*Estelle*Gabe was smirking triumphantly at me, and I couldn't think of a way to react. The knowing look in his eyes made me feel exposed. I wanted to hide, but I couldn't move. "Look me in the eye and tell me not to touch you," Gabe repeated. I opened my mouth, but to my mortification, all that came out was a breathy whine. "You can't, can you?" he said victoriously. "Because you want me to touch you. You want it so much it scares you." "That's not true," I said shakily. Every part of me was telling him that I was lying. My breath was ragged, my heart was thundering in my chest, and my face was flushed. The smell of cedarwood was overpowering. I had to bite my lip to keep myself from whimpering. He hadn't even touched me yet. Just his proximity was enough to make me weak. "If it's not true, then just say the words," he said again. I could feel his body heat and it made me feel too warm. I had enough self-control not to move, not to close the distance between
*Estelle* Gabe left me waiting around his house all day. I guess Val was serious when he said that the Alpha was busy. Eventually, Val had found me flipping through books in the library and offered to take me back to the inn for the night. "Tell me about the role of the Luna," I said as we walked along. I wanted to understand why Isolde was convinced that I was trying to steal that position from her. "It's quite important," he said. "She doesn't lead the way the Alpha does, but there are many decisions that are entirely her domain.""That does sound important," I said quietly. He nodded and continued, "part of the Luna's job is to help care for the pack's children. This means that if the worst happened and a child is orphaned, it falls to the Luna to find that child a stable home. Now, this is a rare occurrence, but it has become an issue. After we were attacked nearly twenty years ago, many families were fractured."I looked over at him and saw the sadness in his ey
*Estelle* I stood frozen in the doorway, trying to process what I had just heard. In just one day, the pack had learned about my arrival and decided that they didn't want me. The man who had helped raise Gabe was telling him to send me away and that I wasn't good enough. All of this, even though we were supposed to be mates. I was used to rejection, but this was beyond the pale. Charles was looking at Gabe sympathetically, but his expression seemed insincere to me. Gabe hadn't moved since Charles spoke. His eyes were expressionlessly fixed on Charles, as if he couldn't react. Or maybe he was waiting for something more to happen. My wolf was in distress. I could picture her pacing anxiously and a soft, almost pitiful whine was echoing in my mind. That side of me couldn't stand the threat of losing its mate. It was amplifying the shock and hurt that I was feeling, which made it nearly impossible for me to keep a handle on my emotions. My eyes were watering already. "I know th
*Estelle*"Estelle? Where are you going?" I paused, despite myself. It was Val's voice. I should have pretended I hadn't heard him, but it was too late now. The smile fell from his face as he approached me. "What?" I asked hoarsely. I wiped uselessly at my eyes and tried to compose myself. "What happened?" he asked. I threw my hands up helplessly and let out a humorless laugh. "Gabe." "What happened now?" Val seemed equal parts concerned and annoyed. "He threatened to keep me locked in my room if I tried to leave," I sniffled and hated myself for how pathetic it sounded. "Why won't he just let me leave?" "Why did he say that?" Val asked. "He wouldn't make that threat unprompted.""According to Charles, the pack doesn't want me as their Luna. He told Gabe to reject me. I said if that was the case, I should just go home. If I'm not wanted here, then there's no reason for me to stay," I explained. "Charles said that? He used the word reject?" The tone of Val
*Estelle*The past few weeks had been better than I'd expected. Life in the village was slow-paced and peaceful. I loved walking along the streets in the evening. I could stargaze and breathe the cool, fresh forest air and never have to worry about who might be walking behind me or what would happen if I took a wrong turn. It was a peace I'd never felt in my life. Mama Iida was great company too. We'd started spending our evenings together playing Gin Rummy or Crazy Eights while she told me stories about the pack. I learned so much more about the intricacies of pack life from her than I could have from anyone else. She had stories about all of the families in the village, including Gabe's. She told me all about his father, the previous Alpha. By all accounts, he was a friendly, patient man. I felt bad for Gabe for having lost him so young. I couldn't help but wonder how much of his cold exterior was because of that loss. She also told me about Charles. He had been close frie
*Estelle* I was either paranoid, or people were still talking about me. It had been two days since Gabe returned from his trip. Since then, every time I stepped outside, I felt like I was being watched. I caught people whispering or pointing at me. Sometimes, they just glared as I walked by. I wracked my brain but couldn't think of anything I'd done that might have offended anyone or upset the pack like this. I wanted to talk to Gabe about it, but I was afraid he'd think I was being dramatic. Things hadn't exactly been sunshine and rainbows between us. Sure, we were getting along better, but that was because we had a tentative agreement about my staying. I had an out, at least in theory. He could always change his mind and refuse to let me leave. If it came to that, I'd find a way out, but it was pointless to dwell on it now. I tried to stay away from the main house during the day because Gabe was always working. He'd get irritated if I was underfoot. But he was also irrita
