Chapter 80

I have no thoughts. I feel a feeling - probably - but it's too hard for me to describe, extending beyond words and expressions.

Xavier is kissing me, and I never thought it would be such a pleasant day.... good.

Good is a pretty overused term, used to explain tons of different emotions and placed in many contexts, but in this case the word should be considered as a simple placeholder for a reality so indefinable that I wish it would last forever. Something so strange and beautiful loses its impact through communication, which is true for many things, and can only be delivered through experience.

It's almost like the time I was a little girl and my parents took me to the beach for the first and last time in my life. I remember standing there, my feet sinking into the pure white sand, marveling at the magnificence that surrounded me. I could feel the hint of salt on my tongue, the wind caressing my little body. The sun cast its glow over me, making me feel like an angel bathed in holy l