Chapter 4: Yin and Yang

BAELA 

"Please..." I begged, suffocating.

"Why are you here?!" I heard his voice in rage ask.

"For you..." I said, almost with my last breath.

I couldn't see his eyes in the dark, as mine started to close and then I felt my feet drop to the floor before collapsing into his chest and arms. 

He had decided to let go of me but I almost passed out. I coughed harder than I have ever had in my entire life and I was also struggling to catch my breath at the same time. It took me several minutes before I regained my breath and strength.

"You almost strangled me to death?" 

I was surprised and it came out like a question. I was still leaning onto his chest, my head resting close to his heart.

"For you". He whispered. His voice no longer filled with rage.

He had just quoted the last thing I said and that was why I had come here. We were still together in the dark and it felt cosy but I needed to look into his beautiful eyes. I needed to peer into his soul.

"I want to be certain it is really you before I tell you what I meant". I urged him, my head no longer resting on his chest. I knew it was him quite alright, I knew his touch and his smell after he had carried me all the way back to my pack and now I knew the rhythm of his heartbeat too.

He didn't hesitate, as he led me with a few steps back into the moonlight. This was where I wanted us to be, my clothed bosom resting on his abdomen as I looked up at him.

Being so close to him and after my near death experience made me slightly delusional. I could feel almost every barrier I had in me broken loose.

"I came FOR YOU..." I admitted, looking at him before looking away quickly. His eyes were beautiful and reassuring but his gaze didn't flinch and I had to look away.

My head was back on his chest listening to his heartbeat but the rhythm didn't change. It meant he wasn't alarmed by what I said, which I think was a good thing.

"I was worried about you...I know you said you don't like this place and I was worried you might be bored alone, that you might leave this place..." I revealed. It was how I felt and a lot about it was true.

"I was scared you had left when I came in and I couldn't find you". 

I almost felt like shedding tears, as I remembered how my heart sank, not seeing him as I walked into his house.

"You shouldn't be too worried about me...I can manage on my own". I heard him say coldly to me again.

I couldn't believe he had changed his tone towards me so quickly when I was being vulnerable with him.

"No, I have to be. You are like the only person in the world I can talk to now after my parents!" I protested. I didn't want him to shut me out.

"That can't be true..." He said, as he pulled away from me into the dark. I think he loved it better in the dark while I loved the moonlight. It was a sharp contrast between us, like yin and yang but that meant we were a perfect complement.

"You have your parents and your pack to talk too". He said, countering me.

"You don't come out much during the day, that is why you do not yet know!"

"I am being shunned after the death of my sister, EVERYBODY blames me for her death!" I revealed painfully. 

It was true and I hated myself for it. I blamed myself EVERYDAY! My parents' love so far, was a consolation for me.

"I didn't know that". He said, stepping out of the dark into the moonlight once more. 

"That's why you wear a cloak here all the time". He pointed out. 

"Yes!" I was so glad he had finally understood I was telling the truth.

"I wish you can stay in the castle with me and my parents. It would make my life a whole lot easier". I suggested. 

"I know what you mean but you don't know me a whole lot". 

"Your parents are wise to put me here until after the arena games and they know who I am". He said, as he walked past me towards the window of the living room.

"I do know you...I do". 

"I know you risked your life for me, when you shouldn't have". 

"A total stranger you knew nothing about but you carried me all the way back to my pack along with my deceased sister".

"You have a kind heart Abbadon...this I know for sure!" I said, as I walked and stood beside him at the window.

"So beautiful!" I heard Abbadon say, as my heart skipped a beat.

"Do you really mean that?!" I asked, as I blushed. I looked away at my feet, I wasn't expecting a lovely compliment from him so soon. 

"Yes, the moon is beautiful tonight".

"What?" I thought, taken aback. Did I just hear him say the moon was beautiful tonight? And I thought he was referring to me.