*Estelle*I was so happy to attend the craft fair. This was going to be my chance to get to know people in the pack and for them to get to know the real me. The rumors had spread so quickly, and I really didn't blame the pack for that. If they didn't know me, how could they trust me? This was going to be the best way to fight back against the rumors Isolde was spreading. After all, she wanted to be Luna, and she had already laid the groundwork for that. She had a head start, so the best option for me was getting out there and being with the people of the pack.I was a stranger. It was clear why people would choose her over me. I needed to change that. "Hello, miss," said the woman who had invited me. She looked much calmer than the last time I'd seen her. "Oh, please call me Estelle," I said. "Estelle," she repeated. "I'm Farah. I don't think I told you that before. Thank you for coming.""I'm happy to be here," I said. "This all looks fantastic." I motioned around us
*Estelle* I think that I had some kind of panic attack. Once I'd gotten free of the crowd, my rational mind had all but shut down. I ran and let my wolf guide me. By the time I started to calm down, I was hopelessly lost. I'd come to with my dress clutched in my hand and dragging in the dust. I'd dressed quickly and tried to make myself look somewhat presentable. I eventually found a trail, which I followed, to a road that led me to a town. It was a small, quiet place without much going on. The streets were so empty that at first, I thought the place was abandoned. Eventually, I came across a motel and was relieved to find a small, frail-looking man with a beard sitting behind the counter. I was sweaty and my face was splotchy from crying. I did my best to sound normal, but I could tell by the concerned look on his face that he wasn't buying it. It was obvious I had run from something. I swore he just took pity on me because he let me check in despite not having the mon
*Estelle* The scent of herbs and smoke was strong in the dimly lit room. Edwyna had left me alone in the small ritual room. I had flowers woven in my hair and I was dressed in an elaborate embroidered white gown. I was sitting cross-legged in the center of the room and staring at a candle as it flickered. I was supposed to pick a spot to look at and clear my mind. Edwyna assured me that a vision would come, but she wasn't able to tell me how long it would take. I had no idea how long I'd been sitting in here. I could hear that the feast in the town square was in full swing. The sound of music and laughter was muffled through the walls, but it was present. I loved hearing the pack celebrating. Their joy made me proud. It wasn't as though all of our problems were over. There were still mysteries that haunted us. There were fears that wouldn't be easy to assuage. Now that we knew the Bear Lake pack had survived in the form of the Bear Island settlement, many in the pack were u
*Estelle* "Are you sure you're feeling better?" Lucky asked. She looked skeptical as she pulled the stethoscope away from my chest. It had been nearly two weeks since the day Charles was banished. It was strange to think of how much everything had changed in that time. I was finally feeling better and Gabe had brought me to Lucky for one more check-up. He was hesitant to believe that the danger had really passed. I didn't really blame him, but I couldn't help but tease him for the overprotective and doting way he'd cared for me. "I'm not at 100%," I said. "But I do feel much better." "Alright," she said with a sigh. "Then you're free to go with no further restrictions. If you notice any heart palpitations or weakness, you are to tell me right away," she said sternly. "Yes, ma'am," I said with a laugh. "Thank you, Lucky." I turned to Gabe and smiled. "You hear that?" "I heard," he said with an eye roll. "So you'll have to stop hovering over me like I'm some Vict
*Estelle* I had been struggling to remain conscious when Giles had rushed me to the examination table, so I didn't remember much of what happened. My heart was beating slowly and it felt like I couldn't get a full breath. Lucky had rushed to my side, and I'd felt the punch of a needle being administered to my chest. I know that it was adrenaline because Lucky told me later. It had burned, and the way my heart had sped up was alarming. I thought that I was going to die. Thanks to Lucky, I survived the poison. She was truly a miracle worker. The knife was going to leave me with a scar, but it was a small price to pay for protecting Gabe. I had to stay with the healers for a couple of days before I was allowed to go home with Gabe. It was a little surreal being stuck in the bed beside Charles. He'd been unconscious for the most part, but it was still uncomfortable. Giles had made the decision to amputate Charles's right arm above the elbow. Gabe had crushed and splintere
