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My mouth dropped open as Levi’s words registered. I closed and opened my mouth again, but nothing came out. I couldn’t form the words and I couldn’t even find a single line of thought that would help me figure out what I wanted to say. Not only was this the first time I had been with a man by choice but I’d taken something extremely large inside of me and they were expecting me to go again? There was no way.

Even as I thought the words, my insides clenched at the thought of finally being with Levi. I’d known him all my life but recently our friendship had blossomed and grown into something else entirely. We had teetered along the edge of actually fulfilling the act of making love but we’d never gone all the way. My body craved him more than I needed the air in my lungs. I wanted nothing more than for Levi to take me, to feel what he wanted to do to me, to see what it would be like to be wrapped around him. My body hummed with anticipation. I’d stopped lying to myself a few days ago an