"It is such a shame under its charming light, one could believe almost anything". He said, as he stepped away from the moonlight, once again into the dark.

I was confused. I knew he had his inner demons but why was he trying to paint everything about him as black.

"What I said is true Abbadon. I could never tell you a lie!" I said, as I hurried behind him into the dark. I couldn't see him anymore as I bumped into his chest with my head again.

It didn't hurt though but I cried out nonetheless.

"Ouch! My head!" I wanted him to pet and console me.

"It doesn't really hurt that bad". He said, listening to my theatrics.

"It does, my forehead especially". I said, pouting my lips. 

I knew it was dark and he probably couldn't see what I was doing but I was in self pity.

"You shouldn't pout". He said to my surprise.  

I was surprised but I guess I shouldn't be. He had fully transformed as a werewolf and as such could see in the dark. Maybe that was why he loved the dark so much compared to me.

I could feel his hand on my forehead, as he placed it on it. He kept it there for a while before withdrawing his hand away. 

I didn't want him to stop, I was beginning to enjoy his touch, although I didn't want to make it seem too obvious.

"I should put on a shirt and take you back to the castle. You have my word, I will be here when you return tomorrow". He said. 

His voice was still cold but he was someone that rarely made a promise and when he did, he was bound by his word. I was glad he would stay another day with us but my goal was to make him stay forever.

"I am sorry but I can't go back tonight. The guard duty would have doubled by this time of the night and how do I explain, I sneaked out of the castle to come here?...it would only put me in more trouble". I said. 

I was looking up at where he was, although I could not see his face or make out his figure.

I listened, to hear his objection but I heard nothing. Everywhere was dead silent for a few seconds and I began to doubt if he was still standing there in the dark.

"Abbadon, are you still there?" I was worried at his silence and then out from the blues, he swept me off my feet, into his arms.

I could feel the safety of being in his arms as he walked. He was taking me somewhere I had no idea of, with my eyes closed.

I felt him stop, as my head rested on his shoulder close to his face.

"Where are we? Why did you stop?" I inquired. The house had four windows but all were shut except for one. So I couldn't tell where I was in the dark.

"You are Beta Lorgan's daughter and tonight you are my guest". He said, as my back was laid gently against a soft bed. It was apparent to me then that he had carried me into his bedroom and laid me on his bed. 

I didn't know what he planned to do next with me but whatever it was I was going to indulge him. I had my own sexual cravings too, desires I had had to suppress for so long.

"I was lying down when you came in unannounced". I heard him say, as he laid down on the bed beside me.

I loved it. The thought of him lying next to me got me all excited and I could feel my breathing and heartbeat increase. We were only separated by a few inches, even though I couldn't see the distance in the dark. I was anxious as I waited for his next move but he did nothing, it also didn't help that the bed had no blanket and I loved to sleep covered up. 

I waited some more but nothing still happened.

"Do you have a blanket? I don't tolerate the cold so well at night". I said.

"No, I don't but I'll help". He said, as he wrapped his arms around me.

I felt warm and moaned instinctively from his body heat. I needed more of his warmth, as I inched closer to him and my bosom and his chest were glued together to each other. 

"I feel much better now, although my arms and legs are still cold". I said, I could feel his breath close to my face and mine close to his. I had no solution for my cold arms and limbs. I was already content with the way we were.

"You can wrap your arms and legs around me". He said.

How much closer could we get? This was as close as it gets. It made me smile and I knew he might have seen my face in the dark. I was glad he liked me lying so close to him. What a sharp contrast our meeting in the afternoon was with our meeting tonight!

I did as I was told, wrapping my arms around him, and lingering with my hands towards his back and neck while he took hold of my thigh and wrapped it himself around his abdomen and back. I knew we weren't going to get intimate tonight. He didn't want to and I was glad we could still share this intimate moment without sex. 

It was long before I fell into a deep sleep from his warmth as my thoughts ran wild to his touch...