*Gabe* The smell of Estelle's blood filled the air, and it was all that I could sense. I was frozen in shock and fear as I watched her lift her head and stare at Charles. I'd only looked away for a moment. It was a novice mistake. I knew better than to take my eyes off an opponent in a fight. "You look just like your mother," Charles said. He was looking at Estelle like she was garbage, like it wasn't worth the time it was taking him to kill her. It filled me with a rage I'd never felt before. He yanked the dagger out and Estelle gasped softly and put her hand over the wound. "But you're going to die like your father!" He raised the dagger to strike her again. The world went still around me. My heart was hammering into my ribs. The taste of copper was stinging my tongue. Estelle's breathing was all that I could hear, and I could smell the fear that overtook her. I would not lose my mate. I jumped at Charles and sunk my teeth into his arm. His dagger clattered to the g
*Estelle* I watched Gabe run out onto the street, helpless to stop him. The prick of the needle in Lucky's hand brought me back to the moment. Val needed me right now. As soon as I was able, I would go after Gabe. I could hear shouting from outside. It was impossible to know what it was about. So much had just happened. I looked at Lucky. She was completely concentrated on what she was doing. Being able to help Val when he was in this state must have been comforting and terrifying. I couldn't imagine the fear and pressure she was feeling. "Val," she said. "Keep your eyes on me, sweetie." "Where else would they be?" he asked weakly. Lucky smiled at him, but I could tell it was forced. Val looked so weak. It was terrible to see him like this. "Thank you," I said softly. It probably wasn't appropriate given the situation, but I had to let him know that I was grateful for what he'd done. Val looked at me and nodded. "I'm glad that I was able to get some answers." He la
*Val* After going over more details and documentation with Astra, I had a much clearer picture of the tragedy that had unfolded. I had left Bear Island with a promise to return. I had left Astra with the few documents I'd brought with me and promised to bring more. As I'd thought, they had very few records remaining. She'd asked me not to pass through the old village on my way out. It was treated as a memorial for those who had died in the battle. The same men rowed me back across the water. They seemed much less tense this time, and the taller man shook my hand when I disembarked. I secured my bag around my shoulders and shifted. It was a long run home, but I needed to get there soon. Lucky was going to be furious with me for being late to meet her parents. Despite the fact that I hadn't slept, I was making good time. The sun was still low in the sky and I was halfway home already. I considered taking a break, but I decided against it. The forest had been calm all morning,
*Gabe* Estelle had trouble getting back to sleep after her conversation with Edwyna. We managed a couple of hours before I had to be up for feast preparations. The children at the school were entertaining our guests for now. I was fielding questions and finalizing the plan for tonight, but I was having a hard time focusing. Val still hadn't returned and neither had Charles. I tried not to think about the worst that could happen to them. I regretted not going after Val myself every second that he was gone. Lucky was holding up incredibly well. She was a strong woman, but I knew that she was scared. She'd told her parents that Val had to take care of a last-minute issue. Being the Beta is a big responsibility; I think her father was impressed, though he tried to hide it. Estelle was with Edwyna, discussing her vision in detail now that she was calmer. I didn't know if she would be able to identify the traitor. Nearly twenty years had passed since the night her visions took pl
*Estelle* The concrete had injured my paws, but I couldn't stop running. He was still following me. The city wasn't far now; my only hope was to lose him there. My body was seized by a muscle spasm and I stumbled. I lay on my side, shocked by the bizarre sensation that had hit me. Realization came over me slowly and with it, came horror. The sensation hit again and I knew; I was going into labor. I got to my feet and ran. The contractions were sporadic and slowed me down each time they hit, but I pushed through them and kept running. I would not let him catch me. I would not let my baby be hurt. There were houses around me, but I didn't stop moving. I shifted to my human form as I continued to run forward. I could only pray that someone would see me and intervene. My hands and feet were bloody and I held my stomach as I ran. I was off-balance in this form, but I was so afraid a human would shoot me if they saw a wolf in their neighborhood. I could feel my baby kicking a
*Val* Surprisingly, I made better time than I expected on my run to Bear Lake. It was most likely because of the sense of urgency that took a hold of me, but I still couldn't help but be impressed with myself. When I knew that I was close to the old village, I shifted out of my wolf form. I took the canvas bag from around my shoulders and quickly dressed. I didn't smell anyone nearby, but there were so many wildflowers around that I didn't trust my sense of smell. I took a moment to steel my nerves and then continued into the village. It certainly seemed to be abandoned. The houses were overgrown with moss and vines, and most of the wooden features, like roofs and windows, were beginning to rot. It was eerie, like stepping into a ghost town. I didn't remember the layout of the village very well, since I had only visited a few times when I was a kid. I headed in the direction that I thought the pack house was in. I didn't have high hopes that I would find many intact records, b