a forearm on the table. Anger burned in my chest, I had to keep it in check so, I won't kill every single fucking person in here. And I really wanted to put a bullet in Paul Russell's head.Hellen's mother showed her distaste by glaring directly at me. Apparently, she did not like the idea of blood while she was peacefully eating her dinner. Why the fuck was she married to a Don then? I'm pretty sure Paul had done some pretty fucked shit in front of his family. It was the reason Hellen turned out to be a fucking walking disaster.In all honestly
It had been hours and they still weren't tired. I was tired, way too tired. I didn't have the energy to keep my eyes open anymore but couldn't close them. If I did they would scream at me, and slap me around.My eyelids felt heavy, I felt dizzy, and I could not hold my eyes open. I just couldn't... Slowly my eyes closed of their own accord. I tried, I tried so hard to keep them open but couldn't."OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES, BITCH"A stinging slap against my swollen, bloodied cheek. My teeth hurt, my jaw hurt, my ears were ringing, and every part of my body felt tender, it was bruised, busted, and bleeding. I have never experienced this much pain in my life before."I don't h-have the k-key..." I whispered on the verge of passing out.Another slap to my face.And then another."You don't get to pass out on us!" he snarled.His voice turned heavier, I tried to keep my eyes open but in the end, I lost the battle and succumbed to the darkness.I woke up and saw the empty cell. The men had fi
For the past hour, I have lain in my bed trying to make sense of what happened between Scott and me. Was it all there was to his friendship? Is that what he wanted all along? I couldn't believe it, I refused to believe that it was the only thing Scott wanted, from the past few weeks our relationship had been nothing but platonic.He never showed any interest in me, he treated me like you would treat your best friend.I picked up my cell phone from the nightstand and scrolled to his number. I contemplated if I should call him or not.As I was about to click on his number, a loud clattering sound from downstairs fell on my ears. I shot up from my bed, there was no one else in the house except for me. All of the household staff had gone home, maybe it was one of the guards.I swallowed as a feeling of unease crept up, I felt heavy footsteps coming upstairs. This doesn't feel right. Scared out of my wits, I clicked on Scott's number, it rang and rang but he didn't pick up. I again tried c
A MONTH HAD PASSED in a blink of an eye. I settled into my new life quite well. Scott regularly came to check up on me and the house staff. I now had a driver, a cook, and security guards by the gates. Sometimes I felt like he was the one pulling everyone's string but then I would shake that thought away.This is a Alessandro Costello free zone.I had grown closer to Scott, he had been nothing but helpful, yes, he had his annoying moments but other than that, I was glad that I moved back to my place. Sabrina had asked for forgiveness way too many times and I had forgiven her. If it wasn't for her I still might be stuck in that life... with him.I will never accept the fact that a tiny, little part of me missed him.I was trying to learn how to cook and right now I was busy preparing a birthday dinner for Scott. My cook was a middle-aged woman named Eleonora, she was Italian but knew how to make all types of cuisine. She was teaching me how to cook and right now she was the one helping
I scrubbed it again and again and again but it just won't get cleaned. The stubborn bloodstains were starting to get on my nerves.I didn't go to sleep last night. I couldn't, I kept thinking and thinking and thinking about so many things, so, now here I was. Cleaning. I decided to tidy up the house myself. And for the last hour, I have been trying to remove the bloodstain from the floor.Ugh!Annoyedly, I threw the washcloth onto the stain and held my head in my hands. "I hate this...""Woah!" Scott strolled down the stairs, looking at me with confused eyes. "What the fuck are you doing?""Cleaning..." I mumbledHe frowned. "Why?""Because..." I heaved a sigh. "I couldn't sleep... I just wanted to do something and turns out I suck at cleaning!"His eyes lit up with amusement and he laughed "Alessandro has sent me your bank details, I'll hire a team of cleaners to take care of this, replace the furniture and I think it's time I buy a new cell phone."Hearing his name did something to
I saw a deep frown etched on Alessandro’s forehead. He brushed two of his fingers against his lips quite aggressively. "I have no use of these things, you can take them, they are yours anyway""No, thank you, Don Alessandro. I don't want anything of yours"He picked up something from his desk and threw it at the wall behind me. I didn't flinch, I didn't jump. I just sat there with indifference."What the fuck do you want?"You...A tiny voice echoed in my head. I had no idea where that thought had come from. I shook my head and looked back down at my lap.He doesn't want me the way I want him. He is now an engaged man. He wants her... the woman who wore his ring.He said that little girls like me fall in love and I had denied it, told him that I won't but what I didn't know was that little crush I had on him since I got here, blossomed into something else way before he ever touched my body."I want to go back to my home and I never want to see you again"He smiled but it wasn't a norm
"I'll be outside, go on..." Scott announced once we reached Nikolai's home.I fiddled with my fingers resting on my lap. Nervousness crept up from the pit of my belly, I didn't want to see him, face him or talk to him after what he had done. I wanted to get away from him and never see his face again.His words resonated in my mind. His shouts, his monstrous dark eyes."JUST STOP WITH YOUR FUCKING ALESSANDRO BULLSHIT! CALL ME DON ALESSANDRO LIKE EVERYONE ELSE! FUCKING GIVE ME THE RESPECT A DON IS ENTITLED TO"A shiver ran down my spine and I chewed on my bottom lips to keep the tears at bay."You weren't saying that three nights ago when begged me to fuck you like the whore you are"He humiliated me, insulted me, and then left me alone for a week just to get engaged to some other woman. The woman he loved. That is why he didn't want me in the first place and I was too dense, too stupid to throw myself at him like that.I mustered up some courage and nodded at Scott before I finally ste
"Your father is asking for you," Scott said to Alessandro.I breathed out in relief as I saw Alessandro' walking past me and towards Scott. He stopped before him and said something to him under his breath. Scott nodded and responded to his words before Alessandro walked back toward the hall."Scott, can you please drop me off at my parent's place," I asked him nicely. I didn't have any other option and he and Sabrina were the only two people I knew here. I was not going to ask Sabrina as she had lied to me and I was furious at her for that.He blew out a breath. "Sweet cheeks, we will go to Alessandro's home first and then I'll take you anywhere you want to go, alright?"I stared at him. He was as bad as Alessandro, I didn't trust him, and the fact that he had suddenly started to treat me better made me even more cautious of him. He and I have never seen eye to eye since the day we met. There was a reason behind the sudden change in his demeanor, I needed to know what it was